Chapter 18

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Nesta

"And what makes you so sure you can beat me? You have no idea who you are challenging here. I wish you weren't so into yourself, There's a whole lot world you are yet to see and acknowledge, Nesta Archeron. And this mountain is just the start. But you know you won't believe what places I have been to...The best being the Greensphereicals burg. Its a maze, where me, Rhysie and Azriel went to as children. It used to be like a treasure hunt for us. And of course no need to say I defeated those jerks. Not that I am bragging, but what can I say. Truth is powerful." 

"I know right! And shall I say you most definitely are bragging Cassian. Truth is powerful indeed. " I don't need to look at him to know he is pouting his way up. I shake my head and continue the climb. 

It's almost morning, the sun is yet to show up, but the morning mist and the inhale of fresh air is like a warm blanket for the soul. The slow chirping of birds is music to the ears. Its been hours since the Ramiel incident. After the awkward hug that we shared, I couldn't let myself give in more to Cassian. I have been pissed the whole time. Not at him, Not at me, Not at the Ramiel, but at fate. At what destiny was leading me to. Cassian had been trying to lighten the mood ever since, he knows I am struggling to control my emotions. And I need to keep myself calm, the world would be better place without me causing landslides, or storms. I gaze at Cassian's silhouette. We should have stopped the climb and probbaly headed down, The guards could wake up or call on us any time, Rhys wouldn't forgive Cassian for this, and I have a feelings Feyre is gonna side with Rhysand in this one as well as Azriel, Mor, Amren. No one wanted Cassian to climb this up. I get what Cassian was trying to tell. If you are pleasant with the mountain, its pleasant with you. 

"What's on your mind Hon'?" It takes me a moment to get the hon in my head. 

"Don't call me that." 

"I can call you whatever I want."

"Oh bless your delusional heart." A chuckle escapes his mouth as I say it. And I gaze up to meet his eyes. They are always the same yet different. Same heud in color, prefect blend of the earth and  hazelnut. I couldn't not feel anything for the expression on his face right at the moment. We found a hedgehog and Cassian seats himself, dragging me by the hand and jerking it down, making me sit. My legs almost give out as I sit and stretch them out, and a moan escapes me at the ache and satisfaction of being able to finally sit down. And I regret it as soon as it echoes a bit in the alone woods. Cassian watches me intently, I can feel his eyes on me. 

"I thought you said you were going to beat me." 

"And I will..."

"You look tired lord of bloodshed. I should continue. I hope you'll be able to make peace with yourself after the lose." 

"C'mere you!" His voice is as soft as it can be and as his face inches closer, I feel a tug at my shoes, at the same time his lips touch mine in softest of kiss and moves away. His nose is cold on mine, and he keeps coming closer, not touching our lips, teasing me, he kisses right under my lips, just beside them, on my nose and then on the chin always closing in on the lips but leaving them. I can feel his smile, he is enjoying teasing me, and it's making me lose control. I cup his cheeks with mouth, pulling him in and taking control of the kiss. He is smiling through his lips and I can see myself smiling back a little. It's like time has nothing on us, and we have nothing to do with the world, We are lost...It's like we are lost in the wild. Only this isn't what we should be doing. 

I pull apart and He looks away, running his hand through his hair, which he had left open today. ..No bun insight. When he doesn't say anything. I take the pride in talking. 

"Shouldn't we get going?"

"Yeah C'mon" 

As i stand up, my legs criss-cross on their own accord and fall right on my butt. Cassian howls out a laugh...I look down at the laces on my boots that he tied, lace of one boot to the another one and vice-versa. "You idiot! When the hell did you do this?" I shout as he makes his way up. "When you were high on our kiss. Untangle yourself, sweetheart. You look like you messed up." He can't stop grinning. I tie to open up the laces but they are just too tight.

 "I hate you!" I grit out at him.

He turns around a small smile on his lips "The feelings mutual.." 

And here we go again....

Cassian

"Beautiful" Nesta claims from beside me, as we overlook the heaven we are standing over, the mist makes it hard to see, but we are just in time for the sunrise...I have never seen the Ramiel in daylight. The clouds are at our feet, above our heads, around us...And there flows the Sidra. This is a sight to behold. Nesta's standing there without any expression on her face. Her lips are sealed and her eyes are looking all around the place, The stars are gone. Her hands are at her side and I slide my hand with hers, She jerks it away. I try to take it again, she is pissed off, and the reason is me. I just thought she could use a distraction. And my plan worked well, she hasnt been sad....She is angry which she most of the time is...so that's good. "I swear on Cauldron Cassian, touch me again, and I won't be responsible for the consequences." I raise both my hands in defense. Fierce Nesta, is another of her many charms that I could kneel for. 

"Close your eyes." 

She looks at me with a wary expression, and so I close mine first. We are at the top of something that is above everything, higher than anything. When i open mine again. I look over at her, A tear slid down her cheek and she wiped it off as soon as it did. She looks away as I knew she would. Nesta is broken beyond repair, she'll do anything to show the world she is brave, reckless, powerful. But all she actually wants and needs is acceptance. We didn't speak another word to each for minutes and just glanced around. 

"You know Feyre told me about this thing she and Rhys does. They have this thing called 'Thought for Thought' You tell me something you are thinking right this moment and I tell you the same. What say?"

Nesta doesn't say anything so I continue...

"I am thinking how we got here, How I have been able to survive this long. I mean the last time I checked I was lying there in my own blood, you above me, covering me. This feels like a dream once again. This place looks unreal, I feel so close to you right now Nes...And I am overwhelmed perhaps. So yeah I am just thinking about being alive, This feeling of having you here makes me alive." I loose my hands at my side, and feel her hands slip in. I look over at her. But she looks over ahead at the horizon, changing colors. I wait for her to speak. But when she doesn't I nudge at her elbow, "Tell me something Nesta." 

She inhales deeply and levels up her head, I can't stop looking at her, she is gorgeous. Her mind, her body. If I am not careful enough, I might get blindsided by my own heart. 

"Tell me something you don't want to."

"That this feels right. This feels so right and safe. And that scares me."

I can't stop my heart from beating that fast. She confided in me. She said it. She admitted it. She does feel something for us. I am not being a hopeless creature here. A strange power engulfs us, and I smell the musk of metal in the air. Nesta shrieks, "What's happening." 

"We are going down....It'll be alright." And just like that we are back where we left off from. But we aren't alone...

"Mor."

"How dare you!" She gawks at us. Nesta immediately, untangles herself from me. She takes a step forward. "Let me explain." 

"You! Back off.." Mor looks hysterical, I have never seen her like this. 

"Mor what happened?" My stern voice must have indicated her I was serious. 

"The kingdom of nightmares...The Illyrians! Every freaking thing happened!" 

There's only one word that escapes my mouth..

"Shit."

"Indeed."

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