Prologue

Hi! Welcome to my story.

I am Kim Seokjin, nineteen years old, living in Busan with my grandparents. My parents were dead in a car crash when I was in kindergarten, and my grandparents took care of me.

I was not a troublesome kid. I was a good good grandson to my grandparents, and helped them in running a small restaurant. I was bullied everywhere, but I never revealed it to my grandparents.

One thing that helped me in my difficult times was listening to songs. To be exact, listening to BTS songs. I became an army, in the year 2014 and still I am. I listened to them whenever I felt down, giving up on my life and cried by just listening to their angelic voices.

My bias, bias wrecker, crush, love, everything was the golden maknae, Jeon Jungkook. Though he was elder than me, I found myself falling for him more every day.

I never had a chance to attend a concert, fan meeting or anything because of financial crisis. Life was going smooth, and I attended a small high school nearby my house.

Oh! did I say that, I am deaf?

Yeah, well. Life sucks, isn't it?

It all happened two years back.

I was not a born deaf.

I was in my home watching my favorite idol group, BTS, my love Jungkook was performing Euphoria in an angel dress. When I heard his high note, suddenly my ears made ringing, and hissing sounds, making me pass out.

When I regained my consciousness, I felt nothing, heard nothing. I looked carefully at my grandparents lips moving, but no sound came out. At first I thought they were joking around, but they were not.

After several tests and x-rays, they confirmed that I was diagnosed with Otosclerosis.(Irreversible sensorineural hearing loss). Some medical term which I couldn't even spell.

Doctors had no idea of how it affected, but they came to a conclusion that it passed through my genes. Apparently, after researching through my family tree, I found out that my great grandfather had suffered from this.

To my luck, only few people were impaired with one ear. But I was impaired with two ears.

I thought using hearing aids would solve my problem. Hearing aids was for people who had mild hearing loss, and it was not for me. People who were profoundly deaf can hear nothing at all and should find themselves totally reliant on lip-reading. And I belonged to the latter group.

That sums up how I was gone deaf.

I am sorry if I am speaking fast, it can't be helped. When my grandparents consulted with doctor about my speed talk, he informed them that it was natural. Since I couldn't hear myself speaking, I don't know if I am speaking fast or slow.

Do you know what hurts the most?

Though I had problems in my life, I soothed it with music but now whenever I watch my favorite k-pop group singing, all I could see was their moving lips.

I heard nothing. Their beautiful voices, the music, army's chanting, nothing.

So, I guess that's all about me.

Thank you so much for patiently reading my life story so far. I hope you don't pity me like others did. All I want was to be treated no different than others.

And I once again welcome you to read my story, about how I fell in love with my idol.

I know it would be hard to believe, but yes there was someone who saw me as a human being rather than a disabled person, someone who loved me, someone who cared for me, someone who made me love myself.

And that someone was none other than my love, Jeon Jungkook.

Let us travel together in this journey, my friend.