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No One's POV

"Come with me to Big bear." Brian said the next day when Joella opened the door.

"What?"

He looks up at her from his phone, "It's a place, Big Bear. Johnny had messaged me, that's where he found Matt. His family, Matt's I mean, has a cabin there and so apparently that's where Matt went to clear his head."

"I don't think that's a good idea for me to go."

"Oh come on, yes it is. You two need to work this out. This can be your chance to tell him what you told me. Obviously you two care a lot about each other. So go get ready and let's go."

"Ugh fine, let me take a shower first."

"Okay, and pack some clothes just in case."

"I can't just leave for a few days Brian."

"Sure you can, plus it's the weekend. You took over Betty's position right?" He asked and she nodded, he continued, "Okay, so that means there will be someone else there. The last few years we've been going to that studio I've never seen her on the weekends."

Which was true, Betty would work the weekdays and some intern learning the studio business would work the weekends.

After her shower she packed a small bag then they headed out.

"You'll love this place. It's fucking beautiful there. A great place to get away that's for sure."

"I know, I've been there before. My family has rented places there before. Although we haven't been in a long while though."

"Why's that?"

She shrugged slightly as she looked at her hands, "With my father busy with the studio, then with the problems I went through. The tradition just kinda stopped."

"Well now that you're with us, you should come with us when we take trips here. We try to do it at least once or twice a year. When we're not touring or recording anyways."

"How long has it been since everyone got together up here?"

He thought for a moment, "I'd say it's been since last year sometime. Up here is where we made the decision to make another album."

"Awe that's awesome."

Roughly 2 1/2 hours they finally made it to Big Bear.

"Fuck, I never realized how much of a ride that is." Joella stretched as they got out.

"Yeah it is, but it's worth it." Brian chuckled.

Once they walked in Johnny came up to them.

"Took you long enough damn. Look, Matt is upstairs laying down. He looks like shit. I think he's been drinking non-stop since he got here." He looks at Joella, "I don't know what happened between you two but he's miserable about it."

"Is that why he shut his phone off?" Brian asked.

Johnny shook his head, "His phone died, and his stupid ass forgot to bring a charger. What the hell happened anyway?"

"I'll explain later." Joella spoke softly.

Johnny nodded and told her which room he was in, "In case you want to talk to him. Please do though. I've never seen him this down before. You'd think someone murdered his dog or something."

They couldn't help but chuckle at his choice words.

Joella's POV

I decided to go check up on him despite him probably not wanting to see me. When I got into the room, it looked like he was asleep so I slowly got in bed, sitting on my knees next to him and slowly massaged his back since he was on his stomach.

"Johnny, get your fucking hands off me man." Matt grumbled into the pillow.

I smiled slightly as I leaned my head close to his, "It's not Johnny."

Yup, I could tell he had been drinking, he smelled heavily of alcohol.

With that his eyes flew open and he looked at me, "Joella? What are you doing here?"

"I'm sorry for coming, the guys said you was feeling bad and Brian brought me. I'll leave if you want me to." I started to get off the bed but he quickly rolled over and grabbed my arm.

He sat up quickly, "No don't, please don't leave -"

I cut him off with a scoff, "Like I begged you not to and you still did anyways?"

"I'm sorry okay? I'm a fucking asshole for overreacting without letting you explain. Please can we just talk? I don't want you out of my life, I shouldn't have said what I said. Can you please tell me what you wanted?"

I looked at him a moment, seeing the hurt in his eyes and nodded, then told him what I had told Brian about how I haven't touched the drug except the one relapse and me about dying from an overdose. I had also told him how I talked to someone the next day after the relapse I had with Brian and thankfully wasn't hooked again.

"Baby, I'm so sorry." He pulled me into a hug as I sniffled, "Can you please forgive me for being a jackass. I do still want you as my girl. I never meant to say that I didn't, it just came out."

"I've betrayed you so you won't want me after what I tell you." I pulled away from him. I didn't want to keep any secrets from him.

"How?" He tried pulling me to him but I didn't budge, "Ells?"

I looked up at him with tears threatening to fall again, "I uh, me and Brian we slept together, well there wasn't really any sleeping."

"Babe, I already knew that."

I shook my head, "No, you don't get it. It happened again last night. It was after he let me spill everything that I wanted to you. And he pretty much talked me into getting rid of the drug after I asked him to do it. It just kind of happened." I sighed as I looked down at my hands.

"Wow." He pursed his lips, "So you slept with my best friend again but this time while we're together."

"I know, I betrayed your trust and I'm sorry. And honestly we weren't together. You flat out said you didn't want me as your girlfriend before you left, so that means we weren't together."

He jumped up, "So that means you can just jump into another man's arms Joella? I mean fuck!" He groaned running his hands over his head then stormed out.

I brought my knees to my chest and cried after he stormed out, I realized just how fucked up I really am. I don't blame him. Maybe I deserve to be alone. Shaking my head I stood up and went to the bathroom to wash my face, maybe Johnny will take me back home.