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Matt's POV

When Joella told me about how she had been feeling towards the twins I about lost it. How can someone hate someone so tiny and innocent. Granted she didn't use those words exactly but it still made me think that's what she meant.

So I stepped away before I said something I'd regret. That's why I walked upstairs, to take a breather.

As I took a few deep breaths, my conversation with my mom, ran through my head. I could tell something was mentally wrong with Joella so a few days ago I called my mom for advice about it, I told her how she had changed regarding her infections and towards the twins. That's when she mentioned about new moms going through a depressed state of mind. So I looked more into it and some of the symptoms was exactly what I noticed Joella was experiencing.

I know she was trying to hide it all but I could still see right through it.

When I came back downstairs, her first words to me, shattered my heart. I didn't want her to leave and I definitely didn't want to leave her. So I wrapped her in a hug, and made a point to say I wasn't leaving her. That's the last thing she probably needs anyways through all of this.

Next day

Luckily there was an opening at Joella's doctor's office to get her checked out. I asked my parents to keep the twins through the day and they were happy to keep them.

But as we were there, we found out something that made time feel like it stood still. It was a word that no one wants to hear, the word cancer.

Only reason it even came to that was because along with the mental problems she's been having, she let them know how she had been feeling physically too so the doctor looked into why she was still feeling that way.

Turns out, it wasn't fully from her C-section. She had Ovarian Cancer, and they caught it at the beginning stages. So it's a good thing we came in when we did.

"We'll have to do surgery to remove the overies and make sure the cancer cells hasn't spread to your uterus or other parts of the body."

"So that means I won't be able to ever have more kids?"

"Not necessarily, if you two want more kids there's ways to still have more without the ovaries. We can freeze your eggs now and later down the road there's procedures to help you become pregnant and there's also the options of using donor eggs."

"Oh... okay." Joella nodded. "So doing this surgery, it's possible for the cancer to disappear once my ovaries are gone?"

"That's what we're hoping for, yes. We won't know for sure until during the surgery if it's spread beyond the overies or not."

I'd be content with just having the two children we have now especially if that's what she wanted. As the doctor said she'd give us a moment to think it over I took a deep breath and let it out as I rubbed my thumb on Joella's knuckles.

I looked at Joella at the same time she looked up at me.

"This fucking sucks." She sniffled, "So basically I won't be able to give you anymore kids and I'm sorry."

"Baby." I kissed her forehead then sat on the edge of the exam bed where I was facing her, "Do not be sorry. This isn't your fault." I kissed the back of her hand, "Just like with everything else, we'll get through this. This is just a bump in the road of our life. But it's nothing to stop you because you're a strong person. And I'm okay that you can't give me more kids as you put it because I have 2 beautiful ones with you already."

"You are?"

"I am, Ella I didn't marry you just for you to have my babies, I married you because I love you through thick and thin. Us having babies together is just a bonus. Hell you heard the doctor, if it comes down to it there is ways for us to have more kids, plus there's always adoption."

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They scheduled Joella's surgery for first thing in the morning so on the way home she called her parents to let them know what was happening.

She wanted to get all of our close friends together to let them know at once so I set that up while she was at the pharmacy getting her medicine.

M: Hey is everyone free for a get together at the house tonight? Sorry it's short notice but have some things to discuss with everyone.

B: Chelle and me are free, everything okay?

Z: Just have to do some things for V.U then I'm free

M: Yes and no Bri

J: Lacey and me was going to go out to dinner but we can do it another night.

B: That don't sound good, what time is the get together?

M: It's not really. Here in a couple hours feel free to head on over.

Z: cool, I should be done with the line business by then.

I looked at Joella as she got into the car, "Everyone will be over in a couple hours."

She took a deep breath as she nodded, "Good, gives us time to prepare."

"It does." I grabbed her hand and kissed the back of it, "I'm going to swing by and pick up the twins before we head home because everyone will want to see them."

"Do you think that's wise? You know when everyone gets together, there's drinking involved."

"Okay and? It's not like it used to be. We're all a lot older and we're parents now, and I'm sure they'll be bringing their kids. Plus, this isn't a normal get together where we're all hanging out, having fun. We're giving them some news about what's going on."

"Yeah, I guess you're right." She sighs.

We got to home and we decided instead of cooking we was going to just order pizza for all of us. 

And thankfully, telling everyone what was happening came out a lot smoother than we'd expect it to.