Chapter 13

"Kelsey I need your help, my outfit is gorgeous and I need my makeup to do it justice for your party tonight."

    "I'm having the opposite problem, I can't find anything to wear."  Currently I was on the phone ith Freya with mountains of clothes around me.  You would think with the amount of time I spent shopping there would be one thing I wanted to wear to my own party.  "If you come over I'll do your makeup."

    "Perfect!  I have a dress that'll look great on you, be over in a few."  It was refreshing to finally have another girl to talk to, over the past week Freya and I have been getting really close.  She's the only other person I told about my newly found feelings for Simon, other than Harry who was there for my apidimi.  Her advice was to tell him because he would drop everything for me.  If I did that I'd just be the same old selfish Kelsey I was trying to get away from. 

    JJ basically told me that there wasn't going to be much people I know at his penthouse tonight.  There would be the usual group plus and hundred other people he was friends with because everyone just had to love him.  No one ever invited me to a party before, sure I've crashed a couple but they weren't nearly as big as this one was promised to be.  The weirdest part?  It was for me.  Everyone who was coming knew the party was for me and that didn't make them not want to come.

    None of the boys were home right now as they were all nice enough to help set up for the party, even Simon who I figured would want to hangout with Trinity beforehand so they could show up together.  My only job for today, according to JJ, was to look as beautiful and possible, show up at 8, and be ready to get fucked up.  Since my sleeping schedule somehow turned into waking up mid afternoon, I only had a few hours to get this done and I couldn't even pick something to wear.  My hair was still wet from the shower and I haven't started on my makeup yet. 

    The front door opened and Freya appeared in my room seconds later wearing shorts and a t-shirt.  "You know JJ will kill us if we're late, right?"  She said once she saw me not close to being ready, just like her.

    "Well show me the dress that you brought for me!"  The moment she took it out of her bag I was already shaking my head.  "There's no way I'm wearing that."  It was a tight, very tight maroon dress, with black lace on the sides and on top where the neck line was.  Not only that, but the dress looked very short, even with my short body. 

    "Come on, it's not that bad!  Besides you're turning 20, you should look sexy.  I know Simon would appreciate it."  The silly blonde winked at me whilst I cringed. 

    Even though I wouldn't admit it, even to her, barely to myself, Freya's statement appealed to me.  "Give me the dress."

    It was just a bad as I thought it'd be, the maroon piece of fabric only went down to the middle of my thigh.  But I'd be lying if I didn't think it looked good on my curves.  Freya was skinny, tall, without much to her, which wasn't a bad thing, but I had a short body with wide hips that the dress hugged perfectly.  That's why I was afraid that maybe it was too revealing for a party. 

    Who cares if Simon liked it?  I bet Trinity would look good in anything she wore, he wouldn't be able to take her eyes off of her.  This past week seeing her here solidified my feelings for him.  It was too late for me, I lost out on a great guy and now someone else was appreciating him.  Even if no one else seemed to particularly like her, it was only because they thought they were being on my side by not giving her a chance.  When they should have been on Simon's side because he liked her.  Things we so screwed up, everyone was, for some reason, too bust feeling bad for me, than feeling bad for him. 

    Freya's eyes widened when she saw me.  "I'm so not even going to your party unless you wear that."

    "Don't you think I look a bit slutty?"

    "You look the perfect amount of slutty, come on Kells, you're 19 and single, what's stopping you?"  There was that nickname again.  To be honest, I was a sucker for anyone who called me that.   Having friends meant so much to me that I went from a stoner cold bitch to a push over in no time.

    "If you really think so, then I'll wear it."

    She smile evilly like she was predicting my response the entire time.  "If that's the case, you're going to need a pair of heels to match it," she said as she pulled a pair of leather wedges.  Now those were something I could get used to.

    I nodded my head in approval.  "What are you wearing?"  In her bag she also had a a simply body con dress with a mesh middle so her belly was a bit exposed while the rest of her wasn't.  It was going to look amazing on her, I thought immediately. 

    "We really need to get a move on it if we're going to get there on time."

    Two hours later we were done with our hair and makeup.  And by we I mean I did Freya's hair and mine and hers' makeup.  She did help with me hair as much as she could, even though I was only curling it.  My makeup was only neutral colors with a thick layer of eyeliner, and Freya's was shades of dark purple and black to make her eyes pop since her dress was only plain black, it was equally as tight as mine, but since she was taller than me it made her legs look amazing.  We looked absolutely hot, hot enough to make me nervous about stepping out of the house and hearing what other people had to say. 

    Fortunately, or unfortunately, I couldn't tell, we were running late so I couldn't dwell on it too much.  I was being rushed out of the front door, barely leaving me time to grab my purse and my jacket.  JJ's penthouse was far that we had to drive, it just so happened to be in the same building with Harry, Cal, and Callum.  They were just more people I could cling to when I felt too awkward being around everyone else. 

    We pulled up and I'm almost positive my eyes turned into saucers from how huge the building was.  It was covered in glass windows and went up until the sky.  Freya must have noticed my expression because she grinned at me.  "You know penthouse means he's at the very top, right?  This building is 43 stories high."

    "Holy shit," I whispered.  The both of us exited the car and walked up to the very, very tall building.  I've never been in an elevator for that long, most of the places I went never had more than 5 floors.  It took nearly 5 minutes for the up motion to stop.

    It turns out we were a little late, but not by a much.  But also something told me that the plan was to make me a bit late, when Freya opened the door everyone was waiting by it to scream happy birthday on the top of their lungs.  All of the boys, my boys were standing right in the front with the goofiest smiles on their faces.  JJ, Josh, Ethan, Simon, Vik, Harry, Tobi, Manny, Cal, and Callum, all of them seemed excited for all of this to be coming together.  It meant so much to me that they took such a long time planning everything for me to have one good birthday.  Even if JJ was the only who knew that it was like that.  JJ was the only one to ever show up to my birthdays. 

    There was so many of them to thank, I still found myself darting into JJ's arms and lifting my legs up off the ground, nearly toppling the both of us over.  He laughed and spun me around, kissing my head all at the same time.  "This is all for you Kells, look at everyone who wanted to be here.  You did it, you got out."

    I put my feet back on the floor and punched my best friend on the arm lightly.  "Shut up you jerk, I just did my makeup, are you trying to make me cry already?"  He was right though.  I did get out, out of the stupid town that was holding me back from all the things I was doing now.  The people surrounding me now knew my name, and didn't have anything bad to think behind it. 

    Each boy in the group received the tightest the hug I could give them.  All of them telling them that they loved me and wished me a happy birthday.  No one understood what a nearly impossible task it was to keep my makeup eyeliner from smearing down my face.  Simon even swayed me back and forth with Trinity shaking her head in disapproval in the corner of our eye.

    "In the honor of my best friend Kelsey's birthday," JJ screamed at the top of the lungs, "who's ready to get this party started?"  That's when everything went wild.  A drink was put in my hand and someone, I believe it was Cal, because he was a terrible influence, forced me to chug it before handing me another.  Cal looked tall and goofy, but people didn't give him enough credit, the way he held himself, with his soft humor that made him attractive.  He was so easy to talk to, quickly becoming one of my best friends.

    Tobi grabbed my hand while I was being handed another drink and pulled him into the middle of a a large group of people.  Most I didn't know but were still hugging me or screaming happy birthday.  I recognized the music that was blaring through the speakers because it was JJ's, it was just like him to force all of us to listen to his music even though I had to admit it was definitely growing on me.  We all waited while the music started getting faster and started raising higher and higher, until the exact moment the beat dropped and then we all went wild.  Plenty of people bumped into me, my drink went everywhere and I wasn't left with much in my cup.  The one cup I had already was making me buzzed since I hadn't had much to eat today, I was too busy getting ready. 

    My laughter echoed throughout the party when Ethan picked me up from behind and spun around as fast as he could.  It was his laugh that made everyone else join in, he was always the one to liven up the party.  So many people wanted him around for the jokes he cracked that never made any since that he still laughed at.  How I was the one who could possibly deserve these best friends was beyond me, I was damn lucky.  Plain and simple. 

    Whatever was left in my cup was downed and fast as possible, I was going to follow the rules JJ gave me, one being getting shit faced.  Now all I had to do was find my way out of the crowd and located where all the liquor was.  Because JJ was such a dick, this was my first time at his penthouse so I had no idea where the kitchen was.  It never occured to me just how many of JJ's friends would be so attractive, but they all were.  In the midst of trying to find my way to a vacant area I met and talked to a lot people such as a boy names Joe, Alfie and his girlfriend Zoe, Marcus, Conor, and a very cute ginger Josh.  All of them were so nice and even gave me their numbers to call and see if we could hangout.  Apparently when JJ was explaining who I was, he showed most of his mates my videos.  Joe wanted to see if there was a way that we could collab. 

    Just on the outskirts  of the large group of people I caught sight of Harry who was acting silly as usual, jumping around on everyone with a large smile on his face.  It was obvious he was already well wasted.  His eyes landed and mine and he raced over to me.  "Love!  How is your birthday?"

    "It's really great," I giggled.  "It'd be perfect if I knew where all the booze was."

    For about the thousandth time I was being tugged, "come on I'll show you."  We ran up the stairs, a little to fast for Harry, the big goof tripped over almost all of them and nearly made us fall.  With no surprise, there was even more people upstairs in what looked like the living area that happened to be connected to the kitchen.  No one looked familiar as I walked to the refrigerator.  My mouth dropped to see just how much beer and liquor and whiskey there was in there.  I would be flattered that JJ went through all this trouble but to be honest, JJ probably already had most of this stuff in here.

    "We have to take a shot!"  Harry exclaimed, taking out a bottle of Jack Daniels.  He grabbed two shot glasses from the cabinet and filled them all the way to the top, I believe he was trying to kill the both of us.

    Before I could decline (not that I wanted to)  Harry was holding the tiny glass up to my face.  In three seconds flat we cheered and took back the burning, and quite disgusting liquid and literally made me shutter.  Once it was down with no way of coming back up I chased it with a beer, if anyone caught me drinking anything other than some type of alcohol I'd be done for. 

    The music was even louder up here since the obnoxious speaker was in JJ's living room, so me and Harry had to stand close to even hear each other speak. 

    "You look beautiful," he said loudly. 

    "Thank you.  You don't look too bad yourself."

    "I wish I could have the ability to have what Simon has."

    That came out of nowhere.  "What do you mean?"

    "I wish I had all the attributes that he has to make you like me, also I wish I had it in me to like you and treat you the way he does."

    "You're crazy Harry, he has Trinity now.  She's beautiful and I could probably say the exact same thing to her that you're saying to me."

    He was nodding his head all the while I was talking, his response wasn't something I was counting on.  "Yeah Trinity is pretty, she could be funny, talented, smart, anything she wanted to me.  She just isn't Kelsey, is she?  I know it, Simon knows it, we all know it. 

    This isn't what I wanted, to be told how much Simon wants to still be with me when he's still at a party with a girl that he likes.  It wasn't fair to keep playing cat and mouse and even though I was ready to stop running away, it felt a little too late.  The last thing I wanted to think about tonight was him, all week I was doing to, maintaining small talk so he knew I meant what I said about being friends but keeping my distance so I couldn't get sucked back it.  Let's be honest, my plan was impossible, no matter who I talked to it circled back to him, and that was my fault, my emotions were written all over my face. 

    The only way I thought I could get over him was to find someone new, probably not better, there will only ever be one Simon.  Someone close though.  I left Harry standing by the counters, it was better that than use him to be the one to get over Simon with.  So I travelled back over to the packed living room where the majority of the people were.  All dancing, having a grand time. 

    Then I saw them, the two people on earth I wanted to see at this exact moment.  Simon and Trinity were near the wall, not dancing, her arms were around his neck but they were too busy laughing at soemthing to bother with anyone else.  I did what I did best, chugged the strong alcoholic drink I had in my hand and act impulsively.  My first instict was to look for anyone, anyone at all to make me forget about how I was feeling. 

    Heartbroken.

    This time, it was pretty much all my fault, when I had the chance to admit my sappy, hardcore feelings for Simon, and I hurt him.  Hurt him in a different way than Aaron hurt me.  In a way, you can say I was worst, because whatever I had been doing to him, was once making him stay. 

    I hated myself.  So for that reason, I headed toward another blonde headed, blue eyes boy I laid my eyes on.  He was beautiful, tall and lean with incredibly white teeth and an amazing smile.  At the time, he was looking 'round for someone, not that you could find anyone in this crazy mess.

    "Hi," I said shyly.

    "Hello."  His eyes practically sparkled, I could feel his charm radiating off of him.  A small indent pressed into his cheek as he grinned at me.

    "I'm Kelsey."

    "No way!  This is your party?  You're way too hot to be JJ's best friend, what are you doing hanging around that bellend?  My name in Caspar,"  He Laughed.

    Come to think of it, I definitely heard JJ talk about him before.  He definitely seemed to be a bit of a player, and maybe that's why he could be perfect for tonight.  As the next song started I grabbed Caspar's hand and spun myself around so that my back was connected to his front.  Instantly his hands when to my waist while my hips swayed back and forth to the beat.  My shoulders pressed up against his chest with an arch.  The dress was dangerously short for this kind of dancing, if Caspar wasn't right behind me everyone would have saw the lace underwear I was sporting. 

    Maybe this was what I needed, what I deserved.  Instead of avoiding boys all together I could attract them with my body and let them use me up.  I let the one guy, well what I thought was two guys, but Harry didn't even give a fuck about me, slip away.  Sometimes people were just attracted to misery and it seemed like I was one of those people.  There really wasn't much to it, I was useless and I deserved to feel that way.  At least it wasn't getting in the way of anyone else. 

    Until I glanced over to see Trinity yelling at Simon while he looked at me with some form of sadness, anger... and disappointment.  Everything was happening too fast, Caspar still had his arm wrapped around my waist when I was trying to figure out what was going on.  Trinity was definitely pointing in my general vicinity, that much I could tell.  Why was she angry?  Why was HE angry?  Right before he stormed away, Simon's eyes grew darker, making direct eye contact with me while he shook his head.  Then he disappeared into the crowd.

    An unexpected bubble of anger grew within me, that was apparently what I needed to go follow him.  Out of Caspar's arms I went not even spearing me an apologetic glance on my way out.  If Simon wasn't so tall I would have completely lost him from the thickening crowd.  It almost seemed like it was never ending.  All the people trying to step in front of me to hug or yell happy birthday was all becoming more overwhelming and making me more angry.

    Right at the last second that I was able to see, I saw Simon make a sharp left.  Quickly I jogged up to the room, just as I felt the lock twisting I busted through the door, to see Simon.  Filled with a bundle of emotions.  Again his eyes looked black, it seemed like the only time they looked like that was because of me.

    "What's your problem?"  I said a little too harshly, but I couldn't help it, I was angry with never doing anything right.  It was either tell him I couldn't be with him, him get mad, or he was with another girl and got mad to see me with another guy.  It wasn't fair. 

    "No!  Kelsey, what the fuck is your problem?  I wanted to be with you, for so long I tried my hardest and you didn't give a fuck.  Somehow I find a girl like Trinity, to make me forget about you and you won't let me do it.  You're that selfish, huh?  You just want me to be obsessed with you and never look at another girl ever again.  When I do you throw someone else right in my face!  It's so fucked!  I don't know what to do anymore, why can't you just admit you like me?  Why can't you just grow the fuck up?"

    "I do fucking like you, Simon!  I like you so much I don't know what to do with myself.  It scared me at first, petrified me to the point where I denied my feelings.  But I did grow up and I'm not fucking selfish, don't you dare fucking call me that.  If I was selfish, I wouldn't have let Trinity come to this party, my party.  I wanted you to be happy Simon, you wouldn't like being with me."  This was the first time I really started crying in front of Simon, for him nonetheless.  The tears left a steady coat that streamed down my face.   You need someone perfect because that's what you are, I'll only ever be someone that brings you down.  It took me forever to admit it, I can now, how much I care about you, because I like you more than I like myself most of the time.  You don't want me though, I'm trying to protect you."

    "Maybe it's time for you to stop thinking for me and let me think for myself."

    "If you knew who I was, what I've been through, you would realize how worthless I really am.  You wouldn't like me anymore."

    "I don't think I could stop liking you if I tried."

    This was it.  Either way I was selfish, letting him go or keeping him here.  If I didn't do it now, say something, then I never would.  I could stay silent at this very moment and then he'd never know and we would somehow move on, but I couldn't let that happen.  After years of being keeping everyone away from me.  It was time for me to do the exact opposite.  I said the only thing that would dare come out of my mouth.

    "So do something about it." 

    My permission was all Simon needed to let go and push his lips against mine.  It became apparent how close we had gotten to each other during our heated debate.  This kiss was completely different from our other one.  The other one was careful because Simon wasn't sure how I would react.  This one was fast and sloppy, showing no remorse.  By instinct, my hands reached up into his hair and pulled gently, trying to be as close to him as possible.  Simon's hands snaked low on my hips.  His touch felt better than anyone else's.  Better than Harry, better than Caspar, I didn't want anyone else to ever touch me again.  Only him. 

    Our lips parted together, there was no time to tease each other.  Everything we did was fast paced, for too long we've be waiting for this moment.  He tongue glided along mine in the most delicious way.  It was safe to say that he was my favorite taste.  I felt free that I was finally allowing all of my feelings to flow and embrace them.  The fact that he still liked me after everything I put him through just showed that he deserved whatever he wanted.  For some reason, it was still me. 

    My body continued to push into Simon's, I felt desperate to be closer.  He was so hot, the way his hands roamed all over my body, dropping down the my bum and grabbing it greedily.  It was turning me on more than I thought humanly possible.  My mind was foggy with the little bit of alcohol I've had and the amount of lust radiating through both of our bodies.  I was all in, for so long I've tried denying it and now tonight was the night that we were going to make up for lost time. 

    Together we moved toward the bed that was in the room, my only hope that this was one of JJ's guest room and not the one where he lays his head all the time.  For every step Simon took forward, I took backward until the back of my knees hit the bed, never once breaking our heated makeout. 

    He wrapped his arm tightly around my waist and basically pulled me along with him all the way up the pillows.  The weight of his body on top of my felt like pure ecstasy.  Simon's lips dropped from mine and immediately attached themselves to my neck, biting and sucking and a painfully slow pace, leaving me to squirm under his touch.  For someone who claimed to be awkward, his movements were so sure, making him even more irresistible. 

    Things were moving too fast and still not fast enough for me.  To keep things moving I slipped my hands down to the bottom of his shirt and pulled it up over his head.  His chest felt warm and firm underneath my fingertips.  It gave him the go ahead to reach his hands up and press them into my breasts, a small moan escaped my lips. 

    Simon's body just began to move against mine when someone called my name.  We both hopped up even though the door was locked.  My name was continuing to be called from throughout the party, the music had turned off. Oh god this wasn't good.

    I was fixing my dress frantically, there was no mirror so I had to hope for the best that running my fingers through it would fix my hair.  At the same time, Simon casually put his shirt back on and strolled over to the door.

    "Wait!"  I grabbed his arm.

    "What's wrong?" 

    "I- uh, I'm not ready for people to know." 

    "So... I'm just your side hoe, then?"  Simon smiled as if he was joking but I could tell that it was bothering him.

    "No of course not.  I want to be with you, Si, but I just went from thinking I would never be able to date again to this, having everyone know is scary.  We'll tell everyone soon, just give me time."

    Simon's face lit up like a child walking through a candy store.  "We're together," he said more as a statement.

    "Absolutely, if you want to be," a grin played on my lips.  He replied by rolling his eyes and pulling me in for a lingering kiss.  "Okay, I'll go out now, come out when no one is paying attention."  I slipped out the door.

THERE IT IS. I thought 12 chapters was enough for them not to be together, but don't worry the drama doesn't end here. Now I do have a question for anyone who wants to answer. It took me a little longer to post this chapter because I was going to add a sex scene but I started to think about the age range of the people that like him so it's up to you guys. If you'll comment and let me know whether or not you want smutty scene I will definitely do it, majority rules with this kind of thing so everyone who has an opinion on it should comment or comment anyway and also vote okay I love you all.