Chapter 98

Chapter 98: (Eminem's Point Of view!!)

 * Two months later!! (July 11, 2006)*

 "Just leave me alone." I said.

"What?" Helena asked.

 "Did you not hear me? I said leave me alone.

“I said as I looked at her.

"Really?" She said all angry about it.

 "All I asked is if you wanted to go out to eat. All you do is drink and eat all that damn junk food." Helena said.

 "Well I don't want to go anywhere." I quickly said.

 "Marshall." Helena said then started walking towards me.

 "No. Helena please." I said as I turned around.

"Why won’t you just talk to me!?" She said.

 "Talk? Talk about what?" I said as I looked down.

 "Whatever you are feeling. It’s not good to hold everything in." She told me.

 "You held everything in with Madelyn. You wouldn't talk to me either." I quickly said.

 "Marshall, I got help for that. I went through the same thing you’re going through. You can get hel-" Helena said then I cut her off.

"I don't need any help!" I screamed.

 "Marshall... Your daughters are down stairs don't start." She calmly said.

"I am here with you okay. I stopped the tour just to be here with you... For you. What’s going on? You can talk to me." She said as she walked a little closer to me.

 God I am such a fuck up.

 "Nothing’s going on. I lost my best friend. I don't need to talk to anyone. You can start up the tour again... I don't need you." I said as I kept looking at the floor.

Helena just stood there silently for a while. I felt like such a prick. I know I am hurting her but I don't want her finding out about the drugs. She thinks I have been drinking which I have but barely any. Since I take Valium, Vicodin and Ambien I sleep most of the day and the Xanax makes me feel hungry all the time so I eat a shit load of junk food.

"Okay." She said then I felt her put something on the bed.

"Happy Anniversary too." She said then walked out.

Shit!

(Helena's Point Of View!!!)

 I quickly walked downstairs. I had a knot in my throat from holding back the tears. The girls were in the living room watching TV.

 "Girls lets go." I said as I walked in.

"Where?" Alaina asked.

"Out to eat." I quickly replied.

"With Dad?" Hailie quickly asked.

 "No honey. Your dad feels a little sick. We will bring him something back okay." I explained to her.

 Hailie just nodded her head. We walked out and got in my truck.

"Where do you girls want to go?" I asked them.

 "Umm Olive Garden?" Alaina said.

 "Okay Olive Garden it is." I said.

 The whole drive there I had the horrible knot feeling in my throat. I didn't want to cry in front of the girls so I tried my best to brush it off. Once we went to Olive Garden we went in and I asked to be seated in the back. We were escorted to our seats then we ordered our food.

"You know me and your dad got married exactly one year ago." I said as I looked at them.

"Oh yeah. Then why isn't he here?" Alaina asked.

 "Because he doesn't feel good. Ever since uncle Deshaun went up to heaven to be an angel dad has been really sad. He misses him a lot." I told them.

 "He's an angel like Madelyn?" Hailie asked me.

 "Yeah." I said as I smiled at her.

 "She would have been 1 and a half?" Alaina asked.

 "Yeah in August she would have been two." I replied.

"But life moves on. We have to be strong and keep those who have left us close to our hearts." I told the girls.

 "Yeah." Whitney said as she smiled at me.

 Our food came and we ate.

 "It was really good." Hailie said when she finished.

 "Yep it was." I said.

 Once we all finished we headed home.