Grey evening

Lisa looked at the mirror. She wore a little black dress for today birthday party. It was a birthday party of a well known singer, who was very influential in music and idol industry. She was planning a very hooded dark makeup for this dress, hoping it would cover her reluctance to attend this party. Lisa wasn't a girl like this, she enjoyed having fun with friends, but recently she was feeling so down, that nothing can fix her.

Jisoo, Rose and Lisa decided to go together as Jennie was not going, for obvious reasons of Taehyung might attend the party. Lisa was so sure Yoongi will not attend this as well, as he doesn't like partying much. But deep inside, she had this tiny feeling, he might change his mind.

When the girls get to the venue, it was already packed with lot of celebrities. After greeting for almost everyone, Rose and Lisa managed to get to the bar.

"Phew, it's so tiresome here than work." Rose said after she ordered drinks for them. Then she leaned towards Lisa and whispered, "Where's Suga? I didn't see him. I saw Jimin and Jungkook though."

"He doesn't like parties" Lisa said in small voice.

"Oh come on. Don't be so down. Shall we start?" Rose asked eyeing to the bar. Lisa nodded.

When Lisa just sucking onto a piece of lemon, Rose squeaked near to her ear, "Daebak!"

Lisa turned around to see Min Yoongi walking towards them. 'Am I drunk already?' Lisa wondered. Clearing all her doubts, Yoongi slipped onto a stool, farthest away he could at the bar. And it was like Lisa was just a black blob. He totally ignored them.

"Woah!! He really pisses me off. What is so almighty of him? No hello, not even a single glance." Rose whispered.

'Why I'm the only one affected? Did he really mean nothing? Just how pathetic I am, that I can't even act like it doesn't matter.' Lisa ordered another shot.

"Yah.. control! All the sunbaes are here. We can't get too drunk"

But Lisa heard nothing. She just gulped the tequila even without salt or lemon.

J Hope tapped on GOT7 Bambam's shoulder.

"Hyung!" He hugged him. "You are kind of late today."

"Yeah.. Had to wait for someone." JHope showed at the bar.

"Mwoya.. Yoongi hyung came?? Wow!"

"Yeah.. But don't say anything about that. He might just leave. Even I was surprised when he said he's coming."

"Arasseo.. I was shocked. Because he hates parties. Anyway I will say hello to him."

Bambam walked towards Yoongi.

"Ohh who is this?" He playfully flung his arm over Yoongi.

"Oh Bambam."

"Hyung, I'm so happy you are here. I didn't get to meet you for long time. Hyung, you started to drink already? Should I get something too?"

"Ani, I was bit busy these days. Just wanted a change. That's why I came also."

"That's true. You are not coming normally. When Hobi hyung told me you are here I was so surprised. But that's okay. I am just happy."

"Aigoo.. Gwiyeoun.. I don't know when you are going to grow up though."

"Oh It's Rose and Lisa. Hey Lisa!! Rose!" Bambam waved at the girls before Yoongi could stop them. It's not like he didn't know they were here. Actually he sat here so he could get to see them properly without being caught. Now that Bambam practically scream their names, Yoongi cannot pretend he didn't hear. So he looked up and nodded to Rose. Then he glanced over at Her. She's already looking at him. Her eyes don't have that brightness. Instead it's darker. 'How can she look so pretty even with such a gloomy expression?'. Yoongi stared at her for few more seconds before looking away. He will never ever will be able to forget those eyes, even he tried so much. When Hobi talked about this party last night, he wanted to avoid. But just one time, only one more time, if he can see her, it is worth to give a try. Now that he met her eyes, he started to think how long it has been since last they locked eyes. He tried his best to avoid her, but suddenly he knew how much he missed seeing her close.

Every shot she took, it was no help for how miserable she was feeling. Too much tequila gave her headache, but she never missed a glance at Yoongi every 2 or 3 minutes. And suddenly Lisa stood up as she saw Yoongi leaving. She has no idea what she's doing, 'but atleast I want to talk'. She then whispered Rose, in the ear.

"Chaeyounga.. Just give me a minute"

"Yah, don't go! Otteohge!! You can't leave me alone" Rose whined but she was too late. Lisa already disappeared in the crowd.

Lisa went after him and caught Yoongi's arm.

"Oppa, are you really going to be like this?" Her voice was high than expected.

Luckily there was so much noise and music, that no one else heard other than Yoongi, whose arm still Lisa grabbing.

Yoongi looked at Lisa, 'She doesn't look okay.' He saw she had too many to drink today, that Yoongi himself stopped taking more. But in this state, Lisa might even shout if he avoid her.

Yoongi took her hand and looked in the eye. "Lisa, come with me" saying that he lead her to corridor, out of the party area. Then he took her to a desserted area, kind of looked like a storage room. He closed the door behind them, so no one overhear them. Finally he put his hands on her shoulders and looked into her eyes, " Lisa, gwenchana?".

Lisa looked at him too. Her eyes going darker, but she could feel a lump in her throat."Aniyo oppa. Naneun angwenchanayo. I'm not okay."

"Wae? What's wrong? Do you want to go home?"

"Oppa, waegurae? You really don't have any problem? Am I the only one who is feeling like this?"

Yoongi fell silent and stared at her. He really was not expecting this.

"Oppa, how can you be like this? How can you be so mean? You didn't even stop to think how I feel, right? You just act the way you want. Why you are doing this to me? Am I really mean nothing? Why you are avoiding me like I'm some kind of a disease? Oppa, what did I do wrong? Ah Jinja!!" Lisa couldn't care more that she burst into tears. She just need to know, 'Why this man treat her like that?'.

"Lisa, others will hear. It will be a problem for you"

"I don't care, I really don't care. I don't care about anything at all. Just I can't do this anymore. I can't hold myself like it doesn't matter. Like I don't feel a thing. Oppa.. you are really mean! You went that day saying we won't see again and you really did that. Oppa, how could you? Am I really mean nothing to you? You really don't feel anything?"

"Aniyo"

"Mwo?"

"I said no. I was going insane. I felt like dying. But what can I do? You wanted to... you wanted to focus on career. I didn't want to ruin it. Nothing, not even how I felt is or even me important as your life. You got all these in hard way. I didn't want to be the reason to ruin it all. The only way, I could not being uncomfortable is to stay away from you. That way, you could.."

"Oppa" Lisa stopped him. " You really don't know me, right?" she sounded much calmer.

"Lisaya..."

"Oppa mianhae" she bowed as she wiped her tears and reached the door handle to go.

Yoongi caught her hand and pulled her towards him. "Lisa.. don't go. Don't leave me."

Lisa looked at his beseeching eyes. Those are saying the things that his mouth never say.

"Lisa, please don't go. It's.. it's my fault."

"Oppa, I really don't care about anything else. I just... I just can't without you"

Yoongi cupped her little face, and he was about to pull her closer, when they heard voices other side of the door.

"Yah.. you are the elder one. If she drink too much, aren't you the one who should look after?"

"Ani, onnie.. she said she's going to restroom. I didn't think it is going to take this long."

"But now she's not in the restroom, no... how we are going to find her?"

Yoongi and Lisa looked at the door then at each other, listening intently. Lisa whispered in Yoongi's ear, "It's Jisoo onnie and Chaeyoung."

Gradually the footsteps went quieter along with Jisoo's scoldings.

"They are looking for you"

Lisa nodded.

"Let's go now. You go first and find them before they inform anyone."

"Okay Oppa"

Before she left, Yoongi called her again, "We'll talk tomorrow?". Lisa nodded and smiled. It's been a while to see that smile.