Chapter 13 - Can You Feel My Heart..?

Warning - Sad, angsty, & death

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Still Seven Months In -

That night was nearly peaceful, although not calm like lately.

Black Hat moved those blankets aside, and he gets into bed with her now, then he pulled them halfway over on their bodies again.

"Black Hat?" Rachel said, quietly. This room was dark and so is him, after all. She opened her green eyes. She stared at him, as she turned around.

"Yeah, it's me. I'm here, don't worry. You should try to get some rest, you need sleep."

"I know."

Her breathing sounded quiet yet uneven and painful. Although, Rachel still kept a smile for him.

Black Hat didn't like seeing her this way.

Rachel closed her eyes again, and even though he is cold, she still nuzzled against him. She stayed there, close to Black Hat.

Black Hat watched Rachel, letting her sleep.

Rachel breathed silently, slept almost peacefully and dreamed quietly, calmly. With him there.

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Now Nine Months In, through her pregnancy -

It was a struggle to even get undressed now. She puts all of her clothes into a bin.

Rachel didn't want to look at herself in the mirror, not anymore anyway.

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Rachel took a shower, in the natural way of kneeling down and sitting slightly.

After a little bit longer, then she gets in the bath, slowly crawled in.

She let the tub fill with her in it.

It was filled with warm water. Until she realized something and remembered it. That hot water can hurt a baby, so she turned it and lets cold water in, instead.

Now she was freezing slightly, but at least, the baby will be alright.

Rachel touched her stomach, gently, with her hand. She smiled softly. "It's okay now, mommy's here."

She ignored what she was really feeling. Which was that her body was aching, bones hurting very much and her throat was strangely sore.

Although, she didn't mind all of this. This feeling was all worth it, if it meant their child was okay.

Rachel hummed, in a soft tone of voice again, almost like a calming melody. She resisted the urge to cough.

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Black Hat was outside the door, in their room. He noticed that Rachel wasn't on the bed, which got him concerned.

Then, he heard her softened voice, mixed in with Rachel's quiet breathing.

He goes into the bathroom, where it was coming from. He shut that door behind him. He gazed over at her, walking to Rachel.

"Rachel, why didn't you tell me that you wanted to take a bath, I would've helped you in."

"Now you know me, Black Hat, I didn't want to worry you or seem helpless.."

"You're not, in fact you are one of the strongest human women I've met, come to know." Black Hat said to her, as he kneeled down beside the bath.

Rachel smiled at him, especially at hearing this. "Aww, thanks, that's one of the sweetest things you've said to me."

"It's also the truth I've just told you." Black Hat replied at that.

Rachel kept her smile.

Black Hat stared at her. He knew that she was in pain, he could sense it from Rachel. He didn't want her to experience this.

That and because usually the human doesn't survive it, this always happens. Which is why demons don't reproduce, there's no need to, and especially with a human mate.

But Rachel was insistence on it, that they have this child together, partly for an heir to the company Black Hat worked so hard to build.

He was snapped out of his thoughts, when he was reaching down and putting his clawed hand into the water. It was..

"Why is it so cold in here? You're probably freezing, Rachel.."

Rachel just still had that smile of hers. "It's simple really, because it reminds me of you." She meant that, she really loved Black Hat's cold skin, maybe as much as him. "..also our baby, this child loves it. So why not?"

Black Hat snaps as he heard that.

"Because you're human! You could die from freezing to death! From hyperthermia! It doesn't take a genius to figure that out!" he yells out.

Rachel doesn't flinch, being used to Black Hat's loud voice, especially with how dark and low it is. Even deep. It didn't scare her anymore.

Before she could say anything, this eldritch demon had grabbed her and lifted Rachel out of there, not caring about the cold water getting all over his suit.

Black Hat was careful not to hurt Rachel though, with her body the way it is now, because of that inhuman pregnancy.

Rachel was shocked at that, honestly, her eyes widened slightly. Her voice got a little bit better as she talked. "..Black Hat, d-darling, what are you doing..?"

"You're not dying from the cold, it's bad enough that a cold being is holding you right now."

Rachel had a smile again. "I don't mind it.."

Black Hat knew that about her, but he still shaked his head. He wrapped Rachel in a towel, then with a silky robe. To get her warmer.

After that, he carried Rachel into the room. He puts her down on the bed, carefully. Then, he pulled a blanket over Rachel. "There, that's better, isn't it?"

Rachel appreciated that he cared. She keeps that slight smile, nodding to what was said.

Black Hat sighed in relief. He stays there, refusing to leave her side. So he sat down on the couch nearby. "You should rest now, get some sleep, if you can."

Rachel decided to listen to him. She nods her head again, slowly now, already feeling exhausted. She closed her eyes, falling asleep a bit peacefully, thankfully.

Black Hat breathed softly and quietly, he hoped that she would stay like this. He was closing his eye himself, thinking again now.

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Black Hat was snapping out of these thoughts and opening his eyes, a few hours later, when he heard pained breaths.

It came from Rachel..

He rushed over now, staying there by her side.

Rachel opens her dark green eyes, gazing at him. She felt something, it was very painful.

She feels soaked down there too.

Her eyes got wide, realizing what it was from a book that she had read. She was in labor.. fucking hell.

Rachel was trying not to scream or yell out. Because it was so excruciating. Pain-filled.

She bit her lower lip, almost to the point of bleeding. She knew that she was bloody down there as well. She nearly arched her back, although she kept her body grounded on the bed. She wanted to keep it all to herself, a secret that she was in labor and that the baby was coming, from Black Hat.

But now it was already too late..

Black Hat knows what's happening, sensing it.

He snapped again and ripped the blanket off, opening that silk robe, also this towel.

So that Rachel's pale skinned body was exposed. Her white skin littered with black veins. It was probably frightening, scary to her..she was most likely afraid. Although, it was like that when they first made love. Rachel had welcomed the feeling of his cold skin on her warm body. His dark skinned body over hers..since she loved him and still does.

Black Hat was snapping out of it. Out of these thoughts and his thinking.

He yelled as he was lifting his sharp claws backwards, ready to strike down and kill what was causing Rachel so much pain, suffering.. He can't stand it any longer. No more..! He hesitated though, what if he hurt Rachel? Or even killed her? He was having a battle in his faded mind.

Until he noticed what Rachel was doing.

Rachel reached out and touched his claws with her soft hands. She pulled it down, holding that clawed hand, close to her.

"..it's okay, Black Hat, darling. Relax, everything is alright." she whispered and comforted him..

Just like she did when he actually hurt her once during sex, even before then, she was still human. Her body was so pale and fragile more now..

Black Hat holds her hands, with own clawed ones, careful and gentle as he could.

His stare was still on her, again.

He knew that she wouldn't be able to give birth, especially with her legs, or even in between them.

A thought crossed his mind, he should maybe get Dr. Flug, that human guy wasn't a real doctor. Although he could probably..

Black Hat stared into Rachel's beautiful dark green eyes, silently. He almost cried, if he was being honest. He leaned down, putting his forehead against hers. His own crimson red eyes, especially the visible one, had a dark and fade look.

He stayed there, closer to Rachel. He listened to her as she talked in a whispering, soft and quiet voice. It's nice, even if he is filled with a dreadful feeling, while he was worried.

It was because of her, Rachel, that he was different. Still a demon, but having nearly sympathetic feelings.

Rachel taught him emotions. Love, affection, sadness. Even worry and concern for her, cause of this. It was almost like his undead heart would beat once more.

Black Hat wanted everything to be okay, for what Rachel said to be the truth. But it wasn't. Rachel was dying and there was nothing that he could do about it.

It really hurts, like he was in pain himself. Like he should be, supposed to. Part of this was his fault, after all. He didn't want it. Even if the baby died, Rachel still wouldn't survive ethier. She was gonna die..

'No..' Black Hat already felt tears in his eyes. He was still staring at her, as he noticed Rachel's pale skin and those black veins, which surrounded Rachel's body. Mostly at her neck. All of them, this virus and disease caused by what was living inside her, it was getting worse.

It was almost breaking his undead heart, seeing Rachel like this. His cold being shattered, breath dropped so low.

Black Hat didn't want to lose her, not Rachel. Damnit, why did he have to fall in love with a human? He was gonna lose his lover and soulmate (he knew that she thought the same way about him). He knows it's too late..

He was crying, quietly.

Rachel saw that. She had stayed silent was he was thinking. Strangely enough, it calmed her down and lessen that pain. Especially being close to him. She smiled, sadly and softly.

"..my love, Cyrus." She was touching his face with both of her hands as she is talking again.

Black Hat looked at her. She hasn't said that name in a long time. He had told her, awhile ago, it was his actual name. From when he was once human. "Yeah, what is it..?"

"..the baby..is dying, with me. Save it and raise our child."

"I-I can't, Rachel, please don't leave me."

"You know that I'm not gonna survive..I am gonna die, fate can't be changed. I'm going to miss you. I love you, Black Hat." Rachel cried silently, staring at him now.

Black Hat feels it as his own tears also fall down. He nodded at that and agreed with her last request of him. He was leaning over again, kissing Rachel's lips for the final time, carefully too. His eyes stay locked with hers. Those green shaded sapphires, which he truly loved, as much as her. "I love you too, Rachel.."

He finally said it..

After saying that, he shuts his eyes (especially the darkened crimson red one covered and hiding behind his monocle).

Rachel was arching her body at that pain, although she knows it'll be over soon enough. She had a slight smile, with sadness, but her heartbeat was calm.

These black veins surrounded her eyes now, which turned that white part into pure black, with those eyes of hers still being green. It made her look like a demon, even if she wasn't.

She closed her eyes for the last time, humming softly again it seemed.

Black Hat stabbed Rachel with his claws, cutting her open now.

'Don't think about it..' he thought, to himself again.

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Black Hat held their crying child in his arms. It's a girl. He looked down at his hands, blood covering them, which belonged to Rachel.. He said that he would never hurt her after that first and last time, but now he's killed Rachel, his love..

He cries, in a quiet way again. It fading out as he couldn't hear anyway anymore.

Why her..?

'..goodbye, Rachel, my love...'

Black Hat snaps out of it, remembering what she said to him, all of that from her soft voice.

He gazed over at Rachel's lifeless body.

It still was pale and probably cold now, to the touch. Her eyes are closed. She looks at peace now.

Black Hat hoped that she was, in heaven or some place nice.

He stopped thinking, holding his daughter closer to him.

"Shh.." he repeated Rachel's calming words. "It's okay, everything will be alright." He even hummed softly, like she would.

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Years later -

Their child was five now. Black Hat gave her a lovely name, with her mother's being her middle one.

Darla Lilith Rachel Hat.

She was the perfect image of her mother, Rachel, except her eyes were shaded like her father's. A crimson red tint. Although, strangely enough, when using her demonic abilities - she had green eyes like her mother's as well.

Black Hat didn't mind that, it fact he loved this about her.

He stares over at Rachel's grave in the backyard.

Before his eye returned to his daughter. When he got sight of her, that eldritch demon smiled a bit, in a softened way again. Like Rachel once did. He walked over to her now.

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Longest chapter I've written in awhile xD Reason why the aches and pains were so slightly detailed is because I was sick while I wrote it. I couldn't stop myself and spent over two hours writing this xD So I hope you all loved/enjoyed reading it. Also, sorry I almost cried myself, I told all of you in the tags that it was gonna have a sad ending.

I thought that since my last fanfic, had Black Hat's lover living after a demonic pregnancy with a happy ending. That this Fanfiction would be the opposite/reverse of it. & I came up with all the scenes for her suffering not only from me being sick as it was written, but they were based off two scenes. From the tv show, 'Angel', with Darla (I also loved her name, so I used it for their child, I know that it's long but it is slightly beautiful when you say it out loud 💜) and the movie 'Twilight' with Bella [especially with her body, plus bones being fragile]. (I know some of you are gonna probably dislike me, since that movie is mostly hated by others, but oh well xDD)