Chapter 19- Awake

*Time Skip*It had been afew weeks now. I haven't been to the big world, and I've hardly eaten or slept...not that I ate much anyways. All I had been doing, was visiting Nolan, and organizing his home a bit. Dolls are used to seeing me now, and everyone knows I've changed. The only thing Noone knew, was my feelings for Nolan... "Good morning, Lou" A friendly voice called from a distance. I didn't have to look to know that it was Mandy."Good morning" I called back, while taking big steps, at the same time pressing on afew flowers that I was holding. Afew of the amethyst petals had escaped the boquet and stuck to my signature black, tux. I hummed to myself as a set of  doors split ways, allowing me to pass through. I strolled in, passing a desk, with Dr. VioletRose behind it."Again, Lou? I thought I told you to get rest...you might as well live here if your gonna do this everyday, every hour, every 20 minutes... " She chuckled.I continued walking but did a little turn while responding."Sorry, but I can't dissapoint nolan.. " I turned forward again, after seeing her shake her head with a smile.

I made my way down the hall, passing afew nurses that  had gotten used to my presence. I turned to Nolan's room, and layed the flowers on the small desk." Good morning Mi florecito" I cooed in his ear, and kissed his forehead.

(Nolan's POV )There it was again. His voice. I've been like this for who knows how long. I've been in what seems to be an endless land of... Well, darkness. No matter how much I walk, yell or cry, the darkness is all that I see. I hear a few voices once in a awhile of what seems to be the doctors. I always hear lou's voice, calling me pet names and telling me stories. It's hard to explain, but I could feel it whenever he kissed my hand or ruffled my hair. I felt his gentle kiss on my forehead, I could feel him smiling. It was almost as if I had more senses now. I could tell if someone was smiling or had been crying. Although, Lou hadn't cried yet, some nurses did, so did my friends. "I got you more flowers, they're mostly purple, but there's also a few blue. " he paused for a second, as if waiting for me to respond. I tried calling to him, I tried moving my arm, but nothing worked. His smile faded and his shoulders dropped down as he sighed. "I really miss you, mi amor" He sniffled, while his voice started breaking.'No, no, no... Don't cry' I said looking around, only seeing more darkness.But, he couldn't hear me. No matter how desperately I wanted him to."I'm sorry, but I've kept it in and... I don't know if I can live without you. Please wake up. Please, I need you. I need you as much as I need oxygen... As much as I need my heart to beat... I love you so much"He leaned over my limp body, cuddling me close, while breathing Lightly  in my ear. He held my hands while sitting back up. I felt his warm, soft hands cupping mine . I couldn't bear to hear his cries. I shut my eyes, feeling as though I might cry too. Suddenly it was as if a spark was ignited in me. I felt my fingers wiggle for a second. My actual fingers. "N-Nolan...? " I could feel lou's hopeful eyes watching me. I concentrated again, trying to send some other signal. That was the first time that I had moved in a long time. I felt alive again. I had hope. I searched for that spark, that small flame that caused my fingers to move in a wave-like motion. Lou released my hands, and sighed."It's ok, Nolan. I think I'm just tired, I'm seeing things. " he stood up after kissing my small hands. He gave a sad smile and turned to leave. My heart quickened and felt as if it was burning.He stood in the doorway, facing the hallway. He was hesitating to leave. He could sense something was going to happen. Something I didn't know, myself. I felt the spark again, except it was in my eyes. It kinda stung, but soon after adjusting to the bright, blinding light,I realized that my eyes had opened. I gasped internally, as I smiled at Lou. I tried to talk, but nothing came out. He turned, with his eyes wide, and a smile spreading across his face. He sprinted toward me and nearly body slammed me."NOLAN! YOUR AWAKE !Oh, mi angelito..." he gently pressed me into his chest. He was warm, and he felt safe. He smelled of that spicy, cinnamon Just like I remembered. This time only a few words came out. "... Lou...I'm..ss... you" Lou understood me as he rubbed my head. Talking felt like learning something new. I hadn't done anything with my voice in awhile.

"I missed you too Nolan, so much... Wait here, I need to let Dr. VioletRose know your awake. " he gently laid me back, and skipped out into the hallway. My body slowly wiggled, and seemed to regain the ability to move, one section by one. I practiced words as I blinked and wiggled my toes. It felt good to move, I felt free. I felt alive. Almost instantly, Lou rushed in with Dr. VioletRose. She looked the exact same, if anything her hair was a little longer."Nolan! This is amazing, your awake" She came over and stood next to my bed. She held a clipboard, and checked the machines, while beaming."Alright... Can you talk, yet? ""Y-ye-yes"She nodded and wrote something on the clipboard.She held up 4 fingers and asked me how many."F-foor" She and lou giggled abit at my pronunciation. I gave a weak smile back."Well, besides his speech, he's doing  pretty well. Would you like to see if you can walk, Nolan? "I nodded my head in anticipation. Lou stood beside the bed, and held his hands out for me. I reached my arm over my body slowly, and tugged the blankets away. I swung my legs to the edge of the bed, noticing that I was wearing a faded teal hospital gown that went down to my knees , I felt the cool air on my legs.'Am I wearing just my briefs with this? ' I asked myself.I reached for lous hands, while looking into his blue eyes that seemed to dazzle. I slid of the bed, using his arms for support. Slowly, one step at a time, I gained speed."Very good, Nolan. Usually it takes coma patients days to fully recover... But you seem completely fine. You might actually be able to go home later today. " I simpered, releasing a small, almost inaudible chuckle. Lou's eyes shined as I sat back on the bed." I'll be back, alright Nolan? "I nodded, as she left me and lou alone. Lou sat on the bed, close to me. I adjusted my gown, so it covered my knees. I felt so exposed, self conscious even. " So... How are you? How are you feeling? " Lou asked me. I turned to face him. I could almost read his mind, as he wouldn't stop staring at my lips. If I'm being honest, I too glanced at his afew times. All I wanted was to just, let him kiss me, and keep me in his embrace. "Um , I'm.. F-Fine thanks... H-how are ye-you? ""I'm great now that your awake... " he lifted my chin, so that our eyes met, in a deep trance. He leaned forward and so did I. After seconds of silence our lips finally met.*warning: A little bit of Smut*He leaned in closer, which caused me to fall back onto the soft, white pillow. His body went over mine, as our lips never parted. He positioned himself perfectly, and cupped my cheek with his hands, pulling me closer to him. I lifted my knee, which rubbed his groin a little, causing him to blush a bright red."Oh, needy, are we? " He asked seductively. His hand went inside my gown, and he rubbed my torso. He softly grinded on top of me asHe kissed my jawline and my neck, with each gentle peck, giving me the urge to moan. I tried to keep quiet"L-Lou... Not here...Ah... Lou.. "

*Smut is done... For now*"Your right, mi florecitó. But I'm finishing this later" He got off of me and helped me sit up. My body was weak, but somehow he made me feel even weaker. We sat close beside each other, while he pulled me close with his arm around my neck to my shoulder. I laid my head on his shoulder as he started humming a familiar song. It's one that I've heard before... Somewhere."What song is that? ""It's called Te Robare. It's the original song where ox got the password for the portal. " He smiled lovingly, and kissed my forehead.I blushed and looked at the ground.

"Well, look at this... " Me and lou jumped as we heard a voice in the doorway. We turned our heads towards the voice. We both sighed in relief. It was just Dr. VioletRose. "Are you two a thing? " she approached us with a straight face. I couldn't tell if she didn't approve or not. "N-no not right now... " Lou's voice trialed off. A ball of guilt weighed on my shoulders. That's when I remembered that I never answered his question. "Um.. .I-Ignore him... W-We are t-together" I struggled to speak, but I got it out. The room went silent. My heart beat out of its chest. 'Was that the wrong thing to say? 'I thought to myself. Lou blushed while smiling at me. As if he knew what I meant. Dr. VioletRose instantly smiled big"I knew it... With all those visits, it was hard to believe that you were just a friend..Or even a best friend... " She smirked at Lou, which caused him to blush a little. He looked so cute with his shades of pink and red. "Also, you look adorable together " she finished. I smiled big, while Lou continued to blush. She held out a paper. "Anyways, Lou... You'll be taking care of him, right? " Lou nodded while checking my expression for approval. "Well, just sign this, and your both free to go" She handed him a paper and pen with her clipboard (Which seemed to appear out of nowhere). After reading for a few seconds, he scribbled words and his signature. The way he wrote, was magical. Perfect. His words were so clear and well placed. His signature was an L with a little curvy line underneath. "Thankyou" Dr. VioletRose beamed after receiving the paper from Lou. She looked over it and smiled even bigger. "Everything looks good. Your free to go" Lou chuckled as he slid off the bed, and placed his hands in front of me for support. I placed my hands in his, while slipping down. Even though, I've felt him before, his touch seemed to still make me blush uncontrollably. He seemed to notice as he gave me a seductive look. VioletRose led the way for us, leading us to a bathroom first. "Here are your clothes, Nolan. Feel free to change""Um, tankyou" I said sheepishly.

After changing into my normal clothes, she lead us to the exit doors. "If you ever need anything, come back OK? " she bent down a little so we could make eye contact. She grabbed something out of her pocket and handed it to me. It was a small green lollipop. 'Wow I guess I'm a kid in everyone's eyes' I thought to myself. But I also, still loved lollipops. " I'm so proud of you, Nolan " she finished with a genuine smile. That's the only moment where I realized that she was also taller than me. I stuttered a little trying to talk. "Thank you, Dr. VioletRose " Lou thanked her,for me. "Oh, please,now that your all better, you can call me by my first name-Serene. " "Serene VioletRose... that's a beautiful name" Lou smiled while he gripped my hand. I nodded in agreement. She hugged us both and we said our goodbyes. We walked on the sidewalks slowly, as I still used Lou for support, while gripping my lollipop, which still had the plastic wrapper on it. "Lou? ""Yes? ""What h-h-happened w-with Nathan? And n-Nick? ""Well, convieniantly, they went on a vacation to someplace hot. ""In the m-mittle of the s-school year? "'Dangit, how embarrassing' I snapped at myself. He chuckled at my pronunciation. "Some people do that" he shrugged. It was silent for a moment,until I had one other question. "What about m-Micheal? " Lou seemed to freeze. "Um, well... When he fell... He.. Didn't make it. You know how fragile we are here, in the institute. "It was true. In the institute, it's almost as if we are humans. With blood, and bones... Fragile. In the big world, we are made of stuffing, string and material, which could be fixed or sewn. I looked down at my feet as we continued to walk. In the silence, my mind had remembered something that I didn't want to know, but also did... Something disturbing and unsettling. A certain deal that I had made... "L-Lou? ""Si, mi angelito? ""Um, did T-Tuestay ever boter you? When I was asleep ? ""....... "