Part 38

Clarke POV:

I woke up with a blazing headache and an extremely sore body. Like what the fuck happened? I looked around and I wasn't in my familiar setting of my room that I had grown used to.

I turned around and I saw Raven laying next to me. As I sat up slightly, stopping myself and the sudden rush of a headache I got from moving. Raven's eyes began to flutter open at my groan.

"What the hell?" She whispered as she brought her hand to her head in agony. "How drunk did we get?" I said very quietly and Raven grabbed her pillow and slammed it into her face to drown out everything.

I looked around and saw a glass of water and Advil on the table next to me. "God I love your girlfriend" I said to Raven as I took the pill and drank the whole cup of water.

"What?" Raven said as she took the pillow off her face to look at me. I pointed to the table on her side of the bed. I saw it and got happy as she took the pill and drank the water, same as me.

We both got up, moving very slowly, and made our way to the kitchen with very many groans in protest.

"Morning" Luna said as she was making a cup of coffee. "Stop screaming," Raven said quietly, rubbing her head more. "Sorry babe" Luna said as she went over kissed Raven's temple. "What happened last night?" I asked, trying to think back to the blank memory that was yesterday evening.

"Alcohol happened," Luna said with a laugh. "Yeah I know that" I responded, not having the patience for her jokes. I sat down in a chair and put my hands over my face. "The highlights please," Raven said as she sat next to me. Luna walked around so she was in front of us both before speaking.

"Well you, drank, danced into oblivion and ate a cookie" she said and pointed to Raven. I laughed but it ended quickly when the pain hit me like a bus that got hit my a truck.

"I vaguely remember eating that cookie. It was quite good if I remember correctly." Raven said and I held back laughter so I wouldn't be in pain again.

"And you drank, told the story of how me and Raven got together, danced and then got Raven said cookie." She said, pointing to me. I laughed very gently this time, as the memories started to come back. "You got me the cookie? thanks Griff," Raven said as she hugged me from the side.

"Anything else we should know before we re-enter society?" I asked Luna. "Yeah probably" she said as her happy face fell a little. Ah shit, something bad happened.

"Lincoln and I almost beat up Bellamy because he wouldn't let go of you," she said. Raven turned to me as if to kickstart her memory and I closed my eyes and got flashes of his grip on my arm.

"Thank you," I said as I put my hand on my head to control the throbbing that had died down slightly but still very much there.

"That's right, that's what led to the delicious cookie." Raven said, snapping her fingers and pointing to me. All three of us all laughed at her excitement over that damn cookie.

"You guys look terrible" my mom said as she walked in. "Thanks mom," I said sarcastically as I rolled my eyes. My attitude was quickly changed when I snapped back into realizing what was important.

"You're here!" I said happily as I got up and hugged her. "Yeah I'm sorry I have been so busy, the hospital has been jam packed lately," she said as she hugged me back. "Hey mama G," Raven called out from her seat. "Hey Raven, hey Luna" my mom said as she released me from the hug.

"I would love to stay but sadly, I have to go back to work" she said as she turned back to me. I frowned a little because my mom has been gone more lately. More than usual and I just miss her I guess.

"I will be back earlier tonight so we can spend time then" she said, reading my disappointed face as she cupped my face to cheer me up. "Ok, go save lives" I said, motioning her to the door. She kissed my head and walked out.

"So what do you guys want to do today?" Luna asked, looking back and forth between us.

"I would like to be productive today but my head is telling me no" Raven said, still rubbing her head.

"Movie day it is" I said, walking over to them. "Ok but both of you shower first because you reek of alcohol," Luna said, pinching her nose and making a disgusted face.

"Hey" Raven said, fake being mad.

She got up and hugged Luna tightly and said "you love it though." Luna laughed at her before giving her a kiss on the lips. "And maybe brush your teeth too," she said and I started laughing at them.

"Fine I'm going, I'm going, only so I can kiss you the right way after," Raven said, walking away and pointing to Luna as she walked backwards.

I walked up the stairs to my bathroom and took my clothes off and got under the water. I stood under the water as water ran down my face and memories came flooding back from last night.

Lots of drinks, I remember refilling my cup multiple times. I talked about Raven and Luna's relationship, Octavia hugging me, like very tightly. Talking about Lexa, drinking about Lexa. Dancing, more drinking, laughing with Raven, dancing with Raven.

Then Bellamy approaching, him grabbing me harshly, sending Raven away and dancing with Bellamy. "She's not my girlfriend," rang through my head, I said that a few times I guess.

Him grabbing me harder, leaving marks on my skin, Lincoln and Bellamy face to face, falling to the floor at the sudden release, and then Octavia picked me up.

Giving Raven a cookie, struggling to open a door, laughing in the back of a car and then finally falling asleep. It all came back in flashes and painful waves that were coming to fast to comprehend immediately.

I stepped out of the shower and washed my face, splashing cold water on it. I brushed my hair and brushed my teeth before going back downstairs.

Raven was sitting there with wet hair and talking to Luna. "I remembered" I said with a bow as I got to the bottom of the stairs. I was rewarded with dramatic clapping from both girls.

"So did I but I can't seem to remember what we were laughing about in the back of the car," Raven said, turning to Luna for answers.

"Don't look at me, I had no clue either," she said, putting her hands up before they both turned to me.

"Uh yeah ok- so we were laughing because you said and I quote 'I really like my girlfriend but that cookie was would be hard to top' and then Luna looked at us so you started laughing and then I started laughing and we couldn't stop" I said, scrunching up my nose as I remembered.

Raven put her hand over her mouth and Luna turned to her. "Oh my god, I remember now," she said, almost horrified with herself.

"Really? A cookie?" She said. "In my defense, it was a really good one," Raven said, trying to reason as she put her hands up in defense.

Luna just shook her head unbelievably and leaned down to kiss her. "I would choose the cookie too," Luna said, stopping before she got to her lips and then walked away a little.

Raven and I stared at each other in shock at her boldness for a little before Raven quickly followed after Luna.

"A cookie? Really?" She said crossing her arms. "See now you know how it feels" Luna laughed back at her as she repeated the same words Luna had just said to her. "Well, I don't regret it," Raven said, smirking and challenging her girlfriend further.

Luna turned back around and walked closer and closer to Raven which made her walk backwards into a wall.

Luna then put her hands on the wall next to her head and leaned down closer to her face so they were merely centimeters apart.

"No regrets huh?" She whispered as she teased Raven by putting her lips close to hers, almost touching. Even occasionally grazing them, pulling Raven's focus to Luna's lips.

Raven didn't say anything, and her eyes were on Luna's lips the whole time as she swallowed any possible sounds that would come out.

Then Luna leaned in more and whispered "I can do things a cookie can't" in Raven's ear and her eyes widened at the realization of what she meant.

Luna lightly placed her thumb on Raven's lips before going in for a kiss and bringing Raven's face up to her. But she stopped when she was about to touch Raven's lips and turned and walked away.

When Luna turned around, she wiggled her eyebrows at me and Raven was still frozen up against the wall.

"I would say I wish I didn't see that but the look on Raven's face is priceless right now," I said laughing and looking at Raven who seemed to still be comprehending what just happened.

Raven was still trying to regain her composure as she was glued to the wall, it was like it was magnetically holding her in place.

"Damn Luna, I didn't know you had that big of an effect on her" I said, pointing to Raven as she hadn't moved from the wall in five minutes. "To be honest, me neither" she said and we laughed together at Raven's struggle.

"Do I have to drag your ass over here so we can start the movie?" I yelled to Raven. This seemed to work because she walked over to us.

She glanced briefly at Luna before choosing to sit down next to me instead. I looked at Luna and she had a smirk on her face as she looked across me to Raven.

"Yeah, no. I'm not sitting in between this," I said and pushed Raven into Luna's arms so I wasn't in the middle anymore.

"Hey" Luna said sweetly as she tucked a strand of hair behind Raven's ear with a smirk. "Ugh, I should have stayed between you two" I said as I faked gagged and started the movie.

Halfway through the movie, there was a knock on the door. I looked at Luna and Raven who seemed unfazed by the knocking because they were looking at each other with deep heart eyes that honestly made me want to vomit, because that wasn't an innocent look either.

I got up and opened the door. Octavia was standing there, looking a little nervous. "Hey, what's up O?" I asked.

"Nothing, I just wanted to check in on you guys because you got really drunk last night and I wanted to make sure you were alright." She said. "Uh- yeah. Come in" I said, opening the door more to let her in. We walked over to the couch to sit with Raven and Luna.

Octavia took one look at Luna and Raven before looking back at me. "Don't pay attention to them, they have this weird thing going on." I said as we sat down, away from them.

"How's your head?" She asked, pointing to me. "It's good, we took Advil this morning and the pain is gone for the most part but it still sucked." I said with a shrug. "Good." She said and she got all awkward again.

"Hey Clarke, I wanted to say sorry again for how Bellamy reacted, I don't know what's wrong with him or why he treated you like that." She said apologetically. "It's fine O, I'm okay and it's not your fault." I said, rubbing her arm. She isn't supposed to control him, he is his own person and makes his own decisions. That doesn't reflect on Octavia and she knows that.

"Hey O, when did you get here?" Raven said, looking away from Luna for the first time in like 45 minutes.

"Really?" I said and she looked confused. "I have been here for like twenty minutes." Octavia said with a laugh.

"Yeah you were wrapped up in Luna that you didn't even notice." I said and she blushed when she looked back at Luna, getting lost in her again.

"What exactly caused this?" Octavia said, looking at me but pointing to the girls who were back in their own little bubble.

"Raven chose a cookie over Luna" I said like it was completely normal and she cut me off before I could elaborate.

"What?" Octavia said, surprised and chuckling but also confused at what I meant. "Yeah, then Luna went on this big flirting thing and backed Raven into that wall over there. She said some really dirty things and teased her a whole bunch. Hilarious by the way. So now they can't take their eyes off each other, it's almost sickening." I said, looking back at the two girls with a sigh.

"Cute but ew" Octavia said, making a gagging noise at my story. "Yeah I'm pretty sure if I wasn't here they would rip each other's clothes off and done it on the kitchen counter" I said laughing but disgusting myself at my own words.

"Hey O, do you want to stay and finish the movie with us?" I asked, I begged. I could see her questioning it and considering it.

"Please, I need company because those two are in a different world and it's lonely being the third wheel," I begged more.

"As much as I would love too, I have a coffee date with Lincoln soon," she said as she got up. I pouty, coming to the realization that I will be alone with the sex freaks that and moments away from doing it on the couch right next to me.

I walked her to the door to say goodbye. "How's that going by the way? With Lincoln?" I asked.

"It's going really great, I really do love him and he is different from anyone else I have dated so you don't have to worry." She said, smiling as she pointed to me. I will never not worry but she already knows that.

"I'm glad, but does that mean you two...?" I didn't finish but I made motions with my hands. "Clarke stop," she said, grabbing my hands to put a jolt to my implied silence.

"But yes." She said while blushing. "Damn O, get it I guess," I said, hitting her shoulder which made her blush even more.

"Ok I'm leaving now," she said as she walked away embarrassed. "Have fun, call me if you need anything!" I shouted after her.

I walked back over to the couch and Raven was straddling Luna with her hands on her face and kissing her with much heat.

Luna had her hands on her back that moved to her waist, exaggerating Raven's motions.

"That's enough" I said and I threw a pillow at them. "Please don't do that here," I said as I sat down. "Fine," Raven said with a grin as she got off Luna. Thank god.

Raven stuck out her hand and guided Luna back to her room before shutting the door. "Be quiet at least!" I yelled through the closed door. I turned the movie back in and watched the rest before starting another.

My mom finally walked in the door. It was pretty late by then. "Hey sweetie" she called out and I came up and hugged her. "Hey mom," I said back.

She looked around the room before saying "what are you guys doing?" I chuckled to myself before answering. "Well I am watching a movie and Raven and Luna, well, you don't really want to know" I said laughing. "Ok I will take your word for it" she said as her eyes went wide with what I meant.

"How was your day mom?" I asked her. "It was great, I performed surgery on this little girls tumor that was deemed in-operable and she survived it," she said with so much passion in her eyes.

"That's wonderful," I said back, smiling at my moms happy mood. "Yeah, it was, what about you?" She said. "It's getting better." I responded back, looking at the ground.

"You still miss her?" She asked. I nodded and she came over and hugged me tightly. "I don't know why I care this much." I said into her hug.

"Because she means a lot to you, more than you know Clarke." She said as she rubbed my back. "It's not even that she's gone, it's that I don't know if she is ok or not," I said, breaking the hug to look at her.

"I know Clarke but Lexa is strong, you know that." She said. I laughed at what she said.

"What?" She asked, looking confused that I went from sad to laughing almost instantly. "You sound like Luna," I said.

"Is that a bad thing? Luna is smart," my mom said. "It's not a bad thing, it's just that despite her knowing Lexa longer, I know her better and something about the situation just doesn't make sense." I said, furrowing my eyebrows together. "I'm sorry honey," she said and rubbed my arm to comfort me.

There was another knock on the door. "Who is here this late?" My mom asked, looking down at her watch.

"It's probably Octavia, she stopped by early to check on us. She might be back to check in again" I said with a shrug as I got up and moved to the door.

When I opened it I froze.

"Lexa?"