Chapter 12 - Where did you go?

[Jimin POV]

I woke up feeling a piece of me missing. Or rather...a missing bunny.

"GUYS HAVE YOU SEEN JUNGKOOK?!"

I yelled as I burst open the door to his room.

Jin hyung, who had just woken up, looked at me with a what-the-hell-do-you-mean look and right then— I knew I was in deep shit.

"What? Wasn't he with you?"

I nodded, then hastily replied, "I woke up and he was gone."

I managed to catch a glimpse of his eyes widening in apprehension before he bolted back to his room and back out with his phone, dialling Jungkook's number.

A couple seconds passed and we heard a soft buzzing sound from the room behind me. I turned around and re-entered Jungkook's room.

"F*ck."

Jin hyung followed behind me as I picked up the buzzing phone...

"J-jungkook left his phone here.."

Jin hyung somehow managed to stay calm and spotted a small, yellow sticky note on the headboard of the bed.

"Hey.." He called, bringing me out of my state of panic as he removed the note from the headboard.

'Going out for fresh air. Sorry if I worried you, hyung. ~ Jungkook'

We sighed in relief but soon realised that he was down with a sickness, depressed and as an idol, it was definitely not safe to be alone out there.

My mind spun into a whirlwind as I began thinking of what could happen.

Sasaengs.Cold.Hurt.Kidnapped.Abused.S-

"WAKE UP GUYS IT'S AN EMERGENCY!"

Jin hyung's shrill yet panicked voice rang in my ears, not allowing my thoughts to run any longer.

I heard footsteps and fumbling before all the members came out of their rooms one-by-one. Jin hyung motioned for them to sit on the sofa at the living room.

"Where's Jungk-" Hoseok hyung started, but Jin hyung cut him off.

"That's the thing. We don't know."

Everyone immediately went into a full blown panic as they all gaped at me, knowing I had been with him the entire night. I slid the sticky note onto the table and got everyone's attention onto it. An audible sigh could be heard behind me."He left a note..means he didn't run away. Maybe we should take the time to search through his room for anything...dangerous. He'll be back..I hope."

The leader spoke up, looking around the room at his members' worried faces.

We all nodded in agreement and stood up, heading to his room with a black trash bag. We searched, and searched, finding a lot of things.

Razor.Crowbar. Diary.

Wait. Diary?

I picked it up and looked at it in confusion. When did Jungkook ever have a diary?I looked up at the others who stared that the black journal in my hands with curiosity. We took a spot on his bed and opened the fresh, crisp pages. Is this new? It can't be...

[A/N: I know I wrote diary entries in chapter 10, but I don't wanna write the same thing again so-]

20.7.2020MondayNothing seems right.Nothing makes sense.Thoughts are clouding in my head.I can't hear anythingOther than the voices.Telling me to give up.Telling me that they hate me.Telling me that I should die.

I'm choking on the darkness that is consuming me. I can't breathe.Every passing minute I feel the walls closing in on me every so slightly, threatening to snap shut and kill me.

21.7.2020We have to wear a mask when we go out now. I'm so glad. I no longer have to fake a smile.

I trap myself in my room and I am always so overwhelmed with thoughts that I can't think anymore.

I want to talk to hyungs...ARMY...but...I can't. My fuzzed up mind won't let me.

I'm sick of this.I'm sick of crying myself to sleep.I'm sick of waking up with red and puffy eyes.I'm sick of trying to hide my emotions.

Is it normal to feel so empty?

...We were all in tears. I couldn't read anymore. I shut the book and stood up, grabbing my phone.

"Jimin where are you going?"

"To find Jungkook."

Namjoon hyung grabbed my arm, pulling me back.

"No. He could be anywhere!"

"What, so you'd rather leave him out there, ALONE?!"

Namjoon hyung hesitated, then replied.

"It's 10pm Jimin. No matter what, it's not safe out there!"

I glanced at the clock.

10.27pm

Sighing, I picked up the house keys and put on my coat. Walking down to the living room, I heard frantic footsteps behind me.

"PARK JIMIN WHAT DID I SAY?!"

I was yanked back by my hood. I whipped around.

"OUR 23 YEAR OLD, DEPRESSED AND SICK MAKNAE IS OUT THERE, FUCKING ALONE! ARE YOU NOT WORRIED?!"

Namjoon looked at me, anger burning in his eyes.

"OF COURSE I'M WORRIED! I JUST DON'T WANT TO LOSE ANOTHER...one of you.."

He lowered his voice near the end, tears welling up in his eyes.

"Hyung, I-"

"Don't go, please Jimin."

"I'm going to find him!"

"Why are you so stubborn?"

"Why don't you care?"

"I-"

Ring! Ring!

We turned to where the ringing was coming from.

"PD nim?"

Jin hyung looked at his phone in confusion as it continued to ring.

"Pick it up! It's probably important if he's calling this late at night.."

Namjoon hyung pointed to Jin hyung's phone that was lit up with "Bang Si Hyuk" with a red and green button.

With a shaking finger, Jin hyung pressed the green button with "Accept" below it.

"H-Hello? PD nim?"

"Jin..are the others there with you?"

He looked around, about to reply.

"Other than Jungkook..?"

We were shocked.

"How-How'd you know?"

Jin hyung asked, visibly shaking.

PD nim seemed to hesitate, as if he was afraid to tell us anything.

"We found him...or rather...someone found him..."

We held our breaths, not prepared for the end of the sentence.

"Jin. Look at me. Turn your camera on."PD nim commanded with a shaky voice.He clicked the camera button as we crowded around him.

The background was oddly familiar...

Bare..white walls...

Soft whispers in the background...

Looks like the-

"Are you at t-the...hospital..?!"

PD nim looked at us with sad eyes and gave us a slight smile.

He sighed.

"We found him at Han River Bridge.."

Our eyes widened. Maybe he was just taking a walk...Getting fresh air..Just like he said...

"Standing on the edge with his eyes closed..."

Chapter 12 • EndWord Count: 1103