Chapter 15

(Warning: sexual at the end and from now on there will be sexual scene here and there read at your own risk)

"Alright, Josh is planning another video so today the objective is to get you to be at least a little better than Vik." Simon had a bit of free time in his day so he decided to bring me to the football field for a little practice. Apparently Josh's bright idea was to put on slippers for anther crossbar challenge, whatever that was. It sounded nearly impossible but I knew Simon would be able to do it. "Okay, I want you to take a few steps back from the ball and run up and kick it. So I can get an idea of what I'm working with here."

That was a pretty silly request, of course I knew how to kick a ball, it was a pretty easy task. I took a few steps back, just like I was asked. Very unenthusiastically did I shuffle up to the football and kick it, it sailed forward a few feet and landed right outside of the goal line.

"See, that's your first problem-"

"There's a list?" I whinned.

Simon smiled at my childishness. "It would be quicker to tell you what you were doing right, babe. When your kicking the ball you don't want to kick it head on with the tip of your foot, that's how you lose control. The best place to hit it is with the inner part. Also when you're taking steps back, try to do it in large enough strides that will match the ones you'll do when you're running it up to it, so your stronger leg is in a position for a strong kick. Got it? Try it again." His long legs jogged over to go get the ball and he placed it back in from of me. The way he looked in his Nike sweatpants made me weak in my knees.

Just like the child I was being, I wanted to make him proud. This time I took it more seriously, I paid attention to the amount of steps I took back and ran hard toward the stationary sphere. At the last moment I twisted my foot and launched the ball into the air. Simon was right, it stayed straight and slowly rolled into the goal. From the corner of my eye I watched my boyfriend jump up and cheer, running toward me. I squealed and ran away, afraid to face the impact of the hug I was sure to get.

Unfortunately he was a giant and caught up to me before I could even put any distance between us. His long legs got tangled up and he somehow managed to take the both of us down into the grass. It would have hurt if I wasn't so high with happiness, laughing so hard my face hurt. I rolled over to Simon, who was next to me, and got on top of him.

"It was one goal you minger!"

"Yeah but it was so hot watching you do it." Simon reached his arm out and wrapped his large hand around the back of my neck, pulling me down into a deep kiss. I was very aware that we were in public, it was impossible to control myself around him.

Before I could get lost in his soft lips I jumped up and started walking away. "Come on! I want to be as good as that Ronald guy."

Simon let out the most disappointed groan, "it's Ronaldo."

Several attempts later I got an idea of how to kick the ball the right way. How I was ever going to hit the very thin goal post was beyond me. But for now Smon was happy with how I did and that's all that mattered. The look on his face, how excited he was that I was willing to learn to love the things that he loved was reward enough.

We were in his car driving home, which was a very modest, red, Range Rover. One of his hands was on the wheel while the other one was resting on his thigh. For the past weeks we only acted like a "couple" when we were out or no one was home, which was rarely. It became a ritual for Simon to come and sneak into my room and leave before anyone woke up. Not once did he complain about it. Which made me feel even more terrible. Like I was holding him back.

Clouds began filling the sky on our trip back to the house. Music was blasting, the song playing now was one of Simon's rap songs. As usual he got really into it, bobbing his head to the beat and furrowing his eyebrows while he sang along dramatically. I laughed and pulled out out my phone, recording a video to post on Twitter. My social media was filled with all of the boys, they were too cute no to take pictures and videos of. "Fans," I guess you can call them, had their assumptions of who they thought I was dating. Some of the more rude ones claimed that I was sleeping with all of them. Vik's name was thrown around a lot because of how many pictures I had of and with him. That's honestly just because he was the cutest, in the most innocent way possible, and one of my best guy friends out of the bunch. It's not that I thought of him like one of the girls. Even though he would probably never be on that level, that JJ and I were, it was kind of like that. Him and I got close so fast there wasn't enough time to think about if we liked each other. In fact, it was damn right killing me that I couldn't tell JJ, Vik, or even Freya that Simon and I were dating.

Tobi's car was in the driveway when we pulled up. Before I could get out of the car Simon pulled me close for one last kiss before everyone went to sleep. Everyone noticed the sudden change in the way he acted toward me and that Trinity wasn't coming around anymore. Anyone who knew me wrote it off that poor Simon had a crush on a hopeless girl. If only they knew.

Commotion was coming from the living room when we came in through the front door. At first I was afraid that it was some kind of fight or altercation, it was so loud. It took me one a few steps to see that I was very wrong.

Actually, I wasn't sure what the fuck was going on. The only thing that was obvious was Josh sitting in a chair with a plastic mat underneath him, while all the boys were tormenting him. He had ketchup dropping on his head and egg yolk soaking through his shirt. JJ was, no surprise, laughing and screaming in his ear. The only thing that made sense was that they were recording some sort of bizarre video. I probably should start watching their videos so I wasn't so confused about what was going on.

"This is technically called the patience challenge. Basically you sit in that chair and all the boys will do whatever they can to make you get up, as soon as you do the test is over." Simon was explaining to me just as Harry rubbed a fish all around Josh's face and he finally sprinted up. We all started laughing and JJ noticed the two of us standing there.

"Kells! You have to do it for your channel, it would be so funny!" He tried to pursued me.

"No."

"Come on! You're like the only girl I know who would actually do it, it's not even that big of a deal, you can shower right after."

He always was very good at convincing me to do things, this scenario was no different. The people who watched my videos would definitely get a kick out of it and I knew the boys wouldn't go too hard on me. I mean it was really only food that I had to worry about, even though it would take forever to get out of my hair.

Finally and puffed out a breath of air and rolled my eyes, "fine, let me go change."

Once I was in a black Sidemen t-shirt that I was ready to ruin and an old pair leggings I was ready for this challenge. I didn't think it would be that hard to stay seated, it was mainly just food anyway. JJ had substituted Josh's camera for his so I could record this video. The mess that was made for Josh's video was still there when I took a seat. Once JJ pressed the button I started talking the best I could even though it was still awkward for me, "hello everybody, today I'm doing something called the patience challenge. As you can see Josh had just done it and it can get really messy. Here to help me are some of my good friends and also 5 out of the 7 Sidemen. I guess let's get this over this."

For a minute they just stood there. Josh, Vik, JJ, Simon and Tobi, all not wanting to be the dick to throw something on me. "JJ, you start," Vik suggested.

"Aw come on guys we can't do this to her," Simon chimed in. The boys all looked at him, ready to start making fun of him about him liking me. Once they were looking in his direction he pulled an egg out from behind his back and smashed it on my forehead. Then it was on, there was whipped cream in my hair, pieces of cheese and other questionable items thrown in my face. It was a lot harder than it looks, sitting there with a bad smell constantly in my nose and my friends doing everything they could to get me to stand up.

I screamed when JJ put chocolate syrup in my already wild, orange hair. I was never going to be able to get that out. "You're an asshole Jide!"

"It's okay Simon can help you wash that out later."

"Yeah, in his dreams," Josh laughed while dumping milk all over my head, soaking everything into me even more. Eventually I figured it couldn't get much worse from here. Food was all over my body, what else could they do.

Of course JJ had other plans in mind. "You want to know how to get her out of this chair?" The evil look on his face stopped what everyone was doing and waited for his mischievous plan. He got closer to me and I thought he was going to do the same thing that Simon did. I shouldn't have thought so highly of him. He plopped right down on my lap and out of nowhere placed a sloppy kiss right onto my lips.

He was right, that got me right off the chair and sent JJ onto the floor, who was laughing hysterically. "That was so grim, I can't believe you did that!" I tried to sound disgusted but my laughter got in the way. "Alright now I definitely need to shower and maybe scrub my lips with soap." After that I did my outro saying a sarcastic thanks to all the boys and telling everyone watching to go watch their videos even though I was sure most of my followers came from them.

I fled to the bathroom as soon as the camera was shut off and spent the next hour conditioning and combing through all of the knots that boys stacked up in my hair. It was definitely an interesting video that I was looking forward to never doing again, but at least everyone was having fun. Them being happy made me happy.

Once I got out I changed into cotton shorts and a tank top then headed off into my room. On my bed laid Simon who was just staring up at the ceiling. A smile involuntarily spread across my face and I locked my door before walking over to him. I crawled up and laid down on top of him so that my chest was pressed against his. "What are you thinking about?" My hand went up and I brushed my fingers through his ruffled hair.

"JJ wouldn't have kissed you if he knew about us."

"I know, baby." What else could I say? It was very unfair to Simon that he wanted people to know but I was telling him that he couldn't say anything. Although to me, my best friend kissing was a joke and taken lightly, to Simon it was something different. He was watching someone kiss his girlfriend and there wasn't anything he could do about it.

"When will you be ready? Is it so terrible for people to know that you want to be with me?" The hurt in his eyes was killing me.

My head rested by the crook of his neck, it was the warmest place on his body and I was addicted. "It's scary for me. Isn't it enough to know that we like each other?"

"For now," Simon sighed.

After that he had flipped us over so that now he was on top of me in between my legs. His lips quickly connected his lips to mine, parting them so he could deepen the kiss as his tongue began moving along with mine. It was like we were made to kiss each other, Simon did everything right. And the way his hips rolled in rhythm with our movements made my entire body buzz.

Slowly his finger pads started making their way down my body, he was barely touching me and I could feel myself buzzing. I had forgotten how good this feels, being intimate with someone I care about so much. His touch was electrifying. My breathing nearly stopped when Simon started to play with the hem of my pajama shorts. The tip of his fingers tickled my stomach while he pulled on the fabric.

Suddenly, as I closed my eyes, I was no longer in bed with him. This wasn't my room anymore, loud music could be heard just outside the door. Then Aaron came into view. He was the one hovering over me, it wasn't comforting like Simon, it was suffocating. And he's pulling at my jeans while I begged for him to stop. No matter how loud I screamed he kept going, no one came to save me. No one cared, there was no one to go look to see where I wandered off to. There wasn't a way to stop this.

"No! Get off, please." I cried pushing at the person on top of me and unlike last time, they got off. Frantically I crawled all the way to the top of the bed, tears soaking my face. It only took seconds for me to realize that I was, in fact, in my room. And the boy of my dreams was standing there looking scared and confused, it was not the boy from my nightmares. What just happened? Aaron was still managing to find a way to ruin my life and he wasn't even here.

The look on Simon's face broke my heart. He wanted to comfort me but couldn't move, thinking that he was the reason I was like this. I couldn't bring myself to tell him the truth, not yet at least. One day I know I'm going to have to. There was no way to prepare myself for his reaction.

Maybe I wouldn't have to.

Once the initial shock was over, Simon finally moved and joined me on the bed yet again. Taking my head in his large hands, he wiped my tears away with his thumb. Calming me nearly instantly. "Who hurt you?"

I took a deep breath. "Someone who I thought loved me very much." Realization washed over Simon. All the times I said that I never wanted to get close to anyone, he was now figuring out why. It was a lot easier to tell him than I thought, even though I didn't really have to say anything at all.

"He fucked me up, Si. I'm letting him win."

"No you're not, you're with me now. Whoever the fuck that guy is, he lost if you ask me." He leaned in for a sweet kiss, but I had other things in mind. Aaron couldn't get the best of me. My life was great right here and now, I was on top of the world with an amazing boyfriend and the best friends anyone could ask for. He didn't hold me back from all of that and he wouldn't hold me back now. It was the most inappropriate time for this, but that's the kind of person I was.

Without a word I took Simon's hand and brought it back down to where it was just before. "Make me feel good."

"A-are you sure?"

"I haven't been more sure of anything ever."

Something about him changed, going from concerned to full of lust in the middle of my sentence. "Keep your eyes on me." All I could do was nod my head, my voice was lost from the way he was looking at me. This time he didn't waste any time teasing me, slipping his hand into my shorts and pressing two fingers against me. I gasped and my eyelids fluttered, all the built up tension was now being released.

He started circling around my core torturously slow so I could feel every ounce of pleasure he was giving me. I was captivated by his impossibly dark blue eyes that loved watching me come undone just for him. My breaths were coming out as pants from the build up that only his fingers were doing. Never once did he mess up the slow pace he was going at even when my hips began to buck into him, silently begging for more. Absolute bliss, that's what he was making me feel. I couldn't even remember what I was upset about before, all that was on my mind was him and his touch.

A moan erupted from my throat when he slipped one of his long fingers inside of me, intensifying every move he made. The pumping plus the small circles he was putting right on my core started to make my stomach tighten up.

"Oh my god," I rushed out in a whisper. Each passing second the pleasure was building up more and more. He didn't bother kissing me or doing anything other than watch me, which turned me on even more. I threw my head back momentarily, resulting in Simon using his free hand to wrap around my hair and bring me back to him. The small tug on my head oddly increased the pleasure I felt throughout my body. Every breath I took turned into pants and moans now as I was nearing my peak. "Pull harder," I whined.

He listened right away and that was it. A few thrusts of his single finger and my entire body exploded with a climax. Finally releasing all of the tension that had been filling my stomach. I wrapped my arms around Simon's shoulders as he coaxed me through my high, spreading it out for as long as possible. When he was done he pulled his hand away from my shorts and at last, gave me a long, sweet kiss.

"How do you feel?" Simon asked as he pulled on my legs so that I was laying down fully and got up to turn off the light.

"Amazing," I sighed and wrapped myself around my boyfriend. What happened to me was disgusting and unforgivable but I can't help think about where I would be if nothing bad ever happened to me. I would probably still be with Aaron, completely unaware of how fucking mental his was.

Sometimes things, no matter how bad they may seem, were simply a blessing in disguise.

Hiiii holy shit this is scary I did add a little smut scene at the end there.  IF YOU GUYS DIDN'T LIKE IT LET ME KNOW.  This is sorry is for you guys and if the majority of you didn't like it please don't hesitate to say something.  Okay, I love you all.  Comment and vote!!