Chapter 16

02:07, 24 August 2014

YOUR P.O.V.

*a month later*

Y/N- *phone rings* *looks at it* *declines Diggy’s call*

That was the 5th or 6th time he’d called me today. It’s been a month and he’d called me every single day. On the first day, I told him he needs to stop calling me and he said he’d do it everyday from now on if it meant he’d eventually have me. He even turned up at my house to try and persuade me to tale him back but I told him I needed space and he needed to stay away from me.

Chris had kept his space from me too and he asked me if I was okay, and he must have been suspicious that Diggy had told me what happened between them. I messaged him as normal and it all seemed pretty fine, but I didn’t tell him or my parents what happened between me and Dig, just that we needed some space for a while.

Aria- *walks in* Was he calling you again?

Y/N- *looks at her* What do you think?

Aria- I think he needs to stop messing with you.

Kumi- He’s persistent, you gotta give him that *shrugs*

Aria- *looks at you* You told him to back off, right?

Y/N- Yeah.

Aria- And so he should. *grabs your phone*

Y/N- Aria! *stands up* *tries to take it from her*

Aria- No, he needs me to tell him to leave it. You wanted space and he isn’t giving it to you.. *phone buzzes in her hand* *reads screen* Chris? *looks at you*

Y/N- *grabs phone*

Kumi- You’re texting him? Didn’t you tell him you wanted space too?

Y/N- Yeah but..

Kumi- But what? It’s worse than what’s happening with Diggy. Stop texting him. Don’t talk or communicate with either of them.

Aria- Seriously.

Y/N- *sighs* Alright. *deleted messages* *puts phone down* I won’t talk to either of them.

Aria- That’s better..

Aria was so protective over me. She didn’t like what Diggy did one bit and since I was her baby sister, she was trying to protect me and my emotions a hella lot more while Kumi still thought Diggy was perfect for me and she could see how much I was hurting and she’d know how much Diggy was too.

My heart ached. Not for Chris, but for Diggy. I missed him a lot and being away from him made me feel empty and it broke my heart to decline and hang up on his calls.

I wasn’t happy with the space I had from him, but it was much needed because I could think a lot a straighter now than before. I still had one question, was it too soon to go back into the relationship or do we need more time apart?

Kumi- Spin told me it’s his birthday next week..

Y/N- I didn’t forget that… I was thinking.

Aria- Thinking what?

Y/N- That I should like… I don’t want him spending it alone.

Aria- Well guess what, he should have thought about that before almost getting violent towards you.. he’s lucky dad doesn’t know that.

Y/N- And you won’t tell him?

Aria- Of course not.

Y/N- I wanna wish him happy birthday at least.

Aria- Think about it. He’ll think it’s a way to get back to your heart. You’re vulnerable right now, don’t think about him, think about yourself for once.

SPIN’S P.O.V.

*a few days later*

Me and Kumi were getting along a lot more nowadays. She told me we were better off as friends and was convinced of it, and though I still had strong underlying feelings for her, I knew it was best for now to hide them.

*phone rings*

Spin- Wassup? Uh-huh… that’s great… yeah, yeah that’s amazing.. keep that, that’s that shit we wanted! Alright, speak to you later.. *hangs up*

Kumi- Who was that?

Spin- Now you sound like a protective girlfriend…

Kumi- *laughs* *tilts her head at him* Seriously?

Spin- *laughs* Naw, that was my brother.. we can have Dig’s 19th at Lust Brooklyn..

Kumi- That club you’re always at?

Spin- Yup. He’s already planned out the whole evening, loads of big names coming for the night.

Kumi- You in the big books huh?

Spin- *pops collar* Damn right! *laughs with her* But I’ll need your help at the club.. *stands up*

Kumi- Right now?

Spin- *nods* Like some design advice and stuff and what we should serve and..

Kumi- *puts her hand on his shoulder* *cuts him off* Alright, let’s go. I got this. *walks to the door*

Spin- Like what alcohol will they serve and stuff, that kinda help..

Kumi- I’ll be useless, I won’t be drinking at a club again..

Spin- *pulls her back gently* Look, what happened before, that won’t happen there. Not on that night.

Kumi- How can you guarantee that?

Spin- I promise you. I’m looking out for you one hundred percent *puts his pinky out*

Kumi- *wraps her pinky around his* *smiles and laughs*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

*a few days later*

Diggy- *stops at the red light* *looks at phone and responds to messages*

Diggy- *looks at background picture of you and him* *strokes the screen* *starts driving again*

It’s been a long month. Another week went by and I’d spent it without Y/N. You had no idea how this felt. I was an absolute idiot for even letting that happen, for even shouting at hr, making her cry and almost.. hitting her. Thank God I didn’t even try to do that.

She was on my mind every second of the day. I’d spent endless days at the studio just rapping and thinking about her. Probably ten songs all about her and our relationship. I had to let it all out.

Diggy- *pulls upto the driveway* *gets out of his car* *goes in the house*

Jusine- *walks to him* Oh hey Dig..! *hugs and kisses him* You okay?

Diggy- I’m good.. *sighs tiredly*

Justine- You tired?

Diggy- Yeah, yeah a little.. I might go to bed.

Justine- You excited for your birthday? It’s tomorrow, do you know what Spin has planned for you?

Diggy- Yeah, like a er.. a club sorta thing.

Justine- That sounds good..

Diggy- *nods* *walks to his room*

Justine- *watches him walk away* Hm…

*later that day*

Justine- *knocks on his door* Dig…?

Diggy- *headphones in* *looking at pictures of Y/N on his phone*

Justine- *looks at him* Dig?

Diggy- *looks up* Oh hey mom.. *takes headphones out*

Justine- Are you okay?

Diggy- Yeah… why?

Justine- Because you didn’t want dinner, you’ve been distant lately and you’re not… happy. What’s been going on?

Diggy- *looks at the ceiling* It’s just that.. *sighs and breathes deeply* *fights back tears*

Justine- *sits next to him* You crying? *pauses* Is it a girl?

Diggy- *sniffles a little* Um..yeah.

Justine- I thought so. What is it? Tell me…

Diggy- I’ve been seeing this girl and… *wipes face* it’s been a while and loads of things happened and… *almost cries* last month I did her wrong. A lotta wrong… and I’m scared she won’t forgive me

Justine- What did you do? Cheat on her?

Diggy- *shakes head* No, not that… I… I was kinda violent and it scared her and I was shouting at her and she was crying… *puts head in his hands* I can’t believe I did that

Justine- Diggy… I didn’t ever expect that from you

Diggy- *cries* I know.. I’m an idiot. She won’t answer my calls, reply to my messages or even see me… she just wants space

Justine- *hugs him* *thinks* The only thing I can say is.. think of how she feels. Cause it might hurt her a lot more than it hurts you right now.

Diggy- *looks at her*

*the next day*

Spin- *runs in Diggy’s room* Happy Birthday man! *jumps on his bed*

Diggy- *wakes up suddenly* Damn! *laughs* Y’all better get off my bed! *sits up in bed*

*Georgie, Roger and Kumiko come in the room*

Georgie- Happy Birthday man! *hugs him*

Diggy- Thanks… *daps Roger* how was it getting here?

Roger- It was alright as usual… we got introduced to your friend.. *smiles mischievously and looks at Kumiko*

Georgie- I done told you to stop making that face at her, she’d gonna hit you..

Kumi- You know I will *laughs*

Diggy- *hugs Kumi* Y’alright?

Kumi- *smiles* I’m good..

Diggy- Everybody here?

Spin- Yeah.

Diggy- Oh..

Roger- Aye where’s that the girl Dig’s been talking bout to us?

Georgie- Who, that Y/N girl? She sounds so cute, I wanna meet her..

Kumi- She’s not coming

Diggy- She what?

Kumi- I’m sorry but.. she thought it was best that she didn’t. For you both.

Georgie- Hold up, what’s going on? What happened?

Diggy- Stuff. Stuff happened. You ain’t need to know

Roger- Does Spin know?

Diggy- *looks at Spin*

Spin- *looks at them*

Georgie- Then we have to. Come on, before your interview…

*later that day*

Interviewer- Hey, we in the building with the birthday boy, Diggy Simmons

Diggy- *smiles*

Interviewer- 19 huh? Getting used to the legal life?

Diggy- Yeah, I’m getting used to it *laughs a little*

Kumi- *types on her phone*

Interviewer- What’s been happening in the last year since we been with you?

Diggy- It’s been crazy, met a few people, had a lotta fun and I’ve been working hard in the studio and communicating with my fans.. it’s been a lot so far…

YOUR P.O.V.

Y/N- *walks in the room with her phone* Ari, turn on the radio, Kumi’s telling me to listen to it for five minutes…

Aria- Alright.. *turns it on*

Interviewer- *on the radio* So, have there been any lucky ladies in the spotlight, it’s been rumored for a few months..

Diggy- *on the radio* Um.. *laughs to himself* Yeah, there’s been one..

Y/N- *listens closely*

Diggy- It’s been.. a journey. It’s been a lot so far

Interviewer- And we know you ain’t really talk about relationships publicly either..

Diggy- I don’t but.. I’m kind of stuck on this one. Not stuck but, it feels real

Aria- *sighs* Turn it off Y/N…

Y/N- *waves her hand at her* Shh…!

Interviewer- Like, real love? Is Diggy Simmons in love? *laughs a little*

Diggy- *chuckles* Yeah, you can say say that I am

Y/N- *smiles*

Interviewer- Is this the same girl that’s been in the tabloids and the magazines?

Diggy- I don’t know cause I don’t read those. I don’t pay attention to them, so I don’t know what’s printed and gossiped about but it may or may not be.

Interviewer- Let’s talk about this girl of yours, um… firstly, is she pretty? *laughs*

Diggy- *laughs*

Interviewer- Cause we know Diggy Simmons has to have a pretty girl on his arm!

Diggy- Yeah, yeah she’s beautiful

Y/N- *smiles at Aria*

Aria- You know you can’t be doing that to yourself

Y/N- I miss his voice, okay? I really do…

Aria- *smiles* Alright

Interviewer- How did you meet her?

Diggy- Funnily enough, she was on her way to work and I met her in a Starbucks and that was like.. before Christmas

Interviewer- Y’all both doing alright though?

Diggy- I just wanna say to her, that if she is listening, which I hope she is somehow and somewhere that she knows how much I love her, like more than I ever could. Cause I really do, and I miss her a lot right now, I wish she was here with me right now. So.. yeah.

Aria- *turns off radio* *looks at you* Can I ask you one question?

Y/N- *looks at her*

Aria- Are you ready to go back to him?

Y/N- *silent* *looks down*

Aria- You gotta think about that one?

Y/N- I do. I shouldn’t even have to. Yes I want him back because you love him..

Aria- So go back. Love rules all…

Y/N- But.. I’m scared and I don’t want what happened before happening again.

Aria- *looks at you* *sighs* All this time I’ve been telling you you need space from him and making sure you have it.. but only you know what you want.

Y/N- *silent*

Aria- I’ll let you think for a while. *leaves*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

*later that night*

We got to the club an hour ago and it was buzzing. It was full of people partying and it was a great place to be at for my 19th but I only had one drink so far. Spin and Roger were making sure I was turnt for tonight and kept my spirits up and tried to make sure my cup was always full…

*phone buzzes*

Diggy- *looks at it*

Zendaya- Happy Birthday big boy! Hope you’re not missing me too much.. if you need a birthday surprise, I’m right here ;)

Diggy- *shakes head* *deletes her text* *deletes her number* *turns off his phone*

YOUR P.O.V.

Y/N- *calls Diggy* *call goes to voicemail* Hey.. Diggy.. *clears throat* it’s me . I er.. I tried to get through to you, but obviously your phone is off. *sighs* I wanted to say I’m sorry. For being an idiot all this time. Call me later, okay? *hangs up*

*half an hour later*

Y/N- *calls Diggy* *call goes to voicemail* I have to admit that I miss you. A lot and… it’s not fair that I didn’t listen to you but I’ve heard all those sorry’s before and it scared me to see you like that. I’m sure you’re hurting like I am but… I wish it never happened. I shouldn’t have been so distant with you and acting odd and not answering your calls. I shouldn’t have done that..

*15 minutes later*

Y/N- *calls Diggy* *call goes to voicemail* I wish right now I was with you or you were with me because my heart hurts. Really hurts because I’m away from you and it’s awful. It’s a horrible feeling. I want you to hold me in your arms and kiss my hair and tell me you love me over and over like you used to. I miss when we’d go to the basketball court near my house on some days and I’d beat you when shooting hoops or when we’d sneak out at night for late night iHop. I miss that. I kiss spending time with you.. all the good days. But I hope we can forget this and pick up where we left off…

*half an hour later*

Y/N- *call goes to voicemail again* *almost crying* I’m so sorry about all this. I’ve been the one pushing us further apart. I didn’t think once about how you’d feel and what you were thinking to anything like that because I was selfish. I thought I was the only one hurting but when I was with Chris at the club, I shouldn’t have gone. I shouldn’t have gone to his house and slept over, I shouldn’t have done any of that because now I know it made you feel like I didn’t love you enough, but that’s not true. I love you more than my whole life. More than Mocha coffee and more than coconut ice cream and waffles and lucky charms. I love you. *sighs* But… you’ll probably not hear this until the morning so… I wanted to say happy birthday Daniel. I er, I hope you’re having fun without me *hangs up*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

*later on*

Diggy- So how’s she been?

Kumi- Awful. Like shattered. She isn’t who she is anymore.

Diggy- What?

Kumi- She’s worse than you.. but she heard the interview this morning..

Diggy- She did?

Kumi- *nods*

Diggy- *turns his phone on* *sees missed calls and voicemails from you* *to Kumiko* I gotta hear these..

Kumi- *holds him back* But Asap Rocky just walked in.. *looks at the door*

Diggy- I’ll probably see him later *walks outside* *listens to voicemails*

Y/N- *on voicemail* …I wanted to say I’m sorry. For being an idiot all this time…

Y/N- …I wish it never happened. I shouldn’t have been so distant with you and acting odd and not answering your calls….

Y/N- …My heart hurts. Really hurts because I’m away from you and it’s awful….

Y/N- I wanted to say happy birthday Daniel. I er, I hope you’re having fun without me.. *voicemail ends*

Diggy- *puts phone down* But I’m not..

I loved hearing her voice. It was the first time in over a month that I had and it warmed my heart, it was beating so fast and I was nervous to hear the messages. That was it. I needed to see her…

Spin- *walks outside* There you are… get inside…

Diggy- Naw, I’m gone..

Spin- What?

Diggy- I have to go and see Y/N asap

Spin- *sighs* *pats his back* Alright, go.. I wish you luck

Diggy- *nods and runs to his car*

It was 11 in the evening so the roads were clearer than earlier on. I called at her dad’s city apartment and Dante told me through the phone in his tired voice that she wasn’t there tonight.

I ran back to my car and drove all the way to Queens and got to the house. I prayed a she was there as I waited on the doorstep…

Y/N- *opens the door* *rubs eyes* Daniel? I..

Diggy- I heard the voicemails…

Y/N- Oh. So that wasn’t a dream..

Diggy- *shakes head* I feel the same damn way about you

Y/N- I know.. I heard the interview.

Diggy- I know you did. Y/N, I’m an idiot. *gets on his knees and hugs your legs*

Y/N- *runs your hands through his hair* I know you are…

Diggy- I want you to forgive me.. please baby. *looks in her eyes*

Y/N- *nods a little* Aren’t you meant to be at a club?

Diggy- I left it to come and find you. *stands up* *holds you hands*

Y/N- *tears fall*