Ch 13

Sam POV

     I can't believe how Colby is acting. I agreed to pretend to date Katrina just so I can be closer to him when the camera is on, but he goes on to date a random man?! He's so stupid!

     Don't get me wrong, I do love Kat. She's funny, adorable, beautiful- no, stunning. She's an amazing girl, but I don't love her like I love Colby. I wish we could just be friends instead of fake girlfriend and boyfriend.

     Colby has been out a lot lately, and today he's been gone for awhile and hasn't returned yet. He's probably hanging out with his boy toy.

     My phone went off, telling me I got a text. I tried to ignore it and continue editing a Sam and Colby video, but it kept buzzing.

     I sigh and pick up my phone. There was a message from this new group chat. I open my phone and see that the group chat was Colby, Corey, Elton, our new friend Aaron, and I.

Elton- Alright guys, we have to talk.

Corey- I swear I didn't do anything.

Elton- No, it has to deal with all of us. I just got a crazy idea.

Sam- I already hate it.

Elton- What if we moved in together?

Corey- Dude, these apartments are tiny. I don't think that could work.

Elton- No, like an actual house.

Aaron- Where would we move to?

Elton- We could just find a house here in LA that we all love, and we could buy it. 

Sam- 'We' buy it?

Corey- I'm poor.

Aaron- I don't want to spend money on a house.

Elton- 1: Corey, you aren't poor. We're all YouTubers so we all get money. 2: We can all pitch in. I found a good house already, anyway.

Elton- It's a huge house, two stories, plenty of bedrooms, a garage, and more.

Elton- *picture*

Aaron- Dang! That's a good house.

Corey- Seeing it now, I'm fine with it.

Sam- I mean, I'm down. It may be fun!

Aaron- Where's Colby? We need his opinion.

Corey- COLBYYYYY!

Aaron- I say we keep spamming him even more until he picks up.

Corey- Ok.

Corey- Colby

Corey- Colby

Elton- Cole

Corey- Colby

Aaron- COLBY

Elton- Colbyyyyy

Corey- Colby

Corey- Col

Corey- By

Colby- What?!

Elton- We need you to approve of the house.

Colby- Yeah, sure. I guess that's fine. I don't care.

Aaron- So, it's happening?

Elton- Yes.

Corey- Hell Yeah!

Elton- I'll talk with the owner now.

Read 3:28 pm.

Well, looks like we're getting a house.

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A few weeks have past and it was finally moving day. I stood where the couch used to be, looking around at the empty apartment.

Colby stood at the counter, looking at his phone. Probably talking to Brennen.

Like the past month or so, we stood there in silence. We looked back and forth from each other and our phones.

"Sam" "Colby" We said at the same time. "You first." He says.

"I just wanted to say... that I don't want to leave the apartment angry with each other." I say. He nods.

"I was going to say the same." He said. I nodded as well. I didn't know what to say. "And don't get me wrong, I love you. But I think it would be best for us to just stay friends. At least for right now." I nod in agreement.

"Friends." I repeat. We go in for a hug, and honestly it was the best feeling to be hugged by the man you love but have been ignoring for the past few weeks.

There was a buzz and we separated. Colby looked at his phone. "Everyone's all pack and Elton got the keys. Are you ready?" He asked. I nodded.

We got our suitcases and walked out of the apartment for the last time.

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We finally got everyone into the house with as much furniture as we could get. Corey, his girlfriend Devyn, Aaron, Colby, and Elton was downstairs having a small party.

I heard them laughing and talking, as I lay on my bed in my new room. It was a weird feeling that I had my own room now.

     I looked around my room and started thinking about where I would put everything when the door opened up. Colby slowly opened the door and gave a small smile. I have one back as he walked in and shut the door, leaning against it.

     "Hey. Everyone's missing you downstairs." He said. "We're about to watch a movie. Do you wanna come down and join?"

     "Nah, I'm good. Thanks though." I said. The truth is: I did want to join, but I just didn't want to be around Colby yet. Yeah, we did clear the air and we're friends again, but I really need time to myself.

     "You sure? You've been up here alone for a few hours now." He said, walking to my bed and sitting on the end. I sat up.

     "Yeah, I'm fine. I promise." He looked at me, knowing I wasn't fine, but still sighed and changed the subject.

     "Well, Elton wanted to know if you'd be down to go on a trip with him, Corey, and I next month to New Zealand for his channel." He said.

     "Yeah, I'm down. How long are we going to be gone?" I asked.

     "He said for a few weeks. No more than 3 though since we all have work." He said. I hummed and nodded.

     We looked away from each other as there was silence and was tense.

     "Again Sam, I'm so sorry for acting that way and freaking out about you agreeing to be with Katrina. She is a really nice girl. You deserve her, not me." He said. I looked at him, he was staring at the floor. "You deserve anything and everything. You deserve happiness, when I would only give you trouble."

     "I'm going to pretend like I didn't hear that." He looked up at me. "Dude, we're Sam and Colby. We were two little boys from Kansas that could barely talk to a girl without freaking out, and now we're here: living in this mansion in LA with a bunch of people, our own YouTube channels and merch. I wouldn't be here without you. How many times do I have to say that?" I said, a bit angry.

     "You don't understand how much you mean to me, Colby. You're my best friend." I said. He looked away once more.

     "You're my best friend too, Sam. You mean the world to me. It's just, sometimes I feel like I get in your way of getting stuff done sometimes, you know?." He said. I rolled my eyes.

     "Colby, you're never in the way. What we accomplished is all because of us working together. We would probably be doing something stupid right now if we never met each other." I said. "There's no way that we would be able to do what we did without each other. So don't even think that you're ever in the way." He smiled, but I could tell that there was something really bothering him.

     But before I can question him any more, he got up and started walking to the door. "Night, Sam." He said and left. There's really something wrong with him, and I could tell that.

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Colby POV

     I walked back downstairs, thinking about what Sam said. I honestly felt like sometimes I bothered him. We "forgave" each other this morning, but I feel like Sam is still angry with me.

     I wish I could just tell him that I'm fake dating Brennen, so much. But he would probably just get even more angry. Not to mention, Brennen may get really angry if I say that I was using him because I had feelings for another man.

     As I walked into the kitchen, I saw none other than Brennen himself standing there with the other roommates. "Heeey Colby!"

     "Uh, hey Brennen. W-What are you doing here?" I asked, putting my hands in my jean pockets.

     "I just came over to check out the new place and hang out, bro. And man, this place is nice!" He said while looking around the house. "Do you wanna give me a tour?"

     "No, I don't"  I thought. I really didn't want to be around him right now, especially after that talk with Sam. But instead, I nodded and started the tour.

     About ten minutes later, I was done and we decided to go on a walk. And by 'we decided', I mean 'he decided'. We walked around the neighborhood for awhile and I felt him place a hand around my waist.

     I tried ignoring it, but he slowly started to get closer to me. "Brennen, can I please have some space?" I asked, trying to remain calm.

     He rolled his eyes and walked back a bit, but kept his arm around me. It was one of the worst things. I hated it. But I didn't want to be mean. "Can you also take your hand off of me?" I tried to ask.

     He simply responded with a "why?" I'm getting angry now.

     "I just don't really like that kind of stuff." I half lied. I didn't like that stuff, but if I did it at all I only want to do that public display of affection crap with Sam.

     "Well, we're boyfriends. And don't boyfriends do this stuff?" He asked.

     "Not every couple. But I really don't like-" I started, trying to pull out of his grasp but he tightened it.

     "Well, I like this stuff, so we're doing it." He said with aggression.

     "Besides, we're not really da-" I started again before he stopped and interrupted me again.

     "Yes we are, Colby!" He said. "I feel like you still have an eye for Sam."

     "No, I don't! I'm over him. But I really don't want to do this stuff." I said.

     "I feel like you're lying to me." He said. I shook my head. "Good. Because you wouldn't want to know what I would do if you were lying." He stated.

     He's right. I don't want to know what he would do.

     The rest of the walk was silent. And luckily it was nighttime so he couldn't see me roll my eyes at him once in awhile. When we got back home, we say that Kat's car was here. I rolled my eyes once more and ran upstairs to my room. I heard the two of them talking and laughing. I shut my door and turned off the lights, locking the door as well.

     I took off my shirt and pants and lay in bed, staring at the ceiling.

     I wished I could be with Sam right now, but I can't for many reasons. And I honestly wished that I could just run in his room and place a kiss on his lips. But he's right, we need to stay friends. Even if Kat and him break up, or if I stop talking with Brennen, we need to stay friends.

     Sometimes, I wish this world wasn't as messed up as it is and wish my life was normal. Sometimes I regret doing Vine and YouTube, because if I didn't, I would be happy and dating Sam.

     And it's not the fans fault at all. They're the best group of people in the world and I love all of them like family. It's the stupid managers fault. It's all of his fault.

     I brushed those nasty thoughts away and started thinking about the New Zealand trip. We'll be a different country, so then I'll be able to be close to Sam. And hopefully those few weeks can make things less awkward between us.

A/N- Holá. Sorry for the crappy chapter. Writers block hasn't been that nice for me recently, for both this book and my book on my personal account. But I promise next chapter will get better! Also, I just have to put out there that Carissa and I aren't throwing any hate towards Kat, Brennen, or anyone. They're all amazing people, and it's only for the story! ~Kaitlyn