I never felt so alone

TW TALKS ABOUT STRUGGLES WITH MENTAL HEALTH!!

You and your punk Rockstar boyfriend, Dominic Harrison, also known as YUNGBLUD have been dating for a while, but you hadn't seen him in about a week because he was busy at the studio. You lied in bed while your head flowed with thoughts that you did not need in your mind at that moment, and honestly it sucked.

You missed Dom, more than anything else in the world. Dom always made your life better. He had this goofy personality and this cheeky warm smile, it always made your insides flutter with excitement.  

You rolled over and checked your messages to see if Dom had messaged, and he had. Many times, but you were ignoring him because you were in your head and you didn't want to bug him. You hated bugging Dom with your issues, it always made you feel like you put unnecessary pressure on him and that was not fair to Dom. 

Your phone started to buzz and you picked it up, fluttering your eyes looking at the screen. Dom was facetiming you. You let out a soft sigh and kept the phone facing the ceiling, and then pressed answer. "Ello? y/n? Are you alright, darlin'?" You could see that Dom was worried about you, he had that worried look upon his face. You mumble quietly, "Yeah, im okay. Are you okay?" Dom raised his eyebrow and nodded. "Yes, love im alright. I am just worried about you." 

You always had an issue with putting others emotions before your own, that was probably why you were  upset all the time. Dominic let out a soft sigh, "Luv, let me see ya. Right now, please?" You slightly tilted the phone so he could look at you. "You know what, ill talk to ya later." he said softly. You nodded and said goodbye then hung up the phone. 

Those last words played in your mind over and over again. You know what, i'll talk to ya later. It replayed like a record on repeat. Did you do something to upset him? Was he angry with you because you had feelings and you were upset? You slightly shook your head and sighed setting your phone to the side. You grabbed your pillow that was next to you and hugged it close to you waiting for a message from Dom. 

You soon had dozed off, but you woke up to someone crawling into bed with you, wrapping their arms around you. It was Dom. Your body tensed and he got out of bed but got into bed but this time he was facing you. 

"Y/n." he spoke softly brushing a few strands of hair out of your face so you could get a better look at him. His plump lips turned into a frown but then he pressed his lips to your forehead kissing it softly. "Whats the matter?" he asked pulling your frame closer to his own. 

You wrapped your arms around him and nuzzled your face into the crook of his neck hiding from him staying silent. There was a lot going on in your head, and you did not want to tell him. 

"You know you can tell me anything, right?" he spoke in a soft tone. There was something about his voice that always drove you crazy. "You can tell me everything that is on your mind and I will not judge you. Thats not how that works." he said once more. He placed his index finger under your chin so your gaze could meet his. "Please talk to me." 

A soft sigh would escape from your lips and you just shrug. "I miss you, a lot. I understand that you're busy but I've been missing you and my head has been going crazy." Doms green eyes didn't look away from yours while you spoke. Not once. He stroked your hair softly and chewed the inside of his cheek. "I know what you mean, love. I talked to my manager and told him I needed a break because I missed you too." he said softly. "Whats going on in your head now?"

Thats where your body tensed up once more, him asking you what was going on didn't make you uncomfortable but you didn't wanna talk about it just  because you knew you were gonna bug him. "Please?" he asked softly. 

Your gaze met his once more and you took a deep breath letting it out softly. "I just have been feeling alone, feeling as if I'm doing something wrong. I dunno why im thinking that but I just am. I barley have gotten out of bed recently because my head is not in the right space right now. I don't wanna pile all my problems onto you because that is unnecessary stress that you do not need." 

Dom stayed silent for a moment, and you felt like you said something wrong. That look of worry didn't go away. He pressed his lips against yours softly, letting his soft plump lips linger there for a moment before finally speaking. 

"Y/n, you don't bug me with your problems at all. Honestly, I like to know whats going on in your head, whether its good, bad, sexual? I don't mind. Not at all, babe. I promise that you are not alone either and I'm sorry if I made you feel like that. I truly am. Just know, that if you need to vent or anything I am here. Im always gonna be by your side because... I love you." Dom placed his hand on the side of your face, caressing your cheekbone softly. "I promise." 

Hearing those words come out of his mouth honestly made you feel a bit better but there was still that foggy feeling in your head. You nuzzled your cheek into the palm of his hand and closed your eyes then you heard him speak once again. "You're beautiful, you're amazing, you're smart and funny. You make me smile uncontrollably and I honestly love and adore you to bits, y/n. I really fucking do."

A small smile creeped upon your face and your eyes fluttered open to look into the males beautiful bright green eyes. "There's that gorgeous smile." he said softly. "I love you too, Dom. Always and forever." You told the male. He smiled brightly and he placed a soft kiss on your cheek. "How about we spend the rest of the day together yea? Just you and I?" he suggested.

You nodded and pulled the blanket over the both of you two. "First, snuggles. I need them soooo bad." Dom chuckled softly and pulled you on top of him and caressed your back. "Sounds like a perfect Idea to me, love." He kissed your temple softly and your heart fluttered with excitement. 

God you loved that boy more than anything else in the whole god damn world.