LET ME HEAL YOU

Song recommendation: Cry by cigarettes after sex.

The morning arrived once again, Warm sunlight passing through the window and hitting against the silver head who was soon awakened. A soft yawn left his mouth as he squinted his eyes at the blurry version but soon after rubbing over his eyes with the back of his hand the male finally saw his surroundings clearly.

A warm blanket was laid over his body and underneath the blanket a pair of arms were wrapped around his thin waist, Legs tangled with another pair as well.. The familiar scent of the male rushed in to the freckled male's nose as he looked over at the long haired male who laid next to him, Still asleep with his eyes shut close..

Felix started at the boy lovingly, Eyes shimmering with something as it scanned across the male's peaceful face.. After the sungho's incident the older haven't left Felix side for even a second, The silver head was able to clearly see how much the man was worried.

Felix leaned in slowly, Placing his heart shaped lips over the plumb red ones.. After pecking the male's lips ever so softly, He brought his lips upwards to leave a kiss over the male's forehead as well.. The bed was too warm to get up from it but yet Felix decided to slowly raise himself up, Slowly moving Hyunjin's arm from him but only a millimetre away from hyunjin the silver head was pulled back on to the bed. Felix eyes widen slightly as his back hit against hyunjin's warm chest, Soon the male held him in a tight grip, Holding the smaller in his arm so close..

"Where are you going?"

The raspy voice asked Felix who blanked for a moment before responding.

"Umm to the bathroom..? we have training today."

Hyunjin's face was soon snuggling in to the back of the younger's neck, Sniffing the younger's sweet scent in. Felix soon relaxed in his arms as hyunjin spoke again but his lips now moving against Felix neck, and that led to the tickling sensation to rush through the silver head.

"Let's stay like this for a little bit more.."

That request was very tempting so Felix was no where near the place to reject it.. So they stayed like that, The quite atmosphere enveloping the both males. Felix slowly placed his hands over the older's which was placed over his waist, Slowly caressing it as he spoke.

"You don't have to worry that much about me.. I will make sure to kick his whole set of teeth down if he ever try to approach me."

At that Hyunjin chuckled softly, Opening his eyes softly as he pulled the younger to face him.. They shared one pillow, Eye to eye, Nose to nose and lips to lips.. Just few inches far apart.

"How will we recognise him?"

At that question Felix had an answer.

"If that person holds a bitchy attitude then it's that bitch."

Hyunjin's eyes turned in to the infamous crescents at that as he continues speaking.

"Well hope you can recognise him like that.."

With that said hyunjin leaned in to connect their lips, Placing it there for a moment before pulling away. Felix watched how Hyunjin started at him without a word and when he was about to ask what he was thinking the male himself spoke up.

"You are such a pretty boy.. Look at those eyes, They are gorgeous.. You have the most cutest nose too, It makes me wanna leave a kiss on the tip of it every time I see it and those frecklesss man! They are so damn stunning-- And do we need to even talk about those pretty pretty lips and don't even get me started with that deep voice---"

"Bro you sound like you are losing yourself."

Felix interrupted leaving hyunjin with a frown, Felix chuckled at that flashing his pearly teeth.

"What?"

The Aussie asked as he wrapped one of his arm around the older's waist.

"Stop calling me a bro."

Felix rose his eyebrows up at that as he asked.

"Then what should I call you? Daddy??"

"Yes."

"Eww"

"The fuck you mean by 'Eww'?"

"Do you have a daddy kink or what?"

"Maybe I do."

"I-- Well I prefer "chicken head"."

"Ah well whatever mop looking bitch ass."

Hyunjin finished off with rolling his eyes and that turned on the inner demons inside Felix because soon enough hyunjin was getting pinched to a point that male's whole face turned red.

"Owww!!"

And like that their morning started with screams and laughter. They still had shit ton of worries filled inside their head but with eachother their worries were always pushed back cause for them one another were the first priority.

"What do you mean by saying my hair looks crusty??"

Felix asked the taller as they walked side by side through the hallway, Felix currently had his hand playing with his own hair and also checking weather his hair really did felt crusty.

"It has a crisp whenever I touch it."

"Bitch what's your problem!?"

Felix was annoyed and Hyunjin enjoyed every second of it, The pouts and scowls of the younger was the older's favourite. Soon enough hyunjin pulled the freckled boy closer by the shoulder as their side waist was pressed together. Hyunjin kissed the top of the smaller's head as he spoke.

"I am just kidding, You have the softest hair.. Just as soft as your ass cheeks--"

And like that Felix stepped over the older's feet harshly leaving hyunjin to twirl around and to leave a dramatic cry to echo through the empty hallways.

While they walked inside the canteen the first thing hyunjin saw was minho, He saw the male starting off at somewhere but once following the older's gaze the long haired male came to realisation that the older was staring at the squirrel like boy who stood in the line for the food. The doe eyes of the cat like male held stars as it started at a specific boy and Hyunjin was able to relate to that feeling, Pure admiration that's what it was.

"Hey, How long do you think Minho hyung had a crush on Jisung?"

Hyunjin asked the silver head who averted his gaze up to the older.

"Hmm maybe from the moment he met Jisung."

Felix responded as his gaze also fell on Minho who still shamelessly started at Jisung without knowing a single thing about the gazes over him.

"And how long ago was that?"

"2 years ago I guess. Chan hyung and I were distant cousins but yet we were super close and like that one day he decided to come visit me at Incheon and decided to bring along some of his friends, At that time I had Jisung over at my house too, One of the friends Chan hyung brought was Minho hyung himself.. And I still remember noticing how Minho hyung kept looking at Jisung.. But at that time Jisung was in another relationship so he never noticed Minho hyung."

Felix explained as hyunjin questioned further.

"Jisung was in a relationship?"

"Yeah, In a fucked up one..."

Felix responds, Eyes lowering at that as he sighed softly.

"Huh?"

Felix looked up at hyunjin at that.

"I don't think so I am in the right place to share about that, I don't know if he is comfortable with me telling you about those.."

Hyunjin nodded his head at understanding as the male's eyes turned towards Jisung, The boy was smiling widely as he walked towards Minho with the food tray but was there alot hidden behind that bright smile?

Jisung placed the food tray over the table as the male sat down facing minho, The male was still simply starting at Jisung with a soft smile.

"You look like an idiot."

Jisung commented as he placed one of the bowl of soup infront of minho.

"Must be cause I am an idiot for you."

At this point Jisung was unfazed by these things, He been dealing with this male's flirtiness for a while now.. To be honest it surprised Jisung how the male never once gave up on him, Since the first day Minho never back down from showcasing his love towards jisung.. And there is no signs of the older giving up any time soon too.

"Well continue being an idiot after you eat."

Jisung said while pointing at the food infront of minho with his chopsticks. Minho grinned at that with a soft chuckle leaving his mouth before actually digging in. And like that they both ate their breakfast in silence, A comforting silence.. For Jisung it would be more than true to say that the presence of the older was comforting as hell.. and with that thought Jisung rose his eyes to look over at the older infront of him.

The soft brown coloured locks of hair was falling over the older's forehead, Cat shaped eyes looking down, Cheeks puffed as he munched on his food and the really structured nose and face shape just top it all of.. The way the male always gives of the intimidating aura and then being the most sweetest person of humanity always tugged on to Jisung's heart, It's always so wholesome to watch the older male around cats.. His soft heart is always open up to the world whenever he is around those animals, Watching him sit there and pat over the cat's is such a heartwarming sight itself.. and at those sights Jisung would always melt..

Jisung loved how the male talked, Loved how his laugh sounded, loved how pretty his smile looked, loved how he would randomly scream and loved how he hunts for people's butt-- He really didn't found any flaws in this man, A man with the kindest heart and soul that was Lee Minho and he can agree to that to anyone and anytime but what still kept him away from actually admitting that he was in love was another case..

He was just scared of getting hurt even though he knew Minho would never hurt him, Even though he knew Minho would take care of him like a prince he still hesitated to give out his heart to someone again.. He was afraid of this thing called love at a point but yet it didn't stop him from falling in love.. And it frustrated him that he wasn't just able to be Minho's even though he would love to be his.. He wish that he didn't hesitated to take his hand.

But then another fear struck him.. What if the male would no longer want him if he gets to know his past? That made him scared to tell the truth, Other than Felix he haven't told another soul about the things he have gone through.. And he didn't knew if Minho would react the same way as Felix did.. He didn't knew if the male would continue loving him when he actually see how ugly he was under these clothes..

"And you were complaining about me staring."

Minho's voice brought him back to his sense as the male blinked few times.

"What?"

Jisung questioned.

"You were staring at me."

"Oh? I was just zoned out I wasn't--"

"Just admit it, Jisung."

Maybe Minho said that in another way but Jisung heard those words in another way too.. Maybe he should just admit the fact that he is in love with the older, Just staying here without having the courage to face it will only bring more pain in the end.. The truth of that was fresh, If he wants something he had to take the hard steps to get to it, He have to face it all.

Later when everyone was on the field for training Jisung was on his break, The male sat at the corner of the ground staring of at the cat eyed male who was jogging around, His heart was beating fast and the reason behind it was the male who he currently started at... He wanted to confess but as easy it sounds to just say it, It was hard to actually do it..

When Minho's break was also here the man jogged towards jisung who stared at him in a daze.

"Do you have water?"

At first Jisung didn't hear it but then once Minho repeated himself the male was back on his senses. While Minho was chugging down the water Jisung was still fighting with his head to make the decision.. Later on it went silent making Jisung to look up at where Minho stood but there was no one but then his voice popped out of nowhere and at that Jisung screamed out.

"Woah woah why are you acting so strange ma guy?"

Minho questioned, Now sitting beside a Jisung who had his hand pressed against his racing heart. Jisung stayed silent which resulted for Minho's face to soften.

"What happened? Are you okay?"

The corncern coated his voice and his voice was melody to jisung. Soon enough his eyes were turning glassy making the older's eyes to widen..

"Jisung??"

The older called out for younger as jisung bit down on his lips, The feelings were overwhelming, His heart was clenching but his tongue was loose.. It was ready to say out the truth even though his heart wasn't as ready..

"I like you hyung..''

Those words crashed against minho's ears, Eyes widening in to two big circles as the male's ears took no time to turn dark red.. But he wasn't able to utter a word.. He didn't knew what to say, It felt extremely good to hear that after all those years of waiting to hear it but why was he crying?

Minho moved his hands to wipe off the younger's tears as he cupped the male's face with both of his warm hands.

"And are you crying cause you don't want to like me?"

The older asked and jisung was quick to shook his head a no.. The real reason for his tears.. He wasn't able to utter it out. Minho's thumbs moved in circle as he stared patiently at the boy.. Waiting for atleast a single word.

"I-i am scared.."

Jisung finally whispers out and minho frowns at it as he asked.

"Why??"

"I am scared you won't love me the same way when you finally see something that i been hiding for so long.."

Those words sounded so broken.. resulting in the heart clenching pain inside minho's heart. It was silence for a moment before minho speaks again.

"I loved you for years jisung, And I know this love I have for you is not that easy to fade away or even decrease a bit.. You have no idea how much i adore you and i promise I will make sure to adore every inch of you, From your soul to these pretty eyes.. No one has ever made me as happy as you and you will continue doing that, No matter what.."

Those words just made jisung to cry ever more, It made his heart all fluffy.. He was able to feel the love from his words and voice and he was beyond happy.. So happy to have this man in his life.

"Don't cry, Love.."

Minho says and at that moment jisung scoots closer.

"Can I kiss you?"

At that question minho almost let out a scream.

"Fuck yes-- I mean yes."

Jisung chuckles softly at that before connecting their lips together. And like that the moment minho been waiting for forever has finally arrived, The male felt tears almost filling up inside his own eyes. The older held the younger closer, Closing his eyes to slowly kiss the boy, Showing him how much he loves him.. Their heart beat rapidly against their rib cages as they held eachother close..

Parting away jisung stared in to minho's eyes as minho did the same, The tip of their noses were still connected as their breath fanned over eachothers glossed lips.

"I think I should show you something.."

And with that said they both were at their room, all alone.. Minho stared at jisung as the male sat over the bed.. He saw the younger fidgeting with his fingers, The nervousness were evident inside those doe eyes and it made minho to take one of his hand in to his, Holding it tight with a soft smile over his face and it succeed in calming the younger down but yet he refused to meet eyes with minho as he started speaking.

"At the age of 15 I was in a relationship with a guy.."

The male started speaking, Words almost stucking up half way throughout his throat.

"I know that.. But what about it?"

Minho questions as he slowly took a seat beside jisung, Their thighs brushing against eachother.

"He was 2 years older than me.. And at first he appeared to be the most sweetest guy with the kindest heart and that was the reason why I fell in love with but then..After time passed by he started changing he got more and more obsessive and even abusive.. He even tried to force himself on me and he have succeed once as well.."

Jisung eyes held no light as he spoke about it and as each words were spoken minho was growing more and more shocked.. His heart felt like it was dropped down into his stomach, But he never let go of jisung's hand or let out a word or expression, just trying to stay calm and listen to the younger.

All of a sudden jisung took his hand out of minho's grip, Minho looked at him with confused eyes but then he saw the male slowly removing his shirt.. Revealing his naked upper body to minho's eyes.. The light brown haired male's eyes widen at the sight of it, Tears slipped out as he no more was able to remain his calm face..

Bruises..they were all over his body, Deep cuts by knives and something else which still left scars, burn marks of different shapes and size.. So much scars, He had so much scars across his milky white skin and it left minho in pain..

"He d-did all this to you?"

Minho's voice broke as a tear rolled down his eye, Jisung just nodded his head..

Flashbacks.

Tw: Mentions of physical abuse.

"I told you that you can't go out with them, Didn't I!?"

The tall boy screamed at the smaller boy who held tears in his eyes.. The small boy was shaking violently, Wishing someone could come and take him from here..

"I am sorry--"

His words weren't finished as a slap echoed throughout the room. The stinking pain across his cheek was nothing compared to the pain he felt in his heart, He broke out in tears only to get his face cupped harshly.

"I told you to stay quite."

The male threatened as jisung tried to bite back his tears. The older guy pulled on to his own hair in frustration as he looked around the room and soon his eyes fell over the iron box that was placed over the table..

"You should learn your lessons well, Now shouldn't you?"

The male asked as he turned on the iron box, Waiting a bit to get it hot.. Jisung walked backwards with wide eyes, His heart beated rapidly in fear.. Hands and legs shaking as he cried out hard, Screaming for help but his mouth was clasped shut as the older guy ripped the boy's shirt off, Soon the steamed hot metal was placed over his shoulder.. Pain shooted through his nerves as he cried and cried.. The scar that was left on his body that day would never fade..

Nothing would had stopped, Maybe that relationship would had ended Jisung if it wasn't for Felix..

Jisung gasped for air but he wasn't able to get any.. all he saw was the inside of the bathtub, The water blocked his vision as he slowly started losing his consciousness.. Jisung's so called boyfriend was the one who held the boy's head in to the bathtub, Once again it seemed like Jisung did something which resulted for the older to get mad about.. The man was insane.. But gladly when the older was thinking he was home alone with Jisung in Jisung's house an uninvited guest appeared there..

The moment the freckled boy saw this scene, He wasted no time to grab the disgusting creature by the collar and punch him across the face.. the Australian always doubted something wrong with his guy from the first day and his suspicions came out true..

Being really good at taekwondo helped that day alot, Felix pulled Jisung out of there.. Rushing to the hospital, He was the one to save his twin.. And he was the one who was there until Jisung regained the broken parts of him..

End of flashback.

Now tears were rolling down from Minho's cheeks, Silence roamed around the room.. Jisung felt nervous so he didn't dare to look at Minho but he had to when he felt the bed shuffle resulting in after the male stood up..

He looked up to see who Minho looked down at him.. Minho's eyes were filled with tears but the older wiped them off as he softly hold the younger's face in between his hands.. Minho leaned down to leave a soft kiss over the younger's forehead, Then his both cheeks, Then the tip of his nose, Then his chin and atlast the pouty lips.. Placing his lips there for a while..

"D-don't you feel disgusted after seeing all this??"

Those words just broke Minho even more but he didn't show it as the male smiled lovingly but the hint of pain still visible in that smile.

"Why would I?.. The word "Disgusting" is the most unsuitable word to ever describe you.. You are beautiful jisung, These scars will never make you any less beautiful, It won't make you look disgusting.. It shows how brave you are, It shows how much you fought through to live till now.. And none of this is your fault for you to feel like this about yourself, That jerk broke something as pretty as the moon but then the moon glued himself back together and let me tell you it still look as pretty as ever.. So never see yourself like that, With or without these scars you are the prettiest.. And if you think I would love you any less because of this then you are completely wrong, If anything this will only make me love you more and respect you more..To have a lover as brave as you would be the most coolest thing for me.."

Minho took a break as Jisung was once again a crying mess, The younger didn't knew what he did to deserve a man like minho but Minho's words didn't end there..

"And I will be here to help you heal these scars, I will make sure that you will forget about these scars one day.. So would you let me stay by your side to help you heal this?"

"Would you really stay by my side?"

"Till my last breath."

"Promise?"

"Promise."

A smile bloomed across jisung's face at that as he speaks.

"Then let me be your lover."

Minho smiled back as he responds.

"Then let me be yours too.. Till the end."

To be continued..

I am pretty proud of this chapter and yass minsung has sailed tooo