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jimin and namjoon had spent the whole day after christmas cleaning their house and playing with the new cat. they were both really happy and jimin was actually exited to go back to work the next day, so he could see hoseok and jin. he was a bit worried about hoseok, but figured he'd probably cheer up once he was back with his friends.

"it's just... i'm happy. like... so happy. it just feels too good to be true."

"well, i'm happy too," namjoon said, scooping jimin up and plopping him down on the couch, kissing him.

namjoon pulled away, but jimin grabbed the back of his head, in attempt to deepen the kiss. he didn't want to admit it, but he was incredibly desperate and needy. it had been so long since him and namjoon had done anything together. the last time was way before they even started dating and that was way too long for jimin.

namjoon broke away, laughing a bit. jimin just looked up at him, a small pout on his face.

namjoon just shook his head and started walking away, "i'm gonna go shower."

jimin just nodded, slight annoyance making it's way to his face.

he wanted namjoon.

after a moment, he heard the bathroom door shut and the shower turn on. that's when he got an idea. it was probably a bad idea, but it was an idea. jimin decided that if he was too shy to tell joon what he wanted, he would have to deal with it himself.

jimin walked into their bedroom and decided to try something new with himself. something he'd never done before.

cross dressing.

he'd always had and interest in it, wearing cute girls clothing, but he always felt ashamed or guilty for fantasizing about it.

not anymore. now, he was ready.

jimin didn't really have any girls clothes, so he had to work with what he had. he pulled out one of his old, pink, baggy shirts and a pair of scissors. he began cropping the shirt, so it would show his stomach. when he put it on, he was actually impressed. it had turned out pretty good. he then slid on a pair of panties that he already had. he always thought that girls underwear was comfortable, so he bought a few pairs to wear casually. he was a bit embarrassed about it, though, so he tried to stay out of them whenever he was with namjoon, just in case joon thought it was weird or something.

after getting into his outfit, he decided to put on a bit of makeup. he applied blush, eyeliner, eyeshadow, and some lip gloss. once he was completely done, he glanced at the mirror. he was honestly so surprised. he had always wanted to wear something like that, but never thought he could pull it off.

he was wrong.

he then walked to the closet and pulled out something he never thought he would touch again. his dildo.

it felt weird using it while he was in a relationship, but he really didn't care. it's not like he was cheating.

he propped himself up on the bed. finally, what he was going to do really hit him. and for a second, he thought about not doing it at all. he thought about taking the outfit off, putting the dildo away, and forgetting about the whole thing, but he simply couldn't. he was far too desperate to let this opportunity slide.

so, without another thought, he grabbed the dildo and started covering it in lube. he then leaned forward, arching his back, and began pushing it in. he had pushed his panties to the side a bit, so there was just enough room to slip it in. he was a bit tight and sensitive, because it had been so long, so he was doing his best to adjust.

he eventually got it fully in and he was panting at this point. he wasn't sure what happened, but somewhere in him, his need just took over and he began slamming the toy in. moans and gasps were slipping out from the pleasure. it felt good, but there was still something that was missing.

namjoon.

jimin was completely whipped for the man and now he couldn't even enjoy himself sexually without the other there. it was almost embarrassing. he felt like crying. all he wanted was to pleasure himself and nothing was working.

he sat up and started to ride on it, considering that had worked for him the last time. he just closed his eyes and imagined that namjoon was there with him. that seemed to do the trick, cause he kept fucking down on the toy for more friction, finally slightly enjoying it.

nothing could compare to namjoon, but it was better than nothing. more moans and whines slipped out as he continued, edging himself on further and further. he was getting close to his release, as he heard something behind him. he turned quickly and namjoon was standing right there.

he had forgot to lock the door.

jimin was wearing a crop top, panties, and makeup. and on top of that, he was riding a dildo. he didn't think it could get much worse than that.

he had to admit, namjoon looked gorgeous. and him looking that good definitely wasn't helping with his dripping member. namjoon had just gotten out of the shower, so he was all wet and glowing. his hair was soaked, sticking to his head and all he was wearing was a towel wrapped around his waist.

"well, what do we have here?" namjoon asked, stepping closer to him.

"i-i just-" jimin pouted, not wanting to explain what he was doing.

"come on. tell me."

"i just- i missed you. i was embarrassed, so i just went to deal with it myself," jimin said, hanging his head low.

"hey, you know you could have told me, right? i'm so sorry if i kept you waiting for too long. i just- i thought we should probably take a break, you know? for awhile our relationship was just for sex and i wanted to make sure you knew it was more than that. i wanted us both to... build our relationship off of love and not just... intimacy."

"well that break was too long," jimin pouted, still seated on top of the dildo, "i missed you."

"i see that," namjoon said, laughing.

jimin hit him jokingly on the arm, clearly embarrassed.

"i'm just kidding," namjoon said, petting his cheek, "i missed you, too."

with that, he leaned in and placed a soft kiss to jimin's lips.

"so are we just not gonna talk about your cute little outfit?" namjoon asked, smirking.

jimin blushed. he almost forgot he was wearing it.

"i-uhm," jimin gulped, not really sure what to say.

"it's okay, babe. it's adorable. looks great on you."

jimin blushed an even deeper shade of red. namjoon just grabbed his face and kissed him again.

namjoon broke away and smirked at him, "lipgloss?"

jimin just laughed a bit, nodding.

"mmm," namjoon groaned, reconnecting their lips.

jimin moaned and jumped up on namjoon's lap. he felt joon run two hands down his back, stopping when he reached his ass.

jimin then remembered he still had the dildo in him. he felt namjoon grab onto it and start slowly pulling it out.

jimin broke off from the kiss and whined at the sensitivity. namjoon eventually got it out fully, laughing a bit as he looked at it.

"i can't believe you bought a dildo. when did you even get it?"

"w-when we went to the mall and we saw them at that one store. i wanted to try it."

"is that why you were in the bathroom so long?" he asked, using air quotes around, 'bathroom'.

"yeah, i was buying it."

joon just laughed and went back to kissing jimin, using his finger to teasingly rub circles over his tight hole. jimin only lasted a minute, before he started breaking down. his ass was his most sensitive spot.

"joonie~" jimin whined, digging his head into joon's shoulder, and focusing on the finger that was lightly pushing into him.

"is this okay?" he asked, moving it around a bit.

"y-yeah," jimin whispered, slightly out of breath.

namjoon grabbed jimin's waist and laid him down on the bed, hovering over him. he pulled off his towel and let it fall to the floor, grabbing at jimin's crop top and pulling it over his head.

he leaned up to jimin's ear, leaving a small kiss, then whispering something to him.

"you ready?" he asked, rubbing his hand over jimin's stomach, lightly.

"y-yes, pl-please," jimin whined, spreading his legs out.

namjoon looked down and saw that jimin was still wearing his tight little panties.

"so cute," he mumbled, laughing and shaking his head.

he pulled them completely off and lined himself up, not forgetting to use some of jimin's lube.

"ready?"

"ready."

namjoon entered him slowly, unlike every time before.

he stopped for a minute, checking on jimin.

"you okay? it doesn't hurt, right?"

"n-no, i'm fine."

jimin was pleasantly surprised. of course he loved it rough and dominant, but something about namjoon being all soft and caring was almost better. it was like, for the first time, they weren't just having sex. they were making love. and that's something that jimin had always wanted to experience. he was madly in love with namjoon and he felt like nothing could ever change it. something in him just knew that they'd be together forever.

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both boys finished off and ended up falling asleep for a while, cuddled up together. they might have slept through the night if it wasn't for a ring at the door.

both boys shifted slightly and jimin sat up, yawning.

"i'll get it," he whispered, jumping up and grabbing his robe, throwing it on.

he walked over to the door and pulled it open, seeing jin standing there.

"oh my god, jinnie! you're bac-" jimin quickly cut himself off when he realized how upset jin was. his eyes were red and puffy, tears swelling up in them.

"oh my god- are you okay? what happened?"

"it's- it's hoseok," jin said, letting his tears fall,

"he tried to kill himself last night."

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i feel so bad djjdndbn :(((plEase dOnt kiLl me

but on a happier note,,,HAPPY THANKSGIVING🦃 lol my whole family is coming over and i'm bouta get so much anxiety lmao. i hope all of you have a great thanksgiving <3