Chapter 1

Siva laid spent over his bandmate Jay, both panting and nude, their bodies wet with sweat.

Siva lifted his head to gaze up at the now fatigued Jay. His curly brown locks cascaded around the hotel bed's pillow, and the rest were matted to his forehead. He smiled at the beautiful younger lad, and once Jay caught his gaze, he sent a loving smile back. He combed his fingers through Siva's tussled dark hair, and in return Siva gently rubbed his taut, muscular chest.

"You're going to get me excited again," Jay warned the older lad.

Siva giggled evilly while putting his head back down. "Maybe I want to." He trailed his finger lightly down the center of Jay's body, starting at his chest and stopping at his waist.

"Keep this up and we'll never have a goodnight's rest like we planned for our gig tomorrow."

"I can't help myself. I've just never experienced anything so thrilling."

"And, that was me taking it easy on you," Jay laughed.

Siva blushed lightly, embarrassed by his previous statement.

"You don't have to be embarrassed," Jay said, quickly realizing Siva's embarrassment. "It was your first time with a guy. It's like that for every guy at first. We're usually only pleasured in one area, so being pleasured in two is like paradise. There's nothing more arousing."

"Which is why I'd like to go for another round."

"I'd like you to wake up with less pain than I can cause you in the morning. We don't want you walking funny on stage." Jay chuckled.

Siva sighed in disappointment. "Okay, Bird."

"Goodnight Seev." He kissed the top of his wet forehead.

"Night," Siva responded as he closed his tired eyes.

•••

"Mornin'!" Nathan said to Siva and Jay as they walked across the stage of the Event Center in the hotel the band had spent the night in.

"Good morning," the boys replied blandly. Jay gave a yawn as Nathan stared at the two in question.

"What's got you guys so lifeless this morning? Forgot to treat yourselves to a cuppa?"

"Just because your life is ran by tea doesn't mean everyone else's is," Max said to Nathan as he walked up beside him.

Jay and Siva chuckled.

"You can say that again," said Siva.

"Whatever. Torture yourselves this way. But one day when you're worn down and tea fixes you right up, I'll be there to say I told you so."

The boys laughed even harder.

"Alright enough with the chatter. Let's get to work. Our last performance wasn't up to par, so let's make sure this one is," Tom ordered as he approached the group. "The show is in a few hours so we've got to get this right."

"Yes sir!" Max mocked as he put his hand up to his head in solute.

"Ha-ha-ha," Tom drawled. "Work now, play later. Now, come on."

The boys spent the next hour perfecting their performance and later performed to the best of their ability, which was quite spectacular.

•••

Finally, they were on their way back to London and into the comforting arms of their beloved homes. But, for Siva, he hadn't felt so good about returning back to the elegant apartment that he shared with his longtime girlfriend, Nareesha.

He'd cheated on her with his bandmate and their best friend, Jay. And, although he had, he didn't regret it one bit, but he most definitely felt guilty and a tad disappointed in himself.

He wasn't quite sure how the intercourse with the younger lad came about. But, he knew that a sudden rage of pure emotion came washing over him, and certainly Jay as well. And in turn, they ended sleeping with each other.

Siva's always found a bit of a romantic interest for people of his gender, but he's never pursued them. No one was even aware that he was bisexual. He'd always kept it to himself, especially since he was in a boy band. The group already had one member who was out of the closet (Jay), and he didn't think there needed to be another.

"Siva... Siva... Siva," Jay called. After the third call Siva finally snapped out of his thoughts and stared at Jay who was sat across from him on their tour bus.

"Are you okay, mate?" Jay asked with concern.

"Yeah, just thinking."

"You've been like that all day," said Max who sat beside the curly haired Hemsworth lookalike.

"Really, I'm fine. I'm just tired. This little holiday (vacation) we're getting will do me justice."

Jay knew that wasn't the real issue, and it left him feeling rather upset and sort of used. Siva hadn't bothered to say much to him, and he could sense what he believed was regret consuming the dark and handsome Irishman.

It pained him to think that was how Siva was feeling. It twisted his insides and shattered his fragile heart.

No longer able to bear the sight of the godly looking lad, he turned his head away and looked out the window as he tried to suppress the sudden wave of emotions overtaking him.

•••

"Baba, I'm home!" Siva announced, walking into his and Nareesha's lavishly decorated apartment.

She came running out of their bedroom and leaped into his muscular arms. Siva opened his mouth to speak, but she shushed him by pressing her lips against his.

He smiled into the kiss, remembering the taste, and embracing her luscious, sweet lips. His arms tightened around her waist as he twirled her around. When he came to a halt, their lips finally parted.

"I missed you so much!" she cried. "I wasn't sure I could go a day longer without you."

"Ditto," Siva replied, his Irish accent thick.

"It feels good to be back in your arms again." She laid her head on his chest, her eyes closed, and a smile grew on her beautiful face.

He rested his chin on top of her head. "It feels good to have you back in my arms." He shut his eyes as the pain from his words spread across his body. He meant what he said, but at the moment he only really desired to be back in Jay's embrace with his head on his chest like the the other night.

*Flashback*

"Finally!" Jay exclaimed as he flopped down on his hotel bed. He was sharing the room with Siva.

"It feels good to be in an actual bed, rather than those horrific bunk beds in the tour bus."

Siva sat on his own bed and gently laid himself upon it. He gave out a breath of relief. "You're right about that," he replied.

They laid on their separate beds quietly for a few minutes.

"Siva."

"Yeah, Bird?"

"What do you think of me?"

Siva furrowed his brows questioningly. "Why are you asking?"

"Because, I've been feeling so insignificant lately."

"What do you mean?"

"I just haven't been feeling very appreciated... and I haven't caught a man's eye for a while now. It's making me feel very self-conscious... and unwanted."

"That's ridiculous."

"Is it really? I'm always being pushed out of the loop in the band, as if my opinion doesn't matter."

"It happens to all of us of us every once in a while."

"I guess. But, I have yet to find a single guy interested in me. I'm beginning to feel lonely, and having you guys around isn't helping me anymore. I need someone that can be mine, and I theirs. I want someone I can say I love you to romantically, and for them to say it back the same way. But, obviously I'm unappealing to a living soul. I'm just an unattractive, invisible guy who's hair is growing too long as people complain."

Siva sat up on the side of his bed and looked at Jay. His blue eyes were flooding in an ocean of tears, and it broke Siva's heart seeing his best friend like that.

"You're absolutely ridiculous, Jay. You're not invisible or unwanted. You're the one who's smile can instantly light up a room. Your laughter instantly brings people joy. And, to top that, you are indeed extremely attractive."

Jay laughed. "You don't have to lie," he said as his tears began streaming down his face.

"I'm not lying," he insisted.

"I'd love to see you prove me wrong."

"Okay, then I will."

Siva wasn't sure what came over him, but soon he found himself on top of Jay as he lowered his head to place a kiss on his perfectly pink lips.

Jay's eyes shot open, but instantly relaxed as the kiss deepened. He soon found his hands roaming around Siva's back and then down to his bum, giving it a tight squeeze.

Siva quickly pulled away from the kiss and stared upon Jay's puckered lips and puzzled face. A smile began playing at the corners of his mouth, and then he said to the younger lad, "I love you, Jay... Be mine for the night?"

Jay's brows rose up in surprise. He wasn't sure how to respond, but his head nodded yes involuntarily.

Siva continued kissing his now moist lips, then the two began shedding off their clothing as they prepared to become one for that soon to be marvelous evening.

*End Of Flashback*

•••

Jay slumped down on the sofa of his lonely flat. He propped his arms up on his thighs and then dug his head into the palms of his hands.

"Ugh!" he yelled. "Why did this have to happen?"

He laid down on the sofa on his side and let his stinging tears fall down his pale, bearded face. "Why?" he croaked. "Why?"

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