CHAPTER NINETEEN

I just stare at Thirdy who's putting Davin to sleep. Nandito na naman siya,I was about to stand up to get something to eat when Thirdy stopped me. Kunot-noo ko siyang tiningnan.

"Where are you going?". Tanong niya habang nakahawak sa tiyan ko.

Ang OA!

"Kukuha lang ako ng tinapay". Kalmado kong sabi,as much as possible hinahabaan ko ang pasensya.

I know for the past months naging emotional ako at madaling mainis,I hate the way I acted kaya I force myself to be calm.

"Ako na kukuha". He said and went to kitchen with Davin who's very sleepy na.

I sighed before sitting again.

I'm in my 5th month now. After that incident where I almost had a miscarriage mas naging careful ako. Our families also talk na,so I can say na medyo maayos na Ang family namin. Though dad didn't let Thirdy stay in our house. No staying with one house without getting wed. Though we didn't talk about weddings,our family is still not ready,so am I. But Thirdy promised to be responsible for his kids and me.

He always go here,before going to school,after school and every weekends. Halos dito na Siya tumira pero hindi natutulog dito. He's taking good care of Davin and assisting me,over nga lang sa assist.

"Here". He handed me the bread.

"Thanks". Sabi ko lang at kumain.

Tumabi naman siya sakin habang hawak pa din si Davin na natutulog na,he placed a kiss on my temple. Nag-angat naman ako ng tingin sa kaniya ,we haven't talk about our issues pa dahil naging busy kami sa maraming bagay. But he's treating me  the way he treas me before.

"Thirds?".

"Hmm". He said before looking at me.

Huminga ako ng malalim,I feel like I am about to cry but I stopped myself.

"I'm sorry for.. I'm sorry for everything,for hiding your son,our son,it's just that.." . Tuluyan na akong naiyak.

"Argh shh baby,it's fine". Alo niya before kissing my cheeks.

"You're not mad?". Mahina kong tanong at pinunasan ang luha.

"Mad? Maybe I was....? but to be honest,shock was the first thing I felt. Mad? I don't know,but you know Bea my love  for you just strengthen when I found out about Davin,you're still the mother of my child,my children to be exact,and I love you so much". He said and look at me lovingly,before caressing my belly.

Niyakap ko siya at humikbi,I can't help it eh.

Niyakap niya rin ako pabalik at hinalikan ang ulo ko.

After that moment nanghingi lang ako ng cake at kumain ulit. Naiwan din ako sa living room when he tucked Davin to bed. Kumain lang ako ng kumain hanggang sa bumalik siya. Agad siyang tumabi sakin at niyakap ako,he is hugging my tummy more though,he kept on writing something at nakikiliti ako.

"Thirdy stop". Pigil ko sa kaniya pero tumawa lang siya,he kissed my cheek and hug me again.

"I can't believe we're having two kids now Bei". Natatawa niyang sabi.

Kumunot naman ang noo ko.

"Is it something that you need to laugh about?".

Natigilan naman siya at agad na umiling.

"If you're taking this as some kind of a joke,well it's not. Alam mo ang epekto nito Thirdy". Kalmado pero may diin kong sabi.

Napakamot naman siya ng ulo.

"I'm sorry". Nahihiya niyang sabi.

"So now you're sorry?". Tanong ko ulit.

He look at me confusingly.

"Sorry for what I acted earlier but I'm not sorry for having this baby". He said and that satisfies me.

I don't know why but,the heck is wrong with me! Masyado na akong naging perfectionist. Everything just don't make sense when you're pregnant.

"What's wrong with you Bea?". Mom asked as she caress my back.

"Mom,I'm tumataba na talaga". Hikbi ko when my dress won't fit me.

"Malaki lang ang tiyan mo Bea but you're not fat". Alo niya but I won't believe her,I can clearly see in the mirror na mataba na ako.

"Bea you're not fat". Thirdy said when he came at our house after school.

"No,you're just saying that because I'm your girlfriend". Iyak ko,I've been crying for like 4 hours now and I can't stop kahit gusto ko.

"No,of course not,hindi ka nga mataba. You just have big tummy because of this little angel,right baby?". He asked as he caress my belly, I froze and suddenly stopped crying when the baby kicked.

"Oh my gosh, baby's kicking Thirds". Sigaw ko at nagulat naman siya,hinawakan niya ulita ng bump ko.

"Yes,the baby did". Happiness is evident on his face.

Agad niyang kinuha si Davin na naglalaro at tinapat ang kamay sa bump ko,the baby kept on kicking.

"Mommy big tummy full?". Davin asked ignoring the kicks of her brother/ sister.

"No,there's baby in there Davin,your baby sister or brother". Si Thirdy,Davin nodded as he understands his dad.

I've been on online classes since my 4th month because delikado nga ang pregnancy ko. I have to be extra careful. Good thing Ateneo has this kind of option, because if there isn't then probably I would stop once again.

Hindi naman masyadong stress sa school,but I do miss playing volleyball. I wanna play volleyball but I can't. I also want to play golf,I miss playing that but I can't also,and so I called Thirdy when I thought of something.

"Thirds, let's play golf". I said and he just groaned.

" Bea do you know it's 7 pm baby? Kakadating ko lang ng Bahay from training,can atleast rest first?". Naiinis man ay tumango ako,I have to understand.

"Hmm okay". Malungkot kong sabi,I was about to end the call when I heard him sigh.

"Fine,I'll pick up,magready ka na". He said that made me happy.

"Sige".

"I love you babe".

"I love you more don't be late!". I shouted and ended the call.

"Go Thirds! Ayusin mo naman!". I shouted

I saw him scratch the back of his head when he failed to do it again.

I'm not allowed to play golf now cause it requires strength and I can't put too much,baka bigla nalang lumabas ang baby ko ng maaga. So instead,I command Thirdy to do it,his good at playing golf but hindi ko maiwasang mainis if nagkakamali siya,I wanna see it as perfect as I wanted.

Gosh my hormones!.

"Argh! You're so annoying! Tara nga let's go home nalang you can't do it properly,you're lacking strength!". Inis kong bulyaw,he just sighed and walk with me to his car.

When we were about to get in the village I remember something,I need to buy Davin's milk pa pala.

"Thirdy,let's go back to the mall". Sabi ko, natigilan naman siya bago ako nilingon.

"Huh? Why?". He stopped the car at that side.

"We need to buy Davin his milk pa pala". I said that made him sigh.

"Are you mad?". Tanong ko,when he looked mad or annoyed.

"Hindi naman Bea but can you could have said it earlier kasi it's already 10:00 pm Bea,you need to rest". Kalmado niyang sabi at pagod akong nginitian.

I just got Davin's milk and we get home agad,I don't want to talk dahil baka ano na naman  ang lumabas sa bibig ko,as much as I want to demand ,I can clearly see tiredness in his eyes.

"Do you want to sleep here?". I ask him as we walk to our room where I put Davin's milk,Siya ang nagdadala nun.

"Nah,Tito won't let me,plus I have to be early tomorrow babe". He said.

Nilagay lang niya sa gilid ang 3 kartong gatas at pumunta kay Davin,he kissed Davin's forehead,yumakap naman si Davin na tulog na tulog when he felt his dad's hug.

After a few minutes Thirdy stood up and went to, malungkot akong ngumiti cause he's leaving na,tsk ang OA BEAAAA..

I heard him sigh.

"Okay,I'll be here until you fall asleep". He said and kissed my cheeks before placing his hand on my belly.

So that's what I did,I lay in bed and Thirdy's next to me holding and feeling my belly.

"Daddy is very excited to see you". Bulong niya sa at caress my belly gentle.

I closed my eyes but I can hear and feel him still.

"I love you Beatriz,I love you Davin,I love you Deila". Bulong niya.

Deila?

Napangiti nalang ako,does he want a baby girl?

.........................

Antok,pagod,gutom.

"Thirds tubig". Sigaw niya mula pool

"Thirdy towel ni Davin".

"Thirdy,paki-abot ng phone ko".

"Thirdy Yung ball ni Davin nahulog".

Napakamot ako ng ulo,simula ng sabihan ko siyang wag masyadong gumalaw-galaw at kung may kailangan sabihin lang sakin,lahat pati ang pagsusuklay ng buhok at pagsusuot ng tsinelas sakin na inuutos. At nakakapagod din naman,ayoko lang magreklamo dahil I have to make it up to her,wala akong karapatang mapagod sa kaniya,sa kanila.

Yan ang lagi kong naramdaman sa araw-araw pero bawing-bawi lahat kapag nakikita ko ang mag-iina ko,just a 'daddy' from Davin,one 'kiss' from and a 'kick' from Deila is more than enough to ease e everything I'm feeling, bawing-bawi na Ang lahat sa ganun.

I smile as I remember the name I want my daughter to have, I'm not sure if it's a girl or a boy,but I have a strong feeling that the baby is a girl. Sabi kasi ni mama kapag maganda daw ang nanay means babae. Nagdadalawang-isip din ako kasi lagi namang maganda si Bea so that shouldn't be my basis.

Sa kabila ng pagod ko,nakapag-isip pa talaga ako ng name.

Deila Isabel

I smile as I imagine her having that name,grabe 4 more months and I'll be able to see my baby na. I wanna see her na kasi bukod sa hirap na sundin ang lahat ng utos ni Bea,hindi ko din minsan maintindihan ang mood niya. Minsan okay lang siya tas bigla na namang magagalit.

Noong isang araw puro hampas ang balikat ko dahil di ko magawa ng maayos ang pagpapaint ng kuko ko sa paa,she want to put nail polish on her toe pero hindi pwede kaya instead she would force me to do it on myself. And because I can't say no,I did,I have pink nail polish on my toes now,and it's perfectly done by me pero ilang masasakit na hampas muna ang natanggap ko.

I am eating my breakfast na dahil pupunta pa ako sa kanila para makita sila but my phone rang.

Agad kong sinagot when I saw it's Bea.

"Where are you? Late ka ng mga 7 minutes na". Masungit niyang sabi.

"Ay shit",nasabi ko when I saw the time.

I'm gonna bring Davin with me today cause she has somewhere else to go, somewhere na ayaw niyang sabihin,pero kampante naman ako kasi tita Det's coming with her. Baka magbobonding.

"Minumura mo na ako". Inis niyang sabi.

"No! Oh I'm sorry my love,yes  coming na". Tinakbo ko agad ang kotse at pinahaharorot paalis ng Bahay.

Damn! Hindi ko dapat iniinis ang asawa ko.

Natigilan naman dahil sa naisip, asawa ko.

Soon!

Tsk,nakakatanggal talaga ng anggas kapag kinilig ka sa sarili mong naisip. Naiiling akong habang nagdadrive at agad akong lumabas ng kotse,and I went inside De Leon's mansion.

" Hey! Sorry I'm late". Nakabusangot na si Bea ang bumungad sakin,I kissed her head and went to Davin who's wearing a cute shirt and jagger.

As expected Bea didn't gave me some of her attention,she just enumerate the stuffs I shouldn't forget while Davin's with me. Hanggang sa umalis sila at late na daw. I sigh and took Davin with me.

"Hey bud,are you excited to see Daddy's school?". I asked Davin, he's sitting at the back on a baby chair.

"Hmm". Sagot naman niya while looking outside.

Tumango ako.

"Be a good boy later okay?".

"K". He replied .

When we arrive at the school,agad kong kinuha ang bag ko,at maliit na bag ni Davin na puno ng essentials niya.

"Ravena! Late again?". Bungad ng galit na galit naming coach.

Naiyuko ko ang ulo,our coach right now is an international coach who handle those who play out of the country. Malapit nang magsimula ulit ang European League so we're training na.

"And you brought a kid?". Napalunok ako.

"He's my son sir". I correct him

"Hmm your son? But you know that this training is very important Ravena,the league is just one month away and you're not minding it?". Bulyaw niya but I can't fight,not in front of my son.

"I'm sorry sir but my girlfriend has something to do and no one's gonna look after my son so I had to bring him with me today". Rason ko,umiling lang si Couch at sinensyasan akong pumasok na .

"Bud,please be a good boy,no running just stay here okay?". I talked to Davin,he just nod.

And so I run to the court. Pero di pa ako nag-iisang minutong naglalaro ay nakita kong tumatakbo na si Davin at natatakot akong madapa kaya umalis muna ako sa laro.

Napagalitan ako ulit pero hindi ko na ininda, pero hindi talaga ako makapag-focus  I kept on checking Davin,kaya laging nagagalit si Coach.

"Ravena,what is it?".

"RAVENA FOCUS!".

"RAVENA PASS THE BALL!".

"RAVENA!".

"RAVENA!".

Buong training akong pinagalitan dahil sa paulit-ulit kong foul at minsan di ako nakakashot,Wala sa laro ang focus ko kundi naka'y Davin,hindi na siya nakikinig at tumatakbo na sa loob mg court causing everyone to adjust dahil baka mabunggo siya. I sigh

Coach call a break.

"You know what Ravena?,quit basketball and just be a father". Si Coach at agad na nagwalk out hindi ko alam kung gaano katindi ang kahihiyang naramdaman ko.

Tinapik isa-isa ng mga teammates ko ang balikat ko at nagsimula ng masipag-alisan dahil nga wala ng training. I sighed.

"Bat mo ba kasi dinala?". Si manong habang kandong na si Davin na puro pawis ang mukha.

"Off ang nanny at may pinuntahan si Bea". Matamlay kong sagot.

Tumango lang siya pero alam kong mas gusto ni manong na umiling.

Sobra akong nahihiya sa mga kasama ko dahil sa inconvenience.

A/N: Hi Thirds,di ka nag-iisa sa feeling na yan,sarap nalang maging paru-paru noh?Kapagod eh, don't worry next chap gagawin na kitang pagong :-)