Chapter 9

That's great! Yea, so I'll book a flight to New York tonight. I'll see you tomorrow, I guess. I can't wait to see you and thank you so much!

I didn't reply. What the fuck did I just do? So I acted upon my impulsive thoughts and subconsciously sent the message that has been sitting on my phone for almost two fucking days. And now, I'm seeing her tomorrow? God, what is wrong with me.

Do I need to tell my sisters about this? Well, they would eventually find out about it might as well tell them now that my 'ex' girlfriend is coming to New York and I will see her tomorrow because I agreed to help her regain her memory back because she has fucking amnesia. That would be a good opening statement. I'm freaking out really.

I clutch my phone in my chest as I pace back and forth in my bedroom, possible scenarios of our meeting tomorrow running wild in my head along with the idea of telling my sisters or anyone in my family about this because this is eating me out alive and if I don't spill this to anyone, I guarantee I won't be getting some sleep tonight.

Ring!

I suddenly jump at the sound of my phone ringing in my hand and without thinking, I answered it right away not even bothering to look who it was. I think I might be having a panic attack.

"Hello" I say.

'Hey Liz, mom's asking if you would still want that pullover you asked her to bring because she couldn't find it. Where is it anyway, did you left it here?'Fuck, I almost forgot, Mom and Trent are going to be here tomorrow. Great, just great.

"Uh-yes, Its at the drawer near the door in my closet where all of the jackets and sweatshirts are. Its a striped pullover with three colors blue, white and gray." I say, its Shannon's pullover. I let out a breath again and continue to pace back and forth in my room. My stomach is doing somersaults at the moment and I feel like I'm going to throw up or something. That's how anxious I am right now.

'Wait, I think I see it. Oh here it is. Got it.' He says while I hear shuffling on the other line. Maybe I should tell Trent about this. Should I? God this is killing me.

'Where are you? Its awfully quiet, are you at your apartment?'

"Yes. Uhm, Trent?"

'Yea, What's up?' I drop down to the edge of my bed as I hear my heart beating out of my chest. 'Liz, are you okay? Is there something wrong? I can hear your breathing.' Yup I really need to tell him or else I will have a panic attack right at this moment and I don't have anyone with me to help me out of it.

"Uh-I need to talk to you about something. Are you alone?" I asked the shakiness in my voice very evident and that worries him a lot actually, but I really can't help it.

'Yes, I am now. What's happening are you okay?' His voice is gentle and comforting at the same time worried and confuse and that is what it takes to make me talk to him and it sucks that he knows that, so I did.

"Uh, Shannon's back." I say and silence is all I can hear from the other line. That's the best I could give. After all the thoughts running in my head, I couldn't even put together words that will elaborate that one. So I shut it and wait for Trent to talk.

'So, have you seen each other yet or talk. Well, she's been away for a while now. I haven't even heard anything from her since you know.' He says in a monotonous tone. I was expecting this reaction. They were heartbroken when we broke up maybe even more heartbroken than I was. That's how close they were and how they cared so much about her.

"Yea, I'm meeting her tomorrow, I suppose."

'For what? Are you two getting back together now?' I wish but that's not the case is it, It more complicated than that.

"No, that's the thing" I sighed and scrunched my eyes in frustration. " She can't remember anything." It took a minute of silence before it sinks in to him and all I hear were his breaths and the loud thumping in my chest. Suddenly, he started laughing and it was making me so annoyed. He fucking thinks this is a fucking joke isn't he. "I'm fucking serious Trent" I spat.

'I don't believe you. Its just a fucking excuse Lizzie, just to avoid conversations about the past or maybe ignore a fucking mistake of letting you go two years ago.' On second thought, maybe I should've talked to the twins instead.

"Its not Trent, I'm being fucking serious right now. Scarlett told me the whole truth. not only Scarlett, Mackie also told me that she can't remember them when they had a shoot together. I though it was just an alibi like you said but this is different. She really doesn't remember anything." He continues to laugh but softer this time. Well, I really can't blame him. He's a guy, maybe that's just what guys do but Shannon's different. She fucking sucks at lying.

'Okay, how's this. Let her come to your apartment tomorrow to pick you up when mom and I have arrived. So I would have a chance to find the truth myself because to be honest Lizzie, I still don't believe a word you just said.' I groan in frustration. I really should've called the twins instead, God he's winding me up so bad. But if that's what he wants then fine, I'll give him what he wants.

"Alright then, I'll let her pick me up tomorrow here in my apartment. You asked for this."

'Alright then. I can't wait for this day to end really.' He chuckles again finding some kind of humor in the situation. I can't wait to see the look on his face the moment she comes here. I really need my camera ready  for that really. 'Anyway, besides that, why are you so worked up on meeting her tomorrow?' I know clearly what's the answer to that but I don't know if I should tell him the reason why.

" I don't know, I know its been two years but-"

'You still love her don't you?'

"No" It was an automatic response and it sounded pretty defensive but I try my best to stick with that mindset. I'm just helping Shannon as a friend and nothing else. Am I? I don't know.

'Elizabeth Chase Jones Olsen, do you still love her?' He demands this time in a more serious tone and that tone somehow scares me so I couldn't do anything but tell him the truth.

"Yes, maybe, I don't know." I whispered almost to myself sounding so unsure or am I? Sometimes I question myself if I still love her and I would always have that three choices of answers in my head. Yes, maybe and I don't know. My first choice would always be, I don't know and that's just me being defensive to that specific question but that doesn't do me any good. The next would be maybe and that's just me trying to convince myself that maybe I'm not in love with her or maybe I am but that will just lead me down to the final truth and that is yes. I still do love her. I don't think I even stopped loving her.

'You don't know?' He questions with a hint of uncertainty in his voice. Yup well, even I'm unconvinced with my answer. And I really wish our situation is much easier than this but as I said we don't always get what we want in a blink of an eye.

'You know sis, there's nothing wrong in admitting you still love her. I personally don't have a grudge on Shannon because she's a good person and has the purest intentions that's why I love her but the question is either what you said earlier is true or not. Does she still loves you?' The thought of that runs in my mind every day since the moment I found out that she's back. But there's also a possibility that she's not anymore and that is like a seventy percent chance knowing she doesn't remember anything about us except for me being a celebrity to her. All of our memories washed away, according to Scarlett that is.

"I don't know Trent my head is just all over the place and I really can't think straight right now."

'Alright, but if you're worried about us then I'm telling you now, I'm still good with Shannon and to be honest, I really can't wait to see her tomorrow. Do the twins know about this already?'

"No, I haven't talked to them yet. Maybe after this." I sigh knowing I still need to talk to the twins about this and I'm really having second thoughts. I know they still love Shannon but at the same time they want me to just move on from her so its really hard to expect that they're okay with this. But either way, they still have to know.

'Okay then, I'll tell mom about it. I need to go, I still need to pack up. Are you gonna be okay?' I smile at the switch of his tone. Gentle and full of concern like a big brother should sound like which is more I like it.

"I guess so, I'll see you in the morning then. Do you need Jake for security?"

'Nah, we're good. Our flight is too early for paparazzi to be awake snapping some fucking photos. But I got it.'

"Alright then." I sighed as I lay my back on the bed feeling the comfort of it and it was helping me to relax and just calm down.

'Just take it easy Lizzie, okay. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye.' And with that he hangs up still leaving me thinking what could possibly go wrong tomorrow. I'd like to think that having my brother and my mom with me tomorrow, when she comes over, would really give me that confidence boost but I'm not so sure about that right now and I'll bet a hundred dollars that the twins will come rushing in here the moment I tell them what will happen tomorrow. God, I just wish she wouldn't freak out with all of this.—————————Shannon's P.O.V.'Okay, you just have to suck it up Shannon. These people already knows you so just chill out.' I silently say to myself as I sat quietly behind an Uber on my way to Elizabeth's apartment with a bouquet of flowers sitting next to me. I know the flowers are a bit too much but I just want to thank her for taking some time to deal with my shit so maybe the flowers will make up for it.

She texted me last night and it turns out her whole family wants me to pick her up in her apartment today and I'm guessing they're all gonna be there. I really don't know what to feel to be honest, I'm nervous in some kind of way I have never felt before. Its like having to go on the first day of classes in preschool knowing you're parents are not gonna be there with you but at the same time you're excited because you will get to meet new faces. That's exactly what I'm feeling right now and I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

I'm staying at Casey's apartment right now and we talked last night about the not telling me the truth thing and she was guilty about it. She said it was a mutual decision between the three of them not to tell me about my past because my depression was really on the worst stage and they were scared that I might go back to that era of my life. I forgave her just like I did with my parents and was even supportive when I told her about today.

She told me a few things about me and Elizabeth this morning, like how she knew about my mental health and had been living with it since day 1. She also told me how we met back then and I think all the blood run up to my face the moment she was finished telling me the story. Its embarrassing really because based on how she said it, I really did make her do the first move. She also told me how she loves watching her take care of me and how perfect our relationship was that I have given her my grandma's ring. I didn't believe it at first but she insisted that its true that's why she didn't really expect us to split. So this is serious, I might be that in love with her that I have given her Grandma June's ring. But why did I broke it off if I knew she was the one for me. I need to understand that. I don't know why but I feel like I need to for some unexplainable reason.

That's also one of the reasons why I am nervous right now. It is the fact that I will come face to face with my 'supposedly' soulmate and the love of my life without any clue of who she is and that is what I'm about to find out right at this moment.

We pulled over in front of a huge building and I was amaze at how beautiful its is. I know I've walk through these streets before but I never really noticed how huge these buildings are. I got off the car immediately with the flowers in my hand trying to compose myself. This building looks so expensive and I wonder who else lives here. Well here goes nothing, I guess. I took a deep breath and walked into the building. The security greeted me with huge smiles on their faces which is a bit awkward but I just smiled back. That was weird, have I been here before? Probably.

I took in a deep breath as soon as I stepped into the elevator and pushed the right floor of her apartment. I step backwards until my back hits the railing and watch as the numbers go up and for some reason, I'm starting to feel my nerves building up inside of me the closer I get to her floor and I really don't get nervous like this meeting up with a woman. Well, that's the thing is it? She's not an ordinary kind of woman. I'm meeting up with the Elizabeth Olsen who is in fact the only ex girlfriend that I can't fucking remember and also she's a high profile celebrity, really well known in the industry. How nerve wrecking is that? not to mention her whole family is with her.

Ding!

Shit, here it goes. I stepped out of the elevator dragging my feet against the dark carpeted floor looking side to side while looking for her unit. She told me it was the second door near the fire exits on my left side. Every step comes with huge effort this time with my body getting heavier as I get closer to the right door, Its like I have weights on my ankles weighing me down. What is wrong with me? Well, I can do this right?

I stood in front of her door, frozen on my spot. The hallways are quiet, too quiet and its hard to believe that people here don't make noises in this time of day. Its almost two in the afternoon people are somehow or most probably are awake by now so I'm guessing the rooms here are sound proof.

I let out a deep breath pushing the thoughts behind my head and raise my hand to knock on the door. I can feel my heart beating loudly in my chest like bass drums through my ears. I stand here and wait with sweaty palms and cold feet. God this is so stressful.

I was about to knock again thinking they might've not heard it but then the knob suddenly starts shifting so I retrieve my hand and stood back waiting for the door to open and when it did, it revealed a man who has the same height as me, a mustache and a beard with a USA 1984 red cap on. He stared at me from head to toe and for a second I thought I knocked on a different room.

"Uh, I'm sorry, wrong door. I think I might be a little lost" I smile nervously and curse myself under my breath feeling my cheeks heat up in embarrassment. He leans against the door frame and stares at me. It was strange really and I'm starting to get uncomfortable with the look he was giving me so I decide to just go. Maybe I should just call her instead."I'm really sorry for disturbing you. Goodbye." I said politely not trying to be rude or something. I was about to walk away when I hear him say.

"Wait!" I stopped and slowly turned to him. I can feel my heart thumping in my chest as walks to me. Oh shit! I might've offended him in some way. Did I do something wro- Everything stops. Manly arms around me squeezing me tighter that it was getting harder to breathe.

"Hey, its me." He says, like I was suppose to know who he is. But I don't know who he is. I don't even know if I'd been here or not for me to know who he was. Not being rude or anything, my hand slowly reached to his back and tapped in softly not knowing what to do. I'm so confused right now.

He pulls away after a while with a huge smile on his face holding me on both of my shoulders. I stared at him. Trying to figure if I've known him from somewhere other than here. If I talked to him in a coffee shop or something and just didn't recognize him, but I really got nothing.

"I-I'm sorry, have we met before?" I whispered softly. His face falls in an instant and I was starting to panic. Did I offend him or something. I was expecting him to be mad or what but he just smile sadly and I felt bad. God, I feel so bad about it.

"Yup, I know you alright." He says in a sad tone before tapping me on the shoulder and putting his arm around me slightly pulling me to the room and for some unexplainable reason, I let him. We entered a rather huge modern minimalist apartment. This is more spacious than my house really and this is just an apartment. White walls with random paintings hanging on them, a few expensive looking porcelain vases decorating the shelves along with books that looks more like a decorative than something you can actually read, plants on every corner of the room complimenting the light maple colored hardwood floor. This is not just an apartment of a random stranger, this is.

"Lizzie, she's here!" The man beside me calls. Lizzie, that's her right. Is this her apartment. My grip on the flowers that I've been holding grew tighter and I might've apologized silently for hurting them but I really can't help my nerves building up. I'm confuse and I really don't know what's going on.

"Oh, sorry. I'm Trent by the way, I'm Lizzie's brother." He smiles squeezing my shoulder. I smiled nervously at him trying to recall if my parents, Casey or even Scarlett have mentioned him in their stories. "Oh God, I missed you." He says again pulling me in a tight hug, well these people are huggers and for some reason I'm kinda digging it. And then it hit me.

"Oh God, are you Elizabeth's brother?" I asked cautiously finally finding my voice. He pulls away immediately and looks at me with hopeful eyes.

"Yes, I am." I felt the blood shoot up to my face in shame again. Maybe its a different brother but the question is does she have another brother so I asked.

"Are you her only brother?" He looked at me in a weird way but kept the smile on his face. He nods in agreement and that was it, He was the one my mom is referring to, the one I punched when I had a black out. Oh God, well this is awkward. He pulls away completely as I took a step back smiling nervously at him looking a bit flustered at the moment.

"Are you okay?"

"Uh, I'm sorry." I whispered. " Did I punched you on the face before?" His eyes sparks with hope. He looks more happy than mad at what I just said. He smiles and says.

"Well yes, do you remember?"

"My mom told me I punched you that's why-" I was cut off by footsteps getting louder and louder with some soft argument happening with it. The Olsen twins comes in to view and followed by who I think is their mom and then there was her. Everything stops again. I think even my heart stops at the sight of her. She's absolutely beautiful.

For a moment, I've forgotten that there were other people in the room. Its like everything fades around us and my eyes were only set on her. I stared at her and admire her gorgeous face.  She seems surprised as I was but she smiles and slowly walks over to me. I was stuck, probably looking like a dumbass fool gawking at her. But how can you not when you have an absolutely beautiful angel staring back at you with those bright jade eyes. Its too powerful I can feel myself getting lost in them like in a trance or something.

The sound of someone clearing his throat pulled me out of my daze. But I didn't took my eyes off her. She slowly smiles and I can't help but mirror her.

"Hi, I'm Shannon." I whispered holding my hand out to her, she looks at it for a second before slowly taking it and  as soon as our hands made contact with each other, I felt something I couldn't put my finger on. Some kind of electric shock, it was strange but it felt good. Her hands are cold and soft maybe she's nervous as I am.

"Hi" She smiles but this time with a hint of sadness in her eyes. Why is she sad? The flowers, God I completely forgot. This will make her feel better. I took a step back and raised my other hand holding the bouquet of flowers to her.

"Uh this is for you." She stares at it for a minute and in that span of time I was having second thoughts on bringing flowers on our first meeting, that maybe it'll be so cheesy for her. Do I bring her flowers before? I was about to withdraw them but then she smiles sweetly and slowly takes it from my hand, which is a total relief on my side. A sound of 'aww's were heard in the room making me look at her sisters and her mom. They had this huge smiles on their faces, looking at me with hopeful eyes same as what I saw in Trent's eyes.

"Right, uh." Elizabeth whispers as she steps aside holding the flowers closer to her and that made me smile in someway and felt a fluttering sensation in my chest. "This is Mary Kate, Ashley and my mom Jarnie and that is Trent."

"Yea, she knows me" He says making me turn and look at him and he just winked at me. I took a step forward to say hi to the twins just to be pushed back by them throwing their arms around me. It caught me by surprise really and I just froze.

"Oh God, We missed you so much!" One of them say and that made me smile and loosen up a bit. By the looks of it, I think I really had a close relationship with her family. They pulled away after a while as their mom walks over to me cupping my face in her hands.

"We really missed you Shan. Its nice to see you again." She gives me a kiss on the cheek and puts her arms around me and in that moment all I feel is comfort. Its a feeling I get whenever my mom hugs me too. I guess that's really what feels when mothers hug you so I let myself melt in her arms and it felt really good.

"Its nice to meet you too Mrs. Olsen" I whispered as I pull away. She shakes her head and takes my hand in warm ones stroking mine with her thumb.

"Jarnie's good dear." She smiles. I nod and smile. I'm quite relieved really on how warm they welcomed me. Its a strange feeling meeting people who actually knows me better than I do but I'm getting a hang of it so I think that's good.

"So, where are you two heading today?" Trent asks. My eyes the travelled to Elizabeth who looks at me, still holding the flowers close to her and that made a smile automatically formed on my lips.

"We'll have lunch and maybe just go around the city after." She says taking another glance at me asking for some kind of approval on her not so planned plan so I just gave her a smile and nod.

"Alright then Shan," I looked at Trent and saw a serious look on his face and the thought that I punched him came rushing back to my mind. I think that guilt will remain forever in me even though I really don't know what really happened in that moment. "Bring her back before midnight okay?"

"Trent!" Elizabeth exclaims making me chuckle. Trent gave her a serious look but Elizabeth just rolls her eyes at him.

"Don't listen to him-"

"Yea, I'll bring her back before midnight. If that's what you want." I smile before looking at Elizabeth again. "But don't worry, She's safe with me."