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Chaerin's POV

(Night Time)

(Imagine she is sitting there. Credits to the rightful owner of the photo)

Just watching the waves alone makes me feel like we are going to an end. Our happiness will finally end. It was like we just felt it for a few days and we're finally giving it back. It was like we don't own the happiness we are feeling right now. I want to be happy but how can I be? A few minutes, it'll be the end of us. Both me and Felix will finally say good bye to each other. I don't really want to but I really can't. I want to fight for us but how? Just imagining how painful it is once the King kicked out Felix from the royal family. Besides, his Mom just woke up. It won't be good for her if she will know that her own son is willing to turn his back on them because of me.

I want to be selfish for once but I really can't. I don't want to choose my own happiness and make Felix's family suffer because of me. I don't want to regret anything that I will do. He deserves everything and he deserves all the love. I know just telling Felix that I am engaged to Hyunjin will hurt him, what if he sees the ring as an evidence? It will hurt him even more. I want to end everything here, tonight. I want him to be happy the next day and forget about me. I know he will be hurt tonight but I know he will stood strong and be fine the next day. While me, I deserve to suffer the rest of my years...

"Hey" Hyunjin sat beside me

"Hmm"

"Are you okay?" Hyunjin asked and I just looked at him "Don't think that I am acting like your fiance just because you said yes to me. I was just worried because you were spacing out the whole day. I don't think that's good. I hope you are doing great"

"I will be honest with you. I am not really okay and I don't think I will be fine. I want to tell you that one day, you can get mad at me for using you. I can't promise you the love you are hoping. I know it's Felix for the next more year and counting. Hyunjin, you can take back what you told me about your plan. I can just come up with another plan-"

"I am fine. I told you. I am okay with everything. It's my idea, I volunteered to help you and I wanted this to happen. I am not hoping that you will love me back. I clearly know that you love Felix more than you love yourself. But I want you to know, Felix will be marrying someone soon, he will be moving on from you and be happy. You should be happy as well. You also deserve it after all the sacrifices you are doing for him. Both of you deserve to be happy with or without each other" Hyunjin said and caress my back "It'll be fine. You just have to endure it tonight, I will do everything to remove the pain the next day"

I felt my tears fell from my eyes as I heard him say those words. Out of all the people, why does it have to be us? I mean we just wanted to live normally. Why? We are both seeking happiness and when finally found it. We can't even have it. We can't be with each other and be happy together.

And out of all the people who can help me, Hyunjin is the one who volunteered even though it will hurt him. I never expected him to do such and I would never expect him sacrifice his own happiness for me.

Hyunjin will save me but it will hurt him as well. He chose to help me and he clearly knows that I am not able to show him my love. I don't think I can love someone other than Felix, my world. I will be thankful to Hyunjin for doing this for me. I will pay him back for what he did and he is willing to do just to help me with this situation.

Just seeing the future, I am already feeling guilty. It may not show it but I know Hyunjin will sense that there is no love that will happen between us. I am just thankful and will always be thankful for what he is willing to do for me.

He put my hair behind my ear and smiled "I will go inside and call Felix in a few minutes. Be ready and say what you think you need to tell him"

I nodded slowly "I will be fine. I will just have to endure it tonight. I can do this"

He smiled once again and left me sitting alone. I looked at the waves and tried to calm myself from the sadness that I am feeling. Everything will be fine. The pain will go away one day and I will be happy as well.

"Chaerin!" I heard a familiar voice called a few steps away from me

I stood up and watched him walked towards me with a smile on his face. He doesn't know what will happen. I don't want to remove that smile. I don't want that smile to fade away.

How can I tell you?

It'll be over tonight, Felix...