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 UPDATE 16.12.2021: Hello everyone! I have not been active on wattpad for the last few years, I am not sure if I will continue writing fanfiction. I love your words and I love how much you admire my story! THANK YOU ALL I CAN'T REPLY TO ALL OF THEM, BUT THANK YOU EACH AND EVERY ONE OFY YOU <3

I don't know if you've heard One Day In December, it's a novel written by Josie Silver. Check it out! When  I first read it I had a HUGE crush on Jaehyun LOL, so I used to imagine that he was the male protagonist and I was drooling all over the pages. I wish you all a happy and healthy new year! And possibly I will emerge from the downfall I had taken due to the freaking coronavirus and come up with new Jaehyun stories. Is there any other K-POP artist or actor/actress you'd want me to write about? Bring the fire back on loveliez <3

Spring had passed by so quick, welcoming Summer's warm breezes that couldn't embrace my cold heart. It was broken into trillions of pieces. I hadn't talked to Jaehyun for months. He was constantly calling Irene. He was serenading words and cries outside my window. But, I didn't dare to look at him. Eventually, he stopped. He never showed up again.

  After the abortion, I had told him I needed a break. Not from him. But, for myself. I was in a grand shock, not knowing what suddenly had changed my life so much. I loved him. I freaking missed him, but I wanted time. I had cancelled our wedding, our baby thoughts. Everything. I had changed, I wanted to figure out who I was.  One day in December though, everything I had tried to fix were torn apart. I was at Starbucks. I had encountered with him, wearing his hoodie. His red one. My favourite one. He was holding a girl's hand. Another girl's hand. I ran away, in hope he hadn't seen me. Instantly, I regretted never talking to him again. I regretted for not explaining to him. I hated myself for making such a big mistake.

  I had decided to go abroad.

I'm going to miss you. Irene cried, as she along with Mark were telling me goodbye. He still didn't know about Yuta. But, she had got pregnant again bringing to life two beautiful girls. I'll be visiting you. Don't worry! I'll miss you too! I hugged her tightly. I waved goodbye at them, while I was waiting at the security queue. I was leaving my country and no one knew I was leaving for good. I was making again the same mistake, not telling anyone why. I was stupid, but couldn't defend myself another way. I wanted to start fresh. Away from Jaehyun.

  One year had passed and I had settled quite well in Vienna. The weather was cold in December, but the fête aura was making me happy. I was supposed to meet my friends from University, as I had asked to be transfered in the Austrian department. I missed Irene, Mark and Yuta but I was finally making a decision for myself. I was feeling thoroughly new. I waved at Nicholas. He was a good friend of mine. We had set our meet up outside the restaurant, we had made a reservation and we were the firsts to arrive. Hello, Y/N ! He smiled and gave me a kiss on the cheek. Hello, Nic. Let's go inside it's really cold. I told him. After half and hour the rest of the squad showed up. Finally, we're here. Sorry, we got stuck in traffic. Angelina said, as she hugged me. It's fine. We had some nice chit chat. Nicholas said, looking at me intimately. Angelina smiled. She had told me, he fancied me but I didn't want to believe it. I didn't like him. I couldn't give me fake hopes. I looked a the bar tender who was serving a couple. For a brief moment I thought it was someone I recognised. But, I let that thought flow away. He took a picture of her, with a camera I seemed to recognise too. I, once again, let go of that thought. But, then the couple stood up and I saw his face. It wasn't Jaehyun, though. Is everything okay, Y/N ? Nicholas asked, looking at my distracted face. Yeah, yeah. Everything's fine. Shall we order? I returned to the present, enjoying my Christmas evening.

  I was watching a TV show. The lady was talking about how we should spend our last moments of the year with the ones we love. She was damn right. I heard the doorbell and I wondered who could it be. I looked through the door hole, but there was no one. I hesitantly opened the door and looked both sides, but there was no one. My sight though fell on the floor. There was placed a paper, with a handwritten text and a small black velvet box. My hands trembled as I took both in my hands. I unfolded the paper, reading slowly the words.

  I can not stand another year apart from you. I miss you. Please, meet me at the center.

                                       Jaehyun

Tears escaped my eyes as I read his name. He couldn't be here.

PS: Don't open the box

I got dressed and headed to the centre. The Christmas lights were shimmering in the cold night. The snow was lightly falling, giving me chills. I was nervous. At any time soon I would meet him. I looked around, but no figure was Jaehyun. I sat on a bench, waiting for him to find me. I closed my eyes and started crying. They were tears of relief. Relief for he hadn't forgotten me. But, he was nowhere to be seen. I gave up waiting on him. I stood up and then my eyes met his. He was standing some metres away from me. Gazing at me. Snow was getting in our way. I wanted to hug him. I wanted his embrace to warm my heart. I let my tears fall, as I wrapped my body around his. He grabbed me tightly. We stood silent. After a minute or so, he spoke. Why did you do that, Y/N ? His watery eyes met mine. I don't know. I cried out. Why did you break my heart? I didn't mean to. I answered him, feeling embarrassed. Not having enough time to explain everything. I can't live without you, baby. He whispered, his lips a few inches away from mine. His soft breathing let shivers ran down my spine. I held him tighter, trying to capture that moment forever in my mind. Don't do that again, Y/N. He whispered on my lips and locked them with his. I had missed that perfect feeling of our lips aligning. He caressed my cheeks, deepening the kiss. Trying to fill in the gaps of the time we had missed. Instantly, I realised I was myself when I was with him.

   We walked to my apartment, holding hands like long ago. He was so handsome. So happily handsome. I welcomed him in. Make yourself at home. I told him, as I took both of our coats. What would you like to eat? I asked him, as he was relaxing his body on the couch. He smiled and kissed me. Then, I remembered of the box. Oh, wait a sec. I said and headed quickly to my room. I had left the velvet box on the night stand. He was at that moment standing behind me. He wrapped his hands around my waist. What made you think I wouldn't open it? I asked, playfully. Cause, I knew you wanted me to open it while proposing to you. He said, making my heart jump. I turned around to face him and kissed him passionately. Marry me, Y/N. He said, heavily breathing. I will Jaehyun. I said, removing his shirt. He started unbuttoning my blouse, laying me slowly on the bed. It was an intimate first moment, after such a long time. His hands made their way onto my body. That touch I was longingly lusting. I love you. Let me fix everything. He said, kissing my lips. I love you. He repeated. He stood silent, looking at me. What is it? I asked, giggling. After a pause of silence, he spoke. I will make love to you, like the first time.

THE END