Can't Get You Off My Mind

Joey's POV~"... Oh, and really quick..."Shane's hands were cool on my neck as he brought his head towards mine and pressed our lips together. My cheeks started to burn, but my eyes still closed out of instinct. Our mouths felt so perfect together, I just went for it.I rested my hands on his waist as he moved his mouth on mine. I pushed back and let out a soft moan of pleasure. As my lips parted, he slipped his tongue into my mouth. I rubbed my hands up and down his sides, caressing him ever so gently. He started to move down my neck, kissing lightly with the occasional feral nip. I let out a little gasp of surprise and muttered, "Shane..."He moved one hand up, running it through my hair. It sent shivers down my spine. I slid my hands under the fabric of his shirt, lifting it and touching the skin underneath."Shane..." I repeated as he pulled me in closer. "I... I love-" ~~~~ I shot upwards in bed, panting and covered in a fevered sweat. I hugged my knees into my chest and shook my head, trying to get the images from my dream out of mind. Ever since Shane had kissed me for that "Dare the Dawson" video, I just couldn't stop thinking about it. This was the third time this week I'd dreamt about it and it was starting to freak me out. Sure, I was ok with it, I knew it had just been for the dare, but I was confused about my strange obsession with it. It wasn't like I was gay, but in my dreams, I always enjoyed it so much. Each dream would last a bit longer than the previous, and I was starting to get scared of what would come next.I lay back again, staring up at the ceiling above me. 'What does this mean? And why can't I just let it go?' I spent probably another hour tossing and turning before I finally made it back to sleep.The next morning, I texted Shane asking him if we could get together. The kiss thing was really bothering me, and I felt like I needed to get it off my chest. "We need to talk." is all I sent.He almost instantly replied. "Ok. Wanna come over to my place later?""Yeah," I typed. "I'll grab some breakfast and be on my way."I barely felt like eating; I still felt shaken up. I made myself some waffles and forced them down. My stomach twisted every time I thought of Shane. While I was eating my breakfast, I had gotten a few more texts, but I couldn't bring myself to read them. I just had too much on my mind.I climbed into my car and started the short drive to Shane's house. My hands were shaking as I gripped the wheel and my mind spun with anticipation. Maybe I shouldn't be driving..."Joey!" Shane smiled as he answered the door. We awkwardly hugged. "Hey, I was starting to wonder if you'd forgotten about coming over." He winked and laughed. "So, you wanted to talk?""Um... yeah," I scratched my ear and say down on his couch. "I, uh... I've been thinking... a lot, actually, about when you, um... kissed me."He got very quiet all of a sudden and looked down at his hands. I was starting to panic again and blurted out randomly, "Its just kinda bothering me and I don't think we should keep all these things bottled up inside, sometimes it's better to let things out than keep them in, I think..."Shane looked up and placed his hand on my knee. For a second, I thought he was coming on to me, but the thought was denied as he spoke. "Joey, I... I didn't mean anything by it. It was just a dare. I thought you would be ok with it. Sorry...""Y-you don't need to apologize," I sputtered, still bumbling like an idiot. "I am fine with it, I-I just thought..." I sighed, trailing off. "Never mind." I exhaled, running my hand through my hair. "Forget I even brought it up. I'll go now..."I stood and started walking towards the door, but Shane reached up and grabbed my arm. "Hey, dude, I, uh... I've been meaning to tell you for a little while, but Lisa and I are moving. We thought, um, it'd be nice to get out of the city for a bit, you know?""What?" I asked. I clearly did not know. "Like, how far?""Only a few hours drive," he slowly answered. "I might come in to visit some, but it'll definitely be harder for us to film collabs.""Yeah..." I bit my lip, turning back. "You're really moving? This isn't a prank or something?""I really am," he looked up at me from where he still sat on the couch.I felt a sudden lump start to rise in my throat and tears prick at the corners of my eyes. He was my best friend, and to hear he was just moving away, just like that... it hurt."Joey," Shane scolded, standing up and hugging me. "It's gonna be ok. I mean, we can still text and stuff...""Yeah, yeah I'm fine..." I quickly wiped budding tears out of my eyes. "I know, this is just... all so sudden.""I was worried you'd be upset, that's why I put off telling you," he rubbed my back. "In retrospect, it was kind of dumb. Considering now I'm moving so soon.""When?" I asked."In two weeks," he answered, gritting his teeth. "Yyyeah... sorry, Joey.""It's ok, I'm fine," I lied, trying to keep my lower lip from quivering. "If you want a change, it's fine by me.""Ok," he exhaled, standing up. "Now that I've told everyone, I guess I should post an "I'm moving" vlog or something.""Yeah, I'll leave you to it," I turned away. "We should do something else together before you move. 'Cause it might be one of the last things we ever do together.""Don't say that," he smiled. "I'm not just gonna get up and walk out of your life completely."'Then why does it feel like that's why you're doing?' I kept my thoughts silent and walked out, muttering a quick, "Bye," and keeping my eyes on the ground.Driving home, my mind still swirled with thought, but now, the kiss was far from what consumed my brain. Shane was moving... I shouldn't be this bummed out, should I? I mean, friends of mine had moved before, but I'd never felt this bad. I still needed someone to talk to, but things were still to awkward with Shane. But who else was there?