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nah bcs why did it take me 5 hours to write this chapter 💀 especially since i have no dating experience so it was hard to portray what hyemin was feeling

Sorrow.

That was one word to describe Ji Hyemin's current emotions. It's been a month since Hyunwoo dumped her, and she's never been in worse shape. She didn't eat or drink much anymore, and dark bags under her eyes appeared beneath her eyes, and her physique shrank.

Looking at the photo of Hyemin and Hyunwoo on their date three months ago, Hyemin sighed. Oh, how she yearned for that moment when everything was perfect. They used to have stay-at-home dates and watch cheesy rom-coms together.

Usually, she would start crying again but because that's one of the only things she's been doing for the past month, there were no tears anymore. Just despair and dejection. She stopped sending messages to him, slowly accepting that maybe they would never be together again, but it still hurt.

He didn't even explain why, which was the part that bothered her the most. It seemed as if their four years together had been in vain, like she had wasted her time.  Not to mention the remorse she felt.

She felt like she was the reason. That the problem was her. She exhaled as she scrolled through their chats together.

hyunwoo

20 October 2021, 02:23 AM

me: hey

me: its me again

me: i came here to ask how are you

me: but of course u blocked me so u probably won't see this

me: i've been feeling like shit

me: the doctor says i can't come to school for the next 2 months because i broke my leg and sprained my wrist

me: it probably wouldn't have happened if u were there

me: you're like my good luck

me: *were

me: it was such a shame

me: u never came to any of my competitions

me: i really wanted u to see me skate

me: i don't wanna brag but im quite good at it ha ha

me: im thinking of quitting it tho

me: what's the point anymore

me: all it would do is make me think of u

me: and as much as i love u, i can't do this anymore

me: as days go by, its been harder and harder for me to get up

me: i wish i could sleep forever

23 October 2021, 19:09 PM

me: jiwon told me that you're now dating gaeun

me: congrats

me: is that why u broke up with me? to be with her?

me: that makes me think of something

me: if i was as pretty as her, would this happen?

me: would u have broken up with me?

me: i hope ur happy

30 October 2021, 05:43 AM

me: i had a dream about u again

me: this time, we went on a camping trip

me: and we went mountain hiking too

me: it was so fun i almost forgot it wasn't real

me: then u pushed me down a cliff

me: it was fucking scary

me: and then i woke up

me: and i cried and cried

me: it seems like crying's been the only thing i've been doing for the past month

me: u can't blame me can u

me: i love u

5 November 2021, 17:21 PM

me: the neighbors came today

me: i only greeted them and went back to my room

me: park sunghoon was there too

me: i told u about him, the annoying guy who always wins whenever we're competing

me: u probably didn't listen though

me: if we weren't rivals, we could've been friends

15 November 2021, 13:43 PM

me: deji asked about u

me: u remember her right? my little cousin that u always play with while i get ready for our dates

me: then i remembered, she doesn't know we broke up

me: she asked if she could play with u again

me: if you're not busy, do come and play with her some time because she said she misses u

Hyemin closed her eyes, feeling the familiar waterworks come again. There was a knock on the door and she immediately knew who it was. It had become a routine for Jiwon to visit her every day after school to see how her best friend is doing, even though there was no improvement almost every day.

It pained her to see her own best friend this way. So she thought of something to help Hyemin, that was the reason why she was here.

She gave Hyemin a hard slap on her face earning a groan from her. "Get a grip of yourself woman! It's time to move on," Jiwon spoke up, earning Hyemin's attention.

"You've wasted so many tears crying for a guy that never deserved you."

Deep down, she knew Jiwon was right.

She wiped Hyemin's tears, "Your ult is literally Na fucking Jaemin. You should be having high standards, not crying over someone who never deserved you. And as your best friend, I cannot let that happen, not on my watch."

Jiwon walked over to her closet and opened it. She then took black trash out of her pocket while Hyemin watched in confusion.

"We shall start by throwing out all his hoodies," she mentioned. Hyemin's eyes widened as she tried to get up but then she remembered her leg was broken.

No, not the hoodies.

"Wait, maybe we can-" she didn't even get to finish her sentence when Jiwon cut her off.

Jiwon gave her a stern look, "Hyemin."

And she gave up. So she just sat down while Jiwon took out every hoodie she didn't recognize so she assumed it belonged to Hyunwoo and put them inside the bag.

"Are you gonna actually throw them?" Hyemin asked, voice a little hoarse from not drinking much water these days.

"Nah, it'd be a waste if we do that. We could donate these to some homeless people." Jiwon smiled. That was one of her favorite things about Jiwon; she always wanted to help people no matter what, even sometimes putting other people in front of her.

A tear escaped Hyemin's eye and Jiwon stopped what she was doing.

"Are you okay?" she asked Hyemin worriedly, wiping the stray tear on her cheek.

Jiwon was caught off guard when Hyemin engulfed her into a hug.

"What did I do to deserve someone like you." Hyemin sniffed, while Jiwon slowly patted her back.

"Stop, you're gonna make me cry," Jiwon chuckled when she felt herself getting a little teary.

"C'mon, let's continue," Jiwon spoke up, walking back to the closet.

their friendship is so wholesome i love it 😭