Leave The Pieces When You Go

I woke up to the sunshine hitting me full force. I groaned and got up, reluctantly carrying myself to the bathroom. I stripped out of my clothes and stepped into the shower. I grabbed a bottle of body wash and applied it onto the wash cloth. It felt so great to wash myself off. It felt like I was washing away all the pain of yesterday. I washed my hair as well and stepped out of the steamy shower. I dried myself off and paused. Dammit I forgot to grab more clothes. I groaned and wrapped myself in the towel. I peered out of the bathroom and internally cheered. Sam must have been downstairs making breakfast, so I took this opportunity to grab a shirt.

I trudged downstairs wearing my denim shorts from yesterday and white t-shirt that found in my drawer. I had stepped into the kitchen and sat down at the island. Sam smiled at me and set a plate down. "Eat up. We are going out today." I nodded. Sam didn't seem to care that I was quiet. We ate our breakfast in silence and split up to get ready to go out. As I was doing my hair I couldn't help but think. Sam was adorable and sweet, he just had a problem with his anger. Maybe I could get him to be calmer and he would be the Sam I knew before? However, as much as I wanted to stay with Sam, there was a part of me who was the reason I kept a packed bag under my bed. In case I wanted to run away.

We decided to go to SushiWushi for lunch after a walk around Tokyo. They had some really good sushi, despite the rather childlike name. Sam ordered some kind of spheres made of spicy tuna and offered to share some with me. I turned it down and ate a bit of rice here and there, my stomach just wasn't up for food. Sam clucked his tongue and shook his head.

After lunch, we headed off to a quiet park and sat down on a bench. "Sam?" I glanced up at the taller boy, who looked down at me in return. "Yes?"My heart was pounding and my hands were sweaty, but I needed to ask this."Why do you hurt me?" I swear, if Sam was drinking something, there would be more of the drink of the poor birds in front of us than in its packaging. His sense sharpened immediately and he wrapped me in a tight embrace. "I'm so sorry y/n!" He sounded so defenseless, so meek. "I don't mean to but it's hard to control my anger." "It's ok Sam.. I forgive you." He twirled a strand of my hair as I forgave him. He smiled and hugged me again. "I promise that I will try to be calmer..." He smiled and kissed me. For once, I kissed back with meaning.

We we arrived at our house, Sam crashed on the couch, almost instantly falling asleep. I tucked myself in my room and locked the door. I grabbed Sam's iPad and searched up Taurtis on YouTube. He'd always make vlogs about his daily life and I would watch them to keep up with his wellbeing. The latest video was from last night. He looked really different. He looked tired and weary, almost as if he cried for days upon days. He stated that all that was wrong was that his friend left him. My heart broke at the sound of his sad voice. I had to go see him, even if Sam would get angry. I made sure I had some important things in my bag.  All I had to do was lie and say that I was going to see family. I would sneak out tonight.

<~11 PM~>

Sam was asleep. Perfect timing to leave for a bit. I grabbed my stuff and tiptoed down the stairs. I was about to make it to the door when I was stopped. "Oh my darling y/n... Why are you leaving me?" Sam sat on the couch, picking up a cup of tea and taking a swig. He raised an eyebrow and cocked his head. I could practically feel the color draining from my face. "I-I'm just going to visit family." He slammed the cup down, causing it to break. The tea spilled onto the floor and covered the broken pieces of the cup on the table."Don't you lie to me. If it was truly family, you would have left earlier." Sam started advancing toward me and my legs wanted me to fall to my knees. He glared at me. "Don't tell me that your going to visit him?" I shook my head. "Im going to visit Yuki and Soul. The train takes quite a while and I want to be there in the day. Not night Sam." I quipped, causing him to pause and sigh. He walked back to the couch and glanced up at me. "I love you Sam. I'll be back in a few days. Are you going to be okay?" He nodded. "Yeah, it's alright, I'll be fine. Don't worry about this heart of mine."I closed the door and headed to the train station.

-Sam POV- She doesn't know how much she breaks my heart. I watched her walk to the train station. "Just, leave the pieces when you go.." I whispered to myself. "Leave the pieces of my heart.."

---------------I hope you liked this chapter guys! It was kinda hard to write because of my writers block but I got it! I hope you enjoy!

☄Bye my Lovelies!!☄

P.S.- if you get the lyrics in here, please tell me! It's an older song and it fit with the story so I hope you can find it! (Hint: it's Sam's last sentence to the reader and the words he whispers to himself!)