Chapter Six: That Was Worse Than I Expected It, But At Least You Were Here

I knew something was wrong. I was standing in a field of flowers and the sun was shining down on me, I smiled to myself and twirled around. I felt the swish of fabric on me and looked down, pulling on the dress that was wrapped around me. The dress was beautiful. It flowed straight to the floor and formed a puddle around my feet. The straps felt like they crisscrossed on my back and the front was heart shaped. It was pure silk flowing over me.

I walked and had to pick the dress up to even move as much as I wanted to.

“Esmerelda.” I heard a woman say. I looked up to see a woman also dressed in white, but she had sleeved and a square neckline. She was definitely beautiful. Her red hair fanned down her back in beautiful waves and she immediately reminded me of my gran. My gran was that beautiful with the same loving and curious gray eyes.

“Grams?” I asked the figure in front of me. She nodded. I felt tears clog my throat and flash before my eyes.

“Where are you grams? Where am I?” I ask her.

“You are in the spirit world. You are not dead, though you are not alive either. I came down here to help you figure out where you wanted to be right now.” She answers and moves closer. I stand in front of her with tears sliding down my face. I felt her wipe one away.

“Grams I don’t wanna stay here. I wanna go back.” I whine softly.

“I know.” She nods. I choke a little and fall into her arms.

“How do I get back grams? He’s waiting for me.” I tell her. She pulls back and looks me straight in the eyes.

“Who is waiting for you darling?” she asks. I blush.

“Thor, I was with him when I got here… Oh grams! I’m being rude, I’m sorry!” I gasp as I remember it was Thor’s fathers fault for the death of her and her son.

“It’s alright. I’m fine with my death darling. Now, tell me about this Thor man.” She says and begins to walk. I follow her.

“He’s an amazing man grams. He’s smart and funny and loving and has a smile that just makes you all happy and gooey. He’s also a pain and arrogant and sometimes I just wanna slap him when he smiles like he holds all the answers to the universe!” I tell her. I knew she would laugh at the way I described him and she did. She even touched my hair.

“He sounds just like any royal.” Grams says. I nod.

“How’s Christian and Isabelle and mom and dad and gramps?” I ask her. I really missed them.

“Christian, Isabelle, and mom will see you one day. Gramps has been watching over you each and every day, but I don’t know about your father. I have not seen him.” Grams says, I can see the pain in her eyes of knowing her little boy was missing. I felt the same familiar pang.

“Grams, I have to know what’s happening to me.” I tell her.

“Of course. Darling in time you will find out what is going on with you, but right now you only have time for one thing.” She says motioning me to hurry up.

“What?” I ask her.

“Are you coming with me or leaving?” Grams says. I’m just about to tell her I’m coming with her when I remember what that entailed.

“I’ll die if I do that Grams.” I remind her. She nods and I pull away. “I’m sorry Grams, but I can’t do that.”

“I know. I love you Mezzy.” Grams says and comes and kisses my cheek.

“I love you Grams.” I whisper as a tear slides down my face. I watch her walk towards white gates and they pulled open for her. She walked in there and everything turned really bright. I turned my head away and then walked over to the field of flowers. I didn’t feel any different, except for that stupid tugging on my right side.

“Come on, wake up!” I heard a muscular voice growl and then I felt more pulling. What was going on? I struggled against the tugging until it became too much.

“Esmerelda!” the same voice growled and a sudden jolt sent me straight into my body.

“AAHHH!!!” I screamed as I wrenched myself up. Immediately strong sure arms held onto my head.

“It’s alright Esmerelda. Lay down and rest.” Thor said. I looked at him and gripped his hand.

“I did it for you.” I whispered and then laid down,  closing my eyes and welcoming the darkness.

I woke up feeling really groggy and I hurt everywhere.

“Ugh!” I groaned as I sat up. I was in the same stupid hospital I’d been in before when I’d knocked myself out with my own energy.. Was that days, weeks, months, or years ago?

“Morning sunshine.” I heard Thor say. I turned to see him sitting in a hospital chair. From the looks of it he hadn’t moved from there in a while.

“How long have I been out?” I asked him, that question seemed to pain him.

“You were out for eight days before you died for ten minutes and then your heart beat came back up and then you woke up two days later saying something about doing something for me and then blacked out and you just woke up, so that was twelve days ago.” Thor says. It’s all too much for me to handle. I had to take twenty minutes to wrap my head around it.

“I’ve been out for twenty-two days!” I squeaked at him. He laughed a little.

“Yup.”

“How long have you been sitting there?”

“Twenty-two days.” I could tell her was being honest. He had no reason to lie, it wasn’t going to win him brownie points with me. I wasn’t into that.

“Why?” I asked. He stood up and paced my little room.

“In the beginning I just wanted to make sure you would live through that so I could ask you some questions, but then I realized after you died that I needed you alive. There’s something about you that I’m completely drawn to and I don’t know what it is yet. Now that I look at you and after what you said, I still don’t know.” He said. I stare at him.

“What did I tell you?” I asked him. He smirked a little.

“You told me, ‘I did it for you,’ and I wanna know what that means.” He says coming close to me.

“I can’t tell you that.” I whisper in my lap. I needed him to find out that I was that Esmerelda he thought he lost so many years ago. I needed him to understand that before I told him what I had been through, before I told him how I was standing here while everyone else was floating around wherever we went after this. Who knew where gods went? I wasn’t sure. I was sure that I didn’t want him to yell at me just yet about that.

“Why won’t you tell me?” He said, most likely frustrated.

“Because!” I yelled.

“Because what?!?” He yelled back.

“Because I need to know that I can trust you before I tell you anything!” I yelled at him, finally over him and his superior attitude. I don’t care that I could get killed for yelling at him this way, I was beyond ok with it.

“You don’t trust me?” He asked, shocked.

“Yes!” I huffed. This was hard, I was just throwing words at him to leave me alone, but they came out wrong. I trusted this man with my life.

“You’re confusing me.” He answers.

“Look I’m going to confuse you farther because what I’m about to say is going to be rude or whatever.” I said. I didn’t know until right then and there that we were sitting right next to each other. I reached up and cupped his face. His eyes drifted closed and I could tell he enjoyed my hand being right there on his face.

“I need you to figure something out for me to be able to tell you the truth. You need to reach far into your past and when you find out what I need you to find out I will answer every question you need me to answer, but until then I will hide things from you. It’s for your protection.” I tell him. His eyes connect with mine and I know without a doubt that he will find out.

“How do I find this out Esmerelda?” He asks. It’s so close to the question he’d always asked as a kid, ‘where will I find you Es?’ I gave him the same answer I used to give him.

“Where you always find the answers Thor.” I placed my hand over his heart and kept my eyes on his. I saw swift rememberance and then confusion and then he just sat there. I pulled away and he got up. I watched him mumble to himself and look at me four times before I couldn’t take it anymore.

“Thor what are you doing?” I asked him. He stopped walking. He stopped in front of me, yet not too close. I felt my stupid heart pick up and I knew he was making me turn all soft. I didn’t want to be soft!

“Es..” He breathed and then he was on me. I felt his lips connect with mine and I immediately wound my arms around his neck, tangling my hands in his hair. He moaned and pulled me off the bed and onto my feet. After a little while I felt his feet slide underneath mine. I pulled him closer and kissed him. In the back of my mind I felt the door open and then heard footsteps. Thor pulled away and we separated to see a man in the doorway. He had long jet black hair and grey evil eyes. His smile was of pure manipulation and cruelty.

“Well look who’s back.” Loki whistled.

Oh no…

Author’s Note:

Oh geesh Loki’s back J I wonder what pain he’ll put our lovely Esmerelda through.. I wonder what will happen with Thor and Esmerelda now??

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