...Nineteen

"Karlie, wake up. Dinner is ready in like 15 minutes." Taylor says softly into my ear. She is already sitting up on the couch and swinging her legs off of it. "Im going to take a shower." She says then, walking over to the small bathroom that Cara's den provides. I watch her as she walks out of the living room, into a tiny hallway. She looks unhappy.


I sigh, sitting up on the couch too. Its already 6pm, which means Taylor and I have slept all day. I see Selena standing in the kitchen from where I sit and to my surprise, Cara is there too, sitting on one of the chairs. She still looks a bit pale but loads better than this morning. Suddenly her eyes shoot in my direction. "Hey, she's awake." I hear her say and she smiles a small smile at me. 'I think I have proven my worth now.' I think, since the girl is now again nice to me, like before all of the shit that has happend the past couple of years.

"Hey, how are you feeling?" Selena asks, her head popping out of the corner of the kitchen. She is stirring some soup at the same time. 

"Im okay." I reply with a small smile on my face. The two girls focus on each other again then, and so I get up to go to the toilet. My bladder feels like I havent peed for ages and so I storm into the bathroom, totally forgetting Taylor was just taking the shower.

"KARLIE!" She yells as I am now standing in front of a very naked blue eyed girl.. or well.. woman. Definitely a woman.


"Oh my god. Im sorry!" I say, immediately turning around to let her cover herself.


"You knew I was taking a shower!" She hisses angrily. I hear her grabbing a towel out of one of the drawers and turn around again.


"Sorry. I had to pee so badly that I forgot." I say, sheepishly scratching the back of my neck. I look into her blue eyes, which are of course shining at me. They look quite angry though and so I choose to look down to ground instead of at Taylor, who lets out a deep sigh.


"Im.. I.." She stutters. "Im gonna get dressed." She passes me and walks towards the bathroom door. I cant help but wonder why she is constantly so angry at everything and everyone around her. I follow her with my eyes and notice then, that she has a big, purple bruise on her left collarbone and in between her shoulder blades on her back.


"Tay, who gave you those bruises?" I ask the blonde who is quickly stepping out of the bathroom while stuttering: "Oh, yesterday.. yeah in the fights with the guards I.. uhh must have.. I don't know." She disappears out of the doorway and closes the door rather hard and fast.

I stand there, stunned by these new revelations. "It was him." I mumble before I use the toilet, shower quickly and get out of the bathroom. I feel bad for her, bad for all the time she had to spend with that evil asshole. Everyone is already sitting at the dining table when I walk in. "Sorry. I just.. wanted to take a shower." I say, quickly locking eyes with Taylor who is staring at me with those sad, blue eyes.


"No problem girl." Selena says, putting a big pan on the table. Its filled with tomato soup, I think, and smells delicious.


"It smells so good." I comment, making Selena smile at me while she starts filling four bowls with the soup.

"Oh well, we have to live with what we have, guys. Soup for today and maybe tomorrow again since it seems that Cara here only has cans of soup in this cabin and nothing else." Selena says, smiling widely while giving everyone a bowl and sitting back down.

"Excuse me, im not much of a human food eater you know. Im more like a human eater." Cara says, making Selena and I laugh as she laughs at her own joke. Taylor sits there in silence however, blowing into her hot bowl of soup.

Everyone eats their dinner while making some easy conversation with one another and about half an hour later I stand up to do the dishes. Taylor comes to stand next to me to probably help me. The other two girls mysteriously leave and go to Cara's bedroom.

"Oh my god. They're in deep." I say, wanting to make Taylor laugh as I put some bowls into the sink and start washing them with warm water and some soap.

"Mhm yes." Taylor mumbles, not even bothering to look at me. I dry my hands with a towel and lift her head up with my hand underneath her chin.

"Taylor, whats up?" I ask, wanting to sound warm but probably sounding more concerned.


"Nothing." She says, pushing my hand away.

'Would she really be angry at me?' I think as I take a step back and finish washing the few dishes left.

"Why cant I read your thoughts anymore.." I hear Taylor mumble then. "Its frustrating." 



"I wish I could read yours." I say lightly, not wanting to push it too far. I want her to be comfortable with me again. She looks away from me, her arms crossed in front of her body. "You don't." She says and then turns around to walk to the living room area and sits down. I walk over to her and sit down next to her, keeping some distance in between us.

"Tay, whats going on? Why are you like this? Did I do someth-"


She interrupts me. "No Karlie." She says coldly. "You didn't do anything. Thats the thing."

'Wow.' Tears immediately fill my eyes. "Wh.. what do you mean?" I mumble, looking at her expectingly. Her eyes shoot up and meet mine then. 

"You're too late." She says then, looking at me with those angry eyes. "Its all too late." She looks away again, her eyes watering.

"What is? I don't understand what you mean?" I ask, my voice sounding terribly desperate. "We saved you now. He.. he is dead."

"He is dead yeah." She says, a sarcastic smile on her face. "But he will still be my match."

"WHAT?!" I ask, my voice cracking because of the high volume.


"Adam and I.." Taylor sighs deeply. I stays silent for a while then.


"Taylor.. please explain." I say, wishing to read the girl's mind so badly.


"Okay, okay.." She says, looking up annoyedly. "Adam was the king. Im the princess." She sighs, looking at her hands. "Because we both have both royal blood.. were a stronger match than for example you and I. Even though were both sparks." She explains, tucking a few strains of hair behind her ear.


"So?" I ask. "He is dead. That means we can be matches again. Right?"

"No. Thats where you're wrong." She sighs. "His soul lives in that stupid crown. The power of the crown only got stronger after he died. Stronger than anything. As long as the crown is still on this earth, I cant become matches with you or even.. like you.." She looks into my eyes then, hers watering as she speaks the next words. "Karlie.. since he died I.. I havent felt anything for you."

Im completely stunned by her words. "Wh.. what.."


"Im sorry." She says, scooting closer to me but then gasping and shooting back to her own place on the couch. "Fuck.." She mumbles.


"Wh.. what is it?" I ask through my tears, missing her warm arms around me.

"I.. hate you." She says then, almost making my heart stop working. I look at through my tears and see her struggle for words. "No.. no, no. Not like that." She says. "I meant.. uhm.. That crown is growing stronger with every passing day.. its taking all the love out of my body and pulling it into it. Its so strong Karlie.. I cant.. I cant help but hate you."

I let out a cry, not able to hold it in. This day was definitely even worse than the day before. 'Taylor isn't able to love me anymore.'

"Listen. That crown is pulling every single piece of love I have for you, into it. We.. we have to destroy it."

I look up then. "The cloudy river." I say. "The potion." I look at the blonde who is sitting beside me. "Taylor, will that solve this?"


"I.. I hope so. But if were too late, I turn bad. I will lose all the love I have and I will become an angry and bitter, stupid damn wolf." She explains, tears streaming down her face. "Im sorry." She says, getting up from the couch then and walking away to sit on a chair further away from me. "I cant be near you right now. It gets worse when its dark. When all the light is gone, the light in my body is too."

I nod, wiping the tears off my cheeks. "Tay?" I ask, hoping she will answer.

"Hmm?"


"Is this why you cant read my thoughts anymore?" I ask, looking at the blue eyed girl.

"Yes. I think so." She says, not looking up at me but looking at her hands instead.

"We will fix this. Okay? Were sparks, were supposed to be together. Its our faith. Our destiny." I say, wanting to comfort the sad girl who is sitting in the corner of the room.

"I hope so." She says, letting out a growl right after, punching her leg as she does so and holding onto her jeans angrily. "God! Its.. so bad right now!" She says loudly, almost wildening it seems as her breathing even becomes unsteady. 

"Taylor, you're gonna wilden." I state, seeing her struggle with her own anger.


"Its already so much worse than yesterday!" She says through gritted teeth, looking at me in panic as if silently begging be to help her.

"Selena!" I shout then, hoping the plan I have in my head, will work. The dark haired girl storms out of the bedroom and immediately sees Taylor sitting there in the corner of the room. "She is going to wilden. Have some kind of injection to relax her, like last time?" I ask her quickly.


"Im sure that isn't necessary. She can handle herself." Selena says, a small smile on her face as she walks over to Taylor.

"DONT come here!" Taylor groans at her, her voice low as she gets up from the chair while struggling with her breathing. "Selena, give me that calming shit!" She says then, clawing into the armrests of the chairs while trying to remain seated but moving back and forth.

"Okay, okay." Selena says, speeding away into the kitchen. Cara walks out of the bedroom then, she must have heard the weird sounds escaping Taylor's mouth. "Whats going on h-" She says but stops talking when she sees Taylor sit there in her chair, her mouth hanging half open and her nails digging deep into the leather chair. It is as if she is in a state between wildeling and being human. It looks horrible and painful.

"GO!" Taylor yells then, making Cara shoot away from her.

"Okay what the hell is going on with her?" The vampire asks, standing near the kitchen, where she can see Selena and me at the same time. I get up from the couch, knowing im the biggest cause of all her anger. "Ill explain later." I say, standing back as much as I can before Selena quickly passes me with an injection needle filled with blue fluid.

"Yeah and how will you inject that into her now? She's not going to tolerate that." Cara says. We all stand still then, looking at Taylor who is looking at us with her now red eyes. 

"Ill do it." I say, knowing this might be a very bad idea but finding it even worse to let anyone else get hurt.


"NO!" Taylor shouts. "NOT YOU!"


I take the needle from Selena and walk over to the sweating and growling girl in the corner. She looks nothing like her angel-like self. Her hair is hanging in front of her face, her teeth are showing as her mouth is opened like an animal wanting to eat their prey, her hands are gripped tightly onto the chair, her whole body seems to be tensed. 

I look into her red eyes. "Taylor, you know I have to do this for your own safety." I say. "And I know that somewhere deep inside there is still some love left for me. You just try to stay calm okay?"

She nods at me, her eyes still focussed on my face as she takes deep, heavy breaths.


"Here we go." I mumble as I step closer towards the girl and quickly stick the needle in her leg, through the fabric of her jeans. She growls loudly and grabs my arm with one of her hands. "Tay, its okay. Its me." I say, knowing how disorientating and strange it is to wilden. It must be even worse when you're in that in-between stage for so long. She doesn't loose her grip on me however since I now feel her nails digging into my skin.

"I love you." I say softly as I flow the fluid into her body. She releases her grip on me immediately, and Im hoping its because of the words I had just said but I know Im wrong when I see her pass out on front of me. Her eyes close and she falls backwards into the chair.

All three of us let out loud sighs and look at each other for a while.


"Okay. What the hell was that?" Cara asks, looking at the blonde in shock.

I bring Taylor to the bedroom and lay her down in bed before kissing her forehead softly. "I know you still love me." I whisper as I cover her still sweaty, body with some blankets and walk back into the living room where Cara and Selena are sitting on the couch waiting for me. I explain them the whole thing and Selena immediately walks over to Cara's book case.

Cara and I are still discussing about the whole thing when Selena returns and sits down with us.


"Okay. I found out something interesting." She says while going through the book. "Listen." She says and then explains something really important. It turns out that when your love is being taken away, the effect is twice as strong when the sun has gone down. This means that Taylor's hate for everything and especially for me, will grown stronger in the night.

"Wow." I say as Selena closes the book. "We need to destroy that crown. As fast as possible."


"Yes we do." Selena says, laying the book back onto a shelf in the kitchen.

"Fuck." Is all that Cara manages to say.

"So this means that she's going to hate you even more in the night. Plus, the hate will grow stronger every single day while that crown is still 'living'." Selena says, sitting back down with us.

"Does she have to come with us when we destroy that thing?" I ask, pointing at the horrible, magic object in the backpack close to the front door. 

"Yes. She has to be there to take all of the love that the crown has taken from her, back into her body." Selena says, making Cara and I sigh.


"Man, thats going to be so hard." I say. "How will we ever even do that?"

"Well.. we will need a lot of that stuff." Cara says, pointing at the now empty injection needle on the table.

"I will make more of that." Selena says. "And we will leave tomorrow morning when the sun has risen. She feels better then. Hopefully. I mean, this was extreme so she has to feel better."


"How long does one of these work?" I ask, getting the injection needle from the table and holding it up in the air.

"About 10 hours." Selena says, getting up to make some more.


"Good." Cara says, getting up to help Selena.

"Im gonna check on her." I say, getting up too and walking over to the girl who is now peacefully sleeping in her bed.

"Hey you." I say, sitting down next to her on the bed. "I know you probably can't hear me.. but I want you to know that I will fight for you." She is laying on her side, facing my direction. I brush a strain of hair out of her face and lay down next to her.

"Taylor, Im always going to be there for you from now on okay?" I whisper. Kissing the girl's nose and laying my hand upon hers. I don't know if she can hear or feel anything I do and say right now but I do know that I don't ever want her to feel alone again. She doesn't deserve anything bad to happen to her. Not anymore. Not ever.

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I open my eyes and see those two blue, shining eyes are staring in mine.

"Good mor-"

"Im so sorry for last night." Taylor says, her voice hoarse and soft as she speaks.

I smile, happy to know she isn't as angry as before anymore. "Its okay." I say. "It wasn't the real you. Its not your fault."

"Are you sure of that?" Taylor asks, her eyebrows furrowed together. She looks worried.

"Yes I am. You're not like that. Thats not you." I say calmly, letting my eyes wander over her face.

"Its inside of me though." She says, turning around to lay on her back.

"I think darkness hides inside of everyone." I say, scooting closer to her and laying an arm on her belly. 

She sighs and her body stiffens. "Is.. is this okay?" I ask.

I see that she closes her eyes for a bit before opening them and nodding her head slowly, as if scared she will hurt me with every move she makes.

We lay there like that for a while, she never relaxes though, never closes her eyes. Too scared to even touch me. I think of how much the poor girl used to like our hugs and cuddles before. We eventually get up and begin our day. Our newest journey would begin today anyway.


"Morning." We both say as we meet Cara in the living room.

"Morning guys, how are you feeling now Taylor?" The vampire asks.


"Better.. I guess.." The blonde mumbles, walking towards the bathroom after.

"Oh, Sel is in there." Cara says, seeming to be scared of the white wolf's reaction.


Taylor stands still in the middle of the hallway and just sighs before she turns around and sits down at the kitchen table. Cara seems to relax more as she sits down next to her. I sit down too and we all wait like that for Selena to come out of the bathroom, in silence. Cara because she is scared to trigger Taylor's anger and Taylor and I, both not knowing what there even is to talk about.

"Morning!" Selena says happily when walking out of the bathroom. She receives a mumbled response from all of us when Taylor gets up and takes the bathroom.

"Okay so how is she really?" Cara whispers as soon as we hear the girl has locked the door.

"I think she feels like shit. Like, being close to her this morning was already difficult." I say.

"Well.. its already like a big thing that you were able to even be close to her. In comparison to last night." Selena says, preparing some cereal in the kitchen and sitting down across of me. She passes me a bowl too and I thank her. "I know." I say, looking at my arm where some red scratches are marked into my arm. Her nails from last night. "She just seems really unhappy. Its something I hate to see." I take a bite from my cereal and the two other girls just nod at me in understanding when Taylor walks out of the bathroom a few minutes later.

"Ready to go?" She asks. She is wearing all black. A black vest, a black shirt, black pants. She lifts the hood over her head, her blonde, curly hair sticking out from underneath it. She stands in the middle of the living room, staring at us all, like were doing something extremely wrong.

"Don't you wanna eat something, hun?" Selena asks with the nicest tone she can manage.

"No." She gets as a cold reply however. Taylor starts putting her coat on and grabs the backpack with the crown from the ground. "Im already outside if you're looking for me. I need some fresh air." She opens the front door. A cold wind comes flowing into the cabin immediately. She steps out quickly and closes the door behind her. I sigh and Selena lays her hand upon mine.

"It will be okay. We will destroy that stupid crown." She says. I nod sadly and finish my breakfast. 'It has to work or else..' I start thinking of a thousand worlds without Taylor and none of them are good enough for me to live in. "I need her to love me again." I say out loud.

"Oh she will. She will love you again." Selena says. Cara just smiles a small smile at me, probably not knowing how else to comfort me.

"We can do this, half-wolfy. We did some tough shit before, we can do it again." Cara says then, surprising me by speaking up. I smile a small smile back at her. "Thanks guys." I say.

"Im going to get ready." I say as I get up and walk towards the bathroom. I choose a black turtle neck sweater and some vintage jeans as a simple outfit and ready myself for the tough day ahead.

When I get out of the bathroom Cara and Selena are already standing there, all ready, with their coats on and all that. I put my coat and my boots on too and get myself prepped for the cold, snowy weather outside.


"Ready for another adventure, Klossy?" Cara asks, raising one thick eyebrow.

I nod, still unsure if I am actually ready this time. "Yes." I say nevertheless. "As ready as I can be." We all give each other small smiles and Selena opens the door. We step into the winter landscape and start our new journey. A journey with love as our destination.

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A/N

Oh lord. What a drama chapter. Poor Karlie! Poor Tay too! She isn't pregnant though thats a good thing, even though a lot of you guys thought that! I read the comments and you were so stressed. Cuties haha

Hope you enjoyed reading this? Let me know? Any tips are welcome :)

Have a good day!

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