Chapter 40

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Days passed with Star's "moving on routine". She really created rules for her to avoid and forget her feelings for Ten.

She's been avoiding him and his gaze. Same goes with Ten, who obviously changed a little. He became quiet and less hyped unlike before where he smiled a lot. He became serious in his activities that even his co-members can't take. He's been very busy and he seems to want to be busier, probably because he doesn't want any distractions that his mind may do.

They both suffer from heart aches. They both cry at night. They are both doing their best to move on. They are both doing everything to forget each other. Now, they became strangers.

"It's already spring but your face draws winter." Seomin said beside Star who has been frowning while chewing her sandwich. They're on the practice room, taking a break.

"What's the matter?" Chahyun asked as he sat beside Star. They're only sitting on the floor while resting their backs on the room's large mirrors.

"As if she'll answer you." Seomin stated then she munched her sandwich.

"Yeah right. I've been asking the same question for several times." Chahyun agreed and drank her water from the bottle.

"Have you talked to your family?" Seomin asked. Star just looked at her and shook her head. "Do you want to?" She added and Star just shrugged.

"Seomin! Come here!" Someone from the other side of the room called Seomin, and Star didn't bother to look at that person. Seomin just stood up and went to him. The two left girls just followed her by looking at her.

They both sighed at the same time. They looked at each other and Chahyun laughed. Star just smiled timidly.

"You funny creature, you broke up with him and then you'll be like that? Aren't you happy? He's at the other room, rehearsing for their debut stage. Sooner or later, their teasers will be released. That's what you want right?"

Star stared at her for a while then smiled, "I made the right choice, right?"

"No. It's the left choice." Then Chahyun grinned. Star just raised her right eyebrow and gave Chahyun a light hit on her shoulder.

"Such a dead joke."

"Hahaha. I'm just trying to make you smile."

"You failed, because your joke is a failure as well!" Star exclaimed.

"At least I'm still prettier than you."

Star started laughing, "Hahaha! Dream on!"

"Success! Mission to make Star smile or laugh, accomplished!" She exclaimed while raising her fists as if she won a big price.

"You still look like a stupid."

"Yah. You're so harsh!" Chahyun said while acting hurt. She even clutched her chest to show pain. She then started singing like a fool, "YOU HUUUURT ME~ So bad. So bad. YOU HUUUUUUUURT ME~" she even matched it with the choreography of EXO.

"Stop it! Hahahahaha!"

"Not until you die."

"You fool!" Star just laughed at her as she continued dancing while sitting.

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"She seems to be okay. Very okay." Ten said in his mind as he watches Star laughing with Chahyun.

He entered the practice room moments ago and he saw Star laughing and joking with Chahyun as if she doesn't have any problem. He's with the NCT U members plus Johnny, Hansol and Yuta. They all entered the room but Star haven't noticed them yet as she's busy chatting with Chahyun, plus there's a loud music that reduces the sound of the door and their voices.

Ten sat on Star's opposite side. He time by time glances at her. Yuta sat beside him with a smile, looking at the same person.

"She seems to be okay." Yuta said.

"Why not? I think she's not affected at all." Ten directly said.

Yuta sighed before speaking, "She became prettier."

Ten didn't respond so Yuta looked at him. He found him staring at Star. And when he looked at Star, she's staring back at Ten. They both wear emotionless faces.

"Ten, don't be like that. Your Yuta hyung is jealous." Yuta said matched with a pout and with a cute voice.

"You're disgusting!" He exclaimed with a low voice while looking at Yuta with disgust.

"Kidding. Hahaha! How are you anyway?"

"I'm fine." He stated as he stretched his arms and yawned.

"Ooooh. Do you know that that's the most common lie in the world?"

"What are you saying? I'm good."

"Liars go to hell, you see."

"If you'll keep on teasing me then I'll knock your face down."

"You really changed. Tsk." Yuta sighed in dismay. "How could she lie?" He asked while looking at Star who's currently practicing their dance.

"Never mention that again."

"How are you two? Have you talked?"

"There's nothing to talk about."

"Are you mad at her?"

"Yes. More than you can imagine."

"Goodness." Yuta shook his head in disbelief.

"What are you two talking about?" Taeyong asked. He sat beside Yuta.

"We're talking about what time did he sleep last night. He seems so sleepy. He keeps on yawning." Yuta said while smiling.

"Liars go to hell." Ten stated and grinned at Yuta. Yuta just smiled awkwardly.

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It's already 9 in the evening and everyone's almost on their way home. Chahyun and Seomin went home first as Star said she still needs to finish some matters in the company.

But she lied. She just want to go to her favorite place in the building. She went to the rooftop where her sweet memories live.

She smiled as she opened the door to the rooftop. She saw Ten at the back of her mind. She imagined him standing on the center, waiting for her.

She stopped when she realized something.

"Aish! Star! How will you move on if you'll keep on thinking about him?" She knocked her forehead and then walked towards the center.

She raised her hands as the wind blew against her. She let herself relax and enjoy the night sky, the city lights, the wind and the always twinkling stars.

She looked up and watched the stars shine, but she then felt gloomy. She used to watch them with Ten. Ten used to hug her under the moonlight.

She forced a smile and spoke with a low voice, "He will be one of you now. He will be a successful idol. He will be able to reach you, without any hindrances. He's free to move, and free to touch you one by one."

She felt her tears forming on her eyes, "And when the time comes that he's already with you, please make sure he will be happy. I will always be here, looking up to him, caring for him secretly, and supporting him. Even if I need to hide or conceal myself in the crowd just to make sure I won't be a distraction, I will." Her tears suddenly fell.

"I hope he'll be happy with the love he'll receive by many fans. I hope he'll be very happy doing what he want, reaching his dreams and following his heart's desire. Please, let him be happy. If my happiness shall be sacrificed for his happiness, then I'll do it."

She closed her eyes and wiped her tears.

"I'm supposed to be forgetting him. But as much as I wanted to, I still can't." She laughed at herself. "Ugh, such a stupidity of mine."

"How could you say you don't love him?"

Star got surprised by the voice that she suddenly heard. She looked at her back and saw Yuta. He's wearing a gray shirt.

"How long have you been in there?"

"I followed you."

Star gasped and covered her mouth, "Did you hear it all?"

He smirked and nodded, and Star almost went hysterical.

"Oh my goodness! How could you! Urgh!" She started hitting Yuta's arms with her hands.

"Ouch. Stop! Star! Aw!"

"You're really naughty! My goodness!"

"Just please--ouch--stop first!"

Star stopped and glared at him.

"Do you know how you just broke my moment?" Star asked with a loud voice.

"Do you know how you just broke Ten's heart?" Yuta fired back.

Star hissed and then tied her hair that has been blown by the wind.

"Why did you do that?" He asked.

"Can't you see the picture? You heard everything, right? Can't you understand?"

"Blah blah blah. Star let go of Ten for his career's sake. Wow. A drama-worthy story." Then Yuta clapped.

Star rolled her eyes, "You're such a..." she was stopped when Yuta butted in.

"I know. Hahaha!"

Star heaved a sigh then became serious, "Please, don't tell Ten about this."

"Why can't I?"

"You really don't have a common sense, right?"

Yuta hissed, "Heck. I UNDERSTAND! Tsk." He crossed his arms and smiled like the way he used to, "I was about to scold you for breaking my friend's heart, that's why I followed you. But now I got your side, I think I understand it now."

"And if I didn't reject you, you will be like Ten." Star said comfortably.

Yuta laughed, "Actually I prepared a fiest when I heard that you two broke up."

Star's eyes widened in dismay, "How could you---"

"But I was joking just now. Hahahaha!"

"You're too much!" Star exclaimed.

"How are you?" Yuta asked with a sincere tone.

Star smiled, "So far, doing good." She paused for a while, "How's Ten?"

Yuta smiled, "He's doing the same. He just became more serious. My jokes aren't working anymore. Thanks to you!" He said sarcastically.

"You're welcome." She jokingly said.

"Aish. This kid..." He murmured.

She giggled but then composed herself and became serious, "I know he'll be well soon. He will forget me soon."

"He can't. He's having a hard time to sleep at night. He always wants to see you but he'll insist that he's mad. Tch."

"Right. Even I cannot. Maybe because we know that we're on the same place and there are always chances to see each other, even to stare at one's face. I actually do that. That's why it's hard to move on."

"Same goes with him."

Star sighed and nodded, "I think it's time to go."

"Yeah, it's already late at night. Let's go."

"No. I mean, I think it's better if I will leave."

"What?"

Star lowered her head, "I'm planning to leave the company."

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A/N: Blue Entertainment is just a fictional company, okay? 😂