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  On Monday, I woke up with a strong headache and two wide circles under my eyes. I found it hard to sleep after I exchanged the messages with Jaehyun, cause I was afraid. I was scared as fuck, that in any minute he would enter my room and...do bad things. I got ready for school and headed downstairs to gety lunch. Unfortunately my dad and his friend were already in the kitchen having their breakfast. Good morning, sweetie. My dad said, as I walked in hesitantly. I didn't dare to look neither Mr Clarke nor my father in the eyes. Good morning. I mumbled undery breath and quickly left.

  Y/N ! Did you do math? Like, seriously if the teacher catches me again without done homework, I'm screwed! Yuta cried out, trying to catch my pace while I headed to my class. Yes, I've done it. I'll see you in break. Y/N, is everything alright? You look damn bad. He said, grabbing my arm. I'm fine Yuta. I just didmt sleep well. See you later. I let go of his hand and entered the biology lab.

  I arrived at home, indecisive about going in. What if he's waiting for me? Though, my father's car wasn't there, there were still chances he'd left him alone at home. I unlocked the door and looked around the living room, being as silent as possible to catch any moves or voices. After a couple of minutes of arguing with my 6 year old self for being such a coward I closed the door and quickly headed upstairs to my room. I guess, I'd never ran up the stairs in such a fast pace before. Even a burglar wouldn't have scared me so much. But, was I a coward or was the situation really serious? I lied in bed, relaxing my nerves after that long day. Instantly, my body froze when I heard water flashing in the guest room's WC. SHIT. I held my breath, even my body hair stood frozen waiting for the unknown person downstairs to proceed to his next move. Does he know I'm in the house? OF COURSE, he does. I unlocked the door and my footsteps made it obvious enough. Shut. UP. I wanted to cry, I wanted Jaehyun to save the day. Jaehyun...

  Thankfully, even though I spent most of the day trapped in my room, hearing that bastard masturbating and invading in our kitchen, my parents arrived and I felt a little less helpless. I played it sick and asked for my mother to bring me food in my room. Should I tell her? But, clearly I did not have any evidence from the past 12 years and more over no one would believe me.

Hey baby ❤️ - Jaehyun

Heyy. How are you? I miss youuuSent

I miss you too baby. Do you want to go for a coffee? - Jaehyun

Yesss❤️❤️❤️❤️ Sent

Tell me when you're ready to pick you up - Jaehyun

I an right now ❤️❤️ Sent

  We went to Starbucks for coffee and later on we took a promenade around the park. Are you okay? He asked. Shit, was I too obvious? Yeah, why? You look...worried? As if something's bothering you. He added, holding me onto his embrace. I wanted to tell him, but still I hadn't proof. I guess I'm tired. That's all. I lied, enjoying his warmth which madee feel safe. Do you want to come over? He proposed. I'd love to, but my parents won't let me. I'm sorry. But, I'm staying over on the weekend for sure. I said, giving him a kiss. Don't worry. He said, caressing my back. His hands lowering now caressing my buttcheeks. I got a panic attack. I was psychologically unstable. I fainted.

  I opened my eyes, finding myself at Jaehyun's apartement. He came out of the kitchen, holding a cup. You're awake. Thank God. I got so worried. I didn't know what to do. If I took you back home your parents would kill me. He said, nervously holding my hand. What happened? I asked, moving my body upwards. You had a panic attack from nowhere. Are you sure you're okay? I couldn't hold my tears anymore. I buried my face in his chest, trying to gain that safety I longed for. Y/N, what's wrong? Please, tell me. He said, his hands comforting my body. If I tell you, will you promise to believe me? I said, in between my sobbing. He nodded, his eyes stuck on mine. His thumbnail caressed my face, wiping away the tears that wouldn't stop streaming down. Please, don't cry. His voice cracked and my heart did too. So, I told him. And he believed me. He said that because I was so young, it controls now my attitude towards men. It was a shock, buried in me for 12 years. But, when we...had this...intimate moment...last time... You didn't seem to get anxious... He added, making me blush and giggle at his shyness. I guess, you made me feel safe. I hadn't even remembered this guy. He suddenly appeared back in my life. I sighed, looking at him. You're safe. He whispered, giving me a kiss on the forehead. I need to go home, though. I can't leave you with him. He pointed out angrily, not letting me stand up. Relax, I've got my parents. Don't worry, if anything happens I'll let you know. Could you drive me home? Of course, I will! He said, feeling unsure and scared about leaving me unsafe.

  The time was twenty to three and I wasn't sleeping. I couldn't sleep. You get that feeling after a nightmare, that you still feel you're in the nightmare? That's me, right now.