Chapter Eleven: Sex, Drugs, and Heavy Metal !!

{guys im going insane}

"It's his isn't it?" Dave demanded. I laughed through my tears. He was so knocked it was hard to take him seriously. I pushed Donny away from me. I sighed and dragged Dave back into the venue. He stopped before we made it through the doors and pointed at Donny, almost falling over "touch her again, and I'm gonna kill you, Donny" he hissed angrily "i know what your doing! I won't fucking let you" i rolled my eys and pulled him inside. Just as I pushed him off to his friends, he passed out. A circle of them surrounded him. I groaned. They helped me get him back to the room, and they cancelled the show that night, and rescheduled it for the next day. I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him passed out cold on the bed. Hopefully he wouldn't remember anything. I didn't need him blabbing about a baby to his friends, after all it was sort of illegal. But it was definitely his, no matter what his high ass thought. I laughed again remembering it. His eyes snapped open. He grabbed my hand

"Jackie?" he asked and closed his eyes again

"Uhm, yes?" i asked and chuckled

"What happened?" i took a breath in and used my other hand to stroke his cheek

"You went to space" i said and he laughed

"Did i play the show there, too?" i shook my head. It was late. I started to cry again, but managed to keep it quiet and turn away before he saw me

"No, your doing it tomorrow" i choked out and walked briskly to the bathroom. I exhaled. Thank god he didn't remember. I had the overwhelming urge to just leave. To tell him nothing and get out of his life... i didn't need to make all this harder on him.

He followed me, wrapped his arms tightly around my stomach and rested his head on my shoulder. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back against him

"I'm so sorry, jackie" he said. He sounded hurt. His voice was scared.

"For what" i asked softly. He pulled me even closer to him. I could never get close enough.

"Your only seventeen... i've got you into this whole mess. Im sorry" he said, i started to protest but he licked my neck and kept talking "you'd be fine if you were just back with you mom... i've ruined your life. I've given you drugs, sex, and heavy metal. I've hurt you, i've made you cry, i've introduced you to people who could hurt you, and you aren't doing as well in school. Your just a kid, jackie" he said. He was crying. "You don't deserve this" i turned around in his arms and put mine around his neck and looked him dead in the eyes

"Im gonna slap you if you don't shut up" i said sternly "dave- you are the most amazing thing in my life. I could not ask for better because it doesn't exist. You hear me? I don't give a shit how it would be if i was with my mother, i'm with you and i'm not leaving. Ever again. We're gonna get married, raise a damn family, and grow old" i said quickly- not even realizing the words coming out of my mouth. I stopped for a second, then continued "and i won't be doing drugs for a while, anyways. Neither will you, and that isn't a suggestion, mustaine. Your not doing them anymore or i'm gone. If you think i deserve better, your wrong. I have all i could ever want and more with you, dave. I love you" he was stunned, and straight faced.

"You- you want a future together?" shit. I shouldn't have said it. I should have known thats not what he wanted.

"I'm sorry" i said quietly. He put his hands on my hips and pulled my waist to his. I couldn't meet his eyes. He wiped the tears from my cheek and forced my to look at him by grabbing my jaw and lifting my head up.

"I want it" he whispered "i want it" he repeated. I smiled

"Well you're going to get it..." i and looked down at my stomach "no more drugs" i whispered. I looked back up and his eyes got wide.

"You're-" he said, starstruck "no way, i thought that was just a weird dream..." i giggled softly and he kissed me passionately. It was full of joy. Pure ecstasy. I pulled away, smiling.

"Easy" i said then got somber "what if i can't do it" he raised an eyebrow and frowned. He was cute when he did that. He pushed some hair out of my face and behind my ear with a soft and swift motion

"I'll be with you the whole time," he said and stroked my cheek with his thumb, then touching my lips "you're the strongest person i know, except me, of course" he said and i laughed "there's no doubt in my mind you can do it" his words gave me warm comfort. They made me feel relieved, like i really could do it.

"Promise you'll be with me always" i asked and looked him in the eyes. My hand was gripping his shirt tightly, holding him close to me.

"I promise, that i will never ever leave your side, jackie" he said rather fiercely "you will not leave my sight for one second in all eternity. You're mine" he then kissed me. One of his hands was on my stomach, the other was on my back.

"Let's go to bed" i said and didn't even wait for a response, i just started walking and he grabbed my hand, following me.

"Jackie?" he asked me quietly as we got into bed. i turned and looked at him

"Yes, dave?"

"What the hell was donny doing there with you? And did i tell him i would kill him?" i smiled, but he had a good point. Why was donny there?

"I don't know..." i said "i went outside, and i was crying. And all the sudden he was just there" dave pulled me close to him and buried his head in my neck

"Hmmm" he mumbled, and fell asleep. He went out quick, but i didn't sleep at all. Around five in the morning, while i was just enjoying dave's sleeping company, there was a slight knock on the door. I slipped out of dave's arms and opened it. It was donny... he smiled

"Hey, jackie" he said louder than i wished. I pushed him out of the doorway gently and into the hall. I stared and waited for him to explain himself "so, where are you going to stay?"

"Excuse me?" he looked me up and down. I was only wearing one of dave's tshirts and a thong, and i wish i wasn't.

"I mean, he obviously left you, didn't he?" he asked and i pulled the shirt down awkwardly

"No" i said "he did not leave me" then donny laughed

"Oh, he will" he said "trust me. Let me guess, he told you he'd stay with you forever?" he asked and i nodded slowly "it's bullshit" he shrugged "he's done it before" my eyes got wide and i put my hand to my mouth, not believing it.

"Thats not true, donny. What the hell are you even doing here, anyways" i asked, angrily.

"It is... just-" he said and looked around "this isn't really the place to talk about this, is it" he muttered "come with me, i'll tell you everything" he said. I shook my head and went back in. I locked the door and sighed.

"Who was that" dave asked. He looked like he was about to take a shower, so i decided i would as well.

"Donny" i said "sort of weird, huh?" i said and took off my clothes. He smiled at me and took his off as well, then got mad.

"What the fuck was he talking to you about?" i shrugged and turned the water on, getting in.

"It doesn't matter" i said and managed a smile, putting my arms around his neck "what matters is this right now" i bit my lip then kissed him softly.

"You know," he said in a velvet voice once he pulled away "i wrote mechanix about you" he leaned in and bit my bottom lip. I blushed and rolled my eyes, smiling at him. He leaned in and whispered in my ear just before biting it "remind me why i wrote it" i blushed even harder and smirked. And boy, did i show him. After we were done we sort of just stood there, our arms wrapped around rach other, the water running over our faces.

"You'll be a good mom" he said after the long silence. I laughed a little.

"I guess" i said and changed the subject "how much longer on tour?" i knew the answer- two weeks. But I just didn't want to talk about the baby.

"Not much longer, and we'll be home, babe" he said and rubbed my back "mmm home" he sighed.

"How come you don't like donny," I asked him curiously. His arms tensed around me.

"Just stay the fuck away from him" he said angrily. I wanted to ask more, but I didn't want to upset him. He had a show soon.

"Come on" he told me after we'd gotten dressed and layed around being lazy for a while

"Where?" i whined "the show isn't for another three hours" he grabbed my hand and pulled me up from the bed. I groaned and he laughed

"To the store, stop whining" i groaned and leaned on his arm as we walked down the street to a little drugstore. It was dark and pretty shady looking. I felt bad for being so clingy to him, but he didn't seem to mind. I think he thought it was cute. I clutched onto his arm even more and he snaked his hand around my waist. We walked and he asked a worker, who was obviously tweaking, where we could find pepper spray. I scoffed

"Dave" I grumbled under my breath and he silenced me without words. I just knew he wanted me to shut up. The guy pointed dave in the right direction and he dragged me along. When we got back outside I let go of him. "David, what's that for" I said, frowning at him.

"I swear to god, if donny even so much as smiles at you, you use this on him" he said and handed it to me "i don't know what the hell he's doing here, but you aren't to talk to him anymore, hear me?" i rolled my eyes

"I can take care of myself" I protested and put it back in his hand, then started to walk back.

"Jackie" he huffed and caught my arm "i'm not bullshitting right now, don't talk to him" he said seriously. He looked more scared than angry, but he was still mad. I knew i wasn't going to win, so i took the pepper spray no matter how silly it was.