Confessions

"Whatever it is sis...but I don't think you did a right thing." Lucy said, sipping her tea.

Being alone in the Tower was something Rose never liked. She felt kind of insecure and yes, bored too. On top of that, her mind continuously found it's way to Loki. She couldn't ignore the restlessness surging inside her and that made her scared.

Restlessness was never a good sign for her. Never.

So to put away her mind away from Loki, she decided to get some fresh air. She wore her shoes and mask, braided her hair into a bun and left to meet Lucy. She was really glad to find Aunt there too.

After she blurtered out everything about her and Loki's fight and the bickering of today's morning, both Aunt and Lucy were clearly upset with her.

"Oh c'mon! Does that mean you support him more than me now? What about the way he had hurt me?" Rose asked, frowning.

Aunt shook her head. "Don't take it the other way child. We never said that what he did was correct but what if he was forced to do it? You should have heard his reasons dear. Maybe he is really guilty about it."

Rose kept quiet, repeating the words aunt has just said. She should have listened to him. She should have heard his reasons. But... isn't he the God of lies and tricks? What should she do?

"And on top of that, you wished him ill luck, Belle. How can you say 'I don't care' to him, while you hugged everyone and wished them luck? It was cold. Too cold response to come from you." Lucy spoke, sighing.

"God!" Rose groaned. "I came here to lighten up my mood but I think it was a bad idea..." She dropped her head in her hands.

"Rose!" Aunt exclaimed, hurt. "Don't behave like a rude child which you are not. I want you to listen to him and apologize when you meet Lemon." Aunt scolded her. Rose rolled her eyes at the nickname for Loki.

Ha! Lemon.

"I won't say sorry! It's his-" Rose was interrupted by her ringing phone. Tony was calling her.

"Answer the call and then I'll talk to you, young woman." Aunt said in a strict voice that made her gulp. 

Right. I'm screwed now...

"Hello Mr. Stark-" "Kid get back to the Tower immediately. A group of medical team is on it's way. They will reach within ten minutes. You guide them to the OT. Make sure that-"

"Woah woah wait Mr. Stark! Who's injured? What happened?" Rose asked alerted, pressing the phone tightly to her ear.

"I never thought he could be so stupid and reckless kid... I feel like- Hey! Lay down! Keep him down Nat! Don't let him move! Dammit!" Tony yelled at someone at the other end of the call.

Rose was growing impatient with each passing seconds."Mr. Stark who's -"

"Bye kid! Get to the Tower. We're coming." And with that, the call ended.

"What the hell?" Rose yelled, fraustrated.

"What happened? Why are you shouting?" Aunt asked as they stood up.

"Someone has got injured. I've to return to the Tower. A medical team is arriving." Rose answered, hurriedly wearing her shoes. She was about to rush out when Lucy catched her wrist.

"Rose... who-who is hurt?" Rose slowed down seeing the raw worry in Lucy's wide eyes. She was afraid about Steve.

"I don't know dear. I'll let you know. Don't worry... Nothing will happen to anyone. Anyone. Ok?"

Lucy nodded, hugging her tightly. Aunt kissed her forehead and muttered a small prayer over her head. "Go child. Lord is with you all."  Rose nodded and sprinted off.

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"This way please." Rose led the medical team towards the OT as quick as she could. As soon as they entered the room, they bustled into setting up the table and machines. Unable to just stand in a corner and wring her hands, Rose decided to help them.

"Do you want me to help?" She asked to a nurse who smiled and shook her head. "No need of that ma'am. Just relax."

Relax... I'm far away from relaxing.

Rose thought as the restlessness doubled inside her. "Do you know who is injured?" Rose asked to an another nurse who was fixing the blood bags and saline solutions.

"Sorry miss. We don't about the patient but we've been informed that he has lost enough blood."

Defeated, Rose hummed and walked out of the room.

She entered into her own room and splashed water on her face. All the worries and the restless feelings was tiring her out. She tossed herself on the bed and snuggled with the teddy. "Let me just close my eyes for a bit. They are burning..." She mumbled, closing her eyes. And within minutes, she lay sleeping. ..............................

Rose woke up with a sharp gasp and a thundering heart. "When-when did I fall asleep?" She rubbed her face and neck, but stopped when her hand brushed the pendant. It was warm and was buzzing. A sudden wave of nausea passed over her as she rushed to the bathroom to empty her stomach.

"What the hell is happening to me?" She mumbled, rinsing her mouth, the restlessness surging like anything inside her.

"Jarvis have they arrived?" "Just two and a half minute before Rose."

She rushed towards the OT and her eyes fell on Steve, Natasha and Tony pacing the corridor. She jumped on Steve, hugging him.

"Oh Jesus! You're safe!" She beamed but her smile dropped to nothing as she noticed his and Tony's solemn expressions.

"Who's injured?" She asked, stepping back. Thor and Hulk can never be tackled down. This only leaves...

Rose's face crumpled like a paper at the thought. Just then, Bruce rushed out of the OT. "He's calling for her! He won't surrender till he sees her!" Bruce blurtered and then his eyes met Rose's.

"Oh! Here you are! Come fast!" He grabbed her hand and dragged her into the room.

The sight made Rose wish she had never entered the room.

Thor and some medical attendants were tackling down a visibly weak and exhausted Loki who was trying his best to keep them away from him. His armour was stripped of his body, which was now covered with blood. Thick blood dripped down his chest and torso, dying the white sheet below, bright red.

"Loki! Look she's here!" Bruce yelled, pushing Rose towards him.

Loki snapped his head to face her and instantly stopped struggling. His watery and unfocused eyes met her brimming ones and a small smile spreaded on his mud and blood covered face. He extended a shaking hands towards her which she quickly took, stumbling towards him. She collapsed beside him, her body trembling like a leaf as the streams of tears flowed.

"Hi darling..." Loki whispered, his voice no longer smooth but now painfully rough. Rose couldn't reply but sob.

"You...you should have wished...aah!" His face contorted with pain and then again the smile was back on his soo pale face. "... wished me luck."

"I'm sorry Loki.... I'm so so so sorry! Sorry..." Rose sobbed clutching his hands that were too cold now.

"Don't.... don't be sorry Pudding...I am sorry Aargh!!" His back arched in pain. The doctors were already hooking him up with the machines and drip and blood bags.

"Sssh! Don't talk Loki... You'll be fine. You'll be fine..." Rose mumbled against his palm, her teardrops dripping on his hand.

"Will you mourn now for... for me?"

"Don't say like that! Please!" Rose wailed, cupping his bruised cheeks. "Nothing will happen to you! Did you hear that? I won't allow anything happen to you!"

Loki let out a sickly laugh or maybe tried to laugh because he ended up wheezing and spurting out blood. His breathing was becoming shallower with each passing seconds.

He kept his ears and eyes focused on Rose's words and face till his senses started to blur. Afraid that he's dying, he clutched Rose's hands more tightly.A nurse grabbed Rose's arm. "Ma'am you should leave now. His condition is worsening."

"NO!" Loki yelled with all the strength he had, at the poor attendant, startling her. "She. Stays." He growled like a wounded animal but calmed down by Rose who kissed his forehead. "I'm here. I'll be with you."

The strong drugs supplied in his bloodstream showed their effects quickly. His head started  buzzing and the pain numbed. He shook his head and gritted his teeth, to fight the sleepiness but his weak body failed him.

"Puddin'...stay with me...I say... I...I love..." His eyes fluttered closed as his head lolled. His grip around her hand loosened and then fell at his side.

Rose completely broke down, crying her heart out. Thor, without wasting a second, escorted her out of the room and wrapped his arms around her, engulfing her in a tight warm hug. Allowing her to cry as much as she wanted.

"It was my fault Thor! It was my fault!" She wailed, clutching Thor's Cape tightly. "I shouldn't have said those things to him...I should be there instead of him."

She kept repeating the same words and continued crying till she was tired enough to stop. Her throat was sore and rough. Thor picked her up with ease and carried her to the waiting room to join others.

"IS HE FUCKING CRAZY THOR!? WAS HE THERE TO FIGHT OR TO COMMIT SUICIDE?" Tony yelled as soon as Thor entered the room. Thor placed Rose beside Natasha and faced Tony.

"Trust me Stark, I have no idea why did Loki do that. I myself was shocked." Thor said, his voice surprisingly low.

"Let him wake up first. All can we do is to pray for him to get well. But we really didn't expect it from him..." Steve said, rubbing his face.

Rose was confused. She looked at Nat who was unusually quite.

"What are you all talking about? What did he do?" Rose asked, grabbing the attention of the males.

"He took a bullet for Nat. Still it was fine but what he did after that was not at all expectable..." Tony sighed. "He let his guard completely down and got shot more three times!"

Rose's heart dropped. "What!"

"He kept rooted at the spot waiting to be shot again when Steve pushed him away from the gunpoint and hit the gunman. It was as if he was waiting to die. And inspite of writhing in pain after getting shot four times, he was chuckling like a mad, holding his ribs. Now guess what, he has two of his ribs broken too!"

"I still don't have a single clue that why did he behave like this?" Steve muttered. All remained clueless except for a certain girl, whose stomach was somersaulting.

Rose got up and left the room silently. She passed the OT where still the doctors were trying to save the man who lay inside half-dead just because of her stupidity. She didn't stop.

She kept walking till she reached her room. She entered the bathroom, filled the bathtub with cold water and stepped into it with her clothes on. She sat, her eyes dry, face blank and mind whirling around.

The environment was soo silent. Not a single sound except for the drip of water drops in the tub from the tap. But inside her mind, she was fighting a battle. A battle against her own thunderous roars of thoughts and curses. The spiteful words she had spat out at Loki, kept echoing in her head.

"Stop! Stop spewing shits out of your mouth. I-I don't care! If you come back with a broken bone, I promise I would kick you at that particular spot. Now get out!"

"Goodbye Rose...""Go away! I don't care! Just keep it in mind Loki!"

And he's now suffering because of her. Others didn't know about it but if they come to know, what will they think of her? How will she face them? How will she face Thor?

The dripping sound of the water droplets faded. Her eyes started getting heavier and heavier. Her head started to droop. Black dots danced in front of her eyes. A robotic male voice filled the bathroom saying something but Rose didn't get it. The voice was muddled and muffled. But she didn't care about it.

She felt at peace. She felt calm.

Darkness spreaded her hands to engulf her and Rose almost embraced her when...

The door opened with a bang and pairs of feet rushed into the bathroom. Within a second, they quickly pulled out a semi-conscious shaking girl from the bathtub, dripping wet and wrapped her up in a thick blanket.

"Rose! Rose can you hear me? Sister speak!" Someone kept patted her cheeks. It was irritating.

"Ugh...sstop it." Rose croaked out, enjoying the warmth of the blanket. "She's in her senses Stark! But completely drenched!" The voice boomed, hurting her ears.

Someone hugged her. She leaned into the touch of the person, her mind becoming foggy with sleep again but the person shook her hard.

"Rose stay awake. Tony and Natasha are coming. Can you hear me?"

Wait! She knows this man. "SSteve..." She breathed out, her eyes still closed.

"Yes yes. It's me. Focus on my voice. Tell me your name."

Rose scrunched up her nose and after thinking for a moment... "K-74."

Steve hugged her tight. "No no! You're Rose. Rose...repeat it dear." "...Rose?"

"Yes that's right. You know Thor?" "...Thor?"

"Yeah! It's me sister! I'm Thor!" Thor boomed again, startling her.

"Slowly Thor! Don't yell in her ears!" Steve scolded, keeping his voice low.

Just then more feet entered the room and someone else kneeled beside her."Kid, can you hear me?" She heard a familiar voice.

"Mr. Stark?"

"Yeah!... You're gonna be fine."  Rose couldn't focus anymore now. Her head ached. Someone tilted her head to the side and a sharp sting in her neck made her jolt awake.

She peeled open her eyes and blinked rapidly till her blurry vision focused on the four faces staring at her, worriedly. Tony flashed a torch in her eyes. "It worked." He had an empty syringe in his hand that made Rose's skin crawl.

"Can you tell us something about yourself?" Natasha asked, looking into her eyes.

"What would I say? A nonsense question." Rose replied, staring back at them and then sneezed.

"Oh right! You made us worried kiddo." Tony sighed, hugging her. "Nat, help her to change."

After Rose dried up and changed into something else, Natasha made her sit beside her. "What happened?" Rose asked.

"Your senses were jammed. You couldn't respond properly. Blood pressure was high..." Natasha shrugged.

Rose hummed softly. "How's Loki?"

Natasha sighed. "Still critical. Bruce said with those injuries, it's a miracle that he still had blood in him."

"...the broken ribs?"

"Not two. Four. What the hell was he thinking? He could have died! He didn't even move back when the man kicked him in his chest."

Rose bit back her sob. "Is the surgery over? Can I meet him?"

"You said you didn't care about him. Why worry now?"

Rose eyes started stinging again. "I do care about him. I'm sorry... Nat I want to...say something."

"Sure sis! Anything!"

"You were correct. I think... I think I love him."

Rose waited with baited breath for Natasha to say something but didn't get any response except for silence. When she looked at her face, Rose found Nat's eyes wide with surprise and delight.

"Say something Nat!"

"Finally! My God! Finally you got it through your thick skull! I'm so happy for you Belle!" Nat hugged her tightly.

"But... I'm not programmed for this type of emotion. I mean he's a Prince and a God! I'm just a mere orphaned mortal with a hell lot issues. He won't love me back."

"Why don't you confess your feelings to him?"

"Can't you ask him on my behalf?" Rose asked back.

Natasha rolled her eyes at her stupid question. "No. This is your personal issue and only you have to solve it. Just say him everything. Maybe he reciprocates your love back."

"What if he doesn't?"

"Be positive. What if he really does but is a dumbo like you?"

Rose hummed. "So I've to tell him?"

"Yes Rose. I'm going for a power nap. Bye." And with that, Natasha left after ruffling her hair.

Rose huffed and sat pondering about the situation. "I don't know what should I do.... But at this moment, I should meet him once."

"Jarvis? Can I meet Loki?""I don't think-""Say no more. I'm going."

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"Miss, don't go inside." A nurse stopped her from entering the PACU. "Dr. Banner has strictly forbidden anyone to enter the room till the patient wakes up."

Rose's first instinct was to yell or flip her off but she maintained her composer. "I can meet him. Bruce won't say anything. Tell him that Rose-"

"Miss, he has forbidden specially you from going inside."

Rose frowned. "What nonsense! Let me enter!" The nurse didn't move.

Rose rolled her eyes. "Very well, don't blame me. You asked for it."

Before the nurse could ask what she meant, Rose placed her palms on either side of the nurse's head and the next moment, she lay sleeping on the chair.

"Sorry..." Rose muttered before entering the room.

The room was dimly lit up and heavy scent of anaesthesia and some other medicines lingered in the air. Rose walked towards the bed and stared at the figure with shining eyes.

She has never seen Loki look so vulnerable and weak.

His usually perfectly combed hair was now tousled up and messy, all over the the pillow and on his face. His face was still now covered in mud and blood.

They didn't clean him up properly.

Thick white bandages covered his torso with some small patches of red. Some small cuts decorated his left cheek and arms. Blood and saline solutions were continuosly supplied through the IV on top of both of his hands. His face looked so serene and peaceful. No edges of worries. No soft wrinkles of his frowns and smiles.

He looked hauntingly beautiful.

Rose brought a wet towel and a bowl filled with water and started cleaning his face. Very gently. Very slowly.  She took time to clean off every speck of dried blood, without touching the oxygen tube. With a wet finger, she gently brushed over his thin pink lips and smiled to find them so soft.

She intertwined her long, slender fingers with his longer ones and sighed.

"You shouldn't have done it Loki. How do you manage to make me so guilty every time? Do you know how bad it's hurting here..." She pointed at her heart. "...to see you like this? I'm sorry darling. I really didn't know that you would do something like this. I thought you had something in their in your skull."

She brushed away his soft locks of ebony black hair and kissed his cheek softly. After making sure that no one was looking, she placed her white glowing hand on his forehead, the warm healing waves flowing through his body.

She smiled seeing some colours return to his cheeks. The small cuts disappeared leaving no trace of existence. She took a deep breath and doubled the flow, quickening the healing process. The bruise on his chest started to fade. The ribs almost started to crack back to it's places. The bullet wounds were almost healed when...

"Stop it Rose."

Rose snapped open her eyes to find Loki's fingers wrapped around her wrist, his eyes wide open, looking up at her.

"Loki..." The name tumbled down her lips as a whisper.

"Stop using your powers like this. You will strain-" Loki was cut off by a sniffing Rose who threw her arms around his neck, hugging him tightly.

"Oh my! You're awake! Oh Loki!" She showered him with kisses all over his forehead and cheeks, tears flowing down her beaming face. Loki couldn't help but laugh softly. "You do care about me!"

Rose sobbed, nodding her head. "I do. I do. I'm sorry. I'm extremely sorry dear. I-I shouldn't have said those things to you... I swear I don't mean any of those. Please please sorry..."

Loki sighed, smiling weakly. "Oh my sweet Pudding. Don't say sorry. The fault was mine at the first place. I shouldn't have pushed you away like that. I really didn't-"

"No stop. We can talk about it later. First tell me how are you feeling?"

"I'm feeling like I've been shot thrice with two broken ribs." Loki grinned seeing Rose glare at him.

"You dipshit! Not thrice but you've been shot four fricking times with four broken ribs...and don't you dare to grin like that." Loki bit on his lower lip to hide the smile and slowly caressed her face.

"Oh! I seem to have made some calculation mistakes...but let me tell you something. You look so cute when angry."

Rose was ticked off. "Well trust me Loki Laufeyson, I'm about to get really adorable! Don't piss me off. I'll surely punch your perfect teeth out."

"Ooh! Really?" He smirked.

"Don't challenge me." Loki burst out laughing but stopped midway groaning loudly in pain, alerting Rose.

"L-Loki! Should I call Bruce? Can you hear me?" Rose asked, panicking and patting his cheek.

"I'm fine...fine. Fractured ribs hurts. I can't laugh." Loki muttered, in between deep breaths. "And what the hell is this?" He asked pulling at the oxygen tube and before she could stop him, Loki tore it off.

"Loki! Why did you tear it!?"

"It was irritating me. And what are these?" He stared at the IVs curiously. "And those." He pointed at the saline and blood bags, his trailing down to the tube connecting the IVs and those bags.

"Odin's beard! Is that blood?" Loki asked, eyes wide with shock.

"Yup it is."

"Why the in name of Norns, is that blood entering my body!? And that water!? Get it off me this instant!" He yelled, horrified.

"Shut up Loki! Calm down! You had lost enough blood. Those are for replenishing the lost blood."

"I don't need them! Get these petty things off me! They are irritating!"

"Don't you dare to rip them off Loki!" Rose threatened him.

"But it's itching..." Loki protested weakly, scratching his hand.

"I said no! Wait for Bruce. Till then don't touch them. You already tore off the nasal prongs..." Rose scolded him.

"You are a cruel girl."

Rose laughed. "I know that. Tell me something new."

Loki smiled. "You're the most beautiful, kindest, adorable, sweetest, caring, humble, soft hearted, open minded, strongest, modest and silly woman I have ever met." Rose felt her cheeks flaring up.

"Ah! You're blushing! Bless my cold heart!" Loki fluttered his lashes.

The blush deepened.

"Stop it Loki..." Rose murmured, averting her gaze. Loki chuckled and then winced.

Silence fell and Rose decided to speak up."Loki?""Hmm?"

Say it Rose...just say it. Deal with the consequences later. Just spit it out.

"Rose what? Are you in trouble?""Uh? No no. I just...uh...umm...""Pud, what is it?"

"Loki I think I sorta.... maybe hehe umm..." Rose laughed nervously, tucking away the loose strand behind her ear. "I was thinking...or.. well you know hehe er.."

"Rose. What is it?" Now there was pure concern on his face. "You are sweating. Are you scared?"

Rose sucked in a deep breath. "No... it's just that..."

"Hmm?"

"Maybe... maybe..."

Loki chuckled softly. "Maybe?" He asked, smiling.

JUST SAY IT!!

"I think I love you." She blurtered out in a single breath.

The smile slid down his lips like butter.

Rose couldn't face him. All she wanted was the ceiling to crash on her or the couch flying and hitting her on the head killing her. Or maybe the ground can swallow her whole.

"What...did you say?" She heard Loki ask, his voice barely audible.

Damn you Natasha! Damn you! Run Rose run!!

"Rose what did you say?" Loki asked again, his voice stronger now. He leaned on his elbow and propped himself up, his ebony locks falling over the side of his unreadable face.

"N-nothing. I'm just drunk." Rose shuttered and got up. "Steve is calling me. Bye." She was about to rush but luckily couldn't as Loki caught her wrist, yanking her back near him.

"Look at me." Loki said softly, touching her cheek. "I-I-I...""Rose look at me." She looked up and their eyes locked. "Say it again please."Rose gulped nervously. "I-I think I-I love you."

Loki smiled amused. "You think?""No no! I mean I think I-"

Rose couldn't complete her sentence. Sparks of violet and green flew out as their lips met.

Rose's eyes widened at this sudden uncalled thing but instead of pulling back, she melted into it, kissing him back with full force. The crystals buzzed and glowed. Loki ignored the stabbing pain in his wounds and wrapped his arms around her waist pulling her more closely. Rose found her fingers entangled in his hair.

After pulling back from the kiss, they leaned against each other's foreheads, breathing heavily, unable to utter a word. Rose broke the silence.

"Does that mean you love me too?" She asked, still a bit surprised.

Loki smiled and held her chin, trailing a finger over her wet, plump lips. "I love you Pudding. I love you with every fibre of my being. " he whispered, locking eyes with her as stars twinkled in her eyes.

"You're a good kisser... " Rose mumbled touching her lips. Loki chuckled. "Really? Am I? " He teased making her blush.

Rose bit her lips shyly, eyes trailing down to his chest and she freaked out.

"Loki you're bleeding!!" Rose gasped, pointing to a red patch on the bandage on his waist, that was increasing in size.

"It's ok my love... I am fine..." He collapsed back on the bed, sweat beads appearing on his hairlines.

"No no! LOKI! Stay awake." Rose panicked, and placed her glowing hand on the area, trying to heal it. Loki catched her fingers. "Don't do it. Don't use AAah!"

"Enough of it!" Rose swatted away his hand and placed down her both hands on the bleeding spot, forcing out her warm energy into him. Within minutes, the bullet wounds healed.

"Done yayy..." Rose cheered dryly, collapsing on the chair.

"I told you not to use your powers! Why don't you listen to me?" Loki scowled at her.

Rose shrugged, kissing his nose. "What can I say? I'm always a disappointment."

They both yawned at the same time. "Sleepy my Prince?" Rose asked, ruffling his hair. "Yes my princess... Care to join me?" He smiled lovingly at her.

Rose blushed and then laughed. "The best day of my whole life.""The best day of my life..." Loki repeated.

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Bruce entered the PACU to check on Loki's vitals. He frowned seeing the appointed nurse drooling on the chair outside of the room. Murmuring under his breath, he stepped into the room but stopped, gawking at the scene.

"Jarvis call everyone down! Fast!"

Within two minutes, all stood staring in front of them.

Loki and Rose lay on the hospital bed, her head on his chest, his head buried into her hair, his arms around her waist and legs interlinked. Fast asleep.

"Am I high?" Tony murmured.

"Impossible!" Steve gasped.

"I knew it." Natasha smirked."Mhmm." Bruce nodded.

"I'm soo happy!" Thor sniffed.

At last after so many years, Loki found his peace in her arms.At last after so many years, Rose found the anchor of her life in him.At last after so many years, they found their home in each other...

*sniffs**sniffs* *loudly blows nose* I'm so happy for them... I'm at peace too... Tell me my darlings, did you like it? If yes, then I deserve a cookie from ya all...

And the longest chapter till now! Oof!

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