Chapter X

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Important A/N:

Guys I'm so proud of myself. After wattpad deleted this chapter I was so mad that I had to rewrite most of it all over again, but it only took me less than 2 hours!!! Anyway this chapter is shorter than the others so I want to apologize and I also want to announce that that the res only 4-5 chapters left for this book and so I want to hear from you guys if guys have any other ideas for another book. You guys can recommend anything and I'll try my best to write about, just don't ask for anime. I also want your guys opinion over how this book should come to an end. Leave your ideas and opinions here and I'll be sure to read them. By the way I have something really special planned for the next chapter with a certain character popping up!!!Also don't forget to comment and vote.

Rey's POV:

I hated being the center of attention. I felt like an animal being watched behind a screen as eyes watched every single move I made, it was irritating. I couldn't even eat a proper meal without all the whispering following me around. I hadn't even been here for more than 2 hours and I was all ready the topic everyone talked about.

"Rey, General Organa would like to discuss the First Order's plan with you," I nodded my head in agreement before he took a hold of my hand and led me to her.

General Organa stood in the center of a crowd a men, they were all whispering as to assure no intruder would possibly know what their conversation was about.

Their conversation came to a sudden halt once our presence came to be acknowledged.

General Organa was the first to greet us with a small smile. It pained me to see how hard she attempted of keeping herself in once piece instead of breaking down in tears. I admired her already.

She steadily made her way towards us both and taking a hold of each of our hands.

"I glad to see such good friends reunited at last. " she joyful spoke. "Its a shame it has to be under these types of circumstance."

Life doesn't always go the way one hopes for.

"I'm sorry to ask Rey, but would you mind snarling your knowledge of the First Order with us. As you can see we in desperate need of any information we can get out hands on. "

I simply nodded and allowed her to guide to the center of where the rest of the men stood.

"Rey could you begin telling us what you saw," she requested.

"Not much in the beginning," I began, " I was first being held in one of their cells. I wasn't allowed to leave unless Kylo Ren ordered to have me released to train..."

"What exactly do you mean by train?," one of them interrupted.

"Snoke had Ren under strict orders to develop my abilities in hopes I'd be persuaded to join their side."

"Let's get straight to the point, how did you discover their plan to attack?" another one questioned.

"Did Kylo ever share any information with you?," another one called out."

"Were you ever able to see Snoke face to face?" questions just kept rolling in on after another.

Finn gently took a grip on my hand and squeezed as to say everything was going to be okay, to not worry.

"Gentleman, once question at a time please. The series of event this girl has gone through must have been traumatic. I beg you all to have some consideration and be more cautious of what you're asking." I mouthed a thank you and she simply returned my gratitude with a smile.

I wondered how she could smile as if the everything that's happened not longer bothered her. She seemed to be dealing with the loss of the man she loved. I admired her for her strength and I only wished I could have a portion of it.

Lie. I couldn't tell them of how Hux revealed the hundreds of ships and weapons prepared to launch an attack in any moment. They would further question me on why he did and eventually discover what had happened with Kylo. I couldn't be seen as weak in front of them.

"Kylo never shared any information with me. He normally kept his distance from me if he could," General Organa looked at me like she didn't believe a single word that came out of my mouth about her son. "I never saw Snoke, I only heard others talking about him. As for the attack, once I manipulated one of the Stormtroopers to release me from the cell, I wandered around the halls to find an escape route. I ended up in a room full of should and weapons to use for an attack. I studied every possible ship I could."

"But how do you know they're plan is to attack if all you did was see weapons and assume the worst," the same man with a nasty look spoke.

"Please let me finish," he took a step back and allowed to continue. "Uh... As I was saying, while I was searching around General Hux along with another person came into the room. I hid behind one of the walls and overheard their entire plan. I can assure you they'll be here any moment. Snoke has them on orders to tear down the Resistance and kill every single us so we become non-existing leaving them an open road to rule the galaxy without a single disturbance. They want us dead."

I was out of breath and by the look on theirs faces I could tell that worry and fear were beginning to overwhelm them.

"General Organa we're not prepared for an attack. If they have hundreds of ships like the girl says then we're nothing compared to them. We only have a maximum of 30 that are useful, the others have slight technological effects and we don't have anyone with the knowledge to repair them."

"I'll do it," I yelped.

General Organa nodded her head in agreement before continuing to plan out the rest with those who remained. She was constantly calling out orders and running out people with a list of tasks.

Finn went along with one of the mobs to help the pilots. He dragged me along before I had a chance grab a tool box and get to work. He introduced me to Poe and by the looks they gave each other I could tell they'd become good friends in the last couple of months. I was glad to see BB-8 by his side, I had missed the little guy. The three of them went off to help Poe while I went towards the back to where all the dysfunctional ships were.

To my surprise there was Chewbaca lying on the ground while looking up and fixing the bottom portion of one of them.

"Hey Chewie, " I called out.

He slid out from underneath before looking up to see me and making his way towards me. He pulled me up into a tight hug and loudly cried out.

"I missed you too buddy, now come on We don't have time for cheesy reunions we have work to do."

I tugged his hand and pulled him over to continue on with repairs.

For the next couple of hours Chewie and I worked side by side in repairing every single ship to perfection. We were really building up a sweat.

"Isn't this fun Chewie?"

He responded with a growl which I took as a yes. He stopped me halfway through my work and pointed behind me. General Organa was walking straight towards us with a stern look. Oh no, something about her expression told she was going to begin to question me about her soon and I certainly wasn't read to have that conversation yet.

"Looks good Chewie," she completed. "Rey I'd like a quick word with you."

"O-okay.." I shakily spoke I handed over my tools to Chewie before following after her to the station where we first met.

She came to a sudden halt once we finally came to a spot were only her and I remained.

"Rey, you don't have to lie about my son with me. I understand why you decided on lying before, but I need to know the truth."

I shook my head. No I couldn't do this, not now.

"Please Rey, I'm begging you. I need to know that Han's death was worth something. That there's still hope for our son. Tell me he's changed that you helped him change."

There were tears forming in the corner of her eyes and it broke me to see her so desperate for answers.

"No, there's no hope for him. He's lost." Speaking those words crushed me and I could tell it hurt hearing it as much as it hurt saying it.

"He's hurt you Rey, I can see it. You remembered who he was and you remembered the love you have for him. You love him even through all he's out you through, but you can't tell me he hasn't changed." She kept begging me for anything that might give her hope.

"I thought he changed, I really did, but it's time you realize just like I've had that your son is a monster and he'll always be one. He isn't Ben anymore."

With those last words General Organa gave me a tight hug and a sad smile before walking off and left me alone. I knew it broke her heart to hear me say it, but it was the truth. I was tired of seeing people living behind shadows and lies.

I didn't let myself cry no matter how much I wanted to break down. She was right in one thing though.

No matter how much Kylo hurt me, I still loved him. I hated myself for loving a lying and villainous person. He never cared about me. All he wanted was to convince me of joining the First Order because he needed me as a weapon. Why won't this feeling just die? I wanted to rip out my heart just so I didn't have to feel so miserable anymore.

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