Skin and Bones, Blood and Guts

/CW/ dissordered eating behaviors

Jinx's wind silo has little to no privacy, Minx is realizing.

Even in the darkly lit silo, she can see across the various fan blades to whatever anyone is doing on the other side. Jinx is an inventor, which is obvious by the number of screwdrivers and hacksaws Minx finds around the place, but she hasn't invented privacy. 

Normally a fact like this wouldn't bother Minx, watching her girlfriend change from two fan blades away wouldn't be something to complain about but when she's got the desperate feeling in her throat, that screaming itch inside her healing knuckles, she needs her space to do her thing. 

Which is hard when her girlfriend sits on the barstool beside her happily munching on the chocolate chip pancakes without a care in the world. 

Minx felt the acid in her stomach rise like a chemical reaction buzzing inside her tickling the back of her throat. Another thoroughly chewed bite was lodged down her throat with a large gulp of water to follow. 

Her hands shook around her rusted metal fork causing it to clatter repeatedly on her plate the sound beginning to echo around the wind silo. This caught Jinx's attention. 

"You doing 'kay there, toots, need me to slow down 'sum more?" The blue-haired girl asked, motioning towards her almost fully eaten plate then over to Minx's filled one. 

Minx took a breath before loosening her shoulders and dropping her fork onto her pancake-covered plate. She shied away from the food as if she longed to eat, the fact making her stomach sick. 

"Actually—" she shot up from her barstool, revealing the M painted on top. I think I need some air," she said, wiping her sweaty hands on her jeans. 

Jinx went to follow her. Placing the hilt of her fork in her last pancake she began to stand. 

Her lover waved her off,  giving her a reassuring smile, "I'll be gone just a minute, love, you finish up." She brought her hand to the bottom of Jinx's chin sealing her promise in a kiss. She could taste the expensive chocolate on her lover's lips, only making her want to swallow them more. 

Jinx lifted her sticky fingers from her plate and brought them to Minx's neck pulling her in even closer and wrapping herself around Minx. 

Jinx licked her tongue across Minx's lower lip before biting it and pulling slightly, revealing the girl's bottom teeth. A small moan left Minx's throat at the intrusion and she pulled away, like she always did now. 

Since Jinx returned, the two haven't done anything remotely sexual, no touching, nothing. Minx always pulled away before either of them got the chance, pissing Jinx's sex drive off like the devil. 

She groaned as she watched her lover walk further away, making her way to the exit of Jinx's wind silo. 

Minx pressed her lips into the palm of her hand shooting her girl a kiss before turning around and exiting the aluminum building.  

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She dragged her two fingers along the roof of her mouth, coating them in stomach acid as the contents of her stomach emptied yet again. Her eyes were closed not wanting to watch as the meals she and her lover made together were thrown off the side of the silo. 

Guilt invaded her veins as well as the endorphins. The instant self-gratification solidified her actions as something that must be done. 

The wounds on her knuckles had just begun to heal. 

Even when her stomach felt empty Minx's fingers kept digging further and further down her throat pleading for more. 

She didn't notice when the silo's door opened. 

"Minnie..." A sad voice said lamentably, loud boots meeting the metal floor of the wrap-around balcony.  

Minx felt a pair of arms wrap around her and pull her hand away from her mouth a trail of spit breaking at the disconnection. 

She knew she had to look filthy with snot running down her nose and puke decorating her face. 

As she met her lover's regretful eyes, Minx's green eyes darkened, filling with magenta tears. They fell down her cheeks rapidly saltiness mixing in with the stomach acid on her skin. Minx wiped her face with her sleeve, leaving the cloth dirty and wet. 

Jinx could hardly watch as her other half broke down in tears, shivering and shaking in her arms. 

"I'm sorry- I'm so sorry, I just couldn't take it. Please, Jinx, I tried." She muttered, lip quivering. 

Jinx moved herself so she was in front of her lover still holding onto her but looking into her eyes. She moved a soggy piece of hair from in front of Minx's face to behind her ear. "What're you sorry about?" She managed a light smile. 

Minx broke down in tears completely launching herself onto Jinx and lodging herself in her lap. "I'm trying so hard to get better, but it's so fucking hard," She whispered, her face in Jinx's chest.

Jinx stroked her lover's pink hair, "Is this why you're not letting me touch you?" She asked, straightforward as always. 

Minx humorlessly chuckled, "I didn't think you'd really want to see the way I look now." 

Jinx pulled away to look her other half in her neon green eyes, "Skin and blood, blood and guts, you're gorgeous, toots" She sealed her vow by pressing her forehead to her lover's, holding her as if she were love itself. 

A/N act one is taking foreverrrrrrrr, ik you guys want Isha but we need character development first lmao. Recovery Minx is killing me to write, cuz I think a lot of us have been there. 

Next chapter is smut :) thennnn we get to the main storyline.