Chapter 14 - Anastasia

I didn't need time to grieve my relationship with Matt. We've been drifting apart for a while, and I think that his absence after my mother's death is what made me lose feelings for him completely. Even when I returned from New York, I didn't feel anything when I saw him. I didn't miss him, I didn't need him. He was just there. I actually feel bad for not feeling bad about it.

Fortunately, Matt was kind enough to give me our apartment for the time being. It's actually his, but he knows I have nowhere else to go so he is staying with his dad until I find another place to move out to. But the truth is I spend most of my time in the hospital anyway. It is the only motivation I have to stay away from alcohol.

"Morgan!" Sloan speaks up as he slides besides me at the nurses station

"What can I do for you, Dr. Sloan?" I ask, keeping my eyes on the chart I'm currently filling up

"I heard your engagement with Dickson broke off..." he mentions

"And?" I throw him a killer look, knowing exactly the kind of man-whore he is

"And there is a suited up guy looking for you at the front" he reveals.

Only one guy comes to mind.

"What?!" I whisper yell.

"I'm impressed" he smiles

"Impressed?"

"Yeah, you work fast. Good for you"

"Of course, what else were YOU gonna say..." I sigh

"Hey, I don't go around sleeping with everyone" he objects

"...anymore" I add

"I have ethics"

"Did you developed them before or after you slept with your best friend's wife?" I wonder

"After" he shrugs. "Come on, don't beat around the bush. Who's the guy?"

"I don't know" I lie.

"We'll see about that..." he points behind me

"Anastasia..." Harvey's velvet voice causes a wave of goosebumps to run down my back.

Sloan smiles.

I clear my throat and turn around. "Harvey..." I breathe out.

He leans over the desk of the nurse's station in his sharp suit. I'm really not in the right place for this.

"I see that news travel fast" I mention

"They do" he confirms. "Hardman was on his way here, but I managed to keep him in New York. Actually, Donna did. I just caught him at the airport" he reveals

"Well, thank you for that. But what are you doing here?" I ask

"I'm here to not avoid making the same mistake twice" he answers

"Mistake?"

"Letting you go" he states.

My heart flutters.

"Harvey, this is not the place to do this. People are staring" I notice

"That's because we are both extremely gorgeous" he smirks.

Sloan chuckles by my side like he liked the joke. I kick him from under the desk.

"Ok, I get it" Harvey nods. "But I'll stay around for a couple of days and I would like for us to have a chance to talk; really talk" he says and places in front of me a card with his hotel and room number.

He turns to Sloan. "Is she working tonight?" he asks him

"No, she certainly isn't" he answers immediately.

"Great. I'll be waiting for you at the hotel's bar" he tells me.

I lean over, "What makes you so sure I'll show up?" I wonder

"You still owe me a date" he mentions

"Since when?" I chuckle

"Since 14 years ago, after my email. And I will draft a new updated one if I have to".

I nod. "I'll think about it" I reply

"Don't think too long. The last thing I want to be is another thing you have to overthink about" he admits. "Don't stress about it, ok? I'm here for you, for whatever you need"

"Ok" I reply.

"Ok" he repeats with a smile.

He stares into my eyes for a moment. My heart races like never before. There is no need for words.

"I'll see you later, sugar" he says with that stupid smirk across his face and then leaves.

I breathe out as soon as he is out of earshot. I try to regulate my heart rate.

"You don't know him, huh?" Sloan asks

"Shut up, Mark. You shouldn't have told him I have tonight off" I say

"No, no. I like him" he replies

"Then date him yourself"

"He didn't say anything about dating. He said he is here for whatever you need" he teases.

"I just broke up with Matt" I remind him

"That's what rebounds are for. In order to move on, you have to leave the old things behind and try new ones"

"Is that why you've slept with every nurse around here?" I wonder

"Yes, deep down I'm sensitive and heartbroken" he acts.

I roll my eyes.

"Get out there and spread your legs, Morgan"

"This was an incredibly inappropriate comment"

"Try a rebound" he insists, "And if it doesn't do the trick to get your mind off and have fun for a night, then report me to HR" he states.

A rebound... Easier said than done.

My relationship with Harvey is... complicated. A rebound with him is going to be even more complicated.

Maybe I need to download Tinder. But the last time I did that, I saw too many unwanted dickpics and lost all motivation to talk to a man. They're dumb and can't have a normal conversation without bringing up how horny they are. I can't sex-text without any prep.

Maybe I should download LinkedIn to find a rich business man that will be too dedicated to his business so he can shower me in gifts while he doesn't bother me much.

The more I consider a rebound, the more fond of it I'm growing. I need to have some good sex. But I can't do it with a stranger, that never works for me. Is it too late to ask Sloan after I called him a whore?

My pager goes off for a 911. I head down to the emergencies and get sucked into work again.