XII

"Hey," Luke said softly. I smiled to myself. "Hey Luke, I missed you." I bit my lip. I was glad that he was still alive, even though Luke didn't want to be alive. It's never the option.

"I just- Jimi I'm so sorry. I left you without telling you what was wrong with me. I'm sorry I- I just.." He couldn't take it anymore. Soft sobs were coming from his lips. "Jimi I feel so bad for everything," he said. I tried to calm him down.

"Luke please don't cry," I said. "It hurts me when you're crying." He took a deep breath. "Jimi I feel like shit. I don't want to be here anymore and I hate it that they saved me. But, I'm also glad because I couldn't leave you without a goodbye. I think that's one of the reasons why God saved me."

I smiled. "I'm glad that God saved you." He sighs softly. "Me too. And I- Eh, I don't know if you want to but I want you to see me when I talk about myself and about my past," Luke says. "So can we Facetime?"

"Yeah sure of course. I look like shit though, so don't mind that." He chuckled. "I bet that you look fine. I look worse, seriously."

"Hm okay. I'm excited to see who you are," I said. I heard Luke chuckle for a little. "Haven't you?"

"No. I didn't want to look at the internet to see who you are. I wanted it to be special I guess." Luke chuckled again. "Okay, well, I'm going to Facetime you now. Are you ready?"

I nodded. "Yeah I am. Call me on Facetime, Luke." "I will Jimi," he said after hanging up.

I took a deep breath and licked my lips. It was really happening. I would see Luke and he would see me, both for the first time. I could use the internet to see who Luke was but I didn't want that. I wanted it to be a surprise for me, I wanted it to be special. Because Luke is special. He's special to me.

I looked at my screen when his caller ID popped up, asking if I wanted to Facetime him. I smiled and breathed in and out, then answering the Facetime call. Luke's face popped up and my eyes widened.

He's hot.

"What's wrong?" Luke asked nervously. He looked away from the camera and played with his sheets. "I know that I look bad," he said. I smiled and admired his face. "You don't look bad," I said, "You look amazing. You're very handsome."

He looked back at me and chuckled. "Are you sure? You don't have to say it to make me feel better about myself. I know that I'm ugly, Jimi." I shook my head. "You're not ugly. You're really attractive Luke."

He smiled a little. "Okay. I still don't believe you but thank you," he said. I nodded. "I hope you'll believe me one day."

He nodded. "I hope so too. By the way, you look cute. You have a cute face. I like your eyes." I blushed. "Oh, eh, thanks," I tried to say, but it didn't came out like I wanted.

Luke laughed softly. "And adorable. Jimi you're really pretty." I smiled. "Thank you Luke," I said.

There was a short silence. I coughed a little. "Hey, I don't want to sound rude or something but I'm really curious actually," I said softly. Luke looked at me and nodded. "Yeah okay I get that. Uh, I'll start from the beginning I guess?"

I smiled. "Sure." Luke sat down somewhere else and put his phone against a wall or something, so he could go hands free.

"Okay so, hi Jimi, I'm Luke Hemmings. I'm 21 years old and I'm in a band named 5 Seconds of Summer," he started. I smiled. "Okay um.."

He thought of something, probably where he wanted to start with. "Okay so I'm from Australia. I was around 16 years old or something when I started the band with my best friends, Michael Clifford, who you texted with, Ashton Irwin and Calum Hood. Eh, Michael and I are both gitarists and Calum plays bass, Ashton is the drummer." I nodded for him to continue.

I've heard of the name 5 Seconds of Summer before, but that's probably because their songs where on the radio. I don't know what their songs are named but I'll know when I hear them I guess.

"I'm also the lead singer of our band. I know that people hate me for being the lead singer because the fans think that the other boys deserve to sing too. And, the thing is, I always tell them to take the lines but they don't want to. They tell me to take the lines and sing the whole song, even though I tell them not to do that. I also want to give them a chance because Michael, Calum and Ashton have amazing voices," Luke said. He looked at me and bit his lip. "I mean, I'm just Luke, my voice isn't that perfect."

"I bet it is otherwise you wouldn't be in a succesful band, Luke," I said. He shrugged. "I don't know, the fans probably hate me. Everyone tells me I'm stealing the lines of the other boys but they don't know how it really is. I mean, I'm trying you know?" I nodded. "I bet you do."

He sighed. "Anyways, we started when we were around sixteen years old. We practiced some and put covers on Youtube. I already did that on my own in the beginning, but Michael joined me later on and soon Calum and Ashton did too."

I nodded and smiled. It was nice to see how Luke talked about his past. He's a good looking guy, also very sweet and talented. The way he speaks makes my heart melt and the way his hands are moving when he speaks kinda affects me.

Am I falling for Luke Hemmings?

I frowned to myself and shook my head a little. Jimi, get back to the real world. Luke is your friend, pay attention to his story. I mentally slapped myself and focussed back on Luke who was talking.

"And Louis Tomlinson, you know, from One Direction, then noticed our covers. He said we were really good and well things really changed from then. We went on tour with them in 2014, we released our first album and we went on our own tour. It was really awesome and we had a lot of fun. We made a second album as well, in 2015, and went on tour again. I had a really busy life, dated a girl some years ago and I got a dog and stuff like that."

I smiled. "You have a dog?" He nodded. "Yeah her name is Petunia. She's my princess." I chuckled. "I need to see her someday."

"You can when I get home." He smiled and looked at his hands. "Eh, where was I?" I bit my lip. "Your second tour and album and your dog, and some girl."

He nodded. "Oh yeah well, I dated a girl in 2016 and 2017 or something," he said. I bit my lip again, this time harder. Luke talking about a girl makes my blood boil.

It shouldn't be bothering me. I mean, it's his ex and I'm also not even dating him so why would I feel this way? Well I like him but still. I shouldn't like him.

"Was she nice?" He nodded. "Yeah kind off. She was nice in the beginning but it she changed later on. It wasn't like it was before anymore and it made me sad. But that is not really a problem I mean I'm over it, she's gone and I'm single now."

I nodded. "As long as you're fine with it," I said. He sighed. "Yeah well I was hoping it would last longer but not when people treat me like that. She cheated on me." I looked at him with a sad look.

"Cheated? What a bitch."

He chuckled. "Yeah that was terrible. I was so sad, but alright. She's the past and I'm living now, all sad and stupid and being hated on," he said softly.

"No one hates you Luke. Your fans love you, your family and friends love you. Other people don't matter."

He shook his head. "No they don't. But, eh, well I dated a girl and we went on a small break. Uh not really small, it was 2 years.. Three? I don't know anymore. Our third album came out last month after some years."

"Really?" He nodded. "And I have a lot of lines. I'm singing almost everything on our first two songs we released since the break, Want You Back and Youngblood. The fans hate it."

"They don't. They're probably not used to it. But they love the songs, right?" I said. He nodded and leaned with his head in his hands. "Yeah."

"It will be fine Luke. I promise."

He shrugged. "I guess. But fine, eh we toured a little in 2016 or something, with festivals and stuff and we released a song for the movie Ghostbusters. I guess that was 2016.. I don't know anymore. It doesn't matter anyways. Uh, well, and then we started making the album and it's done now. We're touring again, in smaller venues and stuff. Oh and we're going on tour again soon, but that will be a world tour in more places."

He didn't want to talk about things anymore and I got that, but I just wanted him to know that people don't hate him. He really thinks that but that's nonsense. He's so talented. I've heard their songs on the radio, and his voice is beautiful. I'm sure the fans love it too.

I'm glad that he wanted to tell me all of this. I smiled at him and watched him talk about the upcoming tour. They had to cancel a bit of the last one because he tried to kill himself. They'll make it up by going those places again. The people who bought the tickets will see them next month, before the other tour starts.

I'm kinda sad that he's going on tour again because that means that he'll be busy. I hope that he'll get help because h needs it.

"And well yeah I'm really excited! They'll make it less busy for us." He smiled. "So that we'll feel better about it. I'm glad they do that. Maybe I can work on myself."

I nodded and smiled. "That would be great. Are you getting help?" He nodded and looked at his hands. "Yeah I will. I don't want to actually, but it's better."

"It is." He looked back at me and smiled. "That's why I did it. And also because you really want me to, so I accepted the help."

And that made me smile so freaking wide. Because he did something for me, even though it's best for him. He listened to me and accepted that it would be better to get help. He said that I was right.

He never did that before and I'm glad that he'll do that now.

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sorry that it took so long!! I was busy with exams and moving houses and stuff but I'm back!! I guess. I mean I'm still busy but I'm also on a two weeks vacation for now :)

This chapter was also very long I hope you guys liked it !! Sorry for the mistakes but it's just so long I don't know if they'll be any