Dying To Have You

(Brittany's Pov)

I watch as she starts to break down and how I look at her change completely. I start to lift up to see her better, when shane hits something.

"Sorry" he says and I hear her stop crying and I glare at him.

"What, I was ju...." i cover his mouth and say shhh. That's the closest thing I did to speaking in almost a year.

"We need to make a run" I texted and showed him, but it was too late. Our only exit was blocked so I climbed into the kitchen with Shane and told him to talk and laugh and act etc with a text.

"What do you call a cat in water...." He says while looking at me and I shrug.

"A wet pussy. Ba da chink" he says and hits an imaginary drum and I start laughing at his stupid joke and instantly in comes Santana.

"What are you guys doing here" she says looking emotionless.

"We were coming to get you, but seen you were taking tequila shots, so we were restocking the bar and then came back here" shane says smiling.

"I didn't hear you guys" she says folding her arms and frowning.

"We were being quiet so we wouldn't disturb you. I promised you the bar tonight, so I wanted to keep that promise" he says and I keep looking down to the ground. I don't like seeing her upset. I think I prefer bitchy and scary Santana over sad and broken one.

"Well, I decided that I'll take the bar and if you want a job, you can have one Britt. I negotiated and in a week, this place is going to be a club. Im still keeping the stage but we're going to expand the place and make it bigger and better and im going to own a club, not a bar" she says and I keep looking down because I swear I'll look lost if I look up. She just called me Britt and I feel my face blushing, so I nod and then walk away.

"She's had a long day today at Juilliard and then we hung out with your friends all day a........"

"You was with the group" she says and I turn around and walk forward to see what she says.

"Yeah, almost all day besides holding auditions" shane says and she looks happy, yet pissed.

"Did you ask where I was" she says to Shane and Shane looks away.

"Whaattt, no" he says looking away.

"What did they say about me" she says as if she's heard it all before.

"That you had a rough life, but that's all really" shane says.

"Did they say why"she asks looking down looking somewhere else as if she's concentrating.

"No" he says and she nods yeah.

"Good, Im leaving for the night, but be back around 5 to help me get ready" she says and walks out. I don't know what came over me but I grabbed her arm and when she turned around I stared at her with concern and and she smiled that fake smile and said the words that no woman ever mean

"I'm fine, really" and with that, she's gone.

(One week later)

Do you know that feeling of want with something. It can be an object or a living thing but you want, no need it. You would do anything, even kill a man just to have it for a second. Yeah, that's been me ever since I seen Santana walk out that door. I didn't take the job yet but I seen her a couple times a week. She's only in one of my classes but because we live right across the hall from each other, I see her a lot more than I expected. I don't know, if it's pity or curiosity that drives me towards her, but I want her to be mines. What am I saying, first she probably thinks I'm a freak. Second, me avoiding her doesn't help and then last, were not even friends. She might not even be gay.

"Hey are you even listening" my teacher says and I nod yes while she just laughs.

"Really, what's got you down sugar"she says and I sigh. I look at her and see if she can read me.

"It's a girl, isn't it" she says and I nod no and just on perfect timing.

"Hey holly, I forgot to get the report so I was wondering if I can get them now" she says and then looks at me and smile. I wave back before holly smirks at me and I glare at her.

"Sure, no problem chicka" she says and still smirks at me. Holly Holiday is what you call a 17 year old, trapped inside a 37 year olds body.

"Santana, brittany and I was just working on a new piece and I know that you have an ear for picking the right songs for a dance. So I was wondering if you could help brittany since I'll be busy all next week" she says and Santana says sure. We exchange numbers and I call her so she have mine. She waves bye to us and then she's out the door.

"I should've known that it was Santana hot stuff Lopez. You owe me big time, girlfriend" holly says and I glare at her.

"If you disagree then say it" she says and I smirk and leave.

Everyone's been trying to get me to talk for almost a year now, but I'm not ready yet. I don't think I would talk unless it was for something important. I think to the first day I met Santana and laugh because even though she spilled soda all over me, I still liked her. I, brittany S. Pierce is falling hard for Santana Lopez. I get to the dorms to see my stuff being moved off of the empty bed onto mines.  I look to see the culprit and fake smile.

"Hi brittany, after I found out that you lived alone. I decided to move in with you because of Santana's unhealthy life style and now we're roomies. Now there's a list of  stuff we need to........" I decided to block her out and take a shower. When I get back it's almost 10:30, but I'm wide awake. The only thing I can think about is Santana and what she could be doing right now.  I hear my phone beep and I look to see i have a message from an unknown number.

"Hey Britt, this is Santana. I wanted to know if you could come over to talk real quick"~Sanny