Chapter 3

Perrie's POV

I was relieved nothing had happened to Jade. If anything did happen to her, I would kill myself for not being there to save her. My lips curved up when I looked down at our interlocked fingers, they just fit perfectly like a puzzle. We walked to the living room and I saw two plates of pancakes on the table. I smiled at Jade and dragged her to the table. I sat down and started stuffing my face in no time and I heard Jade giggled. She sat down next to me and started eating.

"Leigh Anne asked me if we would like to go shopping with her and Jesy" Jade asked me after we finished our breakfast. To be honest I don't feel like going out today cause I am still very tired. I didn't sleep well last night because of a certain brunette occupying my mind, I was hoping we could have a lazy day today.

"But I don't want to go. I am tired." I whined.

"You are always tired." Jade giggled "Besides, we need to go get some food. We only have pancakes left and I don't want to eat them everyday." Jade grimaced, making me laugh.

"I don't mind though. I love pancakes." I smirked.

"Come on Perrie! I miss my biscuits! And I can't live without them you know." She pouted.

"And I thought you can't live without me..." I put my hand to my chest, pretending to be hurt by her words.

"That's why you have to come. I need you Perrie." She pulled out her best puppy dog eyes. How could I say no to this adorable face? God I am already so whipped and we are not even together.

"Fine, but we will go back once we finish. I don't feel like going out all day and I miss our Jerrie time." I sighed and jutted my bottom lip out trying to make the saddest face.

"No problem! Aw you are so cute. We just watched movie last night and you already miss spending time with me." She poked and pinched my cheek and my face heated up.

"It's never too much for Jerrie time you know. THE JERRIER, THE MERRIER!" I shrieked exultingly. She chuckled at my words. "YES! JERRIE TIME IS MY FAVORITE TIME!" She screamed trying to imitate me. We both burst out into laughters.

"I am going to text Leigh Anne then." She took her phone out of her pocket, and started texting Leigh Anne. I picked up the empty plates and took them to the sink. I couldn't help but beamed at her words. She loves spending time with me. Just the two of us.

Jade's POV

Jade

-Count us in. Pez said yes:)

Leigh

-YES! Great job on waking her up by the way;)

Jade

-Yeah but I feel bad doing this:( Next time you and Jesy do it!

Leigh

-No way. Perrie would kill us! You know how grumpy she is in the morning:'(

Jade

-Well she did not snap at me at all so you don't need to worry:)

Leigh

-That's why you have to be the one waking her up. She can't be mad at you:)

I thought about what Leigh just said and did realize Perrie seldom get mad at me, even though I woke her up a few times from her valuable sleep. I know how much she loves her sleep. Then I think about how she reacted when Lesy woke her up. I can't help but let out a small laugh. She was so angry and kept scolding at them like they were kids doing something wrong. When Lesy ran away she would chase them around the whole house and never stop until she caught them. Perrie really does treat me differently, but why? I think about it for a minute but then decided to shake it out of my mind as I couldn't think of anything possible. I continued texting Leigh.

Jade

-Nope. I feel bad:( And I want to see her scolding at you two=D I would bring some popcorns with me;)

Leigh

-Jade Thirlwall you really are a great friend:(

Jade

-You are welcome:) btw what time should we meet?

Leigh

-Jesy and I are now watching "The Intern". I think we would finished before noon. We come to your flat at 1pm?

Jade

-No problem. See you later Lee-lee:)

Leigh

:D

I put my phone back to my pocket and saw Perrie was washing dishes with her back facing me. I could get used to that. I cook and she washes the dishes, or the other way around. Just like a happily married couple.

Before I realized my action, I was right behind Perrie, with my arms encircling her torso from the back. It was like my body had a mind of it's own. Oh my god what am I doing we are not really married! What's wrong with you Jade Thirlwall! I felt her jumped in my sudden action, but soon relaxed in my embrace. I loose my grip as I was so embarrassed at my impulsive action, but she immediately stopped me from retrieving my arms by putting her hands on top of my hand.

"It feels nice. Stay there baba." She murmured softly. I won't move. I want nothing more than to be close to you. She pulled away her hands and back to do the washing, and I missed her touch on my hands already. I tighten my grip once again and rest my head on her shoulder. Why is it so hard for me to keep my hands off her?

If only you know why I am doing this. No she can't know. She doesn't feel the same and I knew it. She would probably hate me and there would be no chance I could be this close to her anymore. I held her even tighter when the thought of her leaving me with a disgusting face playing over on my mind. No. Please don't go Perrie.

"I am not going anywhere silly." She giggled. Oh gosh did I just say it out loud. My body tensed up and I wanna bury myself in a deep hole right now. Perrie finished her last plate and turned into my embrace. Her smiled disappeared once she saw my face, and I knew what she saw in me. Fear.

"D-do you really mean it Jade? B-but I am not....w-where do you think I am going?" Perrie raised her hands up and cupped my face, trying to read what was on my mind,  her face was full of concern and confusion. I could feel my face burning up despite the coldness of her palms

"I-I...it is nothing Perrie...j-just forget it."

"No Jade it's not! You look...terrified. There must be something and I know it is about me so..p-please please tell me Jade." The longing in her blue orbs were begging me to give her an answer. But what she didn't know was...if I told her, she would regret asking me for it. There was a part of me really wanna just let it all out and tell her everything, so my mind would no long  be dragged into this black hole anymore. However, that black hole would turn into hell if Perrie hates me and leaves me for my feeling towards her, and I definitely don't want that.

"I-I..." I couldn't think of any reasonable excuses as my mind was going overdrive right now.

"Jade...please! I am worried about you. Please...you could tell me anything." No. I couldn't.

The longing in her eyes started to change into hopelessness, as she began to realize I was not going to answer. I clenched my jaw as I know I was the one taking away the sparkles in her beautiful eyes. I pulled her into a hug as it was breaking my heart to look at her sad eyes any longer. I nuzzled my head to the crook of her neck, smelling her scent hoping it could help me to clear my mind.

"I-I don't want to talk about it Perrie. I...I am sorry." I tried to speak as calmly as I could but my voice cracked at the end, and I knew Perrie heard it as her grasp on my body got tightened.

"It's okay Jade. I would wait for you to tell me when you are ready okay?"

"I will Perrie. I promise." I wasn't lying though. It's just...I don't know if I would ever be ready.

"And I want you to know I am not going anywhere far away from you. I would always be there for you when you need me, just like what you do for me" She rubbed my back softly and whispered all the comforting words I needed to hear. She always knows the right words to say.

"Thank you." I was no longer in fear now, as long as I was in Perrie's warm embrace. Deep down I knew it would come back to haunt me again, but I didn't want to think about it anymore. I wanted just focus on feeling the warmth and comfort Perrie was giving me right now. I felt safe inside.

I don't know how long we were staying in this position, but when I opened my eyes and glance at the time, it was noon now.

"Leigh Anne said they would meet us here at one..." I pulled away reluctantly with our arms still encircling each other.

"We better go get dressed as we only have one hour to get ready now." I smiled when I saw her eyes was sparkling again.

"Okay. Let's go then." She took my hand and led me upstairs to our bedroom. She gave me one last smile before going into her bedroom, which I returned immediately. But the smile disappeared at the moment when she closed the door.

I really wanna tell her how I truly feel...but I don't want to get my hope up again. I already had my heart shattered once. Even though she had no idea.

I felt tears running down my face again, but this time, it was not happy tears.