chapter 16

think about it ? what ? what am I supposed to think about . think about how I am right and she is wrong? sometimes I really hate bella . I love her . but sometimes she can be a little too confusing.  i heard a knocking on my window so i walked over to it and opened it up you cannot be serious . " rocky ?!" i asked in a high pitched voice . " hey Hollister " he grinned broadly . " OH MY GOSH HOLD ON "  i said excitedly . i ran down the steps and through the living room to the front door that lead me outside to rocky . " ROCKY !!!!!!" i held my arms open for him to hug me . dispite my weight rocky lifted me over his shoulder and hugged me to death while spinning me round in circles ." rocky stop it " i giggled . " mmk " he set me down on the earth again but put his hands on my shoulders . " how are you " he asked . " i could be better honestly " i shrug . " where's Haley i haven't seen her around " he asked . " that's because she is on a TV show in California she left me a year after you guys did " i tell him . " and Hannah " he asked . a lump grew in my throat automatically . " would you , would you like to see her " i ask he nods . we get in his car and i give him the directions to the graveyard only he didn't know where we were going . he finally pulled into a parking spot and we both got out . " so she works here huh ?" he asks . " not exactly " i sigh . i lead him through the graveyard but a mysterious figure was standing above my sister's grave . what ? " who the " i mumbled . " no firkin way" rocky said in shock . he was taking in that Hannah died . i was more focused on the figure . i pointed out a tall figure that was skinny and muscular . it was a boy . and he was deffinantly wearing converse . as i got closer i made out the figure . it was ross . but what was he doing here . " i -i am so sorry for your loss Holly " rocky . " it's okay . i couldn't save her " i frown . " how did this happen " he asks .

FLASHBACK 

" ahhh " Hannah tripped over a huge rock . her phone which was in her hand slid and cracked into the street . she pulled herself back up and started running in the street . " HANNAH WHAT ARE YOU DOING !!" I ask worried . " getting my phone . " she shrugged . I saw headlights in the near distance , " HANNAH GET OUT OF THE STREET!" I YELL ONCE MORE . she picks up her phone and starts to walk back to me . but it was to late a car hit her and drove away . " HANNAH !" I screamed running over to her . " HANNAH ! HANNAH NO PLEASE NOOOOO !!!!!!" I cryed . " HANNAH !" everyone ran over to me  and Hannah as lifeless as possible . " 911 !!!! MY DAUGHTER HAS GOTTEN HIT BY A CAR AND SHE ISN'T MOVING COME QUICK !!!!!!" dad called . a few long minutes sirens came and we as climbed in the ambulance that took us to the hospital . we sat in the waiting room . taping our feet rapidly . squirming around . breathing as fast a possible . heart beating fast enough to explode . " Hannah Thomas " asked a nurse . we all stood up . we followed her in front of Hannah's  room  . she held her clip board close with a sad frown on her face . " I am so so sorry , but Hannah has internal bleeding close to her heart and a punctured lung . she is banged up pretty bad and there is only a 2 % chance she will make it " she said in sorrow ."

END OF THE FLASH BACK

" when i was let in to see her i begged her to stay with us . i told her i loved her like a normal person does when a loved one is in that position of dying . the monitar became straight and i was carried away . and i couldn't save her . i was stuck outside to  cry . and she didn't make it  . she died then and there . the funeral was the last time i saw Haley in person but that never mattered to me . i lost my sister . and there was nothing i could do . and it was all my fault , because i didn't stop her . i should have just c-chased after her but i didn't "by this point ross and rocky were listening to the story . i hadn't realized i was crying but i know why . i felt like i had re-lived that day . it was just too much for me . " i am so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry Holly i should have been there for you " ross hugged me . i cried into his shoulder . " what are you gonna do " i shrugged . " Holly i can't imagine how tough it was , i wish i could have been there " rocky frowned . " it's over now . " i sniffle wiping my nose . " ross " i remembered . " yea "he asked . " why were you here " i question . " i never gave Hannah a proper visit . and i thought i should -" my phone cut him off . i lokked at the caller ID

shane <3

i looked at ross sheepishly . i gotta take this sorry . i answer him . " hey " i said cheerfully . " hey Holly " he replied . " whats up " i asked him . " Holly i have liked you for sometime now . i was wondering if you would like to see a movie together . just one chance and if not then im completely fine with it . please " he asked . " hmmmm let me think about it ........OF COURSE I WOULD !!!!!!! so the whole ross thing . " he asked . " don't worry about him . we just patched up nothing more i promise " i tell him . " do you still have feelings for him " he asked . " kinda , i don't really know . but he is gonna leave soon " i tell him . " okay " he sounded happy . " bye shane " i said perkly . " bye " and the line went dead .

ROSS'S POV

" hey ......... whats up ........... hmmmm let me think about it OF COURSE I WOULD !!!!......... don't worry about him . we just patched up nothing more i promise ............ kinda i don't really know , but he is gonna leave soon ........... bye shane !" and she hung up . " who-whos shane " i asked . " he is this guy bella set me up with . he just asked me out " she replied like it was nothing . my heart broke a little . " wh-what did you say " i ask her . " OF COURSE I WOULD !!!!!!" she mimcks herself . : and who's leaving " i asked . " i am , i will be in the car " rocky awkwardly backs out . hmm forgot he was there . " you are " she shrugged . " WHAT ?" I asked . " ross you know it's true . you don't live here anymore . you live in California . " she tells me with the truth look on her face . i had no words . " you didn't think after we made up i would come with you back to California did you " she asked . i stayed silent . " that's not life ross . you may live in the big city now . famous or not you need to live reality . i may not have moved on but i have a life here . i have my family . i have school . i have shane . " she tells me . i officially hate that name every time she mentions it i feel like poison. " well you know what , you can stay here with your stupid shane , like he was anything like what we had " i roll my eyes angry now . " he is not stupid ! and he is way better then what we had , you just left . no goodbye . no thought . just stupid ol' you . your the stupid one ross not shane . he did nothing so leave him out of this !" she defends . " how " i asked crossing my arms . " how what " she narrows her eyes . " how is he better " i shrug " we cared about me . " she says softly . this got me furious ."  I CARED ABOUT YOU !!!!!!!" i screamed . " NO ROSS . YOU DIDN'T ! THOSE FUTURE LETTERS I NEVER MADE IT IN THERE .!!!!!!!!!! AND HE DIDN'T JUST LEAVE ME ! LIKE YOU . GLAD YOU GOT YOUR WISH ROSS ! IM STILL TRYING TO GET MINE " she screams back . "  DO YOU THINK I WANTED TO LEAVE YOU ?! DO YOU THINK I WANTED TO LEAVE YOU A NOTE ! I WAS SO CAUGHT UP IN OUR FUN , AND HOW THE SNOW SHIMMERED ON YOU THAT I FORGOT . I WAS 12 HOLLY . I WAS A 12 YEAR OLD CRUSHING ON YOU !" I yelled at her . " well we were both stupid at the time . i can't believe i was crushing on you . i was crushing on you too . but now i feel so stupid . i mean what was i looking at ? you ? and now here we are saying we are gonna start over and you complain about me . i still had a life without you ross .  BELIVE OR NOT I HAD TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD . IT WASN'T THE LIFE I WANTED BUT I LIVED WITH IT ! AND NOW YOUR COMPLAINING THAT I CONTINUED LIFE , MET PEOPLE AND CRUSHED ON THEM . I NEVER WENT OUT WITH ANYONE THAT ASKED ME OUT BECAUSE OF YOU . BUT YOU GAVE UP AND WENT OUT WITH AMBER . BUT WHY AM I NOT ALLOWED TO .  because your a pop star that wants it all . the little Disney star wanting what he wants . well last time i checked you can't have everything . i learned that when Hannah died . what if you lost rydel ? your only sister with you ? but no . sorry ross " she turns away and marches to her car . what ! its not like that . " you just don't understand " i mumble . i turn to Hannah ." bye , sorry i made your sister this way " and i walked off in the other direction . why can't she just be coraprtive . she is so head strong .   honestly , i just want this to be over . if she doesn't want me back , then she doesn't want me back . but i love her and it hurts me to see her move on . i wonder if this is what it was like when she saw amber and i . i just wish i could go back . go back to fix all of this . but i can't just like Hannah nobody can go back to fix the past .  Hannah's dead . but our friendship isn't dead yet . just ingured . i know what i need to do to fix this . i just hope it works .

ooooooh what do you think ross is planning ? what should ross do to win back Holly ???? tell me what you think . i want to know ! thanks for reading ..... I decided to go ahead and publish is chapter because I can' wait so here it was

~kate