Chapter 35

A/N: I am back~

Jade's POV

We are now at the airport waiting for boarding, Perrie is struggling to keep her eyes open as it is too early for my baby. I felt bad cause I knew I was the reason to it. I couldn't sleep last night due to all the stress I was feeling about attending to the funeral. She was up all night wrapping me in her arms and whispering sweet words to calm me down so I could get a few hours of sleep, but I don't know if she had any.

"Flight BA1340 to Newcastle is ready for boarding. All passengers please come to Gate 8 for boarding. Repeat. Flight..."

"Baby our flight is ready" I whispered into her ears, as she was having a short nap.

Her body began to shift and she lifted her head off my shoulder and stretched her arms. She revealed her beautiful blue eyes and smiled once she saw me. She kissed my forehead and got up, holding out her hand for me to grab. I took her hand and interlocked our fingers, then led her to the gate. We didn't bring too many things with us as we would only stay for one night in South Shields because we have work tomorrow afternoon.

We got on the plane and our seats were at the back as we didn't want to get recognized so easily and got unwanted attention when we are being cozy with each other, and luckily there are only a few people on the same flight due to early time.

"Baby I am sorry I keep you up all night." I apologized when we sat down at our seats.

"Don't be sorry baba you didn't sleep well either, I know you are worried about today. How are you feeling?" Her tone was so caring which nearly brought me to the verge of tears.

"I...I am scared. I-I have accepted the fact that she is gone and I have been mentally prepared for this to come for the past few days but...it's only hours until I have to say goodbye to her and started a life without her in it...I-I am not sure I am ready for it" I gulped. I have managed to let work occupied my mind in the past few days, but now there was no distraction anymore and I am counting down the time to the funeral, the fear hit me harder than I could have ever imagined.

She lifted up the arm of our seats that separate us and pulled me up on her lap, engulfed me into a warm embrace, and tears started falling down uncontrollably, I am not one being comfortable to show my weakness, but she is one of the few people I have no problem to show my true self, and I know she could give me the strength I need.

"I know Jadey I know it's hard. You have been so tough and professional for the past few days and I am so proud of you. But it's okay to cry now baba, it's just me here. No one can be strong all the time, not even Supergirl, sometimes it's okay to be not okay" She kept rubbing my back and whispering comforting words into my ears like what she was doing last night. I pulled away once my sobbing subsided and my body stopped shaking anymore, she wiped the tears off my face gently

"Thank you for always be there for me Pez"

"Always"

I leaned in and stopped in the track when our lips were almost touching. I held back the urge to connect them and turned my head to press my lips on her cheek instead, I could see the disappointment in her face.

"Baby you know I wanted to but we are in public" I cooed and pushed back her golden tress. My eyes widened when she caught me off guard and pecked my lips

"I can't help it" She shrugged. I giggled and pecked her lips again quickily

"Now let's get some rest yeah? We both need that" She grinned. I nodded and got back to my seat and buckled my seat belt. I rested my head on her shoulder and let sleep took over me.

We took a taxi to my house after leaving the airport as Perrie and her mom would join us and go together. We soon arrived and got off the car, I took Perrie's hand which made her grinned at me adorably. We decided not to hide our closeness in front of our families as we are always inseparable, and also by the fact that it would be extremely hard for us to act distant. However, we agreed it's not a good time to break the news and reveal our relationship as much as we hate to keep things from them, we came home for the funeral after all. But we would be happy to tell them if they ask, because the last thing we want is to lie to our love ones, and not to mention having Perrie as my girlfriend is the greatest thing that have ever happened in my life, and I couldn't wait for everyone to know.

We walked to the front door and rang the bell. Seconds later I heard footsteps coming, the door opened revealing my mam.

"Oh petal you are here!" My mam squealed and pulled me into a tight hug.

"I miss you mam" I hug her back with my free hand, while the other still holding Perrie's.

"I miss you too baby. Oh and hello Perrie dear. Thank you for coming it's so nice of you to come with Jade." She pulled away and hug Perrie

"It's no problem Norma." Perrie hug her back and turned her head smiling at me, her hand didn't let go of mine either.

"Now come in you two. Your mom is here Perrie" My mam stepped aside and let us in. We walked inside the house and I saw Karl and his family were already here. Debbie got up from the couch once she spotted us.

"Perrie! It has been so long to see you baby girl!" Debbie exclaimed and hug Perrie.

"I miss you so much mom!" My lips curved up at the sight as I knew how much they missed each other. It's so good to see them finally meet.

"Jade!" Karl gave me a bone-crushing hug, forcing me and Perrie's hands to separate as I had to step back to steady myself. Perrie turned her head to face me with a frown, I rolled my eyes pointing at my idiotic brother, making her laugh.

"Hey Karl. You have probably broken some of my bones ya know" I said sarcastically and he huffed.

"Is it how you greet your brother?" He pulled away and groaned.

"I couldn't think of a better way" I laughed when he rolled his eyes. He then turned to greet Perrie while Debbie came to hug me.

"Hi Jade. You doing okay?" She asked warmly and I returned the hug

"Yeah I am fine. Thanks to Perrie always being by my side the whole time." I gazed at the blonde who was now smiling at me, she probably could hear our conversation as she was just inches away.

"Oh really? My girl has finally grown up and know how to take care of others" Debbie pulled away and fake cried

"Mom!" Perrie protested

"She couldn't have done any better Debbie." I smiled at Perrie. Her face softened and gave me a bright smile. She came and wrapped an arm around my waist

"You hear that mom?" She raised her eyebrows at Debbie which made me giggled at how proud she looked

"Only because I trust Jade" Debbie winked at me and I chuckled when Perrie whined.

"Okay Debbie don't tease your daughter. I believe Perrie has been taking good care of Jade. Now girls put down your bags upstairs. We are about to go."

"Thanks Norma" Perrie picked up our bags and gave my mom a grateful smile. I chuckled and took her hand, leading her up to my room.

I closed the door once we were in, she put down the bags at the corner and started checking out my room, which was of course, full of Disney decoration and stuffs.

"Why am I not surprise though?" She laughed and sat on my bed, which was in Princess Jasmine bedding.

"I bet yours are not any better. It must be full of Olaf" I smirked and sat on her lap.

"You know me too well princess" She leaned in and connected our lips, but pulled away too soon for my liking.

"Oh and can you see how much my mom loves you? She clearly loves you more than me" She pouted

"She is just messing with you she loves you baby" I cooed and kissed her pout away.

"All I know is your mom is the one defending me. Sometimes I feel like she is more like my mom" She laughed

"She will be your mam if we-" I immediately covered my mouth when I realized what I was about to say. I hoped she couldn't register what I was saying but my face heated up when I saw her smirking at me

"If we what huh?" I could hear the teasing tone in her voice which turned my face into a deeper shade of red. I turned my head away not wanting her to see how flushed my face was.

"Baba tell me" She leaned in and whispered in my ear, I shivered when I felt her hot air on my face.

"I didn't say a thing" I tried to pretend nothing has happened, but she laughed clearly not buying what I was saying.

"You did baby. Now tellll meee pleaseee" She begged me in her cutest baby voice and kept nudging her nose at my neck, I am pretty sure she was doing that because she knew she could get what she wanted every time she does that. And I am sure she knew what I was going to say, but she has to force me to say it out loud by acting extremely adorable and affectionate. This one.

"Hey I am suppose to be the adorable one here so drop the cute act now!" I spoke in a serious tone acting I was mad and tried to change the subject.

"I will drop it if you tell me Jadey" She nudged the tip of her nose from my neck and trailed up to my face. I tried to keep my straight face on but failed miserably, the smile on my face had already sold me out.

"You are never gonna give up unless I tell you aren't you you stubborn shit?" Sometimes she could be so stubborn just like me ugh

"I am never gonna give you up" She sang. I sighed in defeat.

"My mam will be your mam if we get M-A-R-R-I-E-D. There. I said it. You happy now?" She clapped her hands happily to celebrate her victory.

"When? I have to start preparing for the proposal and-"

"If you keep on teasing me I might change my mind so you don't need to prepare for your proposal at all" I huffed.

"No baby no! I would behave now! I cannot not marry you you are the only one for me" She held me tightly like she was afraid I was going to disappear the next second. My heart flutters at her confession but I felt bad at the same time at her concern of me leaving her, even if it was just a joke. I would never do that

"Don't worry baby I am not gonna marry someone else. You made it very clear at the tour. Jerrie is real remember? " I winked at her, remembering her little speech one time at the tour when a fan holding a sign asking me to marry him.

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"I was actually really mad and jealous you know?" She laughed. To be honest I didn't take it seriously and thought it as a joke back then, as I didn't know her feeling for me at that time, but now it all make sense.

"Now I know" I smiled and pressed my lips against her, finally feeling her soft lips on mine after holding back the urge to do so for the entire morning. Butterflies unleashed and flied all over my body when I felt her kissing me back. We reluctantly pulled away when we needed air.

"Now get up you lazy ass! They are waiting for us." I got off her and pulling her up, I was about to lead her downstairs but she stopped me and pulled me back to her. I turned around to face her, I could see the concern and seriousness in her eyes

"I know in the next couple hours it's gonna be hard, but remember you have me, always." She leaned in and kissed my forehead, she lingered her lips for a few seconds before pressing her forehead against mine, gazing me fondly with her lovely blue eyes. I felt like crying at this moment as she was making me feel...so loved...so deeply and madly in love.

"I know. And you have me too, always" I tried my hardest to hold back my happy tears and pressed my lips on her heart-shaped one once again. I pulled away shortly when she was about to deepen the kiss, I pecked her lips when she pouted.

"We are never gonna leave the room if we continue" I giggled.

"You ready to go princess?" She smiled and held out her hand

"As long as you are with me" I gladly took her hand and let her take me to whenever she go.

Perrie's POV

"Let it all out baba. It's gonna be okay."

I was whispering comforting words into her ear, while stroking her beautiful brown hair and holding her petite body protectively in my arms. Her body was shaking uncontrollably as she was sobbing inconsolably with her face burying deeply on my chest. It was the third time of her breakdown today. The first time was on the plane, the second was at the church while her uncle was reading the eulogy, while this time we were at the cemetery watching the body of her aunt being buried. It broke my heart to see her like that, but I knew she would feel much better after letting out all the sorrows she was trying so hard to hold back for days.

"She's gone Perrie. She's gone and I would never see her again" Jade whimpered and clutched at my shirt, soaking it with her tears.

"She has gone to a better place baba. She would always, always be watching you from heaven" I kissed her head.

"But I miss her so much" She looked up at me with her now red and puffy eyes and her beautiful face was now full of tears. I could hear the sound of my heart tearing but I refused to show her any pain because I have to be strong for her now. I cupped her face and wiped the tears off her face.

"You can always find her in your memory, and she would always lives in your heart" I smiled and placed my hand on her chest, where her heart is. She spent seconds to take in my words and nodding her head, letting a few tears falling down her face, and gave me a weak smile.

"Thank you. You always know the words that make me feel better. I could never do this without you" She hugged me again, but I knew this time she was having a smile on her face.

"Anytime" I smiled and hugged her back.

I sensed eyes staring at us so I looked up, and saw my mom and Norma were standing a few feets away from us. They were smiling at us, even though I could see Norma's eyes were just as red and puffy as Jade. Jade told me she was really close with her aunt, I couldn't imagine how much pain she was having right now. I could see Norma was mouthing me a "thank you", so I shook my head slightly and gave her a smile, letting her know there was no problem at all.

If only she knew I have no intention to let her daughter go for the rest of my life.

A/N: It was supposed to be a depressed chapter but I decided to put in some cute Jerrie moments in it so it won't be that sad:)