Chapter III

Rey's POV:

I followed him down the long hallway until we reached a staircase and made our way to the very bottom floor. Which led us to any empty room with a very few dim lights which hung randomly around the room. Once both inside, he closed the door behind us and positioned himself across the room from me.

I took a couple of seconds to study his face, while we stood in silence. Standing this close made me notice how deep his eyebrows furrowed when he was concentrated or deep in thought. His eyes weren't as dark as you think when you look at them up close. Although his height could be intimidating, he never really used it towards his advantage.

I decided to break the silence, since it was beginning to get more awkward than usual." Are we going to do anything besides stand here all day?"

"I was just waiting for you to finish checking me out so you could concentrate on today's lesson." A similar smirk was forming again on his lips.

"I wasn't checking you out," I quickly defended.

"Oh really, than why were you staring at me?"

"I wasn't," only a few minutes with him and he was already making me lose my temper, "can we please just start with whatever you're going to teach me. The sooner we finish the better."

"Okay then let's start," He moved to the farthest corner from me before continuing, "you're clearly strong with the force already so we'll skip the basics, but you do need to learn how to protect your thoughts and feelings from others."

"Have you been on my head lately?" I questioned.

"No, but today I will be. So let me tell you how this is going to work. You'll think of something or pull a memory you'd like me to see and I'll simply search your thoughts for it and view it, but you have to try to block it away from me."

This couldn't be so hard, it would probably take me a couple tries to get the hang of it.

"Ready?" he asked.

I nodded, closed my eyes, and brought toward the memory of me having the upper hand against Kylo when we last battled. I was planning on shielding it, but I couldn't give up such a good opportunity of reminding him his defeat. I could feel him take the memory and a smile began forming on my lips.

"You're not even trying Rey." he remarked. "It wasn't even a fair fight to start off with, I was already injured plus I let you have the upper hand."

"Uh-huh, you're just to embarrassed to look weak." I scoffed.

"You're getting on my last nerve here, so either shut up and continue or let me take you back to your cell. "

Sore loser.

Both of his hands were formed into tight fists by now and he now showed an expression full of annoyance.

"Fine, fine, let's go again then."

I needed to learn how to hide my thoughts from him especially if I wanted to succeed in my plan.

The second time, I relived the memory of when I first met Finn on Jakku. It was the first time I had made a friend in years or at least as long as I could remember. This time I did my best to shield my thoughts. At first, I didn't feel Kylo reach the memory so I had thought I had succeeded, but only a few seconds later I felt him take it. This was going to be harder than I thought.

Kylo Ren's POV:

We've been training for hours now and I could almost swear that her next attempt was going to be successful. She was learning how to use the force faster than I did. She would soon become stronger than me if I didn't finish my training with Master Snoke.

I didn't notice I had gotten of track until I looked up and saw Rey waiting for my signal to start again. I nodded and she closed her eyes once again and brought forward another memory for me to view.

All her past memories she had shown me up to this point had been of her meetings with other people and a couple fights with other scavengers from Jakku. I was really more interested of seeing one of her alone, I wanted to know more about her, but she neglected me any opportunity of it happening. I knew I shouldn't become closer to her, that it would only make me weak, but there was a part of me that was drawn in by her.

I concentrated back on her memories, and reached out to view the next one. I couldn't see it this time and I fought her hard with the force to view, but she fought back hard as I did. It lasted a few seconds until she couldn't fight any longer and eventually showed me the memory.

This time it was one of her memories from the first time we met. I was reliving the entire moment and experiencing familiar feelings. I could feel the fear and confusion consuming me all over again and then suddenly I forgot all about once I saw her, she was what I needed to be complete. Stop it Kylo, I closed by eyes tighter and returned the memory.

I took a few moments to regain my confidence before speaking, " You're almost there, but something's stopping you from succeeding. You're not trying hard enough because these memories aren't as valuable to you as others so you're not trying as hard as you can to shield them."

"Fine, I'll try harder let's go again."

She was frustrated by now, you could easily tell by how tight her jawline was and on her sweat was beginning to form on her forehead. Herr breathing was also uneasy and fast. This would be the last attempt of today or else she would pass out soon.

She took a deep breath and closed her eyes once more and I repeated her actions. I give her a few seconds before attempting to take the memory. Finally, I attempted taking it, but I was completely blocked out again. I fought her for it and this time I could feel her fighting harder than before. I wanted to see that valuable memory she was hiding from me so I pushed even harder to grasp it. She finally slipped probably since she was already exhausted.

I was in the center of what seemed to be a space craft of some sort and in the corner was sitting a young girl which I supposed was a younger Rey. She wore brown rags and her hair was messily pulled back and her face was covered in dirt.I noticed tears spilling from her eyes on to her cheeks.

"Where are you?" she cried. "I don't want to be alone anymore, you were supposed to come back."

Could it be she was talking about her parents? I remembered that the reason she didn't want to leave Jakku was because she thought someone would come back for her.

She was so small and frail, it hurt me to know she felt abandoned at such a young age. I knew how it felt like to be betrayed and lied to by family and certainly whoever had left her behind caused her the same pain.

"Please," she begged, "Come back."

I wanted to comfort her right then and there. I wanted to promise her that I would always be there to protect her from anything threatened to harm her. I would stand next to her for my entire life, but I couldn't.

I was brought back to reality and faced the same girl only older, but deep sadness surrounded her and she was close to releasing the tears that began forming in the corner of her eyes. She sat next to the wall with her knees hugged tightly into her chest.

"You weren't supposed to see that," she whispered.

I didn't know what to say, I wanted her to know how much I could relate to what she felt.

"I'm sorry," was the only thing I managed to say.

"Yeah whatever,just take me back to the cell, I want to be alone." She stood up and headed towards the door before stopping and waiting for me to follow.

"I know how it feels like to be abandoned," I faintly spoke.

"Lies. Don't you try and empathize with me. You had you're father constantly showing his love for you, but you betrayed him, you abandoned him! And you mother, imagine the pain you caused her when she discovered that you were the reason for your father's death!" Her words cut deep like knives. Sure I abandoned him, but he abandoned me first and my mother. I hadn't thought about my mother at all.

"You don't know the entire story. You only know as much Han Solo told you or what you learned from others, but you do not get to say it was my only fault for ending like this. " I spat out.

"Then tell me the entire story huh?, " she stepped closer towards me until her eyes were locked with mine. " Tell me why you betrayed your parents who loved you with their entire hearts, who would've given anything to bring you back."

"You wouldn't understand." I broke eye contact and hurried out the room. I could her her footsteps following and then suddenly she was trying to get in my head. She was pulling for any sudden memory and took the one of me killing my father. She tried to replay the memory, but I stopped it before she continued.

"Get out of my head!" I shouted.

I turned to face her once more and harshly spoke.

"You will never try to do that again, unless you want to test my temper against your friends, do you understand?"

Her mouth opened slightly, but closed soon and her eyes looked into mine with more hatred and anger than ever before. I ordered the nearest Stormtroopers to take her away since I could barely stand to look at her.

All I wanted was to be alone, to let out this anger,this frustration, this deep sadness that threatened to break out in tears.

I rushed into my own room and slammed the door shut. I wouldn't let anyone see the effect Rey had on me. No could know that she had the power of affecting my emotions. I had to learn to control this before it got out of hand.

I laid down on my bed and allowed one tear at a time to escape. I was afraid. Afraid to dishonor my grandfather, afraid to fail Snoke, afraid to let these feelings for Rey intensify. Rey was right though, if I had decided from the beginning to control my fear and anger, I wouldn't have joined the Dark Side and more importantly I would've never killed my father and feel this enormous guilt I feel right now.

Sorry for the very long time it took me to update, but finals are literally tomorrow for me and I've been so busy studying and making up tests because I missed an entire week of school. It's just been a total pain, but the chapter is finally here! Tell me what you think and vote. I'll try having the next chapter ready by Friday or Saturday.(:

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