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Tbh guys Idk where this story is going.. probably gonna end it soon.

Arabella's POV

Ethan and I are now at my house and in my room.

We are watching a movie and he has his arms wrapped around me.

"Arabella" He said quietly and I hummed in response.

"What do you want in a relationship?" He asked me.

"umm.. no one has ever asked me that before.." I said 

"I just did.." He said and I chuckle a little

"I want something like my grandparents had." I replied and now he chuckled.

"They are pretty cute" he said and I nodded feeling a little sad.. He doesn't know..

"Yeah.. they never ran out of love for eachother.." I said a little quieter, my eyes becoming watery.

He looks up at me.

"Hey hey hey.. Whats wrong?" He asked sitting up

"They actually died about a year ago.." I said as a few tears slid down my face.

I always was over at their house in New Jersey. Always.. I would stay there all the time because my parents were always out of town or arguing and Grayson and Ethan would come to their house and hang out with me.

"I'm sorry.. I didn't know that.." He said and I shook my head chuckling.

"I mean how would you? I didn't tell you.. obviously we weren't talking then so you wouldn't have known.." I said shrugging a little.

"How did they die? Did they die together or something?" He asked.

"No... My grandma died first and my grandpa was devastated.. he was broken.. he was nothing without her.. and he literally died of a broken heart.. he didn't want to get up.. he wouldn't come out of the house.. He loved her so much that being with out her was too much for him to take.. They had been together for 60 years. and I guess when you're with someone for that long.. being without them is hard." I said as more tears came thinking about it..

he hugged me.

"I want that with you.." He said 

"Want what with me?" I asked

"I want to be with you for 60 years.. or more.. I want to die loving you.." He said and I felt more tears coming.. 

"I'm trying and your only making me cry harder" I said and he chuckles and wipes my tears away.

"How can you be so rude sometimes but other times be the sweetest guy in the world?" I asked him.

"I don't want to be rude it just happens when I get angry sometimes.." He said looking down and I shrugged.

"Everyone gets angry sometimes.. its okay" I said and he smiles a little.

"I meant it when I said I love you Bella.. You're so perfect to me and I just keep messing up for some reason and I am not even trying to" He said and I shrugged a little.

"Its okay" I said again as I began to play with the pieces of hair around his face.

He closes his eyes as I do so and I swirl the hair around my finger and let it go and just run my fingers through his hair on the side.

He leans in and kisses me and I kiss him back.

the only part of his body on me being his torso on mine while his lower half was next to me still since he was stretched out over me.

He began to move his lips quicker against mine and I did the same as his tongue slid into my mouth.

He pulls the rest of his body over on top of me and has his legs between mine.

I wrap my arms around his neck and slowly put them on his upper back and grab his shirt better and pull it up.

We break the kiss for a second and I pull it over his head.

I let it fall from my hands, onto the floor, and then continue kissing him.

My heartbeat and I can honestly say I want to go all the way with him right now..

He breaks the kiss and began to get off off me because I guess I had slowed down the kissing but I stopped him.

"Can we.. do you.. Will you uh.. Can we keep going?" I asked him, trying to find the right words.

He raises his eyebrows but nods.

"Are you sure?" He asked me and I nod.

He looks down at me, him still sitting up between my legs.

He gently grabs the hem of my shirt and pulls it up my torso and I lift up slightly and he pulls it over my head and tosses it off the bed.

I stare up at him and he tilts his head slightly and looks town at me for a minute making me feel embarrassed.

"N-nevermind" I said, wrapping my arms around my stomach.

He looks up at me.

"Why are you hiding? Why did you change your mind?" He asked me worriedly.

I stay quiet.

"Bella you are Beautiful" He said and I blush a little.

He gently moves my arms away from my stomach and he leans down and starts kissing my neck.

He kisses down my neck and around my chest and down my stomach, really just kissing my entire torso.

He comes back up and presses his lips to mine again.

I pick my legs up, so my knees are bent and my feet are against the bed and Ethan is between my legs.

He pushes his lower half against me and my mouth opens a little and a small moan slid out and into Ethan's mouth.

I close my mouth a little and bite Ethan's lip as he continued his motions with his lower half.

He broke the kiss and got up off of me.

He slid off his pants, leaving him in his underwear.

For some reason.. I wasn't as nervous as I thought I would be..

he grabbed a condom from his wallet and set it on the nightstand next to my bed before climbing back onto me.

He loops his fingers into my leggings and underwear both and slides them down my legs.

Definitely happy I shaved last night.

I kick them off of my feet and look up at Ethan and he looks down at me for a minute.

He reaches behind me and I lift up my back as he unclips my bra, sliding it off my arms.

He stared down at me for a minute before he pushed his underwear off of him.

He grabs the condom and tears it open.

"I want to put it on you" I said grabbing it and he chuckled a little.

I didn't like the slimy feeling of the lube but I went ahead and slid it onto Ethan and glanced up at him and see his eyes closed.

I rub my hand up his erection, getting lube on my hand again but pretending like it didn't bother me as much as it really did. I do not like slimy things at all..

He seemed to like my hands on him quite a lot though.

I look up at him and right as he was about to slide himself into me I stopped him.

"Wait." I said and he did.

"Is this going to hurt really bad?" I asked him.

"I don't know if it will hurt Really Bad.. But I know if its your first time then it might hurt.. I just don't know how bad." He said and I nodded.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and let it out.

"Go ahead" I said and he slowly slid himself into me and I gasped a little.

I furrow my eyebrows and I feel Ethan pushing hair out of my face as he stayed in his spot, not really moving much as he let me get used to him.

"Look at me.." He said quietly and I opened my eyes and they meet his soft hazel eyes.

"I will go at your pace." he said and I nod.

He slowly started moving his hips and I closed my eyes again and he stopped.

"Hold on." He said pulling out of me.

He flipped us over so I was on top and I sat up on my knees so I was over him and he wasn't in me yet.

He sat up and held my legs.

"What do I do??" I asked and he chuckles.

He pushes my hips down so I am sitting on his lap, but he is inside of me and I bite my lip a little, it feeling a little bit better this way.

"Go at your pace" He said and I stared down at him.

"What do-" He cut me off.

"Whatever makes you feel good" He said 

"Like??" I asked.

He places his hands on my hips and lifted me the slightest bit and moved his hips into mine, making him slide in and out of me and a small moan slip from my lips.

I sat up straighter and put my hands on his shoulder and began doing what he had done, raising my hips and dropping them as he did the same.

After a little while I started rocking my hips and he slid his hands around to my ass and squeezed lightly as I did so, a small moan coming from his lips.

He leans in and kisses my neck and I continue my movements.

After a few minutes I feel him twitch inside of me and then I guess he came in the condom..

I stopped and didn't really know what to do.

I then decide to just keep going because I am not done and quickly begin to continue.

He moans as I continued and I began to do a small bounce again and I feel his lips on my chest.

I feel my stomach began knotting up and I continued because the feeling was getting better.

I then feel it all being released and I come to a stop but Ethan grabs my hips and began making me rock them again.

"Ride it out baby" He said and I moaned quietly and closed my eyes.

We slowly stopped and I sat up, and got off of him.

He threw away the condom and I slid under the blanket.

He crawled underneath it also and I cuddled into him.

"When I was younger.. I always imagined being with you.." Ethan says.

"Are we playing a confession game or something?" I asked him and he chuckled.

"Sure." He replied.

"Okay.." I said

"Can I tell you something that will most likely surprise you??" He asked me and I nodded.

"I just lost my virginity too.." He said and I sat up and looked at him confused.

"B- ... Ho-.. Huh?" I stumbled trying to figure out what to say.

"Yeah.. I never actually went all the way with a girl til now.. I mean I had fingered them.. or they gave me head or something but I never went all the way until now.." He said 

"Whoah." I said laying back down, shocked as fuck.

"I wanted it to be you.. " He said 

"How did you know you would even see me again?" I asked him.

"Because.. I just knew.." He said 

"But I never thought it would feel as good as it did.." He said 

"Well you are not getting it 24/7 so be appreciative when you do" I said and he raised his eyebrows.

"For your information, I am very appreciative of you." He said smiling a little and pulling me to his chest.

He leans his head against mine and I can't stop the smile from growing on my face.

"Can we do it again though?" I asked and he pecked my lips.

"Whenever you want." He replied.

"Right now?" I asked and he chuckled.

"You have too much energy" He said and I looked down.

"I love it though" He said making me smile a little and he rolled over on top of me again.