DAY 4 and DAY 5 (Pt. 1)

Night of Day 3...

You return to your hotel room after that.  Your roommate is already there, looking at something on her laptop. You feel as if you're on cloud nine. As if you just landed in heaven. As if all your dreams came true, but also as if you're on the verge of insanity. It's a strange feeling you can't seem to describe.  Your friend looks up at you as you walk in.  It looks like she wants to tell you something, but seeing the silly grin on your face, she delays the news.  "What happened?" She asks you. "You look lovestruck." But you can tell that she already knows what happened.

"I..am. I guess." 

She opens her mouth. Then closes it again. But you know your friends well; she doesn't want to spoil your happiness. She's going to leave the news for later. Yet you know that you can't let your friends do that anymore. You can be strong. "What is it?" You ask her.

She looks you in the eyes, sees your determination, and turns her laptop screen towards you. You see the familiar blue of the Tumblr screen. "You might want to see this." 

You walk closer to the screen, dropping your bag on the bed as you go.  It's a fantaken photo of Kai outside of SM. Kai...holding your hand. The caption says "Kai outside of SM building...WITH A GIRL." The tags on the picture say things like: "WHO IS THIS???" and "KAI, WHAT'RE YOU DOING?" and "KAI'S MINE!!!!!!!"

You feel very fragile for a second. But not affected. You look at your friend and say, "These things don't matter anymore." You give her your strongest smile. And she smiles back.

"You're strong. I know it. And this isn't going to change anything, got it? Because Kai's yours." 

Your smile grows even wider. "I sure hope so."

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DAY 4

He had said so. He had promised so. You believe him with all your heart. You trust him. So you wait in front of the restaurant where he had told you that you two would eat lunch. 

A date. A real date. You thought to yourself with a little smile on your face.

Except that half an hour passed. And no Kai. You check your phone, but find that it's out of batteries. Probably not a good thing. But you keep waiting anyway. He has to show up. 

It starts to rain a little. Then it gets heavier. You pull out an umbrella that you had packed when your friend warned you that it might rain. But you take it out very slowly.  You had expected him to show up, yet he hadn't. This makes you feel so heavy. So slow. You let a few drops fall onto your face. And then you raise the umbrella. 

You wait for hours.

At 6 PM, you return to the hotel feeling completely and utterly defeated.  Your friend looks at you with shock when you walk in and says, "Oh my gosh, what happened? Are you okay?"  You imagine that you must look horrible right now; hair wet, dull eyes, depressed look. 

"He didn't come."

"What!?" 

And then you collapsed on the bed.

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NIGHT OF DAY 4

You woke up in the middle of the night, crying. Tears spilling out silently.  And that's when you realize that you really love Kai.

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DAY 5

You wake up late in the morning. You feel dizzy and heavy. As you get up, you find that it's hard to walk straight. Your roommate is gone. There's a note on the table:

"I checked your tempurature and you have a high fever so please stay in the hotel, sleep lots, and drink lots of water, ok~ Tell me about what happened yesterday when we get back. Take care of yourself!"

You feel a little lighter. Something about knowing that your friend cares about you this much is so reassuring. You see that you're still wearing the clothes you were wearing yesterday and you quickly change into more comfortable clothes.  But even that lightness isn't enough. An awful feeling suddenly washed over you and you sat down on the bed. 

Ugh, need to sleep... Even your thought process isn't cooperating with you. You slowly lie down and fall asleep very quickly...

HOURS LATER...

You feel so warm. Too warm. When had you pulled all the blankets over yourself? Your face is hot and that's when you know your friend was right. Your fever is really bad. But your forehead feels cold. Your eyes slowly open up, but your vision is still blurry from sleep. It's evening time, a lamp is turned on in the corner of the room. There's someone sitting on the bed with their hand on your forehead. It's definitely not one of your roommates, not even female. You start to freak out a little.

But it's just Kai.

You want to yell. You want to say something, anything. But you can't. Your throat is in too much pain. He looks at you in his eyes, his expression is saddening and worried. "I'm sorry." He says. "S..sorry for letting myself in. Your roommate let me in. She's in your friends' room right now, really."

"Where were you?" Your eyes start to sting. You've cried enough in the past few weeks, you try to stop yourself. 

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Sorry." His voice cracks a little. "There was a concert. I forgot about it. Completely. After finally telling you, I forgot everything. The whole time, I was worrying. Please. I'm so sorry. What can I do..to..."  He looks away, gets up, and walks to the bathroom. A minute later, he brings over a small folded towel and puts it on your forehead. It's cold and wet. "Let me take care of you. I'm so sorry."

"Stop saying sorry." Your throat is so dry, but you croak out the words.  

"I never wanted to leave you." He puts his forehead on the cold towel. He's so close. He's whispering now. "I never did. I never want to again."

"Then stay."

His eyes widen just a little bit. He puts up a finger as if to say wait one second. He leaves the hotel room very quietly. You don't even need to calm down. You're really sick; it numbs your emotions. He comes back inside and turns on all the lights in the room. "I'll get food and water. You need to eat.  And I'll stay. Until you get well."

Then he looks you in the eyes with a little smile. The he says, "And I'll be good."

You're glad he can't tell you're blushing since your face is already red from the fever. 

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NOTES FROM THE AUTHOR A.K.A. MEEEEE: Sorry, it's a bit of a weak ending, right? And I'm sorry my updates aren't as fast as probably a lot of other writers on Wattpad are >< I actually got sick really recently and I can't think straight when I'm sick and I don't want you to read crap so I hope you like it~ :) Thank you!!!!!!!