Chapter Nine: Drunken Confessions

Zayn's POV

"Thank you so much boys! Ladies and gentlemen, I'm Laura Pieterce from Radio 1 and this was One Direction!" The ginger haired girl announced and we took off our headphones. Our song bursted from the speakers and she turned off her microphone. 

"It was really nice to meet you boys!" She smiled and hugged each one of us. 

"Nice to meet you too!" We all said in unison and we walked out. 

The whole interview, I was thinking everything that Louis told me. His words hit my face like a slap and brought me back to reality. I had to clear things in my head and finally choose what I want. Wait for something that may never come back, or move forward eventhough I'm not ready?

"Dude?!" Liam's voice interrupted my thoughts. 

"Yeah?" I cleared my throat and snapped my head to his direction. 

"You want to come with us for some shots?" A smile curved on his face. 

"No, I think I have to stay alone for a while and think..." 

"You better be!" Louis popped out of nowhere. 

"Louis?!" Liam punched his arm. 

"What?! He has to clear things out!" Before Liam could speak and say some nice words to comfort me, I cut him off. 

"He's right, Liam. I need to take some decisions. See you later guys!" I opened the glass door and I walked out of the studio, heading to my car. 

Jenna's POV

"My feet hurt!" Tulisa whined.

"Mine too!" Eleanor sat down on a white bench.

"Same here!" I growled and collapsed on the seat next to Eleanor.

"Oh come on girls! I can't believe you!" Morgan chuckled.

"Just because you're athletic and you can walk miles, doesn't mean that we can too!" Tulisa rolled her eyes.

We stayed in complete silence for a while, rubbing our hurting feet and scoffing under our breath, until Jasmine spoke.

"Girls, look!" She pointed to a black and pink big store in front of us. "It's a Victoria's Secret!" Her eyes widened and her jaw dropped open. 

"Oh my God we should totally go and check it out." Morgan spoke and start walking to the store, being followed by Jasmine.

"Come on!" Tulisa grabbed my wrist, drugging me to the store, along with our shopping bags. 

"This is heaven!" Jasmine smiled and dissapeared to the crowded building.

The other girls pretty much did the same and only Eleanor stayed by my side.

"El, I need to tell you something now that we're alone." I whispered and followed her around.

"What happened babe?" She asked softly, taking a black bra with diamond details on her hands.

"I did something and I want you to tell me if I screwed things up." I spoke again.

"Does this envolve Zayn?" She asked again not taking her eyes of the bra, trying to find one on her size.

"Yeah..."

"Ok, now I'm all ears!" She put the bra back on the rack of the clothes and looked me dead in the eyes.

"Me and Zayn, I mean..we..." I stattered.

"Spil it!" She raised her voice.

"We had sex." I whispered and I took a look around, making sure that noone was watching us.

"WHAT?!" She yelled and everybody turned their attention on us.

"Shut up!" I yelled/whispered.

"Sorry, sorry...What?! I'm so happy now. That's why you stayed at his place last night huh? Was he good?" She spoke in a lower tone this time and winked at me.

"Yes, but that's not the point...I did something bad after that!"

"Please tell me you took your pill after that?!" She grabbed aggressivly my shoulders, looking me with fear in her eyes.

"What?! Yeah! Would you let me finish?" I spoke annoyed this time. 

"Sorry! So, what did you do?"

"After we were done, I said 'I love you'..." I lowered my gaze, facing the sparkly floor.

"And...."

"That's it!"

"You said 'I love you' so what?" She spoke in a 'duh' tone.

"He didn't say it back, El. He just got up and started getting ready for the interview. After that I rushed to the bathroom, trying not to cry, and then he came and told me that he's not ready to say it yet. I feel like, he still loves Perrie and I'm just someone who wants to spend his time with." I started tearing up again. 

"Aww!" Eleanor brought me closer for a hug. "Everything will get better! Just give him some time. I know Zayn, he's not that type of guy who will take advantage of a girl." She rubbed my back and I burried my face on her silky brown hair. 

"Just give him some time. Ok?" She pulled apart and looked in the eyes with a reasuring smile on her lips. 

"Ok." I nodded and we continued shopping. 

Zayn's POV

I was sitting at the bar for about two hours, drinking and now I was a little bit tipsy. I started getting dizzy and I thought that the room was spinning. My head was full of my thoughts and the beers were not a good idea to clear it off. Full aware of my actions, I paid the barman and I managed to reach my car. I collapsed on the driver's seat and I threw my head back, letting a growl escape my mouth. I turned on the engine and I started driving.

After a few minutes I pulled to the parkway of her house. I stumbled to the front door and I rang the bell. Seconds later, the door swung open to reveal her.  A smile creeped its way on my lips and I walked in without waiting for her invitation.

"Zayn?!"

"Perrie?!" I chuckled and I plopped to the couch.

"What are you doing here?" She asked slightly annoyed and crossed her arms on her chest.

"I came to see you!" I giggled.

"Are you drunk?" She rolled her eyes.

"A little bit." 

"Oh my God Zayn! How did you drive here in this situation?"

"I wanted to say something to you. The last time we haven't had a proper conversation."

"I told you everything I wanted to say, now please if you want..." She pointed to the door. 

"No you need to listen to me!" I sat up and I grabbed her shoulders. "I love you Perrie!" 

She remained silent for a while staring at me. 

"No Zayn! You don't! You're saying that because you're drunk." She sighed and shook her head. 

"No, I really do! Pez, I really love you and I want you back! Why don't you get it? I'll do anything, just come back!" I cupped her face but she slapped my hands away. 

"Zayn, I moved on! And so do you! Let's leave the past behind and move forward! I loved you with all my heart, but not anymore. Go back to that girl Zayn! She's your future now." She yelled at me.

"How did this happened?! Huh? When you love someone, you love him forever. You just woke up one day and you said 'my love for you it's over!'. We've been together for almost two years and then one day you say that?!" I raised my voice at her, ignoring the terrible pain in my head.

"You weren't there and Chris was! Are you happy now?!" She screamed to my face.

"Wait a minute! You knew him before we broke up?"

"He was my friend, but you didn't know him because you were so busy with your career! I was alone Zayn! You were never there for me!"

"I was never there for you?! How dare you and say these kind of words?! Who was there when everyone was sending hate to you? Who was there when your biggest moment of your career came? Who was there to share all of your experiences from your tour? Who was there to sing to you at the night to sleep? Who was there to comfort you when you got scared of the storm? Chris? No! It was me! ME!" I yelled and without a second thought, my grip hit the white wall leaving a big hole behind. The pain was massive but my body now was numb.

"You know what Perrie? You're right! Let's just move on! I hope you're happy now with you new boyfriend, who was always there for you, and as for me I'll be fine with Jenna. I promised I was going to take some decisions tonight and I thought that maybe we could have one more chance to work things out, but I finally understand that you're lame and I'm an ass for believing that you and me could actually get back together. I hope that you'll have a happy life Perrie! Bye." I spoke in a calmer tone.

I opened the door and I walked out. The door slammed shut behind me, leaving me alone with my thoughts again. Her words were echoing my head, bringing me a headache. I was feeling so much pain now! I shook my head, pulling myself together and I drove to Jenna's place. 

Jenna's POV

The night has fallen and it was already dark outside. The girls dropped me off to my house, an hour ago and now I was unpacking my new clothes. Zayn hasn't called me yet and as much as I wanted, I didn't call him either. Eleanor told me to give him some time and that is what I was planning to do. I was hanging some of my new jackets on my closet, when I heard the door bell.

"Coming!" I yelled and I rushed downstairs. I swung the door open and I saw Zayn. His eyes were red and wattery and his right hand had blood and cuts all over his joints.

Before I could speak, his lips were on mines and his hands were travelling on my back and lower waist. After a while we pulled apart and after I regained my breath I spoke.

"Zayn?! What are you doing here? What happened to your hand?!"

"Don't speak! I was an asshole, I know. Please Jenna, come with me."

"Zayn what are you talking about? Are you drunk? How did you get here?"

"Jenna, come and stay with me! Let's live together!" He said and pulled me closer for another kiss. His breath was smelling alcohol and cigarettes. He gently pushed me against the wall and rested his head on my shoulder. I could feel his hot tears streaming down his face and my arm aswell. I wrapped my arms around his torso, hugging him tight and humming some relaxing tunes to comfort him. 

"I need you. I need you...." He kept mumbling to my skin, hugging me tighter, not bothering to wipe his tears.

I closed my eyes and stayed like that. He was broken. I could see this! He needed me and I loved him.

"Promise me you'll stay forever!" He looked up at me. His chocolate brown eyes were lifeless and the only sparkle that you could see were the tears that were forming again.

"I promise!" I weakly smiled and I hugged him once again.

This night, I gave him my promise that I'll stay forever. And I was ready to do it. No matter what, I will stay with him forever!

Forever.

A/N: Hello lovelies! This was chapter 9 and let me tell you something. I really like this chapter!! Woohoo! I don't have much to say so...I think I'l just shut it! I only want to say a massive thank you to everyone who are reading "Broken" and thank you for the 1k+ reads!! Please if you're reading this and you like it, leave a vote or a nice comments! I really appreciate that :))

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