Chapter 41

YOUR P.O.V.

*a few hours later*

Kumi- *hands you the lead* He was good today

Y/N- *nods* Yeah, that’s good…

Kumi- I think he likes me a lot more..

Y/N- Aw okay… *looks down*

Kumi- *tries to look in your eyes* Y/N are you okay?

Y/N- *looks at her* I’m fine, why?

Kumi- You’re not. What’s up? You’re all short and silent with me

Y/N- I’m fine. Trust me. I’ll see you later, okay? *leaves*

I took a long drive home.. I had Harley in the passenger seat of my car and he was loving having his head out the window. He was a good dog. I thought about Diggy. Okay so he kissed another girl.. okay so he was drunk and it was an accident.. why did it bother me? Why did I always shut people out when something bad happened? I felt like this wasn’t everything that happened…

Kendall- *answers her phone* Hey (your initial)

Y/N- What else happened?

Kendall- What?

Y/N- Diggy. I know he didn’t just kiss that girl.

Kendall- That and it happened two months ago. Y/N, I’m sorry but that’s all I know as far as it goes.

Y/N- Okay.

Kendall- You guys cool?

Y/N- I’m fine…

Kendall- Y/N what about Di..

Y/N- Kendall, I gotta go, I’m sorry, I’ll call you later. *hangs up*

*at the house*

Y/N- *comes in the house*

Diggy- *drops the basketball* Spin, I’ll be right back.. *runs in the house*

Harley- *barks at him* 

Diggy- Hey boy.. *looks at you* Do we need to talk? I want to, but I don’t know about you…

Y/N- *shrugs* I don’t know.. what else is there to talk about? You said everything right?

Diggy- Yeah, I hope so

Y/N- *confused* What’s that supposed to mean?

Diggy- I..

Y/N- Did anything else happen?

Diggy- I woke up the next day with a headache and an empty bed, I can’t remember babe. Honestly

Y/N- *looks at the backyard* Spin.. *beckons him over*

Spin- *walks up to you both*

Y/N- *folds arms* You were there. What else happened?

Spin- *chuckles nervously and looks at Diggy* What?

Y/N- You heard me

Diggy- Did I do anything with the girl?

Spin- *looks away* I don’t know man..

Y/N- *walks out*

Diggy- Y/N!

Y/N- *turns around* What?

Spin- He didn’t go to the hotel by himself..

Y/N- *looks at Diggy*

Diggy- *looks at Spin* I didn’t?

Y/N- Surely you’d remember that.

Spin- The girl left at like 6am or something.. she rushed outta his room and she was putting her shoes on.

Y/N- *looks at Diggy* Okay. Fine. *grabs Harley’s lead*

Diggy- *looks at Spin* Seriously, I..?

Spin- *nods*

Diggy- Fucking shit!

Y/N- *leaves with Harley*

*the next day*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

When I tell you it was hard as fuck to get through to Y/N, I actually mean it. She used to be so easy to read, but apologising to her meant nothing anymore.. I mean, damn! I didn’t even know I slept with someone else. How did Spin not tell me that?! I spent all day and all of last night trying to apologise to Y/N.

She just tried to ignore me, I removed her phone when she tried picking it up, I turned off the tv, hid her headphones and threw away the magazines she tried to read to ignore me. I wanted her to listen, but all she did was nod and say okay. Other than that, she didn’t talk to me at all

Diggy- *comes in the house with presents* *walks upstairs* Y/N? *walks in the bedroom* *looks on the bed*

She left her pendant on the bed… I picked it up and looked at it, holding it firmly in my hand. Did she leave? I sat on the bed thinking about the extent of what I’d done.. why the fuck did I get drunk on tour? Fuck…

Y/N- *from downstairs* Ah shit!

Diggy- *looks up* *runs downstairs* Y/N..!

Y/N- *sucks her finger*

Diggy- *runs in the kitchen* Babe..!

Y/N- *looks at him confused* *looks away*

Diggy- I thought you left.

Y/N- *shrugs* Okay.

Diggy- Please stop saying that…

Y/N- *silent* *goes in the first aid box*

Diggy- You cut your finger?

Y/N- *ignores him*

Diggy- Can I please talk to you? I need to get through to you, you’re not even hearing me anymore..

Y/N- *looks at him* 

Diggy- I’m sorry… how many times do I have to say it Y/N, I’m so so sorry…

Y/N- Okay…

Diggy- *sighs frustratedly* And I hate when you’re like this. I hate it as much as I hate that I made you act like this… I want my fiancé back.. *holds your hand* *kisses it* *kisses up your arm* I miss you… It was a mistake babe, I don’t even know what I was doing…

Y/N- *tear falls*

Diggy- *looks up at you* Don’t cry baby.. please don’t cry *kisses your neck* *kisses your cheek* *kisses your lips*

Y/N- *pulls away* *shakes her head* I can’t kiss you right now.. knowing that you kissed her and then you kissed me? And you fucked her and then me? *shakes her head*

Diggy- *steps towards you* Y/N, please.. it was an accident

Y/N- I can’t be near you right now *goes upstairs* *slams a door*

YOUR P.O.V.

I couldn’t sleep in the same bed as him.. none of that cuddling and holding me close and knowing he fucked a random girl.. some stranger and kept it from me. I get that it was a mistake, an accident… it was his fault but he didn’t mean it, I know that.. but I’d been cheated on before. I knew all this, I’d heard it before.

I mean imagine that.. the guy who gets at you for missing his awards ceremony got drunk and cheated on tour. While you’re working and being excited about being married and he hides it for months? He didn’t want me to find out and now he’s sorry? I’ve never broken Diggy’s heart. Never cheated or anything. But he’s cheated with me and played me before. He’s always been there for me, we’ve had so many memories together. That’s what makes it painful. I love him but he’s kept something big from me… Imagine how I feel.

*the next morning*

Y/N- *wakes up* *looks at the coffee table* *sees toast, coffee and a note*

Diggy- I know what I did.. I can’t even remember that night Y/N. I can’t. I wish I did so I could be responsible for my actions and I am but babe, I want you to forgive me. I still wanna talk to you, win back your heart. I know you don’t want to talk right now but it’s killing me and, but I miss you. I wanna meet you for lunch today.. please xxx

Y/N- *looks at the note* *looks at her ring*

*phone rings*

Y/N- *looks at it and answers it* Hey bruh…

Chris- Y/N, I need you and it’r real urgent

Y/N- For what?

Chris- Hey, what’s with the attitude? My shoot for my video is so fuckin awful.. Seriously, it’s awful and I’ve only been here an hour. I need you to style for me.. and probably be in it. It’s gonna be fun, lots of models, a lotta people and K’s comin too

Y/N- *rolls eyes* Last minute huh?

Chris- I’m sorry, unless you’re busy. I’ll text you the address…

Y/N- *looks at the note* *thinks and pauses* Fine. I’ll be there.