FEELINGS

"Call your special friend, Eunji! And have a special breakfast with her!" You assert, tilting your head and shrugging your shoulders. Jungkook smirks hearing your words as he walks up to you.

"Woohoo... maintain distance," you put your hand in between you two while he continues to stare at you with a smirk.

"I smell jealousy here," he sniffs, looking around while you raise your brows.

"To get jealous of, there must be something between two people... and if you forgot we are just strangers," you remind him. His smirk curtails while you turn around to leave.

"Y/n... I am sorry for yesterday. I mean it," he apologized, his head drooping low as you turned to look at him.

"Really? After accusing your best friend and your wife... I know I am a wife just on papers but still. How could you? You don't even know me... you don't know what I go through, what I believe, whom I love, what I love... and you just..." you scoff, losing strength to fight. There was no point in arguing but you needed to let him know he doesn't have any right to comment on your character.

"I am really sorry. I don't know what I was thinking or saying at that moment and I accept my misbehaviour, please..." he stepped towards you while you were busy in your thoughts.

His hand shifts to take yours in his palms as he cups them slowly. You tried to remove his hold but he was stronger and even if you hated to admit it, his warmth was comforting.

"I promise I won't hurt you again. I won't repeat any mistakes. I am sorry for these marks too. Please... can we at least be friends and not argue all the time?" He asks, his eyes staying on your knuckles while you think a lot.

Jungkook is very different from a typical definition of man. As much as his words are soothing they are scary too, as much as his warmth is comforting it's addicting too, as much as you hate his coldness you are frightened to see his soft side... you don't want to end up miserable especially when you know you both will part your ways soon.

"Jungkook..." he cuts you off.

"Shh... it's okay, take your time. I just want us to be good friends, I promise we won't take it further..." he assures you but your heart stings in unknown pain.

Why? Why won't he want to take it further?

You nod and by sliding your hands off his hold, you leave the house. Jungkook called you again to have breakfast with him but you rejected saying you are getting late.

The day goes by smoothly as you head home by taking the bus. You met your dad and to say you were terrified would be a small thing. Even if you have started with his treatments his condition is getting worse which scares you. You don't want to lose him. You don't want to live in this world without him.

Reaching home, you made your way to your bedroom lifelessly. Jungkook already informed you about his late arrival through text as he has an important meeting. You curled up in a ball as small tears rolled down your eyes.

'What should I do? What should I do to save him?' You sniffle, staring at your mom's photo.

'I don't want to lose him... I'll be lifeless if I lose dad too. I just..." you breakdown, heavy tears rolling down your rosy cheeks. You always try to stay strong, not for yourself but your father... he has done everything for you and you can't even do one thing to save him. You were ashamed of yourself.

Why does the world have to be so cruel to you? You accept you aren't alone in the world who lost their mom and a happy family at a young age but that doesn't lessen any grief of losing your loved one.

You just wished you could get that tumour in you so that your dad will be saved. What breaks you more is how he always smiles and jokes even when he is in pain.

You were sobbing, whimpering in the end, wetting your pillow when you heard the doorbell. Your breath hitches hearing the sound of the buzzer. You don't know who it could be. You don't want to go down looking like a vampire, having a swollen face and bloodshot red eyes. You sigh, patting your face and sniffling longer to control your runny nose. As you walk down, praying for the person not to be Jungkook you reach the door.

"Jimin?" You ask, hearing your own voice coming out a little rough. He smiles cheekily but that soon vanishes seeing your miserable state. His eyes narrowed as he continued to study your features.

"Umm... are you good, y/n?" He asks, voice lowering in concern. You nod with a forced smile. You would have greeted him with a smile, a genuine one, the other day but now it was hard.

"Are you sure? Do you want to talk about it? I mean... I know we are not so close but you know I am here, you can talk it out if you want to. I won't judge, say or place my opinions... I'll just listen if you want..." he halts and swallows his words when a lone tear falls down your eyes.

"Hey..." he steps inside as you break down hearing his comforting voice.

"I am sorry... I just can't. I can't hold it. I am try... trying but it's hard," you speak out, wiping your tears but more of them escaped.

"It's okay. You don't always have to be strong. It's okay to have vulnerable sides and it's okay to cry..." he softly mumbles, his hand sliding in your back as he rubs it gently, drawing circles while you sob a little louder.

Bringing you to the couch, he continues to stroke your backs and knuckles, providing you with the comfort and warmth you need right now.

"It's so hard, Jimin. I am doing everything but still... still dad's condition is worsening. I don't... I don't know what to do anymore. It hurts me seeing him like that. I am... I am scared... to lose him, I don't want to. But nothing... this sh*tty life is doing no good to him," you whimper, hiding yourself in your hand while he bites his lips to control his tears hearing you. He got to know about your dad's condition through Jungkook. And he really wishes for his recovery.

"Shhh... everything will be fine. Trust me. I don't know when but it'll be soon. About your dad, don't worry nothing will happen. Just trust God. You love him, right? Then God won't even touch him. He will be alright and will be recovering soon. I know it's hard but have patience and don't blame yourself," he says, as you cry more. He wraps his hand around your form, bringing you closer as he hugs you. You let yourself loose in his hug, letting yourself weep in his warmth. You needed this comfort.

You don't know why you are being so fragile and sobbing so much when you trust God and know that you'll do everything to save your dad. But you also understood it was okay to be weak sometimes and not bottle up your feelings, fears.

He continued to mutter sweet words as you hugged him, clutching on his shirt in your small fists. You looked at him with small, swollen eyes as he smiled softly at you. He looks like an angel. You wished an angel could grant your wish and save your dad. He wipes your face slowly with his fingers and tucks the loose messy hair stand behind your ear. His eyes admire your features. You always look pretty. No wonder Jungkook gets jealous even when he says he doesn't have any feelings for you.

"I know it's hard but please understand that you are doing your best. And everything happening is not in your hands. You can't control few things and it's okay. Just try your best... but don't blame yourself, hmm?" He nods asking for your reassurance as you bobbed your head slowly, making him smile a little.

"Good girl. Did you eat? Do you want me to order something for you? Because if I cook... your kitchen will get the makeover of black paint," he giggles making you laugh a little.

'Pretty. Keep smiling, bun'

His thumb continues to caress your waist as you stare at his smiling face. How can a man be so soft and fragile? You haven't seen someone like him. Everyone around you was strict and cold, including your dad. How can he be so giggly and smiling, unlike other men who try to maintain their strict aura? Just as you thought, Jimin is like a warm blanket on a windy night. His eyes were so deep, like an ocean, like the world it has stored beneath them and he will just open the world for that one person. His nose is cute yet sharp and straight, giving him greek god features.

"Jimin?" A male voice, as much as you recognise Jungkook's voice echoes the house. Jimin turns to look at the door as you pull away from the hug. Your eyes fall on Jungkook as you find him standing expressionless.

'Is she okay? Why does she look like she cried just now?' Jungkook thinks even if his brain was fogged with your and Jimin's closeness picture. He didn't expect that especially after hearing Jimin say that he won't settle an eye on you. Seeing you two alone at this hour and this close made him question many things even when he knew he shouldn't.

His meeting wasn't today and it was Eunji's plan to make him stay a little longer at the office today but after knowing about the plan he left the office immediately. He was wishing to play games tonight and order pizza for himself, spend some time with you if you are comfortable... but he was met with an unfamiliar scene. If he was honest... he didn't like it at all. He didn't fail to notice Jimin's hands around your figure while you laid on his chest, his veins popped in anger even if he disagreed. You don't act like this, fragile and weak in front of him which made him mad more.

'Why are you so open to him and not me? Do I bite you that you are so scared of me?' He thinks balling his fists.

"Ahh, Jungkookah..." Jimin removes your hands slowly as you shift away from him. Jungkook walks inside while Jimin pulls out something from his pocket.

"Your mom wanted me to give you this as soon as possible," he explains, handing the man a pendrive. Jungkook takes it in his hand without questioning or saying anything.

His eyes were on you. His gaze was sharp and intense. He was asking. But what?

Your tired and puffy eyes were wanting to sleep. Meanwhile, Jimin sensed the growing tension. He knows Jungkook better than anyone and he knows what he might be thinking. He leans forwards as he hugs Jungkook.

"Don't overthink. I was here for this pen drive and she was worried about her dad. There's nothing more... okay?" Jimin whispers in his ear, rubbing the younger's back. While Jungkook continued to stare at you.

Jimin leaves soon bidding goodbyes to you two. You get up from the couch, passing Jungkook as you are tired and sleepy. Jungkook clenches his jaw, his hands lunging to clasp around your wrist. You turn around due to his strong pull, making you stumble a little.

"Are you okay?" He asks, controlling himself from speaking anything wrong at the moment. He knows he doesn't have that right but still, he can't control the feelings gushing in his veins.

Why was he feeling like that? What was that feeling for? Why is everything getting confusing after three months of marriage?

"Yes," you answer, nodding your head.

'Why can't you talk to me like you did with Jimin?' He thinks, studying your tired form.

"I want to sleep," you mutter slowly, wrist wriggling in his grip.

"I'll help you..." he says and by swift motion, his hands slid around your body, slipping your feet off from the floor as you gasp. Picking you up in bridal form, he smiles at you while you stare at him with the unknown idiom.

'Why would you do that?' You think.

"I can walk!" You argue with your husky voice while he starts walking towards the steps.

"I know but you are tired and I am being a good friend, helping you..." he smiles cheekily, making you frown.

"Friends do not carry each other like this!" You point at his hold while he shrugs his shoulders and leans toward, acting to lose your figure and fall down.

"Stupid! Hold me!" You yell in fear.

Your hand grip around his neck as you close your eyes in fear while your face snuggles in his chest. His cheeks flushed in seeing you so close. A proud feeling of having you near fills in his heart, as he smirks.

'Jiminah... I won't let you two get close,' his subconscious self says.