CHAPTER 27 : SUDDEN CONFESSION

Y/N's POV

Finishing the last line of my song..

Its hard for me..

Just like swallowing the stone along my throat..

I should not let you go..Make me dying inside..When this pain will completely end?Cause Only you are the only one...The only one could conquer my heart..

Thats parts we maintained our eye contact..

My sight was so clear cause i could see her tears rolling down to her cheeks..

I was like..

Stop singing , running to her .. wipe her tears..

But i dont have courage to do it..

Am i deserved to do that?

To the girl that i love ..

That fall in love with another guy?

Once i finish up my performance..

I bow to the audience ..

I ran from there without even say thank you..

And not even dare to look at Jennie's eyes.. i just ran from the scene..loosening my tie.. i dont wanna let her see me crying..

I entered the washroom..

I looked myself on the mirror..

You look pathetic Kim Y/N..

I punch hard on the mirror that reflect my pathetic looks..

I hate seeing myself like this..

Cause i used to know that.. i am Black..

The color of my heart is black..

It was burnt to black, just like that..

I break glass whenever I feel like..

And I look at my bloody hands and think...

Why am I like this why?

I exit the bathroom..Not care bout the blood that dripping from my right hand..

I start to run back..

Just Let me run more..Even though i felt so much scars on my heart..But you never knew that..I smile whenever I see you..

Jennie's POV

"Jennie where you going?" Jisoo asked me as I stood up from my seat.

"Somewhere."

"Be careful."

"Sure thing.."

I exit the hall...

I walk faster..

Eyes being busy to look around..

Try to

Find

Him..

I debated with myself just now about this.. but i choose to check on him..

There.. i saw him resting.. behind the wall..

Even tho i was facing his back.. i knew him well..

His left hand resting on the wall.. catching his breath..

And ..

Something that broke me inside ..

Is..

Blood that dripping from her right hand..

Is he doing that again?

I swallow down my saliva as i try to let his name slipped out from this mouth..

"Y/-"

I stopped from calling his name when i saw..

Someone touch his shoulder.

Its Nancy..

I quickly hid behind the wall..

Watching the two figures from far..

He turned around meet with her gaze..

A split second she wrapped her arm Around his waist and put her head on his chest..

I wish i reconsider my decision just now..

Cause..

Seeing this scene make me hurt some more..

I turned around..

Press my back on the wall..Leaning on the wall..Cupped my mouth as i let myself let it out the sobs..

Y/N's POV

My energy drained..

But i managed to go to school today..

At least i could see her..

Everyone gave compliment for my self composed song.I feel honored.

I never write song before..

But seems like Jennie Kim being a good dedication for me to write it..

I looked an empty seat beside me..

I didnt see her bag or any stuff at all..

Is she alright?

I cant stand still..

I get up from my seat.. earning looked from the others.. but i just shrugged it out..

I just follow what my feet leads me...

Until..

It stopped when i heard sobbing..

I realized i was at the garden..when i heard that..

I walked slowly .. getting near where the sounds come from..

There i saw..

A guy and a girl..

I will just go it its not Jennie Kim ... with GD..

But..

Sadly it was them.

She crying.. i wish i was the one who wipe her tears.. NOT HIM!

Its hurt to see..

But i just kept staring on them..

Not even interrupting their moments.. i just watched with furious..

Its getting more furious when i saw

GD slowly leaning to her..

And she didnt even move any inch..

I found myself pull GD's collar.. earning flinch from Jennie.

I punch on his face..

"Y/N stop.." jennie said..

I just kept on punching his face with my left hand cause my right hand still hurt af.

"KIM Y/N COULD YOU PLEASE FUCKING STOP!"

Jennie Kim.. the only one that could conquer my heart.. managed to stop me with her stern voice.

I released the grip from his collar..

But.. its not like i could walk away this time..

I pull Jennie's hand and dragged her away from there.

I felt something broke on my fingers but i just shrugged it off cause of losing Jennie is more painful than anything..

"LET ME GO!"

she finally manage to release herself from my grip..

Maybe cause im too weak to hold her tight..

Yeahh injured both of my hands is not a joke..

I looked at her..

Jennie Kim being Jennie Kim.. as she stare me with blank face.. even tho she just crying.

"What do you want now Kim Y/N?"

"You."

"You crazy? Go run to your Nancy dont fucking care bout me!"

"Jennie.. tell me .. do you even love GD?"

"Why you even care?"

"Just fucking tell me Jennie Kim!"

Cause i know from start..

Jennie love GD its not true.

Those lips are red, just like red lies..

"Why you didnt answer me?"

"Cause you not even care. Just go to Nancy." She said calmly.

But i cant stay calm.

I hold her shoulder ...slammed her on the nearest locker..not forgetting to put my palms behind her head.. well as much as i mad.. i dont wanna hurt her.

I pinned her on the locker..

Her eyes widened.

"WHAT YOU DOI-umpph.."

I smashed  my lips to her lips.. shutting her mouth from talking ..

She immediately response my kiss.. make me eager more to deepen the kiss..

Then i felt her hands on my shoulders...

Pushed me away.

"WHAT YOU DOING? YOU DONT EVEN LOVE ME! WHAT IF NANCY SAW THIS?"

Nancy nancy nancy.. its pissed me off.

I should tell her the truth..

I hold her shoulders.. eyes locked into her eyes..

"NANCY IS JUST MY COUSIN..NOT MY GIRLFRIEND! WHY YOU BLIND JENNIE KIM? I'M FUCKING LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU JENNIE KIM! CANT YOU SEE THE WAY I STARE AT YOU? THE WAY I TALK TO YOU? THE WAY I LOOKED WHEN THE CONTRACT THAT I MADE IS ENDED?"

She gasped.. while looking straightly into my eyes.. just like sucking my soul..

"you are the only girl I love.. and i admit.."

"I love you Jennie Kim.."