Part 51

Clarke POV:

I woke up to Raven practically dragging me out of bed.

"Stop," I groaned but she didn't stop. "Clarke come on," she said with a grunt before I felt my back leave the comfort of my bed.

I was yanked up and I didn't realize how asleep my body was because I flopped down to the ground.

"Jeez, I didn't know you were that strong," I said as I got up. She had a proud smirk on her face. "Let's go Clarkie," she said with a cheery tone as she walked out of my room like she never even came in at all.

I didn't want to. I really didn't want to. But I put on some clean clothes and left the room.

"It's about time," Raven said as she crossed her arms and looking me up and down when I came down the stairs. I just rolled her eyes at her.

"I don't want to go," I said as I put my hands on my head and rubbed my face. I was so tired yet, I went to sleep so early. "I know but we have to," Raven said and I kept my head down but my eyes shifted up to her but I stayed quiet.

"You miss her?" Luna said quietly. It wasn't really a question as she spoke. It was the first time she spoke since I came out of my room.

"I love her," I answered quietly and looked back down at my hands. "I know sweetie," Raven said as she put her arm around me and rubbed up and down my arm.

We stayed like that for a moment before I pulled away. "We should really get going before we are late," Luna said, clearing her throat to break through the awkward tension that arose in the room. I nodded and we all left the house.

Luna drove this time. I wasn't really feeling up to driving and Raven is kind of out of commission. The urge to crash the car was honestly too severe at the moment so I sat in the backseat quietly.

"Where is Lexa? She is usually with you guys," Lincoln said as we approached. Silence. None of us said anything and we all looked at the ground. We didn't even really know what to say.

I could hear there wondering looks but I didn't care. "Did she run away again?" Jasper said with a laugh as he nudged Monty who also laughed. He completely meant it as a joke but Raven, Luna and I all gave each other looks knowing that he was absolutely right.

"Did she?" Octavia asked in our silence as she saw our faces. "No, no," I said in response. Well, kinda actually but they didn't need to know that.

"So what then?" Jasper asked after he got more serious. "She is just dealing with some personal stuff," Luna said after I had been quiet for a few seconds, trying to come up with an answer on my own.

Everyone went quiet after she said that and it was filled with awkward silence. "Okaaaaay, moooving ooooon," Octavia said. She stretched her words out so far, waiting for someone to jump in and help her.

"Did you guys see all the police cars the other night?" Monty finally interjected, changing the subject.

"Yeah," "yeah," everyone mumbled, happy to get out of the awkwardness that was this conversation.

"What?" I asked. I'm not sure if I want them to answer but I needed them too. "I'm surprised you don't know, it was a few blocks away from your house," Octavia said and I looked at Luna. Oh shit. Oh fucking shit.

"There was a string of like ten police cars that filled up a street. They blocked it off and there were lots of police, ambulances and people everywhere," Lincoln said, finishing the rest of the story. Oh shit.

That was Lexa's house they surrounded. You have got to be kidding me. But I'm a little surprised they didn't actually know it was Lexa's house. I mean, she had a reason for not inviting them over but they didn't even know the area she lived in. Wow.

"Yeah I saw that," Raven said and I sent her a death glare. So did Luna but Raven ignored both of our looks with a confused one of her own.

"Do you know what it was about?" Jasper asked. "No, it sounds kind of bad though. Whatever it was." Raven said and Luna and I sent her another deadly glare.

"Yeah. I heard there was a dead guy," Monty said and everyone turned to look at him. "How on earth did you hear that?" Jasper said skeptically as he raised an eyebrows him. "I have my sources," Monty said and everyone laughed. Well everyone except me and Luna.

The bell rang and everyone went into the building.

Luna and I went on opposite sides of Raven, sandwiching her in. "What the hell Rae," I said as I hit her arm.

"Ow! What?" She said as she rubbed her arm and defended herself. "That was Lexa's house you idiot," I said back to her. "The one with all the police cars, that was Lexa's house. The dead body, that was her dad," Luna said and Raven stopped walking and froze. "Well how was I supposed to know that?" Raven said in defense.

"She lives so close, how did I not know that?" Raven said as she started walking again but her brows furrowed and she had her thinking face on.

"Because she keeps the people she cares about as far away from that house as possible," I said and they both looked at me from the side.

"We just need to prevent everyone else from figuring out it was her house," I said, ignoring the looks because they knew I was right.

We got to my class and I waved goodbye to them. As they began walking away from my classroom, I could see their fingers intertwine as they walked together. I smiled at their hands and went to my seat.

After classes were done, I didn't go to lunch with my friends. I couldn't listen to their conspiracy theories about what happened that night in Lexa's house. I wanted to be alone. So you know what I did? I went to the art room like I usually do. It's been a while since I have been there though.

I walked in and took in the familiar smells and feelings. I looked around the room. My mind flashed through the moments as memories of this room.

The countless times Lexa as scared me by just walking into this room.

When I finally got the upper hand on her and pinned her against the wall, only to have her reverse the position.

The numerous paintings I did.

Her waiting as I finished so she could walk home with me.

Where I nearly punched her but she stopped it.

This placed was filled with memories of her.

I smiled through all the memories and walked over to one of the tables. I turned my head to look at the door.

Many moments where I saw her green eyes appear in the doorway.

The way my mouth automatically moved into a smile as I saw her.

The many jump scares she gave me because I was so focused on my art to hear her come in.

I smiled again at the memories until it faded.

I pulled out a sheet of paper and a pencil. I lightly sketched the outside of the drawing before moving to color.

Multiple shades of green. A nice jade color as a base, a darker, more forest green around the outsides and a warmer, yellower green closest to the middle. Each stroke blended the colors gorgeously until I was happy with the result.

I knew it so well so that every stroke of my brush was placed with perfection. I backed away from the painting and looked into the enchanting colors that consumed my soul. Her eyes, I knew them so well and they just sat there. I created them perfectly as they looked back at me.

I had paint up and down my arms, all different shades of that magnificent green that I had come to love. I left the painting to dry as I left the room and went to the bathroom to wash off all the paint that was stuck to me. It had become one with my skin.

While I was in there, a bell rang that meant lunch was over. I grabbed my stuff and went to my final classes of the day.

After school ended, I met up with Raven and Luna and walked to the car. "Where did you go at lunch Clarkie?" Raven asked as we got into the car.

"I just wasn't really up to talk. And I really didn't want to hear them guess what happened that night?" I said. I didn't want to relive it. It was the last thing I wanted.

I saw Luna's eyes look at me in the mirror as she drove. She was checking to make sure I was ok and I have a subtle smile to reassure her.

"Yeah it was probably good you weren't there then because they had some pretty crazy conspiracies," Raven said with a little laugh.

I stayed silent the rest of the way back home. I got out and went straight to my room. I didn't want to socialize with anyone.

Well, I would like to talk to one person but that wasn't really an option anymore. So I just stayed in my room the rest of the night.