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I don't want to do this , I can feel his aura , his energy , and it's affecting my concentration, his energy is heavy , I can feel sadness and sadness .

" seat " I said dryly pointing to a chair , it's was hard to think to breath to everything ." let me just say this Steve , I dont want to do this " I said " but , why? I know you hate him but it's not a motive , it's part of the mission" he says " why? You wanna know why, well because this is torture for me Steve , iam the one that will through his memories , even here just looking at him I can feel his energy, and it's a energy that I don't want to mess with " " why?" " because will fuck my mental health up , I can feel the sadness, and pain , it will end with my energy as well "  He stood silent "But since you want it that much let's do it , but then don't tell me I didn't warn y'all" I said " seat your damn ass in the fucking chair " I said aggressively

The last time I tried to do this ,to "clean" the trauma of someone, I almost lost my sanity, because those emotions and memories will be kept by my mind . I remember that I started to see everything dizzy , and my sister said that I fainted .

" calm down Y/N" Sam said " you will end hurting him"

" look at me Sam , do I look like I care ?" I said " sorry "

He was already in the chair when I stood in front of him .I was shaking, because first of all I didn't know what will happen, and second he's a men that I don't trust and I don't know

With my trembling hand I slowly put it against his forehead , I closed my eyes and concentrate.

I fell on my knees, screaming and crying, but I never took my hand off  his forehead , I couldn't, I need to see his mind clearly." AAAAAHHHHHHH " I screamed with purple magic around my hand I saw him falling from a train , and soldiers taking him , I saw him being tortured, and being trained to be a walking weapon .And I saw him before all the hydra situation, he was so different and he was happy , and I saw... I saw Steve too , they were inseparable, that was cute , but then a kind of bolt ran through my mind , I started to feel his pain in my own body I felt my energy disappearing until everything went black