Chapter 36

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"Star!" Yuta immediately ran towards Star who's currently laying on the ground.

He placed her head on his arms and shook her to wake her up, "Star! Can you hear me? Star!"

Her eyes were open but she's not responding. She lost her consciousness and eventhough her eyes were open, she's in a deep sleep.

"Star, wake up!" He's wiping the raindrops that drop on Star's face. He looked around to look for a shed and when he's about to carry her, she finally woke up.

"Uhh..." she groaned as she felt her right elbow in pain due to a wound from what happened earlier. She blinked and blinked and looked at Yuta. She stood with Yuta's support. "What happened?" She asked.

"You collapsed." Yuta said.

She held her head and tried to remember everything. And when she remembered that she's lost, she looked at Yuta and hugged him while jumping in gratefulness. "Omo! Finally! Someone who can save me!"

"Yah, calm down..." Yuta said while laughing as he pulled out from her hug. "Why are you here alone?" He asked as if he didn't know the reason.

She lowered her head before she spoke, "Just some... matters."

Yuta sighed, "I worried a lot." She didn't speak so he continued, "This reached Sejoon hyung and the other staffs. They're searching for you and I ditched our training to help." He held her wrist and pulled her to a shed.

Star looked up to him with a sorry expression. "I'm sorry for causing a trouble."

"And didn't you think that Ten would worry a lot?"

Star's eyes widened, "W-what do you mean?" She thought that Yuta may know what's in between them already but she still hopes that he have no idea at all.

"What do I mean? You're boyfriend might be going crazy somewhere searching for you!"

Star's jaw dropped, "You know? Did he tell you?"

Yuta frowned, "No. I just confirmed it just right now."

"Eh?" Star looked confused now.

"I only had a hunch until now. Now that I heard it from you, confirmed, you really are dating."

Star covered her mouth in shock. "I was caught!" She said in her mind.

Yuta showed a goofy smile, "I just tried to say that he's your boyfriend but seeing your expression plus you didn't deny, I know now that my hunch was right."

"Why are you smiling?" Star asked with a knotted forehead.

"Huh? Why? Should I frown?"

"You're smiling yet your eyes don't show happiness. And knowing you, I know you can't smile in this situation. Yuta oppa, you don't have to be like this."

Yuta's expression became serious, "It's because of him right? That's why you refused to accept my feelings?"

"Not just because of him," She answered abruptly. "It's because I don't want to cause another trouble. Yes, we are dating despite the contract we signed. Despite the consequences. We didn't care about those as long as we followed our heart and we're happy together. We didn't think of anything else. And that's what I regret now."

"What do you mean?"

"I stayed on the streets, alone and lost. While wandering around, I'm thinking of everything. I must've thought of these from the very start. Yuta, I just realized, your performance in Bangkok will be the sign of a new era. I guess you'll be debuting already as NCT." She paused for a while before she continued, "I know the perks of being an idol. Paparazzis, fans, image, dignity, and such. It won't be good for us to stay like this. Dating behind the camera, telling lies, hiding and hiding until the no dating contract ends. It's not easy. He will be busy, and I'm busy with my studies and training. He will be an artist and after years I will be an artist too, if I will be given a chance. We have to wait for so long. We may say that we want to stay like this until the end, but we can't guarantee the future..."

"Stop." Yuta suddenly stopped her.

"Why?"

"Are you breaking up with him?"

She felt a pinch on her heart hearing the summary of what she is saying, "I..." she wanted to, but of course her heart stops her. But it's something she has to do. "I am going to." She bit her lips to stop herself from crying. She felt her warm tears forming on her eyelids. She lowered her head, "I have to. For the sake of us."

"If you're stopping yourself to cry," he paused for a while. Star looked at him and waited for his next words, "Well he's already crying." Then he looked at the person behind Star.

Star turned her back and she was shocked to see Ten with tears on his cheeks but he still managed to stop his self from sobbing. He maintained an expressionless face but his tears still managed to come out from his tired eyes. He's also wet because of the rain.

"T-Ten..."

Ten heaved a sigh and walked towards her, "Why are we always sharing the same thoughts?"

She looked intently to his eyes, "What do you mean?"

Ten hugged her tight, "I'm so worried." He whispered and secretly wiped his tears.

Star hugged him back, "I'm so sorry." She sobbed silently while burying her face on his shoulder.

"We have to talk. But not here." Ten said in a low voice.

She nodded, still hugging him, "What about?"

"About what you've just said a few moments ago."

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I'm sorry I'm very busy. And I'm losing motivations. I still don't know if this story is going well. I hate this feeling. :'( I've been staring at the 'unpublish' button at first before I typed this. But I managed to continue it. Huhuhu.

NCT 127 IS COMING... 😍