lika A Cat In Heat

(Santana's Pov)

"Can I feel it" I whisper and she goes wide eye. I watch as I see the tables turning in her head and her mind is racing.

"Santana........" She whines in a crying voice. I look at her like 'bitch really'

"What, you basically shoved your hand down my pants, why can't I do the same" I say pissed off that she won't let me. She shoved her hand down my pants at the hospital and I didn't care because I trusted her, now that it's her turn she won't let me do the same.

"Because I'm different" she says looking down and I sigh. I've had enough about this "different" shit.

"Brittany, I've had enough of this different shit. So what if your different, millions of people are and Im not talking about just born with a different body part than others. We're different in any and all ways. We're physically and mentally different, were different races, sexual orientations and religious views. I swear to god if you use your difference as a crutch one more time I will scream. Because the truth is I love you brittany and I will always love you, all of you no matter what. I don't like hearing you talk bad about yourself, it hurts me to see you hurting" I say and feel her wipe away a tear.

"Don't cry san" she says and I sniff to make it seem like Im sad.

"Let me stick my hand down your pants then" I say and she laughs at the gesture.

"I don't know" she says rubbing her hand through her hair nervously. I watch as she tries to come up with a distraction and I see how bad she doesn't want me to, so I get up and start walking towards the door.

"Don't leave" she says and I smile.

"Im not leaving babe, I'm just turning the light out" I say and turn the light out and crawl back into the bed with her.

"Im sorry"she says and I sigh a little.

"Don't ever be sorry for not doing something your uncomfortable with" I say and feel a kiss in my forehead.

Am I pissed my girlfriend won't let me touch her, yeah but not because I'm some horny freak but because I feel as though she doesn't trust me but I am her first official girlfriend so I have to take things slow.

(Next morning)

I wake up the sound of my alarm clock and frown, not able to remember how I got back to my dorm. I look at my clock to see Im late for class and get up quickly to get ready. I take a shower and then get ready and find out the date, shit. Im in my pre menstrual state.

(20 minutes)

"Ms. Lopez, nice of you to join us" he says like a smart ass so I just glare at him while smiling and then get to my seat.

(After class)

"Hey chicka" I hear and scoff.

"What" I say to Quinn and she frowns.

"What's wrong with you" she says now annoyed.

"Im pmsing  and me and brittany are trying to take it slow"  I say pissed to the max while Quinn fell to the ground and start cracking up.

"You are going to be in hell for days" she says smirking. I push her into a locker and keep walking.

In about to leave school when brittany calls my phone.

"Hey babe, what's up" I hear in the phone.

"Hey sweetheart, how was your day" I say as I walk to my dorm.

"Im doing fine, I wanted to know if you wanted to do something today" she says and I sigh.

"I can't Im booked" I say as I get in the elevator.

"what about tomorrow" she says and I sigh.

"Idk Britt" I say and hear her sigh.Im  walking down the hall and bout to open the door.

"Well Im in your dorm so I'll see you later" she says and I start to back away. I go into Rachel's dorm instead.

"Well I'll be home late britt, I'll talk to you later.

"I need a place to stay for a couple of days" I say and see her nod, understanding.

(4 days later)

"What the hell Santana if your mad at me just say you are" brittany screams through the phone.

"No Britt, Im not mad at you I have no reason to be mad at you" I say as I hear her cry.

"Are you mad because I won't let you touch me, if that's it's that all you had to say" she says and I cut my phone off of speaker getting looks from the Gang. I decide to walk away before they start judging.

"No, I already told you Britt that has nothing to do with why I've been avoiding you. Let's just say I have to not see you for one more day, after that day I will give you all my attention. I will skip class and we can spend the whole weekend  together and we can go on a date and up to the beach and just it be me and you" I say thinking I've sold it to her.

"No I want you now in the dorm with me. I haven't seen my girlfriend in almost a week and it's killing me. Santana I need you to come back to the dorm tonight, you don't  have to stay but I need to see your face" she says and I sigh at that agreement.

"Brittany I can't and I already told you I can't. Im pmsing and when I pms Im like a cat in heat" I say sighing in annoyance.

"Why not, you keep saying you can't but I don't care" she says angrily and I sigh.

"Brittany I cant control myself when I'm pmsing and you want to take things slow so you do care and are you at the dorm right now. I ask walking into the dorm building.

"No I left so you can sneak more clothes, Im at Juilliard" she says a upset.

"Britt don't be like that, it's for the best" I say as I enter the dorm building.

"No it's not, what's the worst that can happen" she says.

"We have sex but because I force you" I say an she sighs. I walk into the room and start picking out clothes.

"I need to see you" she says sternly.

"Brittany, no" I say and here her hang up.

"Yes" I hear and the dorm shuts and locks.

"Wrong move"